Wednesday, October 31, 2007

halloween

birthday wishes to someone born on this day =)
stay cute ^ ^
and welcome to the golden age of 21 and above.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:31:00 AM

Monday, October 29, 2007

fallen star

i feel burnt out. lacklustre. dimmed version of my former glowing self.

crazy day today. braving the weather 'greenly' and traipsing about on food foraging sessions. ah yes sashimi. not bad. will go again. new fav haunt-to-be: PP. i really do like the guys from the mid-east. made me smile, as always. never fake, never ever. just the right mix for any occasion.

junction adjoining national library, bugis junction, midland house and some other random building along middle road saw changes of weather on a massive scale. from desert, we went to blizzard in a matter of minutes.

okay, no.
so i'm exaggerating.

but when i stood there contemplating the clouds, they answered by leaking a bit, and then some more. and then i contemplated going directly to midland house to hang around in the hallway before class and stay dry rather than risk getting soggy. but i did. i got soggy.

in life you make decisions.
i chose to be soggy.
i chose seeing pb over being dry.
well, some things are worth it i suppose.

and so the downpour started when i was in national lib.
and then lightning and thunder and storms of blizzard-ic proportions brewed as i looked out the glass panels, wishing i could teleport across the junction into the jcs building.
but i can't. i'm no magical creature with no Babylon candle.
thus i braved the rain, green girl in the rain, tralalalala.
literally. green tee, green shoes, green socks and green umbrella.
or might i add green pattern on bag, green notebook, green stationery in pencil case, green spectacle case.......

ahem.

anyway t'was good seeing pb!
so short cos pig family always busy.
have to be on our toes lest we become bakua i suppose.
everyone loves good quality pigs.

he saw me battle with the storm. and laughed at me via sms as usual.
i may act like i care but we all know we're all having a laugh at the situation's expense.
my umbrella plastic bag, a wind sock, a water collector, an umbrella holder.
discovery of LKC ref lib, a back alley between 7 and 8, and inane security baggage counters.

soggy shoes soggy socks.
wet feet in cold room.
dozed off as usual.
got laughed at my classmate but it was in good spirit.
bombshell of jap oral which is going to be a tedious and stressful affair.
damn.

a-squelching i did go, back to bugis junction and then met zombie alf.
ah yes, another of the highlights - meeting a real life zombie.
ironically, he looks more awake than i would ever look, even without 14 days of sleep.
blah.

dinner, movie, home.

stardust was an awesome affair.
i do love gaiman.
his head is my universe.
his head is the universe.
imagination is the galaxy.
the milky way is your canvas.

of course, not to mention superb cg, editing, sound design. duhz.
they have something most of us don't - $$$

2 fantasy shows in 2 days.
clearly we have a winner.
it's like a professor debating with a talking parrot.

saw banglahs walking around in towels and wet hair after their bath on the way home.
yeah they're doing construction in front of my house, getting a bit unsafe to walk home at night.

had laughs
had fun
got drenched
dozed
ate (sic)
walked
movied
good mood

and it must all balance out because the universe is fair.
moody now.
and tired after much exertion.
toodles.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:43:00 AM

._.

always swings. up down up down.

at least i know perhaps the storm will break tomorrow.
yikes.

most likely ba.

siannnnnn.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:08:00 AM

Sunday, October 28, 2007

whee~kend, or not?

this will be short. yep. as short as i can manage because i am tired and i need to do some stuff before i sleep and i need to wake up early too for lunch which will be sashimi at parkway parade. lol.

pretty uneventful saturday. damn hot though. felt ultra sluggish for most part of the day. walking becomes trudging through a thick viscous fluid at boiling temperature. gawd.

watched The Big Combo, went to tpy lib, borrowed 8 books on lighting/directing/film/video trudged back home to dump the books then went to marina sq to catch The Seeker with vin and anto. i think it's alright leh. gets 3.5 stars from me.

stoned in marina food loft eating some oni paste concoction with ginko nuts and coconut milk. so thick but quite nice. also today, for the first time, i ate cup corn. lmao. later went old airport road and ate beef satay and chicken wings.

came home and nua-ing.

hope tomorrow can wake up for sashimi at PP.
wheeeee.

better do my jap hw now.
and if i have time,
read one of the lighting books
watch a dvd
do some readings for 401
finish up the 422 docu reading
reply fyp emails

oh ya, couldn't find hanson's new albie The Walk in hmv today. i might just order it from amazon. should i? mmm. i just gotta have the hanson cd. bleahs. or should i order it from hmv. haha. i'll go ask tml if i got energy la =x shag. and maybe apply for foew card too bleahs.

