Saturday, January 29, 2005

finally my fever has broken -_-!

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:47:00 PM

sick.
sicksicksicksick.

being sick suxsuxsuxsux.

argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:42:00 AM

Friday, January 28, 2005

weird having japanese language settings on my comp. now a lot of things i see are in japanese muahaha. i'll get used to it.

btw today for the very first time, japanese class was a TORTURE.
i kept shivering cos i was freezing. think i was having high fever.
argh~
heng dad was at jurong west so i ditched the last tutorial and went home.
>_<
think my brain is fried.
can't think can't type can't talk properly. x_X

and today was so cold that my fingernails turned a weird color and i got finger cramp from the cold and lack of circulation.
zzzzz.

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:55:00 AM

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

yucks la.
i'm feeling ill T_T
anyway jes wants me to blog, so i'll just post a rubbishy post today.
brain not feeling coherent x_X

today i made an observation. aunties think i'm working and small kiddies (maybe below 10) think i'm either working or married. x_X;
eeeeeek. now i'm wondering if i look too old or not x_X!

maybe it's just the perception of people their age XD

today in toa payoh hdb hub got two stupid people approach me.
one indian one chinese. suddenly went in front of me and blocked my path, and the conversation was like:

Indian guy: sorry miss, we're not trying to scare you (takes out laminated certificate. btw cert looks like a cheap xeroxed copy. could be anything) we're police...
Chinese guy: *nods*
Me: (police after me? want to search my bag? too much rubbish in there, will take 10000 years to search through -_-! i hate police)
IG: *monotone* there are many disabled kids who need your help, just a small donation of $2 or $4 will do. *trying to inject humor that came across as stupid* did my story touch you?
Me: *deadpans* No?
IG: Just give a little bit *takes out those stupid suspicious coupons* for the disabled people like me...
Me: (doesn't look disabled to me. another lame attempt at a joke?)
CG: yea, you see my eyes different colors
Me: (WA LAME AR. CONTACTS LOH I NOT BLIND OK I LOOK BLUR BUT I'M NOT STUPID =_=!)
IG: so how about it? just $2 or $4?
Me: Sorry, could i donate another day?
IG: Why another day when you can donate today?
Me: Sorry I can't.
IG: Well thank you. (pissed off look while his eyes roam the street behind me for another potential target)
CG: *smile and shrug*
Me: *smiles at CG sympathetically and walks off*

=_____=;;
weirdos. don't even look or behave like policemen. if you were sincere show some sincerity. you look as if you just lost out on making a quick buck outta me. -_-! zzzz. lamer fakers. zzzzz. cmi.
but eh, his contacts are nice. can i gouge out his eyes? XDDD

then later i met an obaasan at bengawan solo intersection there. she asked me where the pasar malam was. i pointed her to it and walked and chatted to her. much nicer than those $^$^*$%#%&#
lmao.
i realised these few days the information counter /helpdesk syndrome is plaguing me again. not that it's a bad thing. lmao. maybe i should have threatened those guys with calling of the police to verify their identities. lalalala =D but nah. oh damn. it's my blessing (in a way) that i'm selfish to strangers XDDD

oh i got my sis the astronomy dictionary. 3rd one in the stack had a $7 price tag on it (as opposed to the $8 one on the rest O__o)
i took it by chance then realised it was $1 cheaper =O
cos the first one was dirty and the second was dogearred. lmao.
oh well. 12.5% discount~~~~~ XDDD

i thought i was suffering from motion sickness when in fact the whole time i was suffering from fever. -_-! no wonder so queasy. argh..... feel sick. fuck.
k i go print email then i koonz. fuck haven't do the shit yet. fuck fuck fuck.
fucking dead LA. somemore tomorrow 530 end school. think i'll spontaneously combust.

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:40:00 PM

Monday, January 24, 2005

egao dewa arimasen.

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:48:00 PM

muahahaha i ponned lect!
ok i'm a bad girl. tomorrow i'd prolly do it again to... CUT MY HAIR!
wahahha.
ok gtg bathe and go for 10am lect. bb!


...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:52:00 AM

expressing my frustrations.


