Thursday, November 30, 2006

the makan that nearly didn't happen

bad mood ytd.
slept 7+am.
today woke up 3pm.
actually still in a sian mood.

nearly didn't go meet friends.

but glad i went.

FOOD FOOD
G L O R I O U S
food~

fill the stomach
and it fills you with happiness
no?

heh.

sunshine plaza wanton mee
dim sum
T_T no custard pau
all sold out since 4pm
T___T

oh wells.
next time
camp there early
eat all
=D~~~~

greedy pig that is me
blehs.

walked to bugis
dessert
ahahahaha merry go round of 4 desserts
i wan go back and eat them all to myself!
*glutton*

wahahahhahaha

THEN
i managed to find something
not exactly what i wanted
but yeah!
i think it will do just fine
=)

k
time to agnonize over other stuff
like
when is my pay coming
and
xmas presents
and
guild bbq
and
jlpt3 exam

wheeeee

energized.
feed me
and i will fade slower
n_n

btw shingn3t not that kns afterall.
the new plans are cheaper.
gonna get 5mbps in 3 days' time.
arrrr
so fast for what?
but mom decided on it.
anyway it's cheaper than my current 1.5mbps also
she pays...
she decide.
anyway i was still slping like a pig
$5 more than the 1.5mbps plan anyway
so why not?

blah.
i guess
in 2 yrs
i might have a pc
so it wld b btr.
attachments wld get bigger
videos to do
meh.

k lah
it's gd.

JUST BROKE
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:25:00 PM

nothing is worth it
when the bearer herself
is worthless

please spare yourself the hassle.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:59:00 AM

feck

feel like a stewpig fool.
actually i dunno what i'm doing le.
why i go sign up for aud tourney altho i sark so much?
that i dunno also.
actually all i want is the audition cap now =X
it would make my day XD

i wan to go shopping so badly.
but
where the feck is my fooking pay
as my mom puts it,
when are the acorns gonna drop for me?
feck them la.

OWE MONEY PAY MONEY I DUN CARE
FECK U
DUN CARE U WAD BIG FUCK COMPANY
GIMME A CALL WITH GOOD NEWS
TML
DUN CARE
FECK IT

FECK FECK FECK FECK

argh
disgustingly bad mood today.
i mean after i got home,
not when i was outside with mu and ben
of cos not
i wun be angry with them de

came home
tried to recontract the fecking broadband.
feck u la Shingn3t
knn the person say recontract can do online
fine
i came home tried to do online
cos use my sister's name to reg
and she haben 18
said cannot
eh feck u shingn3t
den ur stupid 'support' hotline is what fuck ah
make ppl listen to voice recording until they go mad ah
my mom wait wait for 1/2 hr
u no service her
simi lan jiao i thought shingApOOR supposed to be a service nation with quality?
eh feck u la
this morning apparently my dad tried to be macho again
ahaha
stewpig guys
and their stewpig egos
he try to call
my mom said after 10min he slam down the phone
ahahahahaha
ahhahahahahaha
SO FECKING FUNNY
AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAH

waDeva

den the fecking offer ends like 29th nov
ooo ended le
feck u la

ok if that didn't get me pissed off enough,
i tried to play some audition
den my sis watching her anime on arts central
say too loud, disturbing her show
eh feck u la
that's the reason why
i dun listen to music
i dun sing
FECK U LA
I'VE BEEN COMPLAINING ABT THIS SINCE I WAS IN SECONDAY SCH OWTF
FECK

if not my sister and her noise tolerance,
it's my fats,
if not that, then recently, it's abt my lack of ability
(or disabilities, if it were apt to put it that way)
feck it

FECKKKKKKKKK EVERYTHING LAH

so she complains
oh yes she does
i wear earphones she also complain
if not
1) spoil my ears
then it's
2) i can still hear it

FECK U LA
UR EAR IS SIMI LAN JIAO AH
THOSE ELEPHANT SATELLITE TRANSCEIVER AH
AR?
THOSE DISH EARS AH
FECK IT

simi lan
SIMI LAN KU KU JIAO
DULAN

den she forever
do this do that
for proj, for cca
i noe it's not my business but
think they're throwing everything to her to do
cos she will do it
and she will do a good job

hey why am i even supporting her when i scolded her earlier.
feck it i dunno either.

anyway she always like doing report,
helping ppl proof read n edit,
doing proposal for outdoor expedition.
like until 4am those kind.

eh pls leh auntie
not even uni
wad is this.

dot dot dotz
and feck it la
dun use her la
her work is gd but u make her do ur work also
feck u la u lan jiaos and cheebyes

yA
i know
the dith of late
damn bloody vulgar
how ah?
i dunno how also.
vulgar temper deserves vulgar tongue
maybe it's all the temper i've never shown
ahahahaha
siao gina ah u, dith.

sigh.
feck it.
feck everything.
feel like slamming my head on a sharp spike over and over again.
sighz.
sadded

well,
nothing in this world is perfect.
hope the splotch my head juices make
won't be too ugly.
and hope my brains look nice
and not too ugly

but i think my brains are already scrambled.
maybe cos i used to release my stupid anger when i was younger
by banging my head on the wall

well,
it helps.
better than slapping someone right.
bang own head better than inflict harm
anyway
kill myself earlier
better ah.

maybe i shd pick up smoking eh
every stick is like
minus an hour or a day of ur life?
good good

let me die with a black heart
a black mind
and black lungs

rocks.

on the subject of colors,
i bought green nail polish today.
comments:
mom: ooo nice color. not blue not green, very oceany.
sis: yucks. why u buy this color. not nice one.

shrug.
i like can liao.
comment comment so much.
not like i will paint ur face right.
hah.
maybe i shd.
HAHAHAHAHAHAH

wanted to drink the bottle of nail polish remover.
smelled suspiciously like alcohol.
well,
it IS alchohol
but i think cannot drink.
wonder ah
i drink it
will it taste the same?
will i get high?
will i choke?
is it like shots?
what's the concentration?
will all that happen before i die?
will i even die?
or foam at the mouth and get sent to ttsh for stomach pumping?

ahahahaha
will i suffer brain damage?

what do i live for man.
i dunno leh.
blur already.
entertainment?
simi cock story
don't come tell me about fecking chicken shit stuff

shingapOOr is a bleddy microchip city.
we're all the inhabitants on this microchip
dammit
so sucky
insignificant shiat
organized shiat
structured shiat
manufactured shiat

SHIAT THIS
i wanna go out
and smell the nice smell of freshly cut grass
i want to dance like there's no tomorrow
without the bloody smoke and puke in shingaPOOR's discos
i want to live in a comfortable house
with all my good friends
then there would be no need for a computer cos
there's no need for cmc now, is there?
games wouldn't be pressing buttons

FECK BUTTONS

games would be those really move your body kind
creative
inventive
innovative
exciting
full of laughs

we'd tell many jokes throughout the night
in front of a campfire
roasting marshmallows until the goo slid off the stick and
plopped onto the sandy earth
and then we'd laugh at the poor unfortunate sod
and he or she would have to toast the marshmallow again
but then everyone would offer mr or ms unfortunate their marshmallow
because
that's what you do with friends
you laugh at their misfortune
but you don't mean it in a bad way
and then you share your happiness with them
so that they feel fortunate again.

