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eh wtf 8 ppl saw me on tv mobile le. where to hide my face ah!!
1) su jian
2) jessie
3) alvin (he saw me thrice)
4) xiaojun
5) marcus
6) xue fen
7) uncle
8) darran di
argh... until i even had a hard time recalling who saw me. LOL!
sian.
when will they stop showing it!!!!!!
x_x
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:38:00 PM
=( mom and sis watching ch55 as usual.. some korean show argh... can't play =(
i am like so uber SIAN of work and research. i actually sat down for 4hours plus and nearly completed Thierry Henry's full profile (minus decisive moment. gonna scour newspaper archives for that later) and his print material search left to do. did Grant Hackett's career highlights search. well that was easy but dunno how detailed they want. anyway i dunno le. headache!!!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:20:00 PM
qn to ponder:
should we pursue our own happiness or wait for it to come find us?
thoughts and comments pls!
i go slp le night~~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:09:00 AM
anyway today going reunion dinner le. haha..
gong xi fa cai all!
hong bao na lai!
gimme all~~~
happy chinese new year ^^
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:24:00 AM
mom: "dun tell me neighbors really bought a dog for yr of the dog?"
me: "haha mayb la. den next yr.. yr of the pig right? they will buy a pig"
mom: "yr of dragon they buy dragon ah?"
diao.. it made mu laugh until peng. ahaha. after mu laff until peng den i started to laff, then mom laffed. ahhaa delayed reaction siaz.
yawn very very slpy!!!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:50:00 AM
*throw away everything and just slacks*
XD~
orh ya it's amazing what a nice encouraging sms can do! esp on a long ass day like friday. hehe. made me smile ^^
what a thoughtful sms =D
=))
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:25:00 PM
no time for myself
no time to breathe
no time to sleep
no time to rest
no time to play kh2
no time to relax
no time to eat
no time to chat
no time to read
no time to live.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:27:00 AM
aRGhHHHhhh
z_z
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:06:00 AM
eh no la. but 1cm thick size 9 font eh damn walaoz how the fuck do i finish it by thurs. argh argh argh.
*kills self*
*becomes a reading machine*
z_z
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:10:00 AM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:40:00 AM
everyone offline
and tucked into bed
many things crowding
into the tiny space of my mind
assignments left to tomorrow
bed beckons
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:28:00 AM
i hate jap class cos of those 3 RETARDS. seems nearly EVERYONE ELSE shares the same sentiments. HAHA!
i want to kill that noisy girl also! the other time she was sitting BEHIND me! walao nearly go deaf. FUCKING LOUDSPEAKER lol.
ok ok enough ranting about jap class. looks like i'm not the only one having problems with jap class. sk also having some problems in his JCS jap class ahahaha.
think now cyn still at her BSB concert lolz. yawn yawn tomorrow got filming for our first video assignment sigh sigh hope it goes ok. imma die soon got nth to wear also lolololol rotz.
television not in use today. ho hum.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:28:00 PM
(updated Jan 24 0200hrs)
1) 221 written assignment
2) 221 video assignment
3) oak3 work (thierry henry profile)
4) jap hw (backdated)
5) 212 readings (i'm the panelist this wk! panic! lolz. rightttt.)
6) get pirated copy of 221 txtbk
7) do 217A readings
8) do 203 readings
9) figure out what 221 readings there are and do them also
10) play kh2 (whee sora~)
11) buy plastic dvd cases and file to put games in
12) go esprit buy that shirt -_-
13) buy cny clothes
14) sleep more
15) do 203 worksheet
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finally finished that cs221 written assignment on the ear thermometer story. lol. i can't believe after agonizing over it for so freaking long (machiam constipation), i actually ENJOYED doing it! ahahahaa. ok hhaa i am proud of it LOL.
madness.
met my deadlines =) once again, by the final tether of the thread. ho hum.
cannot la, this is really cutting it too close. hahaha.
tomorrow long day. 1030 - 1930. but not that bad la. hehe. let's hope that i will eventually get used to long days. this whole week damn busy. gonna be damn tired. eh i am damn awake now though. caffeinated i think. drank cappucino milk tea today in sch ahaha. coffee is goooood @_@ but made my mouth dry and gave me coffee breath z_Z which is not good. eeks. but i am so freaking wide awake. oh ya, i like taiwan chicken with the plum powder and pepper and chilli. whee~ it's nice!! ahahah. need more =D~~~ mu let's go eat when you fully recover!! one packet each! hehe.
television set has risen in status. became a television set with teletext. how's that for interactivity huh? hahaha. become a sort of place for daily updates and the outpouring of woes. not that i mind anyway. quite used to it.
eh did i mention how much i dislike multilevel marketing? please. if you work in mlm, do not try and rope me in. z_z today bruce called me then i thought dunno wAd why suddenly wan meet up. actually he wan tell me about mlm and rope me in. ironically he works for Venture Era. where jessie works too. and she is a BM and car achiever now. flying high eh she.
high flyer.
outlier.
building spire.
SPLAT.
after she became a marketing machine and spokeswoman for those mattresses, i fear talking to her will only make her try to rope me in and/or talk about nothing but her job.
please eh. sometimes you should keep work and play separate. and yes i haven't gotten over her birthday incident.
anyways. moving on to happier stuff.
i was so tickled when grace called me up today sounding so MORTIFIED! ahahaha it really rattles the funny bone. text messages can be such a bane and such a boon at the same time eh? lolz.
hrm. let's see.
tml - late sch / do 221 2nd PTC script
wed - video shoot till late + celebration
thu - geisha moobie!!
fri - hitching a ride home with fish meat lolz
sat - off to relative's house i go for reunion
sun, mon, tue, wed - rest. rest. rest. rest. with the exception of wednesday - might go back sch and edit 221 video. but that's quite relaxing ahahaa. maybe watch a movie one of those days or something too with zhi qiang. ho hum. hope he don't use too much medical jargon else i will x_x
time to force my caffeinated brain and body to sleep. school tml!!
p/s: was spotted by juan today. she saw me talking on tv mobile -_- yucks it's airing so soon lol hope they take it off asap. hahaha.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:56:00 AM
one day, a boy won some prize money for his good results. he had enough, it seemed, for a portable battery-operated television set. skipping happily to his neighborhood electrical shop, he picked out the set he wanted and paid the ahpek in crisp fifty dollar notes. it was green, and it fitted in the palm of his hand. a bit dusty and scuffed up from sitting on the shelf for so long; but he got a discount, so what the hell anyway!
it took a prime spot in his room, sitting on his table beside his computer. he undid the packing of his newly purchased double A alkaline batteries, popped it into his new gadget, and powered it up.
the pictures were bright and dazzling, he sat there and scanned through the channels; and although the miniature pictures hurt his eyes, before he knew it, the afternoon had turned into night and it was dinnertime.
click.
he switched it off and ran downstairs to eat, leaving the television sitting blankly on his cold wooden desk in his dark bedroom. it was forgotten for the night.
the next day, he brought it along for his lesson. the journey on the mrt was long and boring, so he decided to watch some cartoons. light hearted happy fun. nothing beats mindless entertainment! lesson began and ended, and he watched cartoons again on the mrt ride home. however, when he reached home, he got engrossed in a game and forgot to turn it off.
fzzt.
the batteries died.
for the next couple of days it was left forgotten, sitting darkly on his table behind a pile of books and games. the battery had begin to leak. (he bought those cheap brandless batteries) it wasn't until he was clearing his table and discovered a wet patch of a chemical spill on an old worksheet that he remembered his mini television set.
hurriedly, he cleaned it and dumped the batteries, replacing them with new ones that his mother had gotten for him.
the colors were as bright as ever, the pictures just as vivid.
it kept him entertained. but only for a while.
the television soon travelled everywhere with him, and he used it to pass the time when he was alone and bored. but as soon as his friends came or a game or a book caught his attention, the television would be cast aside once more.
many battery changes and near-alkaline-leaks later, the television set was growing tired of its life. was it merely an entertainment vehicle with no other value? the owner so detached and distant despite the constant attention during boredom?
so that very day, when the boy wanted to pass his time on the mrt before his lessons, the television stood up and chided the boy.
"no more tv for you", it said, coughing out the batteries and casting them out of the window. then, blankly, it wobbled and fell on its side.
it knocked against a stand of pens and pencils, and as the stand toppled over, it knocked the television to the edge of the table where it fell and the screen cracked.
the boy was shocked and taken aback. his television! now what would he do without a source of entertainment!?
the broken tv set lay in the trash, waiting for the refuse truck to take it to jurong. the boy had gone back to life without the tv set, and it seemed nothing had changed. he thought nothing of the tv set. he remembered nothing.
the tv set was forgotten.
it would remain forgotten forever, as it was progressively buried under trash.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:50:00 AM
sing a song of rotting
rotting all the time~
done with 203 assignment. fuck it liao le. haha. haven't fucked around with 221 yet.
think i should put down a To-Do list else i forget everything.
1) 221 written assignment
2) 221 video assignment (grp)
3) oak3 work (thierry henry profile)
4) jap hw (backdated)
5) 212 readings (i'm the panelist this wk! panic! lolz. rightttt.)