so little time to much to do
so hot so many places to go
lazy lazy bum bum me.

oh and i liked The Big Combo.
perhaps because the previous one i watched was Klute.
and that was ultra..........
BLAH.
x=
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:51:00 AM

Friday, October 26, 2007

oddity-bobbity-zooP!

a threatening drizzle in the morning, a scorchingly hot day, a 'damn, shouldn't have gone' film lecture, and then the odds and ends started coming in. well, only in my head, perhaps.

it's all a matter of perception after all.

predictability.
oh yes, it did rain again this friday. but it rained for all of 10 minutes (or so) and the drizzle tapered down to what became a scorchingly hot day. and now i am 3 times black. kopi-gao 3 times over, strained, evaporated and super black.

i think i'm even darker than my sister now o_o
but yes, she chides me because i refuse to put on sunblock, and she says i'm gonna get skin cancer. and the nerves/veins on my left foot kinda hurt sometimes when i walk, she says what deep vein thrombosis or what. lol. so potentially i will die of skin cancer and heart attack is it? and nowadays been snacking so damn much, maybe of high cholesthrol and stroke and diabetes and what have you.

anyway, that's beside the point.

good news is, the shoots are finally over. oh yes.
but that's not entirely good news, because what's up next is the press kit, the report, and of course the pressing issue of fyps. ah, riled with FYProblems, no doubt. us poor students. stripped of MONEY and now TIME and LEISURE and who knows what else. some might argue LOVE, but i have enough love (yes, computer and blogging are 2 of my loves, as well as the internet and my bed and sleeping but....)
DAMN.

LESS. SLEEP.

sleep is one of my loves.
damn damn damn.
thus i, too, am deprived of love.
lol.

before class, had a perk-me-up in the form of much craved for (3 weeks running) strawberry milkshake from can A. whee. happy happy.

current ongoing craves: hall 13 korean food. yup.

film class. movie, discussion, another discussion.
and somehow lapsed into me and lecturer having random discussions that spanned a walk, a bus ride and an mrt journey.

the beginning of oddities.

and through his recommendation, visited a shop in bras basah. lovely shop, although i initially had trouble locating it because i stupidly didn't check the directory of shops. haha. but aint i always like that? explore first, bother later.

lovely shop.
amazing how they amass such a collection of libris.
oh they did have the dvds i was looking for too, but steep.
am gonna try my luck with the little orange icon. yep.
poor student don't have money to throw ya.
can't be helped that adm won't share resources with a fellow film sch, sci (or csi. ahem)
sell-fish bleahs.

got an idea for a few bdae presents too. gotta discuss 1 of those ideas one day. :)

somehow had the impulse to detour back to shaw to look for my 2nd fave ice cream shop! tom's palette. heh. and it was open! finallyyyy. muahaha MintZ i finally got them! 3rd time lucky =D

so sad no more japanese curry, but they have a new flavor, salty caramel cheesecake which is awesome. yep. got tub of half of that and half of my fave apple pie to bring home. then i took a cup of half choc half rum raisin for the road.

hot day.
melty ice cream.
sticky fingers.
happy girl.

but the choc not quite to my liking. first taste, very nice very rich. but i think is it too much cocoa butter or some ingredient? the choc starts sticking to the roof of my mouth and gathering there. and even solidifying a bit. sounds ew but lol.
the choc a bit scary.

the rum and raisin was overpowered by the choc. but the rum raisin is nice. gentle flavor, enough rum in it. but i'd like more rum as a rule, and that's just me and my alchohilism that remains from my rebellious misdemeanor school rule flouting underaged days la.

cut through suntec and citylink. redeemed my free teriyaki chicken burger from mos on the way back and got butterfly prawns for sis and me.

interesting day today in the sense that i kept asking my mom to guess what i had 'tabaoed' home. and after that, to guess what flavors i got. and also to guess who i took mrt with, and where did i go after school.

randomness.

still waiting for korean food appointment at can13.
shuld i eat beef hotplate or beef bulgogi?
temptationnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

gawd i'm full and still thinking about food.
but after reading a very outdated issue of the straits times (sept 9 2007), and a couple of articles on food, enjoyment and the pleasure derived from good company and good food and appreciators of the two.....
ah yes, i do know why i love food now.