feck u
stop fantasizing all this sick shiat

you know what you should think abt?
wake up
at a set time
every morning
after you
brush your teeth
wash your face
bathe
you
wear your uniform
and go to work
and at work
you work
you only work
stony eyed
busy bee
work work work
until it is time to go home
but no
you don't go home
you do OT
because that's what everyone does anyway
so what is OT anyway?
so the company doesn't pay u for it and
instead
incorporates it into usual office hours
finally you crawl home
after 10pm
sometimes you don't even get to go home
hot shower
hot meal
hi and a bye to family
bed
sometimes you don't even see any of them
by the time you get home
you only see closed doors and
hear snores
snores anticipating the alarm clock ring
of another long work day tomorrow

rinse repeat
over and over again

like
what
the
FECK
is
that
sort
of
FECKING
life
i
ask
you
?

ugh.

so irritated.
and i'm irritated with myself
what?
waste money
what?
insensitive
what?
think too much
what?
too vulgar
what?
lazy
what?
nv study for jlpt3
what?
poor
what?
selfish
what?

i'm just being who i am

and being who i am
is the only thing i know
whether for bad or good
it's who
and
what
i am.

and wasn't that a fecking long post?
=\
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:38:00 AM

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

societal faults
breed humans like me

i'm the sort of gal who will refuse stuff.
i don't like to freeload.
i like to stand on my own two feet.
i can read things but i don't let on that i know.
don't underestimate me.

i am my own person.
i will not change for anyone.
and although i seem very even tempered
don't test my patience.
grudges are forever.
=)

i like my messy hair
its got personality
i like my no-makeup rule
i save money
i like my short nails
cleaner and easier
i like my fringe covering my eyes
free shades
fack you if you want to change me
=D

if you don't like the way i am,
go ask yourself
why are you the way u are?
^^

i'm just an internet friend.
don't treat me so well.
it might not come back to you.
i'm still waiting for one person.
that person better be worth the wait.
give face.
give chance.
ahahaha.
although i heck care abt that person le but.
it's the curiosity eh.
lol.

as for being the way i am.
it's not my fault.
society
and people living in this society
made me this way.

---the black comedy continues---

anyway today mission success!
CHAIN x2

as usual, running late.
by the time i reached cityhall it was like 640pm
movie at 720pm
walao haben buy tix
ahahaha
so i chiong down on my poor feet
and cussing under my breath cos got knnccb many ppl
ahahaha.
chiong to movie theatre gave my friend a call
eh tmd.
he bluff me say he cannot make it
luckily i gd mood
else.

KABOOMBAAAAAAAAABAAAAAAHH

rawr.
anyway ya Happy Feet is gd.
graphics =D~
story is like lololol
wasn't reli expecting it
ahahahhaha
damn ironic black musical comedy
ahahahahahahhahaha

hmm k
that's abt all.
so-so dota game just now.
now having a semi sot msn chat
ahahahaha

i'm a bit high
and a bit hungry
wheeee

ok btr study for jap
AHAHAHAHHA FARK
BOOK OVERDUE
AND JAP IS LIKE IN
4 fucking days
AHHAHAHAHA FUCK

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:31:00 AM

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

alert

owl flying home 21st dec.
she say her flight 355am reach but don't want to tell me details.
LOL.
she scared i reli go thr wait for her..
(and pluck out all her feathers XD)

ok
let's plan her belated bdae celebration
(and buy present)
and organize our usual xmas gathering
^^
raWrrrr.

LMAO+S
=D

she said tentatively she's free except maybe on 23rd dec.
mulala maybe we both plan first.
since auyong bro still having exams.
wahahaha
shit the exams!!!!!!!!!!

anyway dith quite free to plan alone too.
TOO FREE AH.

wa stress.
my fren starting internship at megaM on 7th dec le.
womg.
i stressed.

kk.
dun think abt internship le.
more n more nervewrecking.
and my stomach churning and butterflies flying.
ahahahaha.

kk time to p0m.

HAPPY FEEEEEEET
penguins penguins!
teh dancing penguins!!!!!!!!
hee.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:45:00 PM

the triad of evil
aka laziness is an evil.

every single day.
i now battle with 3 evils.
every day is a battle.

evil #1:
the laziness of not being able to wake up.
i cannot bear to leave my bed,
nor my dreams,
nor open my eyes.
the best i can do is manage a feeble
slit-eye monitoring of the amount of light in the room
and roll back to sleep.
takes me AGES to wake up.

evil #2
the laziness of having a shower.
so hard for me to get my ass to the shower.
i take 30 to 45 minutes to bathe.
no wonder i hate it.
eh don't worry i will eventually bathe.
so i'm clean ok.
=X
EVENTUALLY.

evil #3
the laziness of not moving.
once i sit somewhere or stone somewhere,
takes me a damn long and hard time moving.
lazy to get my butt up.
even if i want to play ps2,
once my ass is stuck at the comp,
that's it man.
even my own internal chiding cannot move me.
blame it on inertia, really.
EVIL.
and this leads to...

MASSIVE EVIL
the laziness of not going out.
which in actual fact is a result of all the above 3.
blah.

but you know, once i get through all that.
i don't wanna come home but wanna keep going out
and having fun.
bleh.
but i have to come home.
and when i do,
the next day,
when i EVENTUALLY wake up
and PRISE MY eyes open with a METAL FORKLIFT
i don't wanna go out.

VICIOUS CYCLE I TELL YOU.

......

anyway today i went out despite waking up late (evil #1 conquered!) and it raining.
played some ffxii, killed the niddhog then went to p0m (evil #2 conquered!). still raining arr. but hungry and i like promised my mom for a long time i wld go out with her but keep dragging cos of my laziness. so went out (evil #3 and MASSIVE EVIL conquered!).

---MISSION SUCCESS---

went hub makan makan.
accompany mama pay bills, deposit moneh,
then took 143 to UE square there.
followed a japanese lady and her 2 daughters to Liang Court.
drizzling.
discovered something good at the kino there.
got bargain section
=X
fma 2 special collector's edition figurine + manga
slash down to $8 each.
i bought book 2 and 4.
cos those were the only there =_=
although not in mint condition but.
eh cheap.
and counted as japanese books.
cos the manga in japanese.

hmm.
bargain place good sia.
got graphic novels there also. cheapz.
but that kino also got many japanese novels.
next time i learn japanese until sui sui hoh seh le, i go buy and read
=D

although those not on offer,
but damn cute leh the cover and the size.
although so many words.
see liao i kena flood.
x_x

saw the book mama borrowed from lib.
arr.
overdue but.
it's selling in kino for $99.
whoa man.

nvm i overdue awhile more wun die.
=D

finally found the escalator to the basement.
ahaha.
u noe the toilet is located near a shop called Fragrance
=X
damn ironic hor.
XD

finally got to eat my green tea red bean ice cream again
^_^
happy.

that one is the best one sia.
r0cks.

shopped awhile in meidi-ya
den dad joined us for dinner.
wah everywhere closed cos it's a monday,
although only 8+pm.
finally went to red hill market to eat.

dun eat the fried egg ommelette stall.
no nice one.
dad bought kway chap -_-
i had to eat.
but of cos i nv touch the organs
=X
only add the tau p0k and egg and 1 piece of san cham bak.
lolz.

eh eh.
thurs prob going eat sunshine plaza wanton mee.
=D~
salivating le.
custard pau!
eh the dimsum stall there was featured in a food show just now.
i think yummy king.
ahahaha.
the custard pau was featured.
ahahaha.