6) get pirated copy of 221 txtbk
7) do 217A readings
8) do 203 readings
9) figure out what 221 readings there are and do them also
10) play kh2 (whee sora~)
11) buy plastic dvd cases and file to put games in
12) go esprit buy that shirt -_-
13) buy cny clothes
14) sleep more
15) dunno do wAd le
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:26:00 AM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:58:00 PM
still got assignments left to do. wonder if i can finish them on time and do them properly or not. wan to die liao. anyway, i also dunno wAd we're doing for tml's proj discussion also. sianz. so fast monday's around the corner. dammit. more exhausted than ever man. no time to even do stuff for my job. wahaha fucked man! but they never email me... ho hum. nvm job stuff i can probably pia in a day or two. sigh. what if their email didn't get through to me? paranoid again. bleah.
xiang tong le. i'm just an entertainment vehicle. ahahaha. like why people watch tv. bored, click, switch it on. bored of it. click, switch it off. the screen darkens and goes black.
fadetoblack.
i'm just like your average 20 inch tv. diposable, dispensable. very useful to kill boredom, but distanced. an entertainment vehicle. haha, and the best thing is, when you're on the move, click. i'm there too! i'm tv mobile! technology does wonders. only i'm your customized, personalized handy tv. i come in various forms. sms, msn, face to face... but still i am but your average 20 inch tv.
haha.
ironic. laugh my cynical laugh and get my ass to the bathroom.
gtg out. again. tiring.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:30:00 AM
anyway, bought some stuff, decided on a present, ran some errands, talked some rubbish, talked some sense and went home.
i like mu's new jacket >_< it's so... dunno how to describe it. but so chio so chio.. hahaha!
sian my ass too big i think. can't wear shorts -_-" ok time to jian fei!! haiz.
got 3 assignments to rush. should i carry out a long and perilous soliloquy on my blog or churn out a news article for 203? anyway. you know me best. i'd rather blog. hahah!
was pondering on the idea of 'friendships' before i went out. is it a mutual thing or one-sided? i thought if 2 people felt a bond between them, it is mutual and it is a friendship. what if 1 person feels a bond? it's funny for the person on the other side. they don't feel anything but suddenly out of the blue the other party is like quite concerned for them, chats to them... like they have a close friendship. do i take things for more than what they actually are? it's weird you know.
maybe i exude the impression that i also treat them as good friends, not those hi-bye kind. maybe they wanna form a stronger friendship with me. maybe they like being around me o_O" don't think that's possible lol. anyway, it's funny la! feels weird.
although they were both my project mates, but not very close leh. ok la, closer to one then she's liddat one. another... really out of the blue one. so funny... wondering... she's straight right? LOL see i think too much -_-" anyway nvm, i myself not very straight. can always work things out one. she quite chio leh =) quite class. =) not bad ^^
we're a bunch of eccentrics =D i like my eccentric buddies! whee~~
running out of steam. although i had quite a few thoughts on my mind, they were all expressed verbally just now lol. raining now... feel damn nua like dowan do work..
sleep! slack! stone!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:17:00 PM
maybe i feel so distant that i don't know friendship when i see it.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:05:00 AM
mon - rotz but not v bad cos got company
tue - rotz cos long dae but also got company
wed - no sch but rotz cos soon will have proj n my wed always used for other things. day of rest exploded.
thu - short day but lect only v tempting to pon esp if wed i v tired
fri - longest shit ass day very very tiring. dip it in turpentine and light it with a match. blaze of glory for the weekend? no. no rest.
sat - free day might become not free also, plus need to rush assignments
sun - see above
mon - back to square one with added exhaustion.
gAh.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:29:00 AM
they're like the tail end of something that never really was;
the remnants of the week.
not surprising friday passed slowly again.
although there was laughter, i also sensed tears or near-tears, frustration, stress, relief, reunion, warmth and disgruntledness.
mixed bag of emotions, i suppose, friday is.
anyway hope everyone takes good care over the weekend, hope tomorrow is a better day, hope next week is a better week!
brain drain can't think.
deadpans the deadbeat dith.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:09:00 PM
rotted...
but still alive...
very tiring...
many things due next week...
i can see my white hairs resprouting...
lol just spotted one (or 2) just now...
yikes.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:26:00 PM
going downhill...
losing my grip...
moodless tonight. should sleep early. go to school early. rot. come home early. sleep to death.
goodnight.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:30:00 AM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:24:00 PM
omfg which rich dad/mom/kid sponsored that?!
wow.
really damn bloody interesting.
LOL!
btw i heard that from alex who heard it from his mama.
^^
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:02:00 PM
so full of surprises...
i like!
:D~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:50:00 PM
WHY TOA PAYOH SUDDENLY GOT FIREWORKS?
I WAS LIKE SITTING HERE THEN SUDDENLY HEAR SOME SOUNDS...
OMFG WHY SKY GOT BRIGHT SPARKS?!
WENT TO THE WINDOW OMFG
WHAT THE?!
BUT QUITE SHORT LEH..
BUT ALSO VERY NICE!!!
WAS IT ILLEGAL? OR WHAT?
WHAT'S THE OCCASION TODAY MAN?
HUH?
BUT DAMN SHIOK LEH!!!
very very fucking shiok...
MORE PLEASE!!
omg.....
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:42:00 PM
haha! so stupid leh i went all the way to boon lay but never set foot in sch AT ALL!! HAHAHAHA! DAMN BO LIAO RIGHT! long long story ahahahhaa.
in the morning met gt. eh walaoz forever early one. yeah it's indeed a culture shock. cos my frens are usually on time or late. hahaha. den he always so freakin' early man. gimme stress only. z_z had macD ice cream cos he shamelessly said i treat him eat if i get 3 As. well i got 3 A-s but i suppose that counts too? later he had to go for driving so took train.. was on my way to school when...
grace smses, asking "lunch?"
waahahahhaa. met her already 1pm, by the time we etc etc... 110pm le.. oh no lesson at 130pm. erh erh erh. grace vs 212? erm erm. automatic ding ding ding! grace wins ahahaha! den that cyn aiyohhhhhhs she cannot meet =( so sad. sighz. i'm holding cyn to her promise. next week MUST org outing! we go watch geisha! ONZ MA????
i did try to get her to pon her jap hurhur =X oh man cyn doesn't yield easily to the dark side. arghhhhhhh bad bad bad. i'm devil dith lehhh hahaha.
later i went home with grace. see la! never set foot in ntu today AT ALL! sk called den i said i nv go also wahahah wtf right? i guess everyone feels like killing me now =X nvm it's ok i'm used to it hahaha!
oh guess what. earlier when i met gt an auntie approached me for directions AGAIN! hahahah omg la! erh ya lo.. i'm damn approachable =X she wanted to know where to take bus from lol.
anyway... later went back tpy this girl approached me. she was doing some promo for SunPage this new plan or smth. helps ppl save money on outgoing calls and it's totally free. u just pay for what u use. when she said it was totally free, i was rather skeptical. bu hui ba? den i realised they actually earn from the money that people give them by diverting the business of the other service providers into their own pocket hurhur. anyway i signed up for it.
lol the girl was like, are you interested in this? are you 16 and above?
i said.. er ya. i'm 21 this yr.
she was like O_o" dun look like.
erh wahahaha a marketing ploy or i really look young? =X muahahaha.
ho hum.
oh did i mention i met my neighbor in the lift on wed evening and he initiated the conversation? O_o knew him since pri sch but never talk before... wow. quite stun tio but happy that the silence was finally broken.. =)
ok time to do work.
laterZ~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:50:00 PM
met some ppl and dunno do what.. then got this scary video on the comp / etc that kept repeating itself. then i had to buy this dunno what from this shop.
the fucking video was something i chanced upon while reading maplesea forums. of course i didn't view it but the ppl were saying it's this piercing shriek n dunno wad. i was dreaming of the fucking piercing shriek wtf. dunno how i managed to slp properly and sleep so long... no wonder i slept for so long..... argh
anyway. i hope tomorrow will be a good day =)
a morning for ice cream, a morning for chit chat.
a morning for friendship, a good morning ^^
ahhhhh.
very tired. cough medicine taking its toll. night all~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:14:00 AM
the stars would keep on shining, the world would keep on growing..
but at least i know
i made a spark in your life
=D
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:24:00 PM
don't wanna talk to you again.
boh xim.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:21:00 PM
think nth ba.
time to move on!
=D
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:58:00 PM
argH!
cue maplestory guy who is same age and has a gf but acts immature.
i would like to add some racist (actually anti-country) comment but i won't else i get sued by the government.
him: morn dith
me: morn
him: y sore throat?
me: i wish i knew why also.
him: scream 2 much ?
me: no?
him: lol drink more water le
me: .......
him: lol
him: pity u
me: .
me: orh
me: afk
ok maybe it doesn't look like anything to any of you. but when you have a freaking sore throat, it hurts to talk, you're irritable. how would i know why i have sore throat? i'm not a freaking doc. and it's not like i run around screaming right? pity me? sorry i don't need to be pitied. i don't need your pity.
and with that. i shall go shower and head to school. bye all.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:36:00 AM
but i got a "gomen ne" for being too engrossed for the whole of today. lol.
XD
got work to do.
arrr fucking sian.
and my throat feels shitty.
sighz.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:05:00 PM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:17:00 PM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:48:00 PM
eh feeling a bit sick. soon coming down with something. haha. sian lorrrrr. and too lazy to do work. z_Z
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:46:00 PM
anyway.
although i have no mood to do anything except sit, stare blankly and think,
i think i will drown myself in work.
-dnd antisocial mode-
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:52:00 AM
it's just that i'm more flawed than the rest.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:46:00 AM
kns kns kns
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:29:00 AM
the sun came out... finally! was freezing to death underground in the tv studio for 221 make up lect. mrt also aircon, but then stepped out at toa payoh.. wow the sun. so fucking sweet! i stepped out and the sun shone on my face.. and i broke out into a big smile as a walked home. haha don't care if people thought i was mad. i was madly happy!! delirious! got part of my appetite back, but i think stomach capacity lower now. cannot finish a normal plate of rice i think. hahaha!
happy...
hope i can keep this happy feeling! ^_^
love seeing the sun!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:55:00 PM
stupid make up lecture later!
what the fuck!
really feel like ponning!!
arGh.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:25:00 AM
had a good chat today =)
i feel things are more concrete. doesn't seem to be having negative effects. instead reinforcing effects. hmm. i guess that's good. =)
i think although i had a horrible day, i can at least go to bed with a semblance of a smile on my face ^_^
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:28:00 AM
barking up the wrong tree;
falling down the wrong hole.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:17:00 AM
had a good first half of the day. later things just started going downhill.
very dulan now... ok la more like sad. i should be sleeping soon, tomorrow got makeup lecture. wtf la.
i think every friday, i'm gonna be in a bad mood. don't come near me la, esp if i pmsing i will offend you. warning everyone first.
fri is fooking long. 830 - 1930 is a killer. please kids, don't try this at home.
the breaks from 12-2 and 4-530 are really very sad. i can go seek out people to talk to, but for what sia. superficial coffeetable talk? i can't be bothered la please. besides the environment in sch these days is just. BLAH. i hate it.
hmm.
guess what.
uber sianz until cannot blog further.
however,
thanks for listening to me guys. you know who you are...