foodie outing on sun perhaps, to chinatown temp mkt with the girls.
maybe, just maybe, foodie outing on sat or sun evening with the guys.
don't forget to study and watch your 6 dvds and do your fyp too.

meanwhile, still sweltering.
note to ppl:
the superstitious belief that sprinkling about dried chillies and praying for sun before a shoot might possibly work. after they did that, it became scorchingly hot today.

dith is caramelized.
(and i wasn't even sweet to begin with)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:01:00 PM

Thursday, October 25, 2007

giving up trying to rip dvds. lousy attempts.
am going to sleep now.
sleepiness nearly 6 hours overdue.
got 8 dvds lined up for me to watch.
woots.
eyebaggy days, here i come~
can't complain i got nth to do then.
(but then again, i always find an excuse to do nothing)
(but isn't finding an excuse doing something as a prelude to nth?)

blehhhhhhh.
and a bit too scared to sleep too.
gotta contend with overactive imagination and immensely droopy eyelids.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:40:00 AM

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

voiceless

i feel discarded. jaded. left behind. trashed.
sidekick to the story's sidekick.
i am the donkey that was traded for a mule.
my feet hurt. my little toe hurts.

come home check my email and bam.
i feel like a piece of cardboard box that was put into the trash bin when it could have been recycled.
i feel under-appreciated. i feel like an appendix.
i feel like the appendix after it has been removed after appendicitis.

nvm.
kamawanai.
even stalking people ceases to be fun.

dog shit. cat shit. smelly alleyways of poop.
same metaphor running through my life.
corrine may shreds harps in my head with excessive airplay.
i come home and i see cars on every corner.

headlights. spotlights. traffic lights.
the deer was right.

old changi hospital. geylang lorong 20-something.
suddenly every man is a lecherous pervert sipping teh-o.
every womanly-dressed female is a prostitute.
glass shards litter the ground and i see screams reflected in each and every one of them.
screams of my own overactive imagination.

coward. softie. wuss. paranoid freak. lazybum. phobic person.
you will never survive in this concrete jungle of corporate layers and politics.
the camera weighs more than your worth.

disgusted.
let me go drown myself in britney spears.
let me go deaf and blind.
maybe i will die in the process.

which is worse?
a voiceless face,
or
a faceless voice.
a scream without a face.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:36:00 PM

-athon

add "walk" and add "movie" to the above suffix, and you will get a rough idea of how my day was today. not to mention, "rush".

aye, but it was fun. so very fun. i do love going out with myself, but i cheated. at night met up with MintZ and -jing, the sister korean food buying Tan. =X
sorry la, bad with names.

while waiting for bus, had a thought.

because i've been feeling down and moody and depressed and antisocial these couple of days, yet today i actually feel good and alive and see my world in a beautiful warped technicolor again. life is great again! i'm happy. =)

but why?

my theory as follows:
when one is in an antisocial moood, it's just a cry of help from the Self telling you to spend some quality time with it. it's not necessarily you being depressed, but of course, Depression stems from the Self crying for help too much until you cannot ignore it and you sink deeper.

although Depression is quite a good and useful mood to be in, because you see things in a weird warped way, but more like fogged up and in greys and all the mental images of death and stuff if extreme and suicidal thoughts, and your writing becomes superb, your dreams lucidly maniacal, but all in a depressive, moody, grey way. hence it's not good too.

so to revert back to my technicolor binoculars with which i see the world, i've acknowledged that my Self needs some time spent with it. thus today i went out with my Self for a fast walk, fast errands, fast viewing of the world and i watched a movie with my Self.

maybe it's also a sublimal message to my Self.

i watched SiCKo, the documentary by michael moore on the american health care system and its pitfalls. sublimal message to my Self, telling it that it should refrain from seeking unnecessary attention when i am well-fed (sometimes overly well-fed), well-groomed (errrr messy hair but otherwise ok. i AM clean), well-heeled (granted my shoes look like they're decades old, but i like 'em looking rough and they're comfy), well-dressed (well, i AM decently dressed. even if sometimes i do look sloppy and have the 'hall' look), and i have a roof above my head and all the love i can get by normal, non-unscrupulous means.

but i do agree that, thanks to my Self making such a racket in my head and calling on its good friend Depression and Antisocial, i enjoyed the time spent with my Self. and it was a much-needed trip away from meaningless stoning in front of the comp, stupid procrastination due to my antisocial-ness, mundane routine and the like.

above all, i was treated to a great docu in it's final showing. worth every dollar of the Ten that i paid. although i can get cheaper tickets at $5 from jubilee for other movies, but i don't regret.