=3 koneko chan!

i should blog about today but too sleepy now =(
think i blog tomorrow morning. shall wake up early.
yea.


...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:36:00 AM

msn sucks! unstable connections whole day! knn cannot even discuss project!
school sucks! give us stupid things to do that we don't even know how to do!
edventure sucks! won't let me download lecture notes!
ntu email sucks! doing scheduled backup so i cannot retrieve email!
i suck! cannot prioritize and i'm a big fat lazy and ugly fuck!

gah everything sucks!


...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:30:00 AM

Sunday, January 23, 2005

btw after that long and needless rant. i'd like to say:

happy 20th bdae auyong bro!
(=

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:33:00 AM

i'm in a suxxy mood.

dunno how to describe it. only know it's suxxy. pissed and depressed and worried and everything all rolled up into one. doesn't help that i'm having indigestion now. note to self. please eat when you're hungry or don't eat at all. cos if you eat when the hunger has become hunger aches (pain is too strong a word la) then it equates to indigestion.

ok, that aside, i have a project to think of. fuck no time to think. got other things going on and everything's so messy. dammit la so fucked. and tired now so how to do research? maybe later i do some anyhow research to at least dredge some crap out of my dead and pounded to death mind. argh fuck projects. at least individual project i have only myself to blame and i only affect myself, so it's ok. but group projects are more delicate, with a more or less fixed schedule for things to be done otherwise the whole group's gonna be fucked cos of a single group member. that's me, btw. argGHh.

ANOTHER thing.

FUCK IT LA. SO KNN FAT. MY ARMS ARE FUCKING DIMPLED. SO EFFING UNSIGHTLY OH FUCK. better go exercise dammit! FUCK FUCK FUCK! was so fucking depressed over this when i left my house today. so fucking flabby. fuck it LA. hate myself. so ugly and fat -.-! really shouldn't be in CS. ARGH. and although criticized people who wear like those typical chiobu.. short hipster flare skirt and nice loop earrings and nice hair and nice tight top... i have to admit that i harbor some hope that i can be like that. but since the Ought self has been destroyed - no, shattered - into many many tiny self-imploding (much like a broken dream on the boulevard, so as to borrow a quote) impaling shards, then what more my Ideal self? fuckkkkkk.

worried about a friend too. hope everything's all right.
actually, that concern's the most important. the one about myself, it's just bullshit that i go through every now and then. maybe i'm in another phase of low self esteem again. then again, nothing to go rah-rah about. happens so frequently. even while feeling like a piece of crap shit i can still laugh and joke and smile. so wtf? just deal with it. only psychological shit. i'll come to terms with it sooner or later.

so disappointed with myself also.

not a good friend (cos i don't know how to be one)
not a good student (too fucking lazy)
not a good communicator (fucking going into isolation)
not a good daughter (for many other reasons)
not even a good online friend (i ignore too many people for maplestory)
not even a good gamer (no patience, distracted, never achieve leveling goal, sometimes ignore everyone)
not a good contributor (no fucking ideas from my DEAD BRAIN)

fuck.
time to buy myself a new life.

any on sale?

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:06:00 AM

Thursday, January 20, 2005

omg i am still awake
you know why?
was dling maplestory music and wallpapers and browsing screenshots lmao
wow high levels very zai T_T can't wait. T_T
OSSYRIA HURRY COME OUT T___T
so cool jms cms and kms are. gms and sgmsiathaims so SUX
HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