(=
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:02:00 AM
can't believe how i managed to plow through those chapters for the readings. and i read ALL! haha but understanding and remembering all is a different case altogether. so don't ask me what i read hahaha!
so happy. maple 3rd job came out. i am a chief bandit! =) feels good! *hao lian a bit* wahahaha wahahah wahahahah finally! the long wait! i waited 1yr+ for this!!! wasn't excited with the announcement, but after changing job and playing with my new uber 1337 skillz, WOW I WANNA PLAY MAPLE!!! ahh but i know that's not possible. got more work to do. a new assignment in. sighz! think i shall start on that over the weekend. ho hum.
responses seem warmer =)
i think % has increased.
today came to find me in game ^_^
and so cute! sms me halfway can blurblur step into mud puddle >_< cute but omg la! so careless! still tell me abt stepping into puddle LOL! reminds me of another incident when someone else fell into a drain while smsing me! hahaha! J do u remember falling into a drain? HAHAHAH! yes it was you!
hmm.
ok. i shall bide my time and wait.
=))
oh ya and i made shiya gian for kh2! WAHAHAHAHA!
can't sleep @_@ maybe cos i drank tea or i hungry or too high liao.
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9am but it feels like 7am. sky so black weather so cold. body cannot get used to it man. hope to see some sunshine soon. getting a bit sick of the rain although i love it. i like grey days i like wet days can stay at home sleep sleep sleep so cooling. but really ar, too cold already... if it stays like that hope my body can adjust the internal thermostat. i wan be reptile den can go into hibernation haha.
k i shall go off do what i woke up so early to do. what else but work!
argh ciaoz.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:03:00 AM
1) finally, maple 3rd job coming out!
2) i am so effing COLD! brr!
3) ~$250$~ when will i see you~
4) work sux
5) i would prefer if people took the initiative (this applies to everyone btw)
ok night!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:48:00 AM
z_z
i got a mic from popular today. i like it. =)
oh and the funniest thing is, jes supposed to return me money but she didn't. why? cos she dunno cheque takes 3 days to clear and she banked in the cheque from sch only ytd. hahaha!
but was fun altho weather was fucked up.
sighz! i wanna go walkwalk the pasar malam!
not so much in a state of confusion now. slowly sorting out my thoughts. haha. slowly, slowly.
should sleep soon but doing work slowly, slowly also.
dang it.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:09:00 AM
ho hum.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:00:00 AM
feel v cold also!!
wahaha.
was pondering over smth last night:
"do i know the persona or the person?
sometimes i feel i can't remember the person, but only remember the persona i attribute to the person."
for example.
when you read text messages, the voice and tone and personality you create for the person in your head while reading the messages i label as the persona. but when you meet the person and chat face to face. well that's the person.
seems to be discrepancy between the two especially if you knew the person online before in real life i feel. but in some cases, the difference isn't very big. however in some cases, the difference is extreme. wow.
and then although both modes of communication are still with the same person, feels like you're talking to two people.
now, does anyone share the same sentiments?
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:37:00 PM
hopefully after i finish japanese lv3 i can understand more!
=D~
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wa, as usual, a lot of jumping and stuff to do. on the 2nd day, the only job i managed to master was the delivering of letters. 50 munny! actually walkthru a bit wrong. not under 10s but under 20s. hmm. but i can do under 10s also! haha my best time was 9.03s, but i think with more practice i can do like 8s or less. =D
was a bit pekcheck with poster pasting. 20 posters all over the city. wa at first dunno where and what. but did ok ^^
the one i HATE THE MOST is the luggage delivery. eyer cannot get it up the slope although i tried and my time ran into 20minutes or something -_-U
nearly died during boss battle with the big heartless thing. yikes. but now i know how to use reaction command (triangle) so quite ok ba. and i accidentally used one of my potions HAHAHA cos i saw in japanese dunno what L1 + (x) then i really go try then used potion then i WTF!! hahaha but cannot reset game else i have to see all the cutscenes again! eyer. ok nvm survived. only died during battle with Axel. kaoz. heng his hp quite low else on my 2nd try i would have died also. left with red blinking hp though hahahah!
after that and defeating Setzer i went to bed just as the 5th day started. ahahaha later i come back home and continue!! fuck work!! fuck school! waHAhahahahAhaha!
gtg bathe and go out. gonna collect back my moneh haha ciaoZ!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:46:00 PM
*goes contemplate thoughts elsewhere on the internet*
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today despite the day being cold, some people were quite warm. that's nice. i feel i'm digging myself into a grave. what is this man? issuing of an ultimatum? sounds like either do or die. coach and student thing or whatttttt.
argh.
think role reversal or something. but gives me a bit of a fan gan you know. gah.
i'm lost liao.
an actress without her script. i'm lost.
standing alone on the silent stage,
a million eyes waiting
waiting for the lines to be delivered
nothing escapes her lips
'cept a painful
s i g h
long drawn out
disappointment
delivered
disaster
got a guitar metal bookmark from chinatown today.
it's nice =)
don't dare use cos afraid i might spoil it =(
"feel like we've known each other for very long le...*ponders*"
is that so...
sighz i'm gonna give up, pack my bags and leave soon...
the fan gan..
hai bu zhi dao.
someone please come guide this lost not-so-little girl back to safety before the big bad wolf eats her.
>_<"
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:32:00 PM
amidst the bustling and jostling crowd, the rain, and the slippery floors.
^^
selamat hari raya to all!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:44:00 PM
we're going chinatown! hahaha gonna eat and buy new year goodies.. and of course, do what every singaporean does these days.. it's the trend you know.. damn trendy. everywhere you go you see singaporeans doing it. everyone's braving the rain! haa.
ok la. i gtg.
buhbye all!
enjoy your hari raya haji holiday!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:18:00 PM
think i'm becoming an irritant le.
game > friends huh.
oh wells.
let it be so then.
everything > that friend.
^^
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...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:06:00 AM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:06:00 AM
if the future seems wrought with uncertainties and tribulations don't feel so apprehensive about it.
instead, embrace it bravely and be confident.
if so many people have overcome the obstacles of the obscure future and walk through the battlefield with battle scars but still breathe, you can too.
everyone goes through a hard patch every now and then, but most come out stronger.
if you approach the future smiling, you are already shielding yourself from the emotional scars that might appear if you allowed yourself to be pierced from the back.
haha i talk so much, but yet, haven't i felt the same way about the future before?
maybe cos i'm in a normal state of mental health now haha!
well... still not -that- normal
lol.
but reasonable =D
monday school lalala i still got that fricking 300+ page word document to edit and prepare to submit for work. still got 4 chapters or so of "A Problem from Hell" to read. still got jap homework to do haha. still got things to do tomorrow before hitting the 203 lecture =D yeah yeah~~
i think i shall do jap homework now since i got nothing to do.. besides, it's fun! wwahaha i'm sadistic. then i'll take my BAV stuff n bring tomorrow also ^^
in 17min it's Bruce's 23rd bdae =P
so many Jan babies... heh
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._.
oh wells. haiz.
maybe it will improve with the weather >_<
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and it doesn't help that it's raining.
been raining all frickin' day.
never pausing.
argh.
2006 is a year where the sky gods are unhappy.
maybe it will snow soon.
mmm i can't wait.
sky is some funny shade of rust/purple.
sky's rusting.
think my flat is gonna corrode soon.
been doing work all day too
and it doesn't help that i can't seem to find a single effing proper magazine article cover with kazuyoshi funaki on it.
maybe all that are available are ulu-fied japanese magazines that i can't read and never will be able to accomplish reading.
ZZZzzzzz.
4hours 21min to the next day.
monday had better be good.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:39:00 PM
D
O
W
N
like the fly on your wall
___________P
stirring me U
like teabags left
forgotten
on a shelf
in a husk
with a book
in the dusk
some things always
pass you by.
so,
swing me on your keychain
drop me in the hearth
stamp me to a postcard
ground me in the earth.
fly me by
my paranoid companion
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:30:00 PM
halfway down the road to paranoia!
i'm getting paranoid whoohoo~!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:18:00 PM
raining heavily as usual. will i see nothing but endless showers over the entire singapore?! what is this man? monsoon season? but at least wet days are better than hot and skin scorching.
so fast and the weekend is nearly over. sure has passed by quicker than i could envision. hope tomorrow is a good day so i can have my unofficial 'midweek break' on tues and wed whee! i have hedwig's class tomorrow. a bit apprehensive, but i think i'll survive anyhows =) 3 hour break from 130 - 430. looking forward to break time as usual! hahaha!
haven't touched kh2 yet. hmm i should go play it later or something =) but oh well. sigh laaaaa. what is this man.
haiyoh don't want think about it le. i go do my work like an obedient office peon. ciaoz peeps!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:50:00 AM
ちょっと分からない、何がしたい？
自分でほしい物が取るか待つ？
うんん、思う事が忘れない。
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...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:19:00 AM
haiyoh.
today quite eventful. but the day passed so fast. wish it could have dragged a little slower. met mu for lunchie then went queensway look at ps2. i'm so jealous can? so slim so sexy so chio so omfg-ing haWt! it's slim! and black! and tight! whee-ooo-wheet! me bought kingdom hearts 2 and something for my hair today. later on met up with grace then we walkwalk. haha. fun day lalala.
hmm. got home. ok la. dunno la. liddat lo.
bleah.