BUT, before i got myself nicely seated in the air-conditioned cinema to catch my breath, much happened.

1. the amazing walkathon.

craziness. because i left the house late (at nearly 5pm) and the movie was at 645pm and i didn't even buy tickets, because i felt that 1 ticket is easy to get and probably not many people will watch it anyway, i had to walk like some crazy army woman marching ALL the time. blehs.

big guyish strides to tpy lib in my short skirt and green flipflops. wahaha. queued for quite awhile to get my Premium membership. yeah! i am a premium library member now. Me, who gave up reading a century ago. (yea, literally a century ago i stopped reading because of the demands of school D:)

because, i argued, $21 annually to be able to borrow DVDs and music scores from the library is worth it.

"much cheaper than piracy"
as i put it, in my own words.

consider this:
you spend a hundred on your electricity bill trying to download movies.
you run the risk of being caught by some paranoid company like odex.
you spend ages trying to google for free music scores online.
you cannot find them, or you find bad jpg versions which you still must print.
and printing needs money too.
printer ink is expensive and not waterproof too.
and i have no printer means i must rush to school to print.
oh and they have games in the library too.
same logic and reasoning for downloading of games.

all that, versus $21 annually?

not to mention i can ahem. maybe make copies for my own personal use of course.
who knows, i need to refer to the movie in the future.
and i did borrow 4 film noir related movies.
educational purposes. =D

alright. that said and done, i reached the library at esplanade with only 10 minutes to spare. naturally, i got lost in there. by the time i found the aisle, it was 605pm. eek. movie's at 645pm. how?

couldn't find the movies by michael gondry. geh! i will need to allocate at least 1 hour for my next trip. yep. maybe all loaned out or something. D:
overran my stay in the library, thank goodness borrowing station no queue. besides, i had difficulty locating it. lmao. painless trip to the library.

rush rush rush to harbourfront.

amazing thing today. trains all came within 1 to 2 minutes of me reaching the platform. so they DO want me to catch my movies. yokatta. =)

i reached cinema at 7pm. luckily it just only begun so i only missed a few seconds of the front bit of SiCKo. woots. just gotta love GV and their 15min of trailers.

got msg from MintZ saying she and -jing catching The Italian at cine, 9+pm show.
after my movie ended, chiong chiong chiong to somerset and then to cine. same thing, missed first few seconds of beginning. eek. sorry guys.

another great movie. in sicko, i did notice the jump cuts during the interview but they hardly disturbed me. that's about all i noticed, apart from the zoom ins to the documents, the pans, the tilts of paper filming. afterall, how exciting can paper be? that's about all i noticed. which is good. in The Italian, didn't notice many cuts too. yup. when a film student barely notices your cuts, means the movie's gotten you good. suck me into your storyline real good. what i noticed was how they hinted someone was watching in the doorway through the camera placement. clever. i liked that shot. and the looking through the window. nice shot too. thinking if they did anything on one take? or used sound design? like pouring of petrol into the tank of the car. did he have to pour many times? or was it quite empty, he just pretended to fill the tank and they put the sound? curious.

but yea, if i don't notice many cuts, means it's a great movie.
2 more movies to add to my thumbs up list. =D~~

after a whole day of rushing, i didn't even eat. mom didn't keep dinner for me although i said i'd be home for dinner. but i did say i would be home around 12am in a later sms, she assumed i would eat because i would be meeting my friends.

heh. mis-comm.

no dinner for me!
and they had mock abalone D:
but i prefer mock duck.
don't you just love the fake duck skin texture with the goosebumpy things? LOL.
well, vegetarian mock meats are works of art. i love them.

and somehow, my leg muscles are feeling just fine.
no problem. i can walk all day.
these legs are made for walking. =D
no wonder my leg muscles never shrink.
but my leg fats never go down either. =(

massively fun walkathon movieathon rushathon today.
overtook so many people on the way i lost count.
heh overtaking people is fun.
seeing things whizz by you when you walk past them.
actually the brain can process things quickly so why not?

walk walk walk
i'm feeling energetic now.
shall do this next tues again if i have the chance to.
time to eat eat eat my instant mee.

i am ravenous.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:13:00 AM

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

kyou...