SALIVATING LE
DROOLING LE
QUICK THURSDAY COME
I WAN EAT

wahahaha
i'm such a pig.

ok i just realised that food gets me out of the house.
-_-

wah pIG to the
EXTREME SIA.

it's TUESDAY
means
HALF PRICE CHEESECAKE

ANYONE WAN?

CHEAPSKATE DITH GETS UP AND GOING AGAIN.

but first,
bed.

see tml i can wake up or not.
need a sledgehammer to knock me out of my dreamworld sia.
ahahahs.

keep playing dota at night too.
blehs.
i'm siaoz.

kk BED.
night.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:40:00 AM

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

faith

many things in life need faith.
whether it's a tiny spark of faith that no one realises is there,
or a gigantic leap of faith in a life or death situation.

i...
am losing faith in my overdue pay.
i...
think i'm losing faith in myself again as a person.
i...
am finding hard to keep up the wavering faith for my internship.
i...
am losing faith in my eq.
i...
lost faith in my abilities and then found them again. but it was hard.
i...
have lost faith in caring about what time i sleep.

actually all those mean nothing.
ki,
don't lose faith.
read your entry.
although don't understand 50% of it.
but hang in there.
come back! >.<

hmm 12 dec jcs exam results out
3rd dec jlpt3 exam
dunno which date of dec sch exam results out
21st dec steph coming sg
26th dec kaze coming sg
15 or 16 dec guild bbq
17 or 18 dec jcs outing
25th dec xmas
30th nov to 3rd dec sitex (no pay... haish)
2nd jan to 11th jun internship (haish x999 dmg)
25th nov go back ntu for japanese

i think got nth more le.
memory increasingly disgusting.
and don't even feel like blogging.
wtf.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:55:00 PM

Sunday, November 19, 2006

MIA

if you're looking for me,
the best way is via my handphone.
because i am gonna be afk in msn,
blog also neglect liao.

exams were disgusting.
still got exams coming up.
but those.
hah.
can go fly chicken kite lah.

playing a combination of ps2 and pc games.
play ffxii, people watch tv, i run to pc play maple/audition.
if not, i'll be in bed sleeping.
heh.

catch up on sleep?
nahs.
catch up on games?
yahs.
but i can't neglect my social life,
so do ask me out
=D
i'm free till jan 2nd.

make my holidays fruitful.
^^

hmm tml going yishun makan laksa,
then go bugis take jap oral,
then go meet hm awhile.
then...
go home...
PLAY GAME.
(and of cos study for 325 larhs. omg i nearly forgot. LOL. JIALAT.)

yeah man.
damn pig life.

somehow i know i'll be wasting it all away as usual~
bleahs.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:47:00 AM

Thursday, November 16, 2006

fuck my exams.
mou shinjyatta.
fuck fuck...

DIE LOOOO.
z-z time to slp.
must wake up 7am latest.
4hrs to koonz.

UGH
shdn't have played audition till 1am.
=_="

forever one leh u.
STOP PLAYING GAME.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:49:00 AM

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

omg la.
the shit u can find on the internet.
i can find ppl i dun even noe just by entering their names.
do a background check.
find their picture.

i can find myself too...
saw my 221 proj and my ntu website.
LOL. WTF.

wa i search for my name can also find my uncle's name.
o_o
ya he's quite famous oso.
=X

found a forum which i posted desparately to last time for a proj.
OMG WHY I ALSO FOUND MY MUSIC NAME AND TRACK LISTING IN A HP SITE?



found myself on sgma forums also.
ok that's all i found.
amazing.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:40:00 PM

kirai

daikirai.
ashita mo shiken ga aru.
3 satsu shiken ga aru mo.

TAIHEN
KOMATTEIRU

IMA MADA BENKYOU SHITEINAI

KOMATTEIRU

TAIHEN TAIHEN

DARE KA TASUKETE?

ARGHHHHH

SHINJYATTA...
X_X

anyway after exam had lunchers with grace, pt, kam, cyn.
happy to see them. =)
den tried to study a bit but failed.
den went with kam to the provision shop.
i bought too many snacks.
wad a pig.

den went cityhall meet nya.
wa he oso another komatteiru hito.
demo his is koi no se.
watashi no wa shiken no se.
sianz.

i see him i oso wanna peng actually.
cos i can sense his pain.

demo, not as if i nv experienced it before.
n he still dunno that the causer was him.
=X
but i am over it.
=P

now i just am missing my bed bad bad.
missing my games bad bad.
missing going out bad bad.
missing my fwens bad bad.
missing slacking bad bad.

ahhh.
sianz.

k i think i shd study.
baibaiz!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:23:00 PM

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

mou hajimeta! shinjyattaaaA

one exam down, 7 to go.
tml is 301.
the beginning of the peak of madness.
today sakubun damn relaxing.
anyhow write oso can la.
sianz one.
titles were:
watashi no kuni (my country)
watashi no suki na basho (a place i like)

i ran off after finishing.
i hate the lifts at midland house.
damn annoying and the door open door close like half spoilt.
nvm.
helped mama buy stuff from 4 leaves,
ran to dbg to meet 9 ppl =X
ki hebi yw hs hx sh jx cl and of cos the star of the outing,
wendy.
cos she flying off le.

i only hung around 20min ba.
i oso nid to go home study.
301 is a touch and go thing.
322 is a test of my technical knowledge.
323 testing analysis.

die le.
very worried for thurs.
nvm i can do it.
fri i can slp like a pig le.
=)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:57:00 PM

3 hours late to bed,
3 hours late to rise.
3 hours late for exam kamo.

LOL.

sianz.
audition is damn boring.
except when you have ppl to play with.
kyou kaze to isshoni asobeta.
^^
benben mo isshoni.

need to slp.
ja mata.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:42:00 AM

Monday, November 13, 2006

gah

the prestige is gd.
one of the best movies hollywood has churned out this year.
am pleased with it.

but am feeling totally down and in my own bubble today.

i won't say it outright.
but.
you're just not my type.
hen na kanji
argh.

like i said.
out of 3, probably 1 will pass.
or none.
i'm like that.
it has to start with me liking you.
if i don't,
most probably you won't cut it.
i'm sorry.

unfortunately,
out of those i like,
it's rare any of them like me back.

i'll see how in dec.
another one bites the dust?

feeling bad.
but damn heavy like a weight hanging off me.
sux.

k time to afk n try to study.
bbais`.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:16:00 PM

ushiro no mono
aka "the things left unsaid"

the things faded into the background.
the backdrops.
the set.
the backstage crew.
the hardwork put in prior to the event.

the things left unsaid.

you are the thing left unsaid.
unspoken yet of many words.
the silence in the conversation is you,
the thing left unsaid.
you are the trough in the sine wave.
vacillating through its
sinosidal movements.

habitual action
te-imasing.

contagious.
infectious.
nerarenai.
mada kangaeteiru.
donna koto o kangaeteiru kana?

the thing left unsaid.
what is your name of the shadows?
i dunno how to address you.
stop following me.

faded broken fragmented porcelain light.
burnt bent brittle
the thing left unsaid.

will you please tell me
what you are?