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traffic jam. hah. inavoidable. reached school late with 2 min to spare for the quiz argh. did it in 2min then had to submit it le omgz. was stoning in lecture gah. later had 4 hour break. grace couldn't rescue me from 1-2, she was having work still blah. but sk rescued me from 10-1040 so at least that's something. time shaved off my boring 4 hours. whee.
wa lan i dunno how the fuck i managed to survive those 4 hours. but i did la. did some work then chatted on msn all that. actually sharen liu not that bad la, in fact i quite like her leh. hahaha maybe i'm just a glutton for punishment but i think she's nice although she might be firm in her demands. she smile smile laugh laugh but i think can be serious also la.
ok only learnt camera operations. very simple. DV cam only. got foreign student in my group. hmm. hope she's ok ba. i got a thing towards foreign students. i think i'm xenophobic lols.
wow another 1.5hrs to waste my life away with. went back cati lab to rot. parked on msn and actually read chapter 1 of my 212 textbook out of boredom. haha. then they closing the lab le so i went for jap lesson. ahh it's the same sensei who taught the jlpt4 prep course. think she's the coordinator also. quite nice i like her! my class got a couple of people i know plus i made a new friend ahahaha she's ex chijtp also! wa nice. actually i like her eyes a lot. ^_^;
hmm on the bus back i met her again so sat with her and took mrt home with her. wahaha. if i were more crooked i would probably develop feelings for her =P
she reminds me of Cherissa and Grace Chen all at once. mmm. yet she's different.
hahaha oh shit i talk too much about her later really like her that way! haha won't la, i got gf le anyway but she still HABEN PAY ME BACK DE $_$ bleaH!
while waiting for dad to pick me up from Cheers there on his way home, got this weird guy chanting some stuff loudly near me. eeeee. so scary can? something about "Terrorism, Communism, Die Death, Karl Marx, Islam etc" O_O"
er wtf i don't even dare look at him. i keep ._. at my curry puff as i was nibbling it. finally dad came phew. that guy look like those types.. u know with the osama beard that pattern? but he seems educated also leh. i dunno wor. his english not bad and his malay not bad. hmm.
now i'm home and damn tired. cannot do work le i better go sleep tomorrow wake up like 8am do work. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh tired! i need to renew my energyyyyyyyy!
bo xim. maybe it's just the lack of sleep working against me. these delusions of mine. haiz i nth to say le. just another MCP~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:05:00 PM
i don't know leh. i think i appear quite cold and distant in school. like a drifter caught in her own world. i don't really talk to people in school. only to people i know rather well. or people just come to talk to me. maybe i'm just a loner.
oh ya i had things to blog about today. most people build their timetable around their core subjects but funnily enough, i build my core subjects around my general elective. like what the fuck is with that? i guess it's all about self gratification, actualization. i really wanna do jap, guess that's what my whole education revolves around now. no jap no life? hmm not really i suppose. actually i don't know what i'm doing.
haiz.
the ever elusive smser-out-of-the-blue.
if only i could read minds.
never even say goodnight. stick in game without talking to me. dunno wAd la.
quite disappointed haha. oh well.
anyway hope things are smooth sailing tomorrow for benben *wink* ^^ must jiayou k! and for me too.. hahaha! hope my break will consist of fruitful research. and grace will be released from chains early for lunch break so we can have a nice long chat! and that 221 will be ok and i won't be disgusted into dropping it hahaha! and that my 1.5hr break will be eventful and fruitful and jap will be fun and the sensei will be nice and i will leave school satisfied enough to tahan the 1hr30min journey back home and that it doesn't fucking downpour so i can alight from the feeder bus asap. oh. and that the ever-elusive-smser will sms me.
hmm.
don't fret dith.
it's the weekend.
and tuesday is a holiday!
=)
rejoiceeeeee!!!!!!!!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:04:00 AM
sighsighsighsighsigh.
actually the work giving me headache not the readings.
tomorrow gonna face dragon lady sharen liu lol.
imma stand up to her! ahahahhaa!
raWr!
sigh 3hr break prob gonna spend it researching tmd fucking hell.
arm muscles can die from copying n pasting 363 articles into word leh what more another 312 more. think right arm gonna be damn developed le ahahahaha. wtFFFFFf.
ok bed beckons night all.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:00:00 AM
HELP HELP SAVE ME DROWNING DYING ARGH
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raining the whole damn day until my nose dripping like tap the whole damn day. zZz. anyway today school was slack and the 1 hour break wasn't so bad. just that my nose kept dripping. blah. 212 is interesting as well as 217A =) i have good taste WAHAHAHHAA and so do those who are taking them with me ^^
gotta do 212 readings soon but so damn lazy. tomorrow's 830am lesson some more! gahhh. 10-1 i have this freaking long break, then grace is gonna save me at 1-2 then 2-4 i got 221 tutorial ARGH FREAKY SHAREN LIU then 1.5hrs later is my japanese. hmm. gah i fucking hate breaks.
hmm. ok la, not a bad day on the whole. hmm. sometimes it's really very hard analysing what people are thinking. argh. i really think i'm just a source of entertainment. -_- haiz. would you ignore someone for a game? well some people do. i'm no exception. that time J also ignored me like almost totally for FF11.
hai. regarding the sms, sk said might be lewd LOL
well i dunno leh. hmm.
as i said, hard to analyse.
i go chat on phone with benben le~
ciaoz blog!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:35:00 PM
jap lv 3 here i come!! and JLPT3 awaits in dec!
whee~~~~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:55:00 AM
i was actually gonna blog earlier before midnight but i didn't want to spoil the birthday wishes post hahaha. i missed lessons on tuesday due to my extreme laziness. i really have no mood for school. i'm not ready yet! don't take me!
hah.. an sms out of nowhere that gets me wondering, pondering. i thought i'd lost it but i guess i still retain some of it. wondering why the hell that sms came through after disappearing for so long... it's not too late. comtemplating the reasons, the motivations. yes, i think too much.
am i just a source of entertainment or am i something more? it's hard to analyse human behavior. it's so bloody fucking tough. sigh. don't know if i should take things at face value, move on, grow up, find different avenues. wait and be the stupid idiot or leave only to regret? telling me stuff out of the blue... and then i wonder: am i the only one stuff gets told to? am i the only source of entertainment on the list? am i the only thing on the mind? hah. wishful thinking as always. i shall not chide you, for you are only 20, a mere fledging. but soon you will be 21. are you ready to spread your wings and head for distant skies? or will you roost in the comfort of your warm nest watching as the leaves turn golden many more times until your eyes see no more?
haha, at least i am (i hope) an interesting source of entertainment. that's something to be happy about. in a way. only time will tell. however i do prefer more outward actions, but not too outward please. tactics tactics...
blah. spouting nonsense at 130am. i should be sleeping. school's in 12 hours!
hope tomorrow... things run smoothly. currently i am contented with what i have seen so far of 2006. will it get better? or will it get worse? the weather foretells the latter. i do hope it is the former.
2006...
i really should get down to making my resolutions. but i never ever keep them.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:16:00 AM
old old old old liaooo
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1) su jian
2) jessie
3) alvin (he saw me thrice)
4) xiaojun
5) marcus
6) xue fen
7) uncle
8) darran di
argh... until i even had a hard time recalling who saw me. LOL!
sian.
when will they stop showing it!!!!!!
x_x
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now listening to kh2 OST and stoning. waiting for 5pm to come so i can play ps2..
=( mom and sis watching ch55 as usual.. some korean show argh... can't play =(
i am like so uber SIAN of work and research. i actually sat down for 4hours plus and nearly completed Thierry Henry's full profile (minus decisive moment. gonna scour newspaper archives for that later) and his print material search left to do. did Grant Hackett's career highlights search. well that was easy but dunno how detailed they want. anyway i dunno le. headache!!!
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hcny smses trickling in... so mafan later dunno how to slp properly lolz. quite slpy now in fact. hmm today ok ba quite like every yr only got 2 more ppl n i dunno them hmm. but ok ba. a bit funny but ok.
qn to ponder:
should we pursue our own happiness or wait for it to come find us?
thoughts and comments pls!
i go slp le night~~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:09:00 AM
ahaha woke up 11am still yawning! i need more sleep! >_+"
anyway today going reunion dinner le. haha..
gong xi fa cai all!
hong bao na lai!
gimme all~~~
happy chinese new year ^^
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:24:00 AM
a dog was barking incessantly below my flat just now. (actually yipping away. high pitched.) so mom and i had this conversation:
mom: "dun tell me neighbors really bought a dog for yr of the dog?"
me: "haha mayb la. den next yr.. yr of the pig right? they will buy a pig"
mom: "yr of dragon they buy dragon ah?"
diao.. it made mu laugh until peng. ahaha. after mu laff until peng den i started to laff, then mom laffed. ahhaa delayed reaction siaz.
yawn very very slpy!!!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:50:00 AM
wahaha hell week ish over! now time to have hell holiday! ahahahhahaa
*throw away everything and just slacks*
XD~
orh ya it's amazing what a nice encouraging sms can do! esp on a long ass day like friday. hehe. made me smile ^^
what a thoughtful sms =D
=))
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:25:00 PM
sian.
no time for myself
no time to breathe
no time to sleep
no time to rest
no time to play kh2
no time to relax
no time to eat
no time to chat
no time to read
no time to live.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:27:00 AM
ZZZZZZZZ
aRGhHHHhhh
z_z
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wtf. 212 notes are a mile long and a mile thick.
eh no la. but 1cm thick size 9 font eh damn walaoz how the fuck do i finish it by thurs. argh argh argh.