completed:
plan study timetable

later:
go tpy lib apply for premium membership
see the dvd collection there
go esplanade lib to look look see see
look for Michael Gondry movies =3
go vivo to catch Sicko 645pm (sure hv seat, somemore hitori de)

much later:
come home check email
rip cds =3
see what to bring for tml's shoot
(newspapers, scotchtape, glue, scissors...)
read 401 ethics readings for 22-29oct
sleep early

tomorrow:
reach sch 9am go for 401 tut at 930am
try to see if i can do 422 screening: Kind of a Blur
go for test shoot / recce
come home finish up 422 readings on docu
do jap hw
prepare research sheet on Michael Gondry for film theory class

thurs:
11am lecture
1230pm - 130pm LT18 invisible city screening
2-5pm 422 tut on sound design
ethics readings (week of 8 oct)
study jap tb ch1
try to do some oral prac (esp keigo)
do anti-rain dance hope fri dun anyhow rain again
sleep early

fri:
anti-rain dancing to school
early morning shoot
film theory class - discuss Michael Gondry with lecturer
continue shooting for "i"
read 422 stuff
continue jap tb ch1 & oral prac

sat+sun:
slp slp slp slp
oink oink oink oink
zzz zzz zzz zzz
game game game
eat eat eat

resolutions:
stay away from msn =x
go antisocial banana mode =3
poof!!!!!
be motivated and pia!
recover my psychotic random outlook on life to overcome depression from sch =3
(yes, even if it means creating mild scandals abt myself xD)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:32:00 PM

to do list: 23.10.07

22nd oct - happy bdae mooxiu!!!! 22 on the 22nd xD

23rd oct -
1. i'll take a trip down to the esplanade lib. get membership upgraded. borrow dvds. yeah michael gondry. i have found the director i am gonna do my assignment on. oh no? the crowd wails. she is not gonna do on royston tan? but nooo, he will probably be snapped up by other classmates. so let me do on michael gondry. afterall, he did direct eternal sunshine of the spotless mind =) i forsee a number of things i can talk about already; like the scriptwriter he likes to work with, his mtv directing career, his work in comedy, in sleep and dreams, his techniques that are evident in his mtvs that he has carried into his movies. mmmmm. yum. and even if i do not actually watch the videos, i can be happy i own them, right? do agree. make a girl happy today. roar.

2. no i shan't go to school. laziness. maybe go for tut early wed or something. lazybum that i am. didn't know engin sch having e-learning week too. ho hum. we never have e-learning week. haha. anyway our lecturers can't be bothered much. we're in our little blue building at the corner or the south spine. SUCKY. pls build a nicer canteen. thx. i hate canteen b.

3. try to think of ideas for M script before i set out for the library. oh, and try to wake up early too. procrastination. roarrrrrrr. gah.

4. start doing my readings and start on my jap revision. so gonna die. oh my poor oral~~~~ shindeshimau. my keigo sucks. my grammar is all confused. and even the new stuff we learn about 'you da', 'sou da', 'rashii' is confusing me to all ends of the earth. roarrrrr. now you know why i sit right at the back of the classroom, all alone, at the end. cos i am trying to give the impression that i am trapped. all about framing and composition... NOT. dith, you're not in a movie for goodness sake. wahahhahaha.

5. tried to ignore my phone today. which i did, rather successfully, until evening when i succumbed to msn and sms and games. geh. but some smses, you really have to reply. =) sorry dear. didn't ignore you on purpose ._. have a great day tomorrow.

6. feeling happier right now. mmmm. maybe because i've found a director to talk about for film theory assignment, as well as immersed myself searching for movies online. and made a decision to become a library premium member. maybe i need to sit in a fort of books and dvds. ho hum.

7. plan study timetable. woots. better get myself motivated and all planned out to face the exams. reduce the stress!!!!!