although i already know...
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:24:00 AM

nichiyoubi no koto

time to end my day and turn in for the night.
wanna slp den i go blog lolz.
bad habit.
but i do it because my life, like a traditional hollywood film, needs closure to tie up the loose ends.
and i go through the hollywood way every day.

somehow it's like the european style too.
in the sense that my life is character driven rather than plot driven.
how and why?
my story is about a girl. me.
my life is boring. hence no story.
just fragments of happenings.

this morning i was supposed to wake up n meet nya at 10am.
but as usual, i overslept.
what a baka pig i am
=(
kept turning off my alarm when it rang at 8+am.
blah.
before i knew it,
there was a phone call from nya.
10am+ le.
OMG
fainted.

heng he not mad at me.
anyway i gave him my entire ferrero rocher winnings share to appease him
ahahaha.
actually 6 only.
=X
cos the day before i ate one, mom ate one.
hahaha nvm la.
let him grow fat.
he too skinny le.

stoned in the study room in smu.
stoned till 8+ or 9pm.
study study stone stone.
i even fell aslp at one point.
nya din even noe i fell aslp, he said.
lolz.
around 4+ or 5pm we went downstairs buy lunch from kopitiam.
wa machiam it's like our house the coffeeshop liddat.
now i unds a bit of the culture there.
but i still like ntu.
funny i'm saying it, but i prefer my life at ntu.

at least the food is cheaper.
there's no annoying security card system.
the traffic light dun hab and not irritatingly off at the bloody junction.
and there's no annoying bustle of traffic to annoy.
but ok la.
still very condusive.
i managed to finish my 323 readings.
(those that i have with me anyway)
and study finish japanese 1 round.
tml i go sch.
i shall study 301 and 322 tml then.
maybe study some jap when i get home oso.
tue jap sakubun liaoz.
i better go memorize the format.
burn my past compo into a glass and drink.
or go blend in a blender with vanilla ice cream and make a smoothie.
or do both at once.
double blended vanilla ice cream smokey paper notes frapp.
=_="
lolz.

actually i'll jus sleep with the notes under my pillow.
higher absorption rate.
=E

wed is 301 le.
scared.

thu 322 323 jap
scared i might not last the day.
scared late for jap exam.

but after that i'll be damn seng nang~
looking fwd~
tanoshimi~

k phone call.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:34:00 AM

Sunday, November 12, 2006

audition no hou ga disgusting

new mode.
beatup mode.
just patched today.
just tried playing the new mode.
just got re-addicted to auditon.
=_=
it's easy actually the new mode.
maybe i find it easy cos i used to play ddr.
played like 1hr+ den can play level 2 and can combo quite high.

of course level one dunnid to say
i combo roller coaster combo until 599
-_-
sadz

ya it's quite easy.
can just slack n play this new mode.
heh.
make mistake not so costly also.
and ki, =X i dunnid to get other ppl to press spacebar
wahahhahahaa
*haolians*

=_=

sigh
addicted.
zzz
tml how to wake up.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:46:00 AM

Saturday, November 11, 2006

kitanai neko

nya is disgusting o_O
just now on the phone he anyhow joke we go private room in his sch and hanky panky wtf o_o
LOL
but he's just playing.
baka nya.
=X
nvm i play with him also.
i said 'okAy~~'
den he said 'wa now i really feel like trying'.
den i said, 'haha, up to you lor, up to you lor =P'
den he said, 'damn, you saw through it. not fun liao.'

LOL.

dotz.
but i still think he's damn farnie and entertaining.
really like him as a fren.

came up with new set of lamez0rs stuff.
this time it was very diablo2.
hahahahaha.
ahmaozon, valadin, batbarian, catsassin, dithruid...
m3h.
the company Blizzard became Lizard under val chan's bat company management.
diablo2 got new expansion called diablo LOLZ - lord of lame laughter zzz.
ok very lame lah.

demo, mae no kimochi wa eien ni kienai yo.
nagasugiru jikan ga tooru to, mou koi kanji ga nain da.
=3

dammit, japanese sakubun on tue, wed is 301 (and i'm watching moobie with nya and another maple friend of ours. mutual but i nv meet her before. he neither, but she meeting him =O), thurs is horrigible marathon or paper flurrython of 322 323 and japanese rikaibunpou.
den the others are just calafare shiat toilet paperz.

THIS WEEK HAD BETTER PASS SLOWLY WHILE NEXT WEEK HAD BETTER PASS FAST.

k ganbare minna~
bbais~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:36:00 PM

battle 1 boss fight over, 2nd form battle 2 boss fight mou hajimeta~

...raishuu no kayoubi no koto.

soshite, battle no junbi wa mada shinaiii.
shinjyatta~
naku natte shimatta~
mochiron~
T.T

today was the last official day of sch.
ya i noe it is saturday..
doyoubi na no ni, gakkou mada attan da.
hen da yo saa?
hehe.

but i think it was a gd day.
322 peer video review.
=)
well, i must say the hard work paid off.
love my video1 grp.
altho i feel like i was a passenger most of the time but
XD
i am happy to be part of them
=D
lesbian cells, forever flu studio director, damn crappy and damn cold and damn hot and damn tiring times together and all.
oh and our 2 trays of ferrero rocher rocks!
XD
eat until die
the catered food also good.
actually,
there WAS pork.
but hey, ignorance is bliss.
=S

very surprised.
very amazed.
eat until full full.
stuffed face with 3 slices of cake.
walao.
ate one white choc star =3
so nice the star.
drank 2 cups of tea and 1 cup of cordial.
one big plate of rice n food.

HM, ur grp's one had gd stuff too..
but i agree that ntb is really EYER lah.
hahahaha.
i liked the opening seq a lot.
altho the loop of the 3 musicians a bit irritating cos jerky and not a smooth loop.
the breakers also good.
who did all those?
grace said the set design was nice altho the color a bit dun match but v nice.
i thot the painted-on keyboards very neat and straight. how'd u do that?
diya is a very good presenter.
confident.
sure of her words.
conversational.
and erm, nathan is weird.
lol.
heard this comment from someone else also.
someone he tried to hit on. but failed.
=O

and sam is damn gossipmonger.
he go spread the shit abt steven all over the tutorial grps.
poor wa-wa.
LOL.
so we stick the ferrero rocher sticker all over him.
and he got this obsession/crush over the female guest who came.
he went to find out she's teaching at nie.
lolol.

=X

and everyone knows i have lesbian cells and we slept together
XD

mm, after that went home, i met mu at braddell, we went to the game shop,
she bought 3 games, one of which was ffxii. hahahaha.
eh i also feel like playing now but my sis slping outside on the chair.
=(
komatteirun!

getting a bit heaty from lack of slpz.
i'm gonna abstain from eating the 8 rocher i koped.
study engines on full blast.

projs all over le.
but somehow it feels like...
i still have stuff to submit and loose strings to die.
wonder why.

k ciaoz!
jiayouz all~
=)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:26:00 PM

Friday, November 10, 2006

mata nani mo shita

wasted today sleeping
wasted today msning
wasted today trying to finish lunch which took 2hrs to eat
later going out meet sharonz and muz.
i'm quite lazy to go out cos v shag
oh and i haven't do work
shit
ok i must remember to do review for tml
haven't even check review is when x_x
sighz

OK U MUST REMEMBER.

after movie str8 away go home.
regardless need to take cab or what
also must go home.
i hope movie wun so long
like last time lololol
stupid deathnote.

fruck.
ok.
after sat it's fulltime engine blast.
studyyyy.

damn sad with my 323 essay grades.
i sux.
=(
i suspect for 323 i'll get a C in the end
damn shd have made it my ge
and 325 be pe
sianz.
=(

J i hope my lousy work dun drag u down for 325
T_T

sighz.

btw i reli wanna watch the prestige.
i noe who i can ask to watch with me la.
demo,
shd i?
mata?

n i think he is not lying
shd have taken him seriously
lololz.
now i feel so bad for anyhow playing the game the way he wants to play it.
cos now he stuck in the game
and it's my move
but i dunno how to move!
someone roll the dice for me~

u noe
after meeting you, nya,
i take ppl less seriously
omae no se da
haish.
i'm evil evil

i've been a bad bad girl..
LOL.