*kills self*
*becomes a reading machine*
z_z
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:10:00 AM
SJJ YOUR VICTORIA'S SECRET VIDEO ON YOUR BLOG GAVE ME EYE SORES!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:40:00 AM
a chilly wind blows tonight
everyone offline
and tucked into bed
many things crowding
into the tiny space of my mind
assignments left to tomorrow
bed beckons
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:28:00 AM
haha. because of those noisy PRCs in my jap class, i have suddenly developed this racist attitude towards all PRCs! hahaha! don't blame me wor. they were too FUCKING irritating today. sat behind them then when we were reading the passage, couldn't hear a FUCK! instead keep hearing their inaccurate japanese reading and they make mistake also influence the whole class. they SUCK leh! it's those 3 PRCs in particular. the rest are ok. i just wanted to punch that guy in front of me today!!! while reading he was actually ACTING it out LOUDLY. making funny voices to mimick the different characters talking. EH WALAO i nearly MADE A HOLE in the back of his head!! kaoz.
i hate jap class cos of those 3 RETARDS. seems nearly EVERYONE ELSE shares the same sentiments. HAHA!
i want to kill that noisy girl also! the other time she was sitting BEHIND me! walao nearly go deaf. FUCKING LOUDSPEAKER lol.
ok ok enough ranting about jap class. looks like i'm not the only one having problems with jap class. sk also having some problems in his JCS jap class ahahaha.
think now cyn still at her BSB concert lolz. yawn yawn tomorrow got filming for our first video assignment sigh sigh hope it goes ok. imma die soon got nth to wear also lolololol rotz.
television not in use today. ho hum.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:28:00 PM
To-Do List
(updated Jan 24 0200hrs)
2) 221 video assignment
3) oak3 work (thierry henry profile)
4) jap hw (backdated)
5) 212 readings (i'm the panelist this wk! panic! lolz. rightttt.)
6) get pirated copy of 221 txtbk
7) do 217A readings
8) do 203 readings
9) figure out what 221 readings there are and do them also
10) play kh2 (whee sora~)
11) buy plastic dvd cases and file to put games in
12) go esprit buy that shirt -_-
13) buy cny clothes
14) sleep more
15) do 203 worksheet
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finally finished that cs221 written assignment on the ear thermometer story. lol. i can't believe after agonizing over it for so freaking long (machiam constipation), i actually ENJOYED doing it! ahahahaa. ok hhaa i am proud of it LOL.
madness.
met my deadlines =) once again, by the final tether of the thread. ho hum.
cannot la, this is really cutting it too close. hahaha.
tomorrow long day. 1030 - 1930. but not that bad la. hehe. let's hope that i will eventually get used to long days. this whole week damn busy. gonna be damn tired. eh i am damn awake now though. caffeinated i think. drank cappucino milk tea today in sch ahaha. coffee is goooood @_@ but made my mouth dry and gave me coffee breath z_Z which is not good. eeks. but i am so freaking wide awake. oh ya, i like taiwan chicken with the plum powder and pepper and chilli. whee~ it's nice!! ahahah. need more =D~~~ mu let's go eat when you fully recover!! one packet each! hehe.
television set has risen in status. became a television set with teletext. how's that for interactivity huh? hahaha. become a sort of place for daily updates and the outpouring of woes. not that i mind anyway. quite used to it.
eh did i mention how much i dislike multilevel marketing? please. if you work in mlm, do not try and rope me in. z_z today bruce called me then i thought dunno wAd why suddenly wan meet up. actually he wan tell me about mlm and rope me in. ironically he works for Venture Era. where jessie works too. and she is a BM and car achiever now. flying high eh she.
high flyer.
outlier.
building spire.
SPLAT.
after she became a marketing machine and spokeswoman for those mattresses, i fear talking to her will only make her try to rope me in and/or talk about nothing but her job.
please eh. sometimes you should keep work and play separate. and yes i haven't gotten over her birthday incident.
anyways. moving on to happier stuff.
i was so tickled when grace called me up today sounding so MORTIFIED! ahahaha it really rattles the funny bone. text messages can be such a bane and such a boon at the same time eh? lolz.
hrm. let's see.
tml - late sch / do 221 2nd PTC script
wed - video shoot till late + celebration
thu - geisha moobie!!
fri - hitching a ride home with fish meat lolz
sat - off to relative's house i go for reunion
sun, mon, tue, wed - rest. rest. rest. rest. with the exception of wednesday - might go back sch and edit 221 video. but that's quite relaxing ahahaa. maybe watch a movie one of those days or something too with zhi qiang. ho hum. hope he don't use too much medical jargon else i will x_x
time to force my caffeinated brain and body to sleep. school tml!!
p/s: was spotted by juan today. she saw me talking on tv mobile -_- yucks it's airing so soon lol hope they take it off asap. hahaha.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:56:00 AM
TV Story
one day, a boy won some prize money for his good results. he had enough, it seemed, for a portable battery-operated television set. skipping happily to his neighborhood electrical shop, he picked out the set he wanted and paid the ahpek in crisp fifty dollar notes. it was green, and it fitted in the palm of his hand. a bit dusty and scuffed up from sitting on the shelf for so long; but he got a discount, so what the hell anyway!
it took a prime spot in his room, sitting on his table beside his computer. he undid the packing of his newly purchased double A alkaline batteries, popped it into his new gadget, and powered it up.
the pictures were bright and dazzling, he sat there and scanned through the channels; and although the miniature pictures hurt his eyes, before he knew it, the afternoon had turned into night and it was dinnertime.
click.
he switched it off and ran downstairs to eat, leaving the television sitting blankly on his cold wooden desk in his dark bedroom. it was forgotten for the night.
the next day, he brought it along for his lesson. the journey on the mrt was long and boring, so he decided to watch some cartoons. light hearted happy fun. nothing beats mindless entertainment! lesson began and ended, and he watched cartoons again on the mrt ride home. however, when he reached home, he got engrossed in a game and forgot to turn it off.
fzzt.
the batteries died.
for the next couple of days it was left forgotten, sitting darkly on his table behind a pile of books and games. the battery had begin to leak. (he bought those cheap brandless batteries) it wasn't until he was clearing his table and discovered a wet patch of a chemical spill on an old worksheet that he remembered his mini television set.
hurriedly, he cleaned it and dumped the batteries, replacing them with new ones that his mother had gotten for him.
the colors were as bright as ever, the pictures just as vivid.
it kept him entertained. but only for a while.
the television soon travelled everywhere with him, and he used it to pass the time when he was alone and bored. but as soon as his friends came or a game or a book caught his attention, the television would be cast aside once more.
many battery changes and near-alkaline-leaks later, the television set was growing tired of its life. was it merely an entertainment vehicle with no other value? the owner so detached and distant despite the constant attention during boredom?
so that very day, when the boy wanted to pass his time on the mrt before his lessons, the television stood up and chided the boy.
"no more tv for you", it said, coughing out the batteries and casting them out of the window. then, blankly, it wobbled and fell on its side.
it knocked against a stand of pens and pencils, and as the stand toppled over, it knocked the television to the edge of the table where it fell and the screen cracked.
the boy was shocked and taken aback. his television! now what would he do without a source of entertainment!?
the broken tv set lay in the trash, waiting for the refuse truck to take it to jurong. the boy had gone back to life without the tv set, and it seemed nothing had changed. he thought nothing of the tv set. he remembered nothing.
the tv set was forgotten.
it would remain forgotten forever, as it was progressively buried under trash.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:50:00 AM
rotting rotting sing the rotting song~
sing a song of rotting
rotting all the time~
done with 203 assignment. fuck it liao le. haha. haven't fucked around with 221 yet.
think i should put down a To-Do list else i forget everything.
1) 221 written assignment
2) 221 video assignment (grp)
3) oak3 work (thierry henry profile)
4) jap hw (backdated)
5) 212 readings (i'm the panelist this wk! panic! lolz. rightttt.)
6) get pirated copy of 221 txtbk
7) do 217A readings
8) do 203 readings
9) figure out what 221 readings there are and do them also
10) play kh2 (whee sora~)
11) buy plastic dvd cases and file to put games in
12) go esprit buy that shirt -_-
13) buy cny clothes
14) sleep more
15) dunno do wAd le
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:26:00 AM
got this off jes' (resurrected) blog. lolz damn funny =X gonna watch da movie on thurs hehe.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:58:00 PM
sian.
still got assignments left to do. wonder if i can finish them on time and do them properly or not. wan to die liao. anyway, i also dunno wAd we're doing for tml's proj discussion also. sianz. so fast monday's around the corner. dammit. more exhausted than ever man. no time to even do stuff for my job. wahaha fucked man! but they never email me... ho hum. nvm job stuff i can probably pia in a day or two. sigh. what if their email didn't get through to me? paranoid again. bleah.
xiang tong le. i'm just an entertainment vehicle. ahahaha. like why people watch tv. bored, click, switch it on. bored of it. click, switch it off. the screen darkens and goes black.
fadetoblack.
i'm just like your average 20 inch tv. diposable, dispensable. very useful to kill boredom, but distanced. an entertainment vehicle. haha, and the best thing is, when you're on the move, click. i'm there too! i'm tv mobile! technology does wonders. only i'm your customized, personalized handy tv. i come in various forms. sms, msn, face to face... but still i am but your average 20 inch tv.
haha.
ironic. laugh my cynical laugh and get my ass to the bathroom.
gtg out. again. tiring.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:30:00 AM
ho hum. got back not long ago from shopping with mu. supposed to meet one more person but seems she can't commit to us.
anyway, bought some stuff, decided on a present, ran some errands, talked some rubbish, talked some sense and went home.
i like mu's new jacket >_< it's so... dunno how to describe it. but so chio so chio.. hahaha!
sian my ass too big i think. can't wear shorts -_-" ok time to jian fei!! haiz.
got 3 assignments to rush. should i carry out a long and perilous soliloquy on my blog or churn out a news article for 203? anyway. you know me best. i'd rather blog. hahah!
was pondering on the idea of 'friendships' before i went out. is it a mutual thing or one-sided? i thought if 2 people felt a bond between them, it is mutual and it is a friendship. what if 1 person feels a bond? it's funny for the person on the other side. they don't feel anything but suddenly out of the blue the other party is like quite concerned for them, chats to them... like they have a close friendship. do i take things for more than what they actually are? it's weird you know.
maybe i exude the impression that i also treat them as good friends, not those hi-bye kind. maybe they wanna form a stronger friendship with me. maybe they like being around me o_O" don't think that's possible lol. anyway, it's funny la! feels weird.