8. alright. and finally, i'm gonna have an early night. goodnight!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:11:00 AM

Sunday, October 21, 2007

21.10.07

brain's dead. hence the unimaginative title.

weekend was good. food-filled yep. sat had impromptu outing with mu. went amk hub to drink bubble tea and go bag shopping. bishan is having some crazy sale. somehow i got a shirt for $7. late getting back to tpy's Uno for dindin. mu joined my family. heh. hilarious. but this is an uninspired entry. so nothing to say, just that we ate and we ate. and the kitchen aunties quarreled about random tables and random first come first serve. ntuc and then home.

woke up late on sunday. yum japanese food at golden mile. finally. waffle and choc fondue. gah. maybe it's one of the things you can't eat too many times else it will lose its charm. and whatever happened to tom's palette at shaw? everytime i go, it seems to be closed. the horror D: it hates me. =(

dessert. and then jap class, in which i fell asleep for half an hour. geh. supposed to have sashimi at PP but didn't go in the end cos vin had something to do. nevermind, food will wait for me. =)

why was i so tired? sis had random encounter with mosquito with a vengeance last night until 4+am. geh. somehow when i went in, the mosquito went into hiding. it's afraid of me =o

still sleepy. full. unfulfilled. monday's around the corner. tents are outside the big field opposite my block. having some 9th month thing going on with burning of incense and stuff. and they're building yet another playground near my house. for what fuck? so there's construction, burning, and noise that sounds like auction and prayer. geh.

did i mention that on sat, i had to walk through an ash cloud (because that's the only way to the bus stop) and when i sat at the bus stop, i was still ashed? my hair was just washed too. D:

you know, i don't like it when people try to act friendly and stuff with me when i don't feel the same way. but then again, it's hard to tell because i try to be nice to most people. unless i really hate you. then you will get the cold shoulder 100%. in some ways, i guess i am like him. heh.

disturbing dreams last night. think caused by the msn conversation i had that night plus the blood thirsty mosquito. geh. i dreamt of an evil short man who recruited us to join his evil army to look for people to kill. so that we could collect all the heads in a big red plastic bag for his boss. his boss is a sado-masochistic guy who likes to take the big red plastic bag of heads to bang against his own head for the sound they will make. ew. and he sponsored us all razors so we could shave bald and all. gah.

there was more to the dream before that. but i particularly remembered that bit because of the visual of the guy banging the plastic bag of heads against his own in his bedroom. and then i got a wake up call from mu when i was deep in that dream. geh.

hope no more weird dreams tonight.
i need my sleep, i need my energy. i need my sanity.
but heck. whoever said i was sane to begin with?
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:27:00 PM

Saturday, October 20, 2007

sustained

what sustains life?
the answers are simple.

blueberry milkshake bubble tea with pearls.
black sauce scrambled egg

aka comfort food.

tiringgggg week.
shoot + presentation.
luckily presentation went well.
ownage xD
and i didn't print out speaker's notes too D:
just anyhow crap from my powerpoint slides.

oh well.
dith does best impromptu.

*retreats to another corner of the internet because nothing fascinating has happened in her life lately so she has nothing more to blog about*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:35:00 PM

Friday, October 19, 2007

isogashisugi

sian banana! 2am+ already and i'm still awake! did the stupid presentation slides for stupid class tomorrow and i am left with a stupid 3-4hour sleep! argh!!!! bloody long day tomorrow too! and i'm still sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BANANA!!!!!!!!

tomorrow just gonna anyhow wear. tee shirt shorts champalang again. heck care smelly smelly sweaty sweaty blurry give presentation no printer at home ROARS 730am in school you think the printing room open meh?!?!?!!?

don't get me started on printing stuff in sch ROAR!!!!! cos running late for class and the lab closed for research study, i stupidly spent $3.60 on my fucking 324 script which is 18 pages long. ROARRRRRRRRRRR.

but thank goodness for the small pleasures of life.
what can i do without my friends in CS who rock!
what can i do without FOOD FOOD FOOD.
what can i do without those dear to me.
what can i do without understanding groupmates.
what can i do without interesting new encounters in sch like meeting new friends from audi? ehehe.
random encounters always make it more entertaining.

meow.
and i would be nothing without my imagination, the internet, and my bed.
NIGHTTTTTTTTT.

TOMORROW TIME TO PWN THE BANANA!
KICK THE BANANA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:09:00 AM

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

sediments of angst

ROAR! i can't seem to feel happy and have enjoyable psychotic days recently. it just won't come!

especially with the advent of a new email from lecturer. ROAR. he is actually making concessions for me but really pissed me off saying miss more than 3 sessions will be dismissed ROAR. DAMN YOU. U WATCH OUT FOR MY PRESENTATION. PWN U.

alright. now i just gotta get to doing my presentation. hmm. but what to do? i watched the film for the presentation and it was so BORING. so slow. i nearly died. i prefer alfred hitchcock ten times more zomg. granted the shots are very nice but it was so freaking BORING. aiyah.

i am still sick! sucks really sucks. annoying. ROAR.

aiyah i dunno. this week i'm like a fei4 ren2 (useless person). dunno what i'm doing, and partly missing too.

aiyah better eat then go sch for class. zzzzz. need to print script for 324. ROAR. at least i did something. expecting to get a C for that though HAHAHA. oh well.