2 ppl have said my msn pic look like ah lian
wonder who will be next.
=X

k time to pom n go out le
ciaoz.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:23:00 PM

buroggu e ittara, nani ka mita

eh
i saw smth on kaze to iu hito's blog.
uso ja nai kamo

itsumo shinji ga hanashiteiru kana?

anyway today so happy.
finished the frucking 325.
dragged my sorry ass to sch.
cursed one too many times in class.
i think lecturer heard me exclaim 'fuck' and 'shit' many times in lesson.
LOL.
OOPS.

he oso dun care.

dvd had some problem.
J wa watashi ni naoshite kureta
=)
tanonda. hontou ni arigatou na ^^

u noe what,
i think there's a chemistry btwn me and J
that's why we are still friends.
but it's not a romantic chemistry
i cannot stand being with a guy like him
LoL
it's just a chemistry

you readers of my blog,
don't think too much la.

i have chemistry with some others too.
but it's very neutral.
i mean i go out i feel like damn happy,
damn relaxed.
can be myself.
can talk a lot.
etc.
demo it's also non-romantic ba.
it's a bit like having a good relationship with a person of the same gender as you.
same-sex non romantic relationship.
but it's translated to opposite genders.
aka platonic ba.

but of course,
i still sit and look back and wonder.
ka dou ka? ka dou ka? ka dou ka wakannai jyan?
itsumo. itsudo mo. kiite.

tml J having breakfast with kin at kallang mcD.
LOL.
J don't bribe him with hash browns.
nor threaten him with chilli garlic sauce.
nor shove a fry up his nose hor.
lol.
nor hotcake his face.
=X

SO WEIRD LAH LOLZ
i can't wake up early n i can't be bothered to go
=x
have fun lah J.
hahahhaaha
J so funny.
look like woman.
criticize ppl badly.
vainpot himbotic but CANNOT MAKE IT
i always end up arguing VULGARLY with him
but i think he makes my life have more color
altho he loves b&w photog.
hahahaha.
paradox eh.

dun worry la J
i think you're trustworthy
altho damn guai lan
and damn cb
but i trust you.
so settle the shit misunderstanding
^^
n be happier.

actually J always has confidence in me.
altho he always criticizes other ppl badly.
iono man.
maybe it's really a similar vision and philosophy thing.
iono.
or my self expectations are too high.
hmm.
debatable.

met vin for moobie today.
yay so happy i managed to fly out from class.
altho dvd had some problem
but J fixed for me le
tml gonna pass up
tytyty
=)

and lol.
seriously ah?
the contest submission?
we need a withdrawn quiet looking guy to act leh
if we're gonna do that epiloguey thingamajiggy
i seriously love that butterfly portion i did
LOL WTF

self praise.

listening to the song kaze sent me
the one which he posted lyrics of.
=3

i think what he said on his blog is sweet.
iono if he noes i noe his blog
and iono if he noes my blog
demo all this mystery is fun, ne?
heh.

tempted to leave a comment as an anon user.
LoL.

mo ka dou ka wakannai jyan.

oops sry i was talking abt something then got distracted.
finally watched Sinking of Japan with vin.
although it's like 3 wks late.
finally!

hmm he said smth which i think might be true?
he said smth like,
'you always try to seem to have time but you're actually very busy'
i dunno leh.
but i reli feel like i have a lot of time
maybe i cannot manage time well
and maybe those slots when i am free,
no one talk to me also
and maybe i sleep too little
and i do a lot of last min rush work
so maybe that's why i feel like i am very free leh.
iono.

ate pizza hut today.
rawr.
long time no eat.
demo dunno why i eat dun feel full.
shit man
my stomach is a carvernous pit.

ate half hawaiian, half super supreme.
hahaha.

ano.
sometimes i think knowing a bit of the language is bad leh.
while watching Sinking of Japan,
i kept thinking like,
1) wah can i understand this when they say in jap?
2) wah i cannot conc on subtitles and listen and try to test myself
3) wah so chim
and knowing film language also is taihen.
4) wa this shot composition v nice
5) tmd the cg very nice
6) tmd the miniatures v nice
7) is this film or dv?
8) wow scientific termz
9) wah the budget damn big for this
and so on and so forth.

cannot conc ah!
rawr.

hmm.
came home, took some zilian pix while waiting for mei to use finish comp,
chatted on phone to J and HM.
hm jiayouz for jap oral.
=)
i oso nid to prac.
my japanese damn sark.

feeling quite happy altho tml i cannot go meet them for steam boat at marina
=(
demo i can meet mu and bloody ren.
mu to sharon ga aeru
=)
ii koto da
demo i wish i cld meet both grps.
=(
times like these,
i wish i can divide into two.
haish.

nvm it will be gd
it's always gd
love going out
but i always keep going out near exams
i die liao
=X

cya in hell
XD
bb~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:48:00 AM

Thursday, November 09, 2006

SENG NANG DEWA NAI

tmd lolz.
going 6am i haben slp.
needa wake up in 3hrs time.
see lah, i did it again.
oh fruckz.

WTF I JUS HEARD THE FIRST BUS

i was up doing the fucking dvd authoring
and it's so tmd irritating.

I HATE RENDERING AND RE-RENDERING AND ENCODING AND RE-ENCODING AND EXPORTING AND RE-EXPORTING AND ALL THE FUCKING WAITING TIME IT TAKES.
PLUS MY COMP KEEPS LAGGING.

LIKE I SAID,
I DO VIDEO ON MY COMP HALF BLIND.
ESPECIALLY AFTER EFFECTS.

WHY HALF-BLIND?

LAG ISSUES ON MY COMP.
LAG LAG LAG
HANG
WANNA DRAG IT BIGGER BUT IT HANG
OMG
THEN SUAY SUAY KENA SELECT ALL THE KEYFRAMES
THEN CHANGE ALL
ZOMG
THEN MUST UNDO
WAIT FOR IT TO UNDO
THEN TRY AGAIN AND PRAY IT DUN HANG

LOLOLOLOL WTF.