XD

see? i told you guys. i'm a maple addict omfg.
T_T

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:07:00 AM

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

here, just as i promised. =D

Boulevard Of Broken Dreams

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:53:00 PM

haha once again i've abandoned my blog for a very long time. let's see.. what have i been doing.. maplemaplemapleschooleatsleepmaplemaplemapleschooleatsleep repeat.
wahahaha. ok that was lame. i haven't done any assignments yet. just did a lot of bo liao stuff. and i also watched naruto and burned some cds.
finally got my ipod mini. singnet sux. but after all the shit they gave a free ethernet modem. so now i'm connected at 100mbps XD but my speed is only 1.5 =( ipodm's silver. same as mu's. they're getting married! they're betrothed already XD
these days i like have no life. wandering around like a pig zombie looking half stoned and dead tired. and i'm sleeping in lectures. wa cannot make it. oh i love the new green day album <3
the only thing that kept me awake today was the discovery of a coursemate surfing maplestory website. lmao. then i went to talk to her. XD wahahaha. siao liao. i'm maplemad. i dream of maple eat sleep breathe maple friends all maple talk also maple. 24/7 maple. kaoz. soon i will turn into a mushroom x_X
sux jes went offline and i couldn't say night to her T_T
hai sian 1130pm and it feels like 2am. why so sux? good thing is fri no school so after tomorrow i can sleep like a pig~ my favorite hobby. not much interest in maple. it's so sianz. i cannot find items. T_T how the fuck do i earn 47m...... haiZ. rotting man. today nothing dropped. wahahaha see what i said about being a maple addict? talking about maple again. whole life maple. wtf.
anyway today the only lesson i didn't sleep in was political studies =D
what to do? it's fun. hehe. i like it. provokes thought promotes discussion and probs intellectual thought. wahaha intellectual me. =X i must go do my readings. so lazy. someone snap me outta the slacking mode!!!
heng i'm not the only one who is slacking. i found out got more ppl slacking =X hehehehehehe. *hops around* ok shall slack finish this week, maybe next week start. maybe~~~~~

help help i'm addicted to music. i love my ipodm. i want a pouch to keep it in so i can bring my music out with me T_T lmao today i went home alone T_T so lonely but i enjoyed it. listen to the silence and monotonous buzzing of background sound. i can hear myself think. it's good. was thinking of how to exploit people and other crap. i think too much. better not think too much else i will be distracted again =X
btw two of my guy friends are love sick especially since vdae is 3 weeks away. wahahhaa. vdae sux. i shall spend it with my zhui ai, maplestory!!! XD
haha no la. but i'll spend it like how i spend every day. maybe i'll go reconcile my relationship with my textbooks =X

next is track 4, boulevard of broken dreams. lmao. i love green day!!!! song kept going through my head during lecture. i cannot stand it!!!!!!!!!! dying! i need that song 24/7! LMAO~

i think later i post the lyrics.

should i go for a free hair cut and dye? thing is i'll be a hairstylist's assessment piece. lmao. then must go for evaluation on 6th feb. hmm i'm skeptical. anyone got more details? sculli they dye my hair weird color lmao
but ok la. in my course (CS) anything goes. i might end up with a punk hairstyle that suits me =D
hehe.

must go ask auyong for more details. =/ worried about hair. so thick and cmi. lmao.
now look better but beginning to be shaggy again. XD
wanna be hip!!!!!!!
maybe i shall walk around ntu during breaks for exercise! yes, i wanna walk everywhere~

today i walked from north spine to south.and back. cos i got too much time to kill lmao. 8 minutes slow walk. eh so sian. so fast. -.- half hour can or not? maybe i should walk to nie and back to cs there lmao. should be half an hour ba. XD or 20-25min slow walk. ahahahs.

speaking of nie, i bought a bag from the bazaar stall there. the lady selling very nice and very zai. her materials from japan and she handmade. oh shiat reminds me i haven't do japanese hw yet. =X sure die. lmao. nvm. XDDDDDD sian i wanna sleep
all i wanna is sleep. x_X

wow you know some people actually look like their occupation. met sk's friend a diver in ns today. he really looks like a diver sia. i can imagine him in those fins, and oxygen tank and the diving suit. O_o'
lmao~

and kl very cute. today she very tired during lect. XD she keep complaining but she stayed awake la. hehe. i finally know the true meaning of anarchy! it sounds so... controversial. but actually it's a concept that many of us put into practice a lot unconsciously. hehe. =) maybe i'm sorta like middle of the road with all these different schools of thought from the philosophers.
still considering if i should minor in psych, lit or soc. hehe. but i wanna do japanese until level 3! =D lit sounds fun leh. T_T soc i heard is hard. and i also wanna try psych leh. but sk says he keeps sleeping during the 2 hour lect lmao. wahaha so sian ar. =(

SIGH! I WANT MOEHOG!
SOMEONE GET A MOEHOG FOR ME THANKS~ XD~

skeptical about next sem. haiz. dunno how i'll react and stuff. but as long as i have kl, gh, sk, co and pt i'll be happy~ ^3^ yeah~~~~~` hmm, what to eat tml...?