although they were both my project mates, but not very close leh. ok la, closer to one then she's liddat one. another... really out of the blue one. so funny... wondering... she's straight right? LOL see i think too much -_-" anyway nvm, i myself not very straight. can always work things out one. she quite chio leh =) quite class. =) not bad ^^
we're a bunch of eccentrics =D i like my eccentric buddies! whee~~
running out of steam. although i had quite a few thoughts on my mind, they were all expressed verbally just now lol. raining now... feel damn nua like dowan do work..
sleep! slack! stone!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:17:00 PM
o_O"
maybe i feel so distant that i don't know friendship when i see it.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:05:00 AM
analysis of a standard week:
mon - rotz but not v bad cos got company
tue - rotz cos long dae but also got company
wed - no sch but rotz cos soon will have proj n my wed always used for other things. day of rest exploded.
thu - short day but lect only v tempting to pon esp if wed i v tired
fri - longest shit ass day very very tiring. dip it in turpentine and light it with a match. blaze of glory for the weekend? no. no rest.
sat - free day might become not free also, plus need to rush assignments
sun - see above
mon - back to square one with added exhaustion.
gAh.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:29:00 AM
fridays are always sad.
they're like the tail end of something that never really was;
the remnants of the week.
not surprising friday passed slowly again.
although there was laughter, i also sensed tears or near-tears, frustration, stress, relief, reunion, warmth and disgruntledness.
mixed bag of emotions, i suppose, friday is.
anyway hope everyone takes good care over the weekend, hope tomorrow is a better day, hope next week is a better week!
brain drain can't think.
deadpans the deadbeat dith.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:09:00 PM
wow...
rotted...
but still alive...
very tiring...
many things due next week...
i can see my white hairs resprouting...
lol just spotted one (or 2) just now...
yikes.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:26:00 PM
rotted...
going downhill...
losing my grip...
moodless tonight. should sleep early. go to school early. rot. come home early. sleep to death.
goodnight.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:30:00 AM
sigh sigh big sigh.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:24:00 PM
it seems that the fireworks were for the opening ceremony of the new chijtp.
omfg which rich dad/mom/kid sponsored that?!
wow.
really damn bloody interesting.
LOL!
btw i heard that from alex who heard it from his mama.
^^
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:02:00 PM
this day keeps getting better and better.
so full of surprises...
i like!
:D~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:50:00 PM
EH WHAT THE FUCK!?
WHY TOA PAYOH SUDDENLY GOT FIREWORKS?
I WAS LIKE SITTING HERE THEN SUDDENLY HEAR SOME SOUNDS...
OMFG WHY SKY GOT BRIGHT SPARKS?!
WENT TO THE WINDOW OMFG
WHAT THE?!
BUT QUITE SHORT LEH..
BUT ALSO VERY NICE!!!
WAS IT ILLEGAL? OR WHAT?
WHAT'S THE OCCASION TODAY MAN?
HUH?
BUT DAMN SHIOK LEH!!!
very very fucking shiok...
MORE PLEASE!!
omg.....
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:42:00 PM
today was a very omoshiroi day.
haha! so stupid leh i went all the way to boon lay but never set foot in sch AT ALL!! HAHAHAHA! DAMN BO LIAO RIGHT! long long story ahahahhaa.
in the morning met gt. eh walaoz forever early one. yeah it's indeed a culture shock. cos my frens are usually on time or late. hahaha. den he always so freakin' early man. gimme stress only. z_z had macD ice cream cos he shamelessly said i treat him eat if i get 3 As. well i got 3 A-s but i suppose that counts too? later he had to go for driving so took train.. was on my way to school when...
grace smses, asking "lunch?"
waahahahhaa. met her already 1pm, by the time we etc etc... 110pm le.. oh no lesson at 130pm. erh erh erh. grace vs 212? erm erm. automatic ding ding ding! grace wins ahahaha! den that cyn aiyohhhhhhs she cannot meet =( so sad. sighz. i'm holding cyn to her promise. next week MUST org outing! we go watch geisha! ONZ MA????
i did try to get her to pon her jap hurhur =X oh man cyn doesn't yield easily to the dark side. arghhhhhhh bad bad bad. i'm devil dith lehhh hahaha.
later i went home with grace. see la! never set foot in ntu today AT ALL! sk called den i said i nv go also wahahah wtf right? i guess everyone feels like killing me now =X nvm it's ok i'm used to it hahaha!
oh guess what. earlier when i met gt an auntie approached me for directions AGAIN! hahahah omg la! erh ya lo.. i'm damn approachable =X she wanted to know where to take bus from lol.
anyway... later went back tpy this girl approached me. she was doing some promo for SunPage this new plan or smth. helps ppl save money on outgoing calls and it's totally free. u just pay for what u use. when she said it was totally free, i was rather skeptical. bu hui ba? den i realised they actually earn from the money that people give them by diverting the business of the other service providers into their own pocket hurhur. anyway i signed up for it.
lol the girl was like, are you interested in this? are you 16 and above?
i said.. er ya. i'm 21 this yr.
she was like O_o" dun look like.
erh wahahaha a marketing ploy or i really look young? =X muahahaha.
ho hum.
oh did i mention i met my neighbor in the lift on wed evening and he initiated the conversation? O_o knew him since pri sch but never talk before... wow. quite stun tio but happy that the silence was finally broken.. =)
ok time to do work.
laterZ~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:50:00 PM
i just remembered what i dreamt last night.
met some ppl and dunno do what.. then got this scary video on the comp / etc that kept repeating itself. then i had to buy this dunno what from this shop.
the fucking video was something i chanced upon while reading maplesea forums. of course i didn't view it but the ppl were saying it's this piercing shriek n dunno wad. i was dreaming of the fucking piercing shriek wtf. dunno how i managed to slp properly and sleep so long... no wonder i slept for so long..... argh
anyway. i hope tomorrow will be a good day =)
a morning for ice cream, a morning for chit chat.
a morning for friendship, a good morning ^^
ahhhhh.
very tired. cough medicine taking its toll. night all~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:14:00 AM
without me...
the stars would keep on shining, the world would keep on growing..
but at least i know
i made a spark in your life
=D
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:24:00 PM
you sux.
don't wanna talk to you again.
boh xim.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:21:00 PM
hmm.
think nth ba.
time to move on!
=D
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:58:00 PM
wa i'm so INFURIATED first thing in the morning.
argH!
cue maplestory guy who is same age and has a gf but acts immature.
i would like to add some racist (actually anti-country) comment but i won't else i get sued by the government.
him: morn dith
me: morn
him: y sore throat?
me: i wish i knew why also.
him: scream 2 much ?
me: no?
him: lol drink more water le
me: .......
him: lol
him: pity u
me: .
me: orh
me: afk
ok maybe it doesn't look like anything to any of you. but when you have a freaking sore throat, it hurts to talk, you're irritable. how would i know why i have sore throat? i'm not a freaking doc. and it's not like i run around screaming right? pity me? sorry i don't need to be pitied. i don't need your pity.
and with that. i shall go shower and head to school. bye all.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:36:00 AM
hohum. ppl too engrossed with kh2 until afk again. lolol.
but i got a "gomen ne" for being too engrossed for the whole of today. lol.
XD
got work to do.
arrr fucking sian.
and my throat feels shitty.
sighz.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:05:00 PM
ahhh. sore throat. z_z
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:17:00 PM
eh there's a funky malay wedding going on beneath my block. w00t the percussion very nice leh!! hahaha. wonder if got mp3. LOL.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:48:00 PM
played kh2 to Mysterious Tower. ho hum. after controlling Roxas for so long, wow i think he's so much more yandao than Sora =X prefer Roxas' look to Sora's. Sora a bit girly. pahhhh.
eh feeling a bit sick. soon coming down with something. haha. sian lorrrrr. and too lazy to do work. z_Z
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:46:00 PM
however nice my clothes are, i will never look nice in them.
anyway.
although i have no mood to do anything except sit, stare blankly and think,
i think i will drown myself in work.
-dnd antisocial mode-
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:52:00 AM
no one is perfect.
it's just that i'm more flawed than the rest.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:46:00 AM
argh. chemical imbalance in my brain.
kns kns kns
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:29:00 AM
so fucking happy!
the sun came out... finally! was freezing to death underground in the tv studio for 221 make up lect. mrt also aircon, but then stepped out at toa payoh.. wow the sun. so fucking sweet! i stepped out and the sun shone on my face.. and i broke out into a big smile as a walked home. haha don't care if people thought i was mad. i was madly happy!! delirious! got part of my appetite back, but i think stomach capacity lower now. cannot finish a normal plate of rice i think. hahaha!
happy...
hope i can keep this happy feeling! ^_^
love seeing the sun!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:55:00 PM
fucking cold in the morning!!!!!
stupid make up lecture later!
what the fuck!
really feel like ponning!!
arGh.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:25:00 AM
aiyah. this sucks. i'm hungry again. i think i ate very little today. eat very slow eat v small servings although i was very hungry during lunch and dinner. no appetite. think it's a good thing ba. psychologically i feel like i'm shrinking haha. sighz. purge my fatz pls!!
had a good chat today =)
i feel things are more concrete. doesn't seem to be having negative effects. instead reinforcing effects. hmm. i guess that's good. =)
i think although i had a horrible day, i can at least go to bed with a semblance of a smile on my face ^_^
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:28:00 AM
maybe i'm,
barking up the wrong tree;
falling down the wrong hole.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:17:00 AM
thank goodness fri the 13th is over.
had a good first half of the day. later things just started going downhill.
very dulan now... ok la more like sad. i should be sleeping soon, tomorrow got makeup lecture. wtf la.
i think every friday, i'm gonna be in a bad mood. don't come near me la, esp if i pmsing i will offend you. warning everyone first.
fri is fooking long. 830 - 1930 is a killer. please kids, don't try this at home.
the breaks from 12-2 and 4-530 are really very sad. i can go seek out people to talk to, but for what sia. superficial coffeetable talk? i can't be bothered la please. besides the environment in sch these days is just. BLAH. i hate it.
hmm.
guess what.
uber sianz until cannot blog further.
however,
thanks for listening to me guys. you know who you are...