AND THE RAM PREVIEW.
WAHAHAHA EATS AND EATS UP MY COMPUTER MEMORY AND CPU USAGE
WAHAHAHAHHAA
EAT UNTIL HANG

AND THE TIMELINE STRETCH TO SO LONG DE.
I SEE LIAO BLIND
SEE ONCE, EYEBALL TURN 10 TIMES.
MONITOR TOO SMALL

DAMN I NID DUAL MONITORS
SO SHIOK OK
AND I WAN AT LEAST 19 INCH
WAHAHAHAHAHA

AIMING FOR THAT IN THE FUTURE
ACTUALLY,
I WANT 3 MONITORS.
MOST SHIOK

DUAL PROCESSOR
HYPERTHREADING
3GIG OF RAM
EVERYTHING HYPER HYPER FAST FAST
LINK ALL THE PROCESSORS TOGETHER

OK MAN
ELECTRICITY GONNA EAT UNTIL LIKE FUCK

SIAN
ALL THE ADOBE PRODUCTS ARE RAM-EATERS.
PHOTOSHOP WAS EATING 400MB OF RAM
WTF
AFX WAS EATING 97% OF CPU AND DUNNO HOW MUCH RAM.
100MB OF RAM AH
OK NOT SO BAD.
RUN PREMIERE PRO AND IT EATS DUNNO HOW MUCH RAM OSO
WALAOZ

BEST IS
DVD ENCORE

WALAO U SEE ALL THE FUCKING PRODUCTS
RAM EATERS MAN

but yeah man
i finished the fucking dvd authoring
imma fucking sleep for 3hrs now
BUT NOT EVEN FUCKING TIRED

OH FRUCKS.
tml movie sure slp on my friend
=(

kk
TIME TO KOONZ
POWAHH NAP
BAIBAIZ.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:44:00 AM

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

my 1hr in sch

woke up fricking late. noon.
by the time i reached sch it was 205pm. but it was ok, because my lesson was at 230.
my SINGULAR lesson.
but i had to go sch anyway.
1) help diana buy the book
2) go for that lesson cos got exam tipz

bought the book and a pack of sweets.
ahhh.
met sk on the way to the sch building.
too stoned to talk much to him.
actually i was gonna join him for japanese lesson,
i can still go down now la but fricking cold.
my nose keeps dripping.
still is.
on the mrt home it kept dripping,
i kept sniffling.
bAh.

after lesson met ceci at the bus stop.
hohoho.
had company home =D
after outram, was thinking abt internship,
hmm.
i got my company liao,
going to megaM.
=D
they accepted everyone.
hehe.

was craving smth sweet and something fried and juicy =X
went to mos burger to buy mussels x5 with mustard sauce and ichigo bliss x3 and green tea souffle for sis and mom to eat. also had peanut waffle from JP.

wah oh ya.

forgot to mention 2 things.

1) after 301, was stoning at vending machine when d*uffy came out and looked at me and said 'meredith, thank you' + his usual cheeky manner and stuff.
i was like totally STUNNED.
5 minutes later then i knew why.
wtf.

if you think i link things until too far liao,
he link until further.
i link 3 steps back at most.
he links 5+ steps.
LOL.

cos my teeshirt says;
"INSOMNIAC"
'WELCOME'

wtf.

so his thank you was saying to my shirt.
...

...

...

took me 5 minutes to know why.
LOL.
next time i shd reply stuff to ppl's shirts also.
i did before.
i read words on my friends' shirts.
then they also HUH.

hHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
good way to scam/con/prank ppl.
hurhur.

2) at JP with ceci cos she had some errands to run. halfway walking to JP, an indian guy approached us.
'sister, blahblahblah, paper, blahblahblah, etc'
eh i know it's racist, but i didn't understand his heavy accent.
in the end he wanted to photocopy his paper lah.
he wanted to know where to photocopy.
he used 'xerox' which is like so american.
hahaha.
then ok not only that.

first thing,
i know i'm a direction/help desk/signpost kinda thing.
i dunno why,
but ppl love to ask me stuff.
and mostly i dunno wtf they asking.
lucky got ceci else i LOL
quite scary cos he keep talking to me and telling me that
he work in sbw, first time here,
etc etc
and i dunno anything he saying
LOL
so i jus nod my head.
n he keep following me.
heng at the photocopy shop, he said
'thank you sisters' to me and ceci
den we zao off
=X
scary cos he quite 'friendly' as ceci put it.
arrr.
is this a racist recounting of my encounter?
but it's jus an encounter of a weird person.
and my weird 'helpdesk' attraction skillz
=_=
damn 1337 and haxx0r don't you think.

flu all the way home,
still flu-ing.
no mood do 325.
later then do.
now wanna watch saikano live action.
i must remember thurs go sls buy cdr
ran out of pandan cake le
damn sadded.
the dvd authoring i oso haben do.
hope the dvd encore works.
aww fuck.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:20:00 PM

afternoon like the dawn

slept like a wooden board last night after i dropped to bed.
slept like a plank, but i'm not as skinny as a plank... so i slept like a coffin...?
hollow hollow one.
no corpse cos i am the dead wood made into a coffin.
those plain kind no carving cos i v plain.

i think i was dreaming that i was being chased issit?
some action-rpg dream la.
blur liao.
forever dream this sort.
with conspiracy theories abound and running around and very indiana jones kind.

aiyoh very shag.

tonight come home must do 325.
ahhh.
shag si wo le.

maybe i dun go for jap.
maybe i come home den do 325...
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:11:00 PM

ahhh.
shagged but am still awake.
=S
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:33:00 AM

fuck you io

damn shit headache now and feeling damn shag.
heng tml the tut all no hab except for 301 which i am contemplating gg. sigh.
today ah, was studio recording day.
ok hung around sch then got panic when suddenly dunno why scroller vanished. wtfreak.
i nearly wanted to faint.
cos the scroller took damn long to do and my interview was soon. argh.
but i fixed it.
heh.
=D

-_-

later went for interview at megaM.
ahhh surprisingly i like them a lot now.
i hope i get it.
i think it went quite ok cos they actually said 'most likely i'll get it'.
ahhh.

cool.

smth to do with me wearing pink shirts.
=_=

heh

later rushed back sch..
studio recording was gd.

halfway damn fucking dulan.
nearly wanted to slap io.
fucker!

was so pissed off,
i retreated silently to my vt corner after ignoring him.
took my pen and drew a pissed off face on my script with the words "f.io" on it.
grrr.

scold me for nothing lor.
why he always like to pick on me.
one day i gonna slap him until he reli io.

GROWL
RAWR

i cfming vt thing with SD and PA
also not with io
cos thot no figure leader
but i found it
so i cfm with them ma
cos esp PA doing timing wad.

DON'T FUCK AROUND WITH ME LA IO
ANYHOW PICK ON ME AND ACCUSE ME V FUN ISSIT.
EVERY TIME
NO MATTER WHAT
U LOVE TO DO IT

KANINA CHAO CHEE BAI.
LAMPA LANJIAO
CHICKEN BANANA

ugh.

NVM
TODAY VT NV SCREW UP AT ALL OK
U CANNOT SAY MUCH ABT ME ISSIT
SO U MUST ACCUSE ME OF
'WHY U PARK AT FIGURE 5'
'DID YOU DOUBLE CHECK THE TAPES? U SHD'
'HAVE YOU DONE A SPOTCHECK?'