MAKAN~~~~~
toast bread and 3/4 boiled eggs with marmite.
hmm.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:32:00 AM

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

ditha sicka

so i have joined the ranks of those afflicted with flu. never mind. for i have finished my 324 script. heh. still got other stuff to finish up, yeah the knnccb klute recast assignment for that stupid module that i suddenly abhor.

nose is peeling terribly, my head aches, my nose runs. golly. i think i'm running a slight temperature too.

anyway, fridge has gone byebye, new fridge taken over its ranks. didn't have time nor energy to borrow cam from school so i suppose pictures are enough.


dad moves out the fridge.


standing solitary outside, waiting to be picked up by karang guni i suppose. looks like been condemned due to framing of my house gate.


empty space in my home and in my heart.


new fridge, and did i mention it's taller than me? ROAR. see, i can't even get all of it into frame.


the new logo of the new fridge.

this time won't post pic of myself with new fridge, i look too unglam and i'm sick.
oh, my mom just switched on the new fridge.

ah well.
dreading going to class tomorrow.
unwell unwell unwell.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:59:00 PM

Sunday, October 14, 2007

ROAR ==> meow

so i was in a dastardly bad mood for the past three days or so. good news good news. ditha is no longer black faced with murderous intent. ah yea she still can get angry no doubt, but her blood stained dagger has been cleaned, polished, and surrendered.

tame purring kitty cat here instead of man-eating fierce roaring lion.

haha, but kitty cat is also evil. =X

anyway, went out with ki darling, wen, shi, hebi and gene ytd. wa somehow or rather ended up drinking again. maa ne, i should have just gone home then they can K, don't spend so much, and don't get drunk =/

although i didn't intend to drink, somehow ended up drinking cos still had to pay. then they couldn't finish the bottle of absolut they opened, and the mixers finishing, so had to help to drink. gene was already down the 'wasted' road when the bottle wasn't even half empty. geh.

so ended up i got high too, laughing like mad, face flushed, liberally peppering conversation with vulgar language, noisier, ahem. hey, i'm fun when i'm drunk =X

but later gene really gone case, hebi had to scold him upside down yet he kept sitting around, lying down, saying he din wanna go. no sense leh, obviously ki darling is shun lu. he still wanna folo hebi who is not shun lu and is going for 2nd round?

dots. so anyway, wen left 1st, then finally gene n darling. then left me and hebi. mataaaaa. and he walk so fast, machiam left me behind. when he turned around i was like, 'what abt me?'

maa. hen na. he was trying to convince me to go with him for his 2nd round. i was tempted dakedo i had a bad feeling and i dun wanna drink so much cos the next day i had to wake early moreover i wanted to go home to pee =X if i could catch my last bus, i told him, i will go home. wa 2 stubborn ppl here. me insisting got bus, him insisting dun have, might as well join him, can share cab with him and his friend who all stay same area. lolllll.

lol! plus i kept saying liang court there, yet he walked to another bus stop. then i said actually it's UE square wow murderous look from hebi =/ he like want to kill me, yet still walked me to my bus stop.

underneath it all, still a caring person as seen from needing to get gene back safely and waiting with me for my bus before going for his 2nd round. dakedo still got attitude prob!!!!! ROAR.

no more 235 so had to walk home. lmao. but still quite bright and got a few ppl along the way so it was ok i suppose. anyway, kaette kara, still had japa compo to do. and i did it until 5am zomg. somehow or rather i managed to hear my alarm at 9am but i went back to sleep =o *guilt*

naze sonna ni hayaku okita? haha. like my sis said, "jie is being anomalous today". in response to mom wondering out loud why i suddenly woke up early and went to bathe early, plus ran out of house without finishing up my lunch completely =X well, sometimes you don't get a second chance, so just try your luck, never know what you will get. unless it's a gashapon machine that eats your coins!!!! WALAO! YURUSANAI LOL. unforgivable.