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:24:00 PM

Thursday, January 13, 2005

lol i just had to go to jes' blog before i go to bed to listen to the song =X
okaes. bed time!!!!!!
^_^

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:54:00 AM

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

wa sian i'm really tired. so many typos and errors in the previous post lol!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:44:00 AM

i can't help it, i love jes too much. i must go to her blog every day (and hear the song =x) and suan her (oops) and have blog war with her XD

Si dith dith! What cockroach nails -.-! I did french manicure this time ^^ Sophisticated Jes ^^

so last time was really stick cockroach on your fingers ar? then this time? stick on those cockroaches from france? =O omg! don't touch me! eeeee

FUCK YOU! I'm down with love =X

jes always got same sickness one. heh. you and lucifex both afflicted le! kns!!!!

l0l! The songs I played on my blog usually pwnz!

is i intro you to Like A Stone last time hor. hehehe.

jes jes i want wedges~~~`

lol. the school registration system is so effing kns. i like the japanese g3 teacher, she's so kawaii!! =( sad if i have to attend the 5-7 one. not that the teacher is not kawaii. but she's not my type. and hence not as kawaii. i'll be heartbroken! besides my friends are there =(
i met a foreign student from minesotta (can't spell -.-) today. she's taking Civil Engin and CHinese and Japanese. =o she's quite chio. i like her voice, but i think she might have korean roots. hmm. looks like an ang mo chinese.

4 hours break. geez. strolled to NIE and ate there. then i went to practice my japanese writing. haha i sux. i write like shit!!!!! =( sad.

oh ya. wanted to mention this. some people are so overzealous and overfriendly and erh. scary la! -.-' appeared outta nowhere and put his face close and was like OH IT'S DITH! then proceeded to shake my shoulders like DITH DITH!! Zomg. -.-'

i actually slept standing leaning against the glass panal in the mrt today. -.-' wa siao. aiyah sianz. sian day~!!!!!!rotting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! forgot to do reaearch cos was mapling~!!!! ARGH ROTTING! ok please go sleep now.

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:32:00 AM

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

just read jes' blog. hahaha cockroach nails again. so gross. and lovesick over dunno which guy now huh. i'm damn confused. you got so many guys you are lovesick over i lost count and lost track le.

btw i FRICKING love that song on your blog. it pwnz! so do send the mp3 or whatnot to me when you next see me online k. =D

btw all my friends said seed of chucky SUX!!!!!!
jes sux!

she is the seed of a ducky!
quackquack!

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:47:00 AM

i'm too fucking cold...
i'm too fucking pissed...
i'm too fucking sick...
i'm too fucking addicted...
i'm too fucking lost...

aw fuck.
just get me outta here.