DON'T FUCK WITH ME LAH IO
I NOE WHAT I'M DOING
DON'T MAKE ME OUT TO BE A FUCKING IDIOT
JUST BECAUSE I DUN DO IT LIKE HOW U DO IT
DUN MEAN U MUST PICK ON ME FOR NTH
I HIDE IN THE CORNER FOR A REASON OK
NOT TO HIDE FROM YOU
BUT TO STAND THERE AWAY FROM UR KNNCCB
AND TO CUSS YOU UNDER MY BREATH

whatever lah
don't argue with old men.
i get angry also high blood pressure
later blood vessel burst then my headache become stroke.
kaninah.

ok nvm.
recording was gd.
went home.
quite happy.

just that i got a fucking headache.
time to worry abt 325 now.

oh ya btw i din get v*h`q.
lol.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:21:00 AM

Monday, November 06, 2006

reply to ki

i'm in a fucking high mood,
can't stop laughing.
whahahaha.

after seeing:
http://richan.de/Halloween_CosplayEvent_Highlights/

and after reading your post,
and still talking with vin on the phone and laughing my ass off,
and he catching no ball,

i shall reply ur blog post.

lol.

ok my cheek muscles really hurt from laughing too much.
i find that when i talk on the phone it's quite xing ku cos i keep laughing.
to nya or vin also.
dunno why.
i think i look like an idiot when i'm on the phone.
=O

ya anyway,
back to the reply XD

saw cl in game today.
lol?
she say i look cute
and she agrees that jx looks old.
LOL.

oopS.

oh ya u noe how we noe who u with in punk?
cos was playing with him in game around 7+pm
den 751pm he suddenly said
oh shit! he's late
den i dot..
den he said he meeting cookies
den i diao

before that he keep insulting hs and yw
and the whole team la basically.
said we are ka zua aka cockroaches,
very disgusting, need to be squashed
wtf.
then i think apparently he is disturbing hs' sister.
dunno which sister,
maybe sh?
dunno why they playing with him also.
lol?

yw and hs wearing couple teeshirts and got couple hair
lol so cute.
=)
nya said yw ignore him ever since he got hs.
hahhahahha.
expected.

ya anyway he was like damn annoying.
darren right?
ya.
then hs say he damn shyt
so i changed his name to SolidShiat
she said ya no wonder he so black one
solidshiat ma
hahaha.

orh orh lu lu smelly smelly chou chou

so that's why when u smsed me den i knew u were with him
and i referred to him as SolidShiat.
=X

u din reply me after that i thot u angry LoL
anyway i was like having a nap
lol i keep sleeping today
x_x
thon outside study really kills me =X
din noe u laffing
LoL

fainted.

ano what's wrong with ur skin?
o_o

and why u suddenly say benben damn funny?
did u meet him today?
=O

hee.
time to slp.
LONG DAY AH.

cheek muscles still pain.
aww fuck.

kaze said he din reply me last night cos his card left only 0.01c credit.
=(
see la he waste money on me.
zzz

haiz.
sot sot le.
i'm like damn blur.
kokoro wa dare mo inai
demo kokoro wa kara ja nai yo.
tomodachi no ai no kimochi ga takusan aru
shiawase kimochi da
ureshii na
=)

for the first time,
i am up to date
for my study timetable

WTF

i nid to go out study again.
tried studying at home today.
fell asleep.
LOL.
stupid fucks.

yay thu can watch sinking of japan kamo.
fri prob watching movie also.
yay.

mokuyoubi no wa,
time to observe,
analyse.
confirm my suspicions.
sian.

feels weird
=S
blah

k slpy time
oyasumiz.
eeps hope my shirt looks ok.
and my jeans.
zomg.
where.
zzz.
nvm.
blah.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:41:00 AM

Sunday, November 05, 2006

lol =X
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:02:00 PM

lame jokes

came up with these stupid jokes on the phone just now with nya.
funny eh, the things you come up with when 2 stressed and bored ppl talk to each other.

it all started with him saying:
"how hoWww... i wanna whineee whinneeee"

me: ok, let me beer you wine.
(hear you whine)

him: don't talk cocktail lah!
(don't talk cock lah)

me: your martell you to go home!
(your ma tell you to go home)

him: i'm not a jerk, i'm an XO!
(i'm not a jerk, i'm an asshole)

me: better finish your proj by tues else you martini.
(better finish your proj by tues else you mati)

him: i'm not a guinness leh.
(i'm not a genius leh)

me: can de, that's the spirit!

me: whey, don't rum across the road.
(whey, don't run across the road)

*both ran out of lame jokes*

personal favorite?
"DON'T TALK COCKTAIL LAH!"

tmd that nya damn funny =X
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:19:00 PM

maximum exploitation

...aka "student meal"ing.

yeah, got home not long ago.
ok peeps, don't try this at home.
study from roughly 730pm till 6am.
siao boh.
i'm officially nuts and stoned and fast-fooded.

yet something tells me i wanna do it again...
wahahah.

went JE study-thon with ki.
mmm.
damn productive.
rocks.
but damn shag.

3 media management chappies,
1 film studies chapper,
325 notes on hdv and principles of design,
conceptualization of afx mog stuff.

not to mention,
1 cup of long expresso @ $2.20
O.R. chicken fillet burger meal changed to cheese fries @ $4.10
1 apple pie @ $1
1 sausage mcmuffin with egg meal @ $4

egads.
$11.30

and 300kg gained.
LoL.

but hey, i love student meals.
major exploitation at work.
funniest was when ki went in, asked the guy if got student meal, told him to wait while she asked her friend to go (me) when he was ready to take her order, then he stun tio and she said she won't forget the expression on his face.
lololol.

hmm.

wish i could have student meals forever.
=(

sunday already.
8am.
blah.

oh ya,
i saw jx and cl today at 4am breakfast time at mcD.
so happy =X

really happy when i can put faces to nicks in game.
puts everything in context suddenly.
i hate looking at avatars and nicks.
rather know who is behind the avatar and the nick.

aye,
let me email J and then slp.
oyasumi~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:13:00 AM

Saturday, November 04, 2006

flood

write letter to jcs principal to reschedule exam
sort out sch stuff
read chapter on culture for 323

my right shoulder there still stiff/cramped/aching.
wa i'm paranoid.
hope i won't get stroke or rheumatism.
got impt things lined up.
o_o"

monday:
meeting at 9am benches
lecture 10-11am
interview 3pm megaM bugis
studio recording back @ ntu 530-830pm
clear flats + set + props to faciliate next group setting up for their studio recording on tue afternoon
must remember to load the autocue and fix the credits for crawling roller in cg
practice running VT and hope there's no cock up on my side and on the tape's side and on the machine's side.

busy monday but it means tue can relax le.
tue i dunno if i shd go for replacement lesson (with sk) or go to substation to see fellow coursemate's film.
damn.

330pm to 5pm+ nothing to do on tue
i think i'll stick in sch, wait for sk to end lesson,
and study some stuff
the review i must do at home
total secrecy.
hah.

shit man.
got to hand in 325 on thur
fucked up
with dvd authoring also
i think wed i go sch early to do the authoring
then before that,
spend sat, sun, mon doing video and after effects stuff
wed do dvd authoring in sch
fuck what to put on the stupid dvd
and need a stupid dvd-r
wah stupid stupid
heng it's my ge and not my pe
J u die le
how how?