(=
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:02:00 AM
wa i'm freaking cold! why is it always suddenly so cold at 2+ nearly 3am?!!?! argh. how to sleep like that?!
can't believe how i managed to plow through those chapters for the readings. and i read ALL! haha but understanding and remembering all is a different case altogether. so don't ask me what i read hahaha!
so happy. maple 3rd job came out. i am a chief bandit! =) feels good! *hao lian a bit* wahahaha wahahah wahahahah finally! the long wait! i waited 1yr+ for this!!! wasn't excited with the announcement, but after changing job and playing with my new uber 1337 skillz, WOW I WANNA PLAY MAPLE!!! ahh but i know that's not possible. got more work to do. a new assignment in. sighz! think i shall start on that over the weekend. ho hum.
responses seem warmer =)
i think % has increased.
today came to find me in game ^_^
and so cute! sms me halfway can blurblur step into mud puddle >_< cute but omg la! so careless! still tell me abt stepping into puddle LOL! reminds me of another incident when someone else fell into a drain while smsing me! hahaha! J do u remember falling into a drain? HAHAHAH! yes it was you!
hmm.
ok. i shall bide my time and wait.
=))
oh ya and i made shiya gian for kh2! WAHAHAHAHA!
can't sleep @_@ maybe cos i drank tea or i hungry or too high liao.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:40:00 AM
wake up in the morning and it's still as cold as ever. wonder why i'm up so early. earlier than i set my alarm for. haha! i know why. cos grace smsed me. smses usually automatically wake me up =X if i'm not too tired that is hahaha
9am but it feels like 7am. sky so black weather so cold. body cannot get used to it man. hope to see some sunshine soon. getting a bit sick of the rain although i love it. i like grey days i like wet days can stay at home sleep sleep sleep so cooling. but really ar, too cold already... if it stays like that hope my body can adjust the internal thermostat. i wan be reptile den can go into hibernation haha.
k i shall go off do what i woke up so early to do. what else but work!
argh ciaoz.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:03:00 AM
final words before my head hits the pillow for the night:
1) finally, maple 3rd job coming out!
2) i am so effing COLD! brr!
3) ~$250$~ when will i see you~
4) work sux
5) i would prefer if people took the initiative (this applies to everyone btw)
ok night!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:48:00 AM
i always have this habit of not believing something until it is confirmed by the horse's mouth.
z_z
i got a mic from popular today. i like it. =)
oh and the funniest thing is, jes supposed to return me money but she didn't. why? cos she dunno cheque takes 3 days to clear and she banked in the cheque from sch only ytd. hahaha!
but was fun altho weather was fucked up.
sighz! i wanna go walkwalk the pasar malam!
not so much in a state of confusion now. slowly sorting out my thoughts. haha. slowly, slowly.
should sleep soon but doing work slowly, slowly also.
dang it.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:09:00 AM
seems happy to see me when i come online.
ho hum.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:00:00 AM
rotting! as usual waiting for jes until rot!!
feel v cold also!!
wahaha.
was pondering over smth last night:
"do i know the persona or the person?
sometimes i feel i can't remember the person, but only remember the persona i attribute to the person."
for example.
when you read text messages, the voice and tone and personality you create for the person in your head while reading the messages i label as the persona. but when you meet the person and chat face to face. well that's the person.
seems to be discrepancy between the two especially if you knew the person online before in real life i feel. but in some cases, the difference isn't very big. however in some cases, the difference is extreme. wow.
and then although both modes of communication are still with the same person, feels like you're talking to two people.
now, does anyone share the same sentiments?
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:37:00 PM
ok i forgot to add that with my shitty japanese i can understand 1/3 of what's going on. hey that's not bad! think quite a lot of words are very simple and got a lot of hiragana / katakana / familiar kanji to cater to the younger japanese crowd also. hehehehehehe.
hopefully after i finish japanese lv3 i can understand more!
=D~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:01:00 PM
started on kh2 at 1am or so ytd. played until 4am. wish i could play longer but i have to sleep early else my body clock will be screwed. Roxas so cute! i like the part during the struggle battle after he defeats Vivi/Bibi and the people suddenly get frozen in time! Roxas' chin! soooo babyface! so cute!! ahhhhh!
wa, as usual, a lot of jumping and stuff to do. on the 2nd day, the only job i managed to master was the delivering of letters. 50 munny! actually walkthru a bit wrong. not under 10s but under 20s. hmm. but i can do under 10s also! haha my best time was 9.03s, but i think with more practice i can do like 8s or less. =D
was a bit pekcheck with poster pasting. 20 posters all over the city. wa at first dunno where and what. but did ok ^^
the one i HATE THE MOST is the luggage delivery. eyer cannot get it up the slope although i tried and my time ran into 20minutes or something -_-U
nearly died during boss battle with the big heartless thing. yikes. but now i know how to use reaction command (triangle) so quite ok ba. and i accidentally used one of my potions HAHAHA cos i saw in japanese dunno what L1 + (x) then i really go try then used potion then i WTF!! hahaha but cannot reset game else i have to see all the cutscenes again! eyer. ok nvm survived. only died during battle with Axel. kaoz. heng his hp quite low else on my 2nd try i would have died also. left with red blinking hp though hahahah!
after that and defeating Setzer i went to bed just as the 5th day started. ahahaha later i come back home and continue!! fuck work!! fuck school! waHAhahahahAhaha!
gtg bathe and go out. gonna collect back my moneh haha ciaoZ!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:46:00 PM
haiz fucked up man.
*goes contemplate thoughts elsewhere on the internet*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:44:00 AM
i'm kinda confused.
today despite the day being cold, some people were quite warm. that's nice. i feel i'm digging myself into a grave. what is this man? issuing of an ultimatum? sounds like either do or die. coach and student thing or whatttttt.
argh.
think role reversal or something. but gives me a bit of a fan gan you know. gah.
i'm lost liao.
an actress without her script. i'm lost.
standing alone on the silent stage,
a million eyes waiting
waiting for the lines to be delivered
nothing escapes her lips
'cept a painful
s i g h
long drawn out
disappointment
delivered
disaster
got a guitar metal bookmark from chinatown today.
it's nice =)
don't dare use cos afraid i might spoil it =(
"feel like we've known each other for very long le...*ponders*"
is that so...
sighz i'm gonna give up, pack my bags and leave soon...
the fan gan..
hai bu zhi dao.
someone please come guide this lost not-so-little girl back to safety before the big bad wolf eats her.
>_<"
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:32:00 PM
chinatown was fun.
amidst the bustling and jostling crowd, the rain, and the slippery floors.
^^
selamat hari raya to all!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:44:00 PM
just a quick post before i head out with family.
we're going chinatown! hahaha gonna eat and buy new year goodies.. and of course, do what every singaporean does these days.. it's the trend you know.. damn trendy. everywhere you go you see singaporeans doing it. everyone's braving the rain! haa.
ok la. i gtg.
buhbye all!
enjoy your hari raya haji holiday!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:18:00 PM
eh i dunno le.
think i'm becoming an irritant le.
game > friends huh.
oh wells.
let it be so then.
everything > that friend.
^^
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:59:00 AM
i haven't slept...
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:06:00 AM
happy bdae bruce!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:06:00 AM
haha although you don't read my blog, do cheer up ya?
if the future seems wrought with uncertainties and tribulations don't feel so apprehensive about it.
instead, embrace it bravely and be confident.
if so many people have overcome the obstacles of the obscure future and walk through the battlefield with battle scars but still breathe, you can too.
everyone goes through a hard patch every now and then, but most come out stronger.
if you approach the future smiling, you are already shielding yourself from the emotional scars that might appear if you allowed yourself to be pierced from the back.
haha i talk so much, but yet, haven't i felt the same way about the future before?
maybe cos i'm in a normal state of mental health now haha!
well... still not -that- normal
lol.
but reasonable =D
monday school lalala i still got that fricking 300+ page word document to edit and prepare to submit for work. still got 4 chapters or so of "A Problem from Hell" to read. still got jap homework to do haha. still got things to do tomorrow before hitting the 203 lecture =D yeah yeah~~
i think i shall do jap homework now since i got nothing to do.. besides, it's fun! wwahaha i'm sadistic. then i'll take my BAV stuff n bring tomorrow also ^^
in 17min it's Bruce's 23rd bdae =P
so many Jan babies... heh
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:39:00 PM
i thought from boh xim become wu xim but then suddenly become a bit boh xim again.
._.
oh wells. haiz.
maybe it will improve with the weather >_<
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:42:00 PM
i'm damn bloody fucking B O R E D.
and it doesn't help that it's raining.
been raining all frickin' day.
never pausing.
argh.
2006 is a year where the sky gods are unhappy.
maybe it will snow soon.
mmm i can't wait.
sky is some funny shade of rust/purple.
sky's rusting.
think my flat is gonna corrode soon.
been doing work all day too
and it doesn't help that i can't seem to find a single effing proper magazine article cover with kazuyoshi funaki on it.
maybe all that are available are ulu-fied japanese magazines that i can't read and never will be able to accomplish reading.
ZZZzzzzz.