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:06:00 AM

Saturday, January 08, 2005

hi dear blog! i ignored you again. oh well.
i just cannot stop playing maplestory, even if i have no mesos left to buy pots. it's just so fun killing tauromacises and mushmoms. but i can't totally kill them yet because i still fear them. maybe i'll get to them by level 65 or so. i'm finally level 60! hehe. i've left all those level 50+ asses behind and on my way to 1337ness. even mushmom doesn't scare me anymore. stupid mushmom, who is afraid of you? every day i see many people killing your kind. hahaha. tauros too. i guess what's left is taurospears and the jr balrog -.-'
actually i could train at the mushmom map. i'll only use 3 unagis per mom or less as i improve my technique. iron hogs hit me for only 1 dmg, and their hooves can be made into refined steel. hmm. dunno la. or i could train at wild cargo's area. they're so cute, just don't knock them back because they look horrible, yucks!
i just realised just every sentence here is in relation to maplestory. -.- can you guys see what a devout gamer i am? maplestory is my religion -.-
school has started. another semester, new modules. i need to dig up some controversy or find some questions that stimulate my braincells. topic is Environmentalism. or something like that. i must check Edventure tonight. -.- but now i wanna play maple, and the fucking printer pisses me off. spoolsv keeps taking up 99cpu and lagging my comp. everytime i want to print, i have to delete the shd files -.-; luckily i have process guard running. i can block programs from running. but i won't block maple! =D even if i do, i can always unblock it right. so what's the use. -.-; i'm thinking of playing Gate To Heaven or Rose. kinda sick of maple. but i will only do that when i'm level 70 on maple. then i'll be a good girl and wait for Ossyria to come. what has happened to me? suddenly such a gaming freak.
my uncle bought a comp yesterday at courts. argh the comp is so 1337, i can forsee myself playing many many games on it if i had it -.-; but it's his. well, i will teach him and expose him to a lot of multimedia so as to maximise his computer. and he stays in JE, so it's very near ntu. XD time to enhance family ties with my uncle! XD XD XD
my dad is obsessed with speakers. yesterday he kept saying he wants speakers for my uncle's comp. personally i think they're a waste of money. what you want is not sound but graphics! hahaha. because everything is so visual these days. it's true. we have gravitated back to the visual era. actually i think i'll keep some of my readings from semester 1. the information actually retains in my brain. -.-! miracle. but i cannot forget these things. because all the modules are interlaced and will lead on to the next. i need to carry all this information with me throughout these 4 years. because not only we will be continuing to enhance this information with more information, we will go indepth and expound upon the past things we have learnt.
i can see the future. i see that i'll spend a lot of money and become very poor. i'll be a poorly dressed old maid / divorcee with a crowded and messy house. i spend far too much money on toys. -.-! especially now this gacha shop has opened in JP. so expensive but it compells me to buy. because! the capsule goodies are so cute. AND it's so fun to buy their slit coins and put it into the machine. WTF!!!!!!! SOMEONE SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

btw mu, they got very cute maomao keychains in the capsules. =) i can show you the one i got =D
=3
and the mouth is really like =3
XDDDD

i've been hugging mushmom and tauros until i smell of them. YUCKS! i think it's time to go camp with cargos and cold eyes. =D
(maplestory references again -.-)

REMINDER TO SELF. PRINT NOTES TONIGHT AND DOWNLOAD NARUTO IF ANBU RELEASES THEIRS.
RESEARCH ON OP-ED PIECE AND READ YOUR BOOK: POLITICAL THOUGHT. READ PAPERS and DO MY OTHER READINGS!

-.-!

btw jes, i wanna go back nyp and visit you! and that lucifex has a new ingame gf. =X
it's easy to get guys in maplestory. XD because my character is so 1337 and chio. everyone naturally wants to know me. XD
x.x the "plzplzplz attack" -.-;

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:22:00 PM

Monday, January 03, 2005

wow. jes flooded her blog with crap while i was playing maplestory like a freak. all that playing and i'm only level 58.65 BEHIND SCHEDULE! and i'm sick. wow kudos to me. school's finally opening tomorrow. i'll get to see all of my friends but it's sad because we'll be in different tutorials. oh well. tomorrow is an ultra long day from 830am to 630pm. because of the stupid class in the evening. AHH SHIT. and it's a lecture so i can't go home. yes, i will not skip any lesson. and i haven't so far. only cs106 lectures last sem (2) because they were useless. hehe. and mass pon some more. so not my fault. modules this sem are really shitty. CR BMW Singapore Society. but we have PR and pol. studies and my GE japanese. lol. although it's a very shitty timetable, it's only for 13 weeks. DITH YOU CAN DO IT!
sigh, wonder how it will be like when i'm flooded with projects. fuckadammit. it's kinda a love-hate thing. when i finish a project i feel so high but when i'm doing it i feel so SICK. haiz.
my pig's so cute! maybe i'll bring it to owl's hall. =D
won't use my new bag tomorrow because we only need to bring pen and paper. haiz. once again, school begins. tis a new year and a new sem. hectic hectic. and i don't know how i'll last tomorrow for i'm ill. well, we'll see! off to bed now. night peeps!

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:49:00 AM