J u mia to whr le?
kin also asking for you.
lolololz.

i can fuck care 325
but you cannot
lol =X
sian.

mama haben come home
i'm hungry and i nid to go out study at JE
at this rate i will be lazier and lazier to move.
z_Z

btw, good luck all for A lvls!
gahs this yr so early,
forgot to wish many ppl
oh wells.
better late than nv.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:22:00 PM

prelude to slp

damn irritated again cos jus remembered that mega called me today and pushed fwd interview to monday 3pm wth
means:

1) 9am go sch
2) be at bugis by 230pm
3) interview at 3pm - 330pm if nv delay (always delay de loR)
4) pia back to sch for studio recording 530pm start
5) WTF

z_z

anyway i ate ayam panggang at ps today.
long time no eat sia
thought i was full yet i finished it
pro
damn nice.
i think they sell like 50 plates in 1 or 2 hrs.
queue always long one
but it's good lah.

whee.

dug up the shirt imma wear for monday's interview.
lol.
did the eLearning wk survey.. made a lot of bad comments for them.
simi eLearning wk sia.. u joking with me? i at sch like EVERYDAY until no time go out lor. go out oso feel guilty cos damn bz with projs. and if i dun do means my grp members must do = i am lazy. stupid fuck..

shall wake up earlier to study...
exam timetable is out le.
i made my study timetable le.
tml need to email jcs regarding the exam.
stupid fuck clashes.
monday call oak abt money money money

alamak
i don't like to develop voids for ppl.
is it happening?
zzz.
maybe shd ask straight out.

SD taking lesbian joke too far apparently.
hahaha
damn funny line of the day:
'aiyoh... i'm straight lah!' - me

'stop trying so hard to lie'
'ya lor what a bad lie'
'omg means i'll get your lesbian cells'
'i'm scared of her'

zzz
the stuff you say when you're out of entertainment.

1.5 inches
owwie my pimple

oops ignore ramlings.
till tml.
NIGHT.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:54:00 AM

commercial fucks

"For where (y)our treasure is, there your heart will be also."

grace, i know i'm cynical, but i'm seeing a commercial capitalization on religiosity here.
so sorry for being blasphemic, but hey, who put the idea in my head (or on a building) and in a blog post? haha.

well maybe their intentions are good.

but i, the cynical one, am seing:

1) (y)our - us, the consumers who have purchasing powAh
2) treasure - the goods marketed and targeted to us. of course not limited to necessities but also at stuff capitalizing on the xmas theme to position themselves as wants and needs to us, the consumers, and thus be seen as 'treasures' and an imagined need be created for them. etc etc.
3) heart - many kinds of hearts here. the heart and willingness and the generosity of the xmas spirit that will make you wanna buy things that you don't need, nor your friends need, but because they make good gifts or good decorative items or something useless like a new xmas tree to add to your 325262762726 ones that you bought those past xmases. the heart to shop. consumers shopping = cash registers ringing = money. and the heart to spend. huahuahua. $_$

ano, sis wanna use le.
brb.

-129am-

k i'm back.
now topic of discussion is singapore as a hub (shameless self promotion + cmi-ness + high-crass).
watched notre dame de paris today.
wtf lah
oops.
u noe the ticket price for the seats i was sitting on was $160 after sistic fee all that? fucking ex.
the fucking seat so fucking hard i think i got permanent spinal damage and backpain.
since today dunno why my entire right upper arm suddenly very pain and stiff, like kena frozen shoulder like that. so weird.
maybe today studio cold until my arm frostbite then something tore off =X
lolol.
so kua zhang
eh i reli hope that didn't happen lah.
lOl!

anyway in the musical,
you have the:
sexually deprived/depraved priest and hunchback
fucking attractive sex icon gypsy that guys lust after
(idolism?)
sweet kitten turned nasty siren and jealous lover
wimpy poet - high crass
the leader of the rabble of refugees aka that guy whose name starts with a C and sounds like clitoris.
the fickle rich playboy who can't decide which girl to keep fucking and which girl to fuck and then throw away.

religious themes
poltical themes
social themes

so much sexual innuendo in the musical (oh kill me already)
kept thinking abt all the high crass ppl at the $300 vip seats lmao
stupid ppl controlling the subtitles, excuse me, i dunno french but you cannot bluff me that you put the wrong subtitles.
how hard can it be.

...

eh i fell asleep while trying to blog abt the musical.
LOL.
but seriously damn good singing
damn power lungs

argh fuck
really dying

didn't get my essential mrt nap
was standing up cos fucking crowded
then i did sleep standing up but keep waking up to balance cos train freaking unstable and i was standing at the shiny connecting part eyer.

k did it again
time to resort notes n slp
night all.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:49:00 AM

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

drought

lol i nv blog for many days le.
seems empty yet i have nothing to offer.

what's there to blog when all i write is either a narrative or abt my projs?
so boring.

but bloggie, since i haven't been blogging, it means i've pretty much been in a functioning mental state. a quite good mental state. either that or too occupied with stuff to blog. occupied with stuff that doesn't turn around in my head a thousand times aka work.

hmm msn phone chat.
too many wires. all connected to the lappie.
feel constrained.
like those ppl connected to drips and machines in sterile hospital special no-entry isolatory rooms.

doushite mainichi watashi ni denwa o kakete kureru?
or shd i say in a passive form?
doushite mainichi anata ni denwa o kakerareru?

one expresses positive feelings,
the other expresses negative feelings.

i'll say it the neutral way:
doushite mainichi watashi ni denwa o kakeru?

lol.
ok sounds better cos i am quite neutral.
demo it's always nice to dare ka to denwa o kakete hanashiteiru kana?

i like feeling connected to the world.

made up for 0.0000001% of my guilt by staying back in sch to edit video.
haven't been doing so due to other 'commitments' and also my japanese class.
feel bad.
then ytd hm also staying with me =S
ano hm, any japanese stuff can ask me, i try to help. =S

watashi ni mainichi denwa o kakeru hito said the video is nice.
kare wa omoshiroi bideo to itta.
fell asleep halfway while looking for music.
and i still cannot find my kill bill ost.
feel damn sad and gian.
dun feel like dling it.
maybe i'll go buy it, vol1 and vol2, with my first pay check.
oh ya i must call abt my pay
-_- no sight of it.
-o- (ghost fly out of mouth action)

k la must pompom now else reli no time.
today is the day i must help diana san print stuff.
can reduce my guilt by another 0.0000001%

walao all the guilt collecting.
and i'm damn pissed off with myself.
why ytd nv go wheelock place eat honey and clover ice cream?
last day wor.
mom and sis keep telling me it's damn good.
fuck fuck fuck.

I WANNA EAT SMTH GOOD AND I WANT IT SOON
ELSE KABOOM SPLAT ZOOM

k, nottie kid in me coming out le.
now waiting for projs to end, exams to come, hols to come, and then dec to come.
dec... time of surprises?
i wonder if nya will remember my xmas present.
imma get him smth regardless ba.
maybe a nya neko ornament or smth practical lah.
i noe what i giving mu le. that one settled.
owl shd be flying back home from her migatory trip to china (didn't know owls are migatory birds? there's one who is. lol.)
auyong shd be free.
mu will be released from werk.
yay yay

hmm
foongy will come to sg again.
hope this time reli can meet up.
=)

excited for nth and bloody late by more than half an hour
late for what?
my own timing la.
feedback guilt to myself.

k time to get wet
(bathe la, don't think dirty lol)
imma jump into the shower and jump into my clothes and jump to sch.
bb~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:14:00 AM