4hours 21min to the next day.
monday had better be good.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:39:00 PM
breaking me
D
O
W
N
like the fly on your wall
___________P
stirring me U
like teabags left
forgotten
on a shelf
in a husk
with a book
in the dusk
some things always
pass you by.
so,
swing me on your keychain
drop me in the hearth
stamp me to a postcard
ground me in the earth.
fly me by
my paranoid companion
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:30:00 PM
whee!
halfway down the road to paranoia!
i'm getting paranoid whoohoo~!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:18:00 PM
argh. can't believe it but somehow expected it. the mock terrorist attack was actually at toa payoh man. Z_z wth. and also places in the CBD area like Raffles Place, Marina Bay, Dhoby Ghaut etc. wow must have affected the entire NS line. blah so lucky it was today and not yesterday. and so lucky it was like freaking early 625am - 930am while i was still snoozing soundly in my bed hohoho!
raining heavily as usual. will i see nothing but endless showers over the entire singapore?! what is this man? monsoon season? but at least wet days are better than hot and skin scorching.
so fast and the weekend is nearly over. sure has passed by quicker than i could envision. hope tomorrow is a good day so i can have my unofficial 'midweek break' on tues and wed whee! i have hedwig's class tomorrow. a bit apprehensive, but i think i'll survive anyhows =) 3 hour break from 130 - 430. looking forward to break time as usual! hahaha!
haven't touched kh2 yet. hmm i should go play it later or something =) but oh well. sigh laaaaa. what is this man.
haiyoh don't want think about it le. i go do my work like an obedient office peon. ciaoz peeps!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:50:00 AM
あなたの夢中に、私がいる？
ちょっと分からない、何がしたい？
自分でほしい物が取るか待つ？
うんん、思う事が忘れない。
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:25:00 AM
happy bdae sk!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:19:00 AM
hmm.
haiyoh.
today quite eventful. but the day passed so fast. wish it could have dragged a little slower. met mu for lunchie then went queensway look at ps2. i'm so jealous can? so slim so sexy so chio so omfg-ing haWt! it's slim! and black! and tight! whee-ooo-wheet! me bought kingdom hearts 2 and something for my hair today. later on met up with grace then we walkwalk. haha. fun day lalala.
hmm. got home. ok la. dunno la. liddat lo.
bleah.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:47:00 AM
omg. the toll a 830am to 730pm school day takes on me, MINUS the travelling time and waking up time some more. argh. very very tired now i can't believe it. at 11pm!!
traffic jam. hah. inavoidable. reached school late with 2 min to spare for the quiz argh. did it in 2min then had to submit it le omgz. was stoning in lecture gah. later had 4 hour break. grace couldn't rescue me from 1-2, she was having work still blah. but sk rescued me from 10-1040 so at least that's something. time shaved off my boring 4 hours. whee.
wa lan i dunno how the fuck i managed to survive those 4 hours. but i did la. did some work then chatted on msn all that. actually sharen liu not that bad la, in fact i quite like her leh. hahaha maybe i'm just a glutton for punishment but i think she's nice although she might be firm in her demands. she smile smile laugh laugh but i think can be serious also la.
ok only learnt camera operations. very simple. DV cam only. got foreign student in my group. hmm. hope she's ok ba. i got a thing towards foreign students. i think i'm xenophobic lols.
wow another 1.5hrs to waste my life away with. went back cati lab to rot. parked on msn and actually read chapter 1 of my 212 textbook out of boredom. haha. then they closing the lab le so i went for jap lesson. ahh it's the same sensei who taught the jlpt4 prep course. think she's the coordinator also. quite nice i like her! my class got a couple of people i know plus i made a new friend ahahaha she's ex chijtp also! wa nice. actually i like her eyes a lot. ^_^;
hmm on the bus back i met her again so sat with her and took mrt home with her. wahaha. if i were more crooked i would probably develop feelings for her =P
she reminds me of Cherissa and Grace Chen all at once. mmm. yet she's different.
hahaha oh shit i talk too much about her later really like her that way! haha won't la, i got gf le anyway but she still HABEN PAY ME BACK DE $_$ bleaH!
while waiting for dad to pick me up from Cheers there on his way home, got this weird guy chanting some stuff loudly near me. eeeee. so scary can? something about "Terrorism, Communism, Die Death, Karl Marx, Islam etc" O_O"
er wtf i don't even dare look at him. i keep ._. at my curry puff as i was nibbling it. finally dad came phew. that guy look like those types.. u know with the osama beard that pattern? but he seems educated also leh. i dunno wor. his english not bad and his malay not bad. hmm.
now i'm home and damn tired. cannot do work le i better go sleep tomorrow wake up like 8am do work. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh tired! i need to renew my energyyyyyyyy!
bo xim. maybe it's just the lack of sleep working against me. these delusions of mine. haiz i nth to say le. just another MCP~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:05:00 PM
a bit out of the blue when someone becomes chatty to you. someone u know but not too well in school. ahaha guys don't think too much la. same gender laaa. but it's always funny that some people regard you as a good friend when you yourself never even bother to think twice about them. and then you think, hey, the person regards me well, and then you start to regard the person well. reciprocate. friendships start off like that i suppose.
i don't know leh. i think i appear quite cold and distant in school. like a drifter caught in her own world. i don't really talk to people in school. only to people i know rather well. or people just come to talk to me. maybe i'm just a loner.
oh ya i had things to blog about today. most people build their timetable around their core subjects but funnily enough, i build my core subjects around my general elective. like what the fuck is with that? i guess it's all about self gratification, actualization. i really wanna do jap, guess that's what my whole education revolves around now. no jap no life? hmm not really i suppose. actually i don't know what i'm doing.
haiz.
the ever elusive smser-out-of-the-blue.
if only i could read minds.
never even say goodnight. stick in game without talking to me. dunno wAd la.
quite disappointed haha. oh well.
anyway hope things are smooth sailing tomorrow for benben *wink* ^^ must jiayou k! and for me too.. hahaha! hope my break will consist of fruitful research. and grace will be released from chains early for lunch break so we can have a nice long chat! and that 221 will be ok and i won't be disgusted into dropping it hahaha! and that my 1.5hr break will be eventful and fruitful and jap will be fun and the sensei will be nice and i will leave school satisfied enough to tahan the 1hr30min journey back home and that it doesn't fucking downpour so i can alight from the feeder bus asap. oh. and that the ever-elusive-smser will sms me.
hmm.
don't fret dith.
it's the weekend.
and tuesday is a holiday!
=)
rejoiceeeeee!!!!!!!!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:04:00 AM
first week only and i'm suffocating from readings and work.
sighsighsighsighsigh.
actually the work giving me headache not the readings.
tomorrow gonna face dragon lady sharen liu lol.
imma stand up to her! ahahahhaa!
raWr!
sigh 3hr break prob gonna spend it researching tmd fucking hell.
arm muscles can die from copying n pasting 363 articles into word leh what more another 312 more. think right arm gonna be damn developed le ahahahaha. wtFFFFFf.
ok bed beckons night all.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:00:00 AM
drowning in work wtf!!!!
HELP HELP SAVE ME DROWNING DYING ARGH
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:22:00 PM
argh.
raining the whole damn day until my nose dripping like tap the whole damn day. zZz. anyway today school was slack and the 1 hour break wasn't so bad. just that my nose kept dripping. blah. 212 is interesting as well as 217A =) i have good taste WAHAHAHHAA and so do those who are taking them with me ^^
gotta do 212 readings soon but so damn lazy. tomorrow's 830am lesson some more! gahhh. 10-1 i have this freaking long break, then grace is gonna save me at 1-2 then 2-4 i got 221 tutorial ARGH FREAKY SHAREN LIU then 1.5hrs later is my japanese. hmm. gah i fucking hate breaks.
hmm. ok la, not a bad day on the whole. hmm. sometimes it's really very hard analysing what people are thinking. argh. i really think i'm just a source of entertainment. -_- haiz. would you ignore someone for a game? well some people do. i'm no exception. that time J also ignored me like almost totally for FF11.
hai. regarding the sms, sk said might be lewd LOL
well i dunno leh. hmm.
as i said, hard to analyse.
i go chat on phone with benben le~
ciaoz blog!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:35:00 PM
yatta! i got my jap ge!
jap lv 3 here i come!! and JLPT3 awaits in dec!
whee~~~~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:55:00 AM
am i happy? am i mad? am i living the life of the transient follower?
i was actually gonna blog earlier before midnight but i didn't want to spoil the birthday wishes post hahaha. i missed lessons on tuesday due to my extreme laziness. i really have no mood for school. i'm not ready yet! don't take me!
hah.. an sms out of nowhere that gets me wondering, pondering. i thought i'd lost it but i guess i still retain some of it. wondering why the hell that sms came through after disappearing for so long... it's not too late. comtemplating the reasons, the motivations. yes, i think too much.
am i just a source of entertainment or am i something more? it's hard to analyse human behavior. it's so bloody fucking tough. sigh. don't know if i should take things at face value, move on, grow up, find different avenues. wait and be the stupid idiot or leave only to regret? telling me stuff out of the blue... and then i wonder: am i the only one stuff gets told to? am i the only source of entertainment on the list? am i the only thing on the mind? hah. wishful thinking as always. i shall not chide you, for you are only 20, a mere fledging. but soon you will be 21. are you ready to spread your wings and head for distant skies? or will you roost in the comfort of your warm nest watching as the leaves turn golden many more times until your eyes see no more?
haha, at least i am (i hope) an interesting source of entertainment. that's something to be happy about. in a way. only time will tell. however i do prefer more outward actions, but not too outward please. tactics tactics...
blah. spouting nonsense at 130am. i should be sleeping. school's in 12 hours!
hope tomorrow... things run smoothly. currently i am contented with what i have seen so far of 2006. will it get better? or will it get worse? the weather foretells the latter. i do hope it is the former.
2006...
i really should get down to making my resolutions. but i never ever keep them.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:16:00 AM
happy 21st mu!
old old old old liaooo
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:35:00 AM
happy new year all!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:25:00 AM
This is my blogchalk:
(.. ) ( .. ) ( ..)
`/.tagGiE~.\'
To Do List - JAN
.devote&resolve
.stevie
.jog
.plan for poison
To Do List - FEB
.3rd MUSE
.13th - 16th: HCNY
.jog
.work x3
.plan for poison
To Do List - OTHERS
.make pyong the fox for my sis (bought materials)
.clean my ps2 lens
.read more thought-provoking books
.start writing again (poetry/songs/prose)
.study philo/random theories/psychology
.study business theories
.tidy the place
.actually BUY a swimsuit
.learn how to swim
.bake
.design wall mural for room
.learn how to knit/crochet properly
.print my grad photos
HOSHII MONO
.ryokou
.phD/masters behavioural psychology
.BANANA.BANAO
.shiawase
.yasetai