10min late to class kedo heki da. =3

of all the voices, my doubtful self-esteem shouts the loudest.
sigh.

but am happy =)
happy enough to not care about baka elective lecturer.
happy enough to be able to concentrate on my fyp tomorrow.
happy enough for this fri's coming tiring shoot/presentation.

tues fridge is coming. ho hum.

fridge has eyes versus fridge has ice
meow, why does choc make my teeth hurt.

okie time to do script!!!!!
chiong~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:43:00 PM

Saturday, October 13, 2007

walao.

mood gets even shittier.
just got an email from lecturer in school.

fuck.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:47:00 PM

yahari chansu wa hajimari kara nai yo. shingapo-ru e ittemo, kazoku to hayaku jb kara tondeittemodoru. imouto ni atte, hirugohan o taberu. sore shika nai.

kamawanai. heki da yo. sono koto wa mou nareta. demo, moshi aetara, ureshiku naru. mochiron da yo. anata no nou wa doko? lol. kareshi no koto o arawaseru.

chotto hen na kibun ga aru. warukunai kedo yokunai mo. hen ne.. yuube mo hen na kimochi ga aru. kamo sa, tsukaresugiru to omou. kinou wa ichinichi juu firumu o tsukutte ato, zzy no konsaato e itta. totemo tsukaretemo, hayaku nenai. gozen 4ji goro neteitta. ARA..... WARUI.

keredomo, kesa wa takusan sms ga atta. atashi wa henji ga dekitemo, chotto wakannai nani ga suru no? warui warui warui. gogo 2ji made okita. sonna ni osokatta.

byouki ga attedashita. nodo ga itakute, kao ni hifu wa itakute, ha ga mada itakute, kokoro wa itakute..... zzzz warui shi.

=(

ima mo nemuri modoritai.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:31:00 PM

Friday, October 12, 2007

be careful what you wish for

this morning before shoot i rumaged through cupboard and wondered why the hell didn't i have some white tee shirt to wear. surprise surprise! i am now a proud owner of a FREE white tee shirt muahahaha. and it's a zzy tee! amazing how things come back full circle to hit you in the face or piak you on the pigu.

shoot was tiring although i didn't do much. ZomG what a slacker i am. so hot also. then suddenly heavy rain. now i am kinda sunburnt too. most obvious? my wrist where my watch is. as for grpmates, their slippers very obvious the burnt mark. you know what i suggest? make stencils of designs or your name and place on yourself then go in the hot sun. sunburn-art! whoo hoo.


here's my sunburn. i hope it's obvious in the pic, cos it's really obvious especially today when i took off my watch i was like ZOMG. LOL.

during shoot, mintz came to visit! sight for sore eyes man. one day not seeing her and i miss her already!!!!! came to pass me her zzy ticket...

well actors who drive ROCK. and it was raining too. omigosh. happy happy. ate nice fried fish beehoon soupy soup with lacy egg for $3 from can2. whee my new favorite canteen!

very very cold. brr. sat in studio playing with the lights (cos it was warmer than below) and was falling asleep.

seriously i think my phone has some problem. always receive things late or send sms ppl cannot get. ROAR. think phonecalls are the best. instant. you will know if the other person gets your msg or if it gets through instantaneously.

so sad, mintz couldn't go zzy. but i got pb to go with me!

wa, the ticket collectors were at me already and he held up the queue cos he wasn't there yet ZOMG they waited for like 3mins for him and i was almost panicking wahahaha. hengggg. had relatively good seats =3

oh waited like 1hr+ to get in and about 15min for them to start. so effectively began at 745pm instead of the stipulated 7pm. ROAR. oh well, stars are nv punctual ahaha. 2 queues for 2 doors at each wing. haha. while queueing suddenly hebi called to ask me for dinner. eh, reli not free. but i think there's an audi dinner outing tomorrow. see how see how, v tired now hvn't do japa, possibility of kaze coming earlier =3

anyway this is the first time i've been in LKC theatre. woots. nice LT. big spacious nice seats new mmm. here's a look:


i took this pic and it's really small T_T

the following pictures are all taken by pig bro! credit goes to him for pix. thx pb!





pig family rocks!

wa later they had autograph session for those who had the cds. i didn't hv! then i was feeling damn gian. only after some nudging and encouragement then i thought. ok la OK. they below selling cds with free tee shirt (yeah the white tee i mentioned) i think i go see see and buy ZOMG. and OMG LA MINTZ SO SORRY I FORGOT TO CALL U AND ASK IF U WANTED. ZZZZZZZ STUPID DITH.

erm. anyway he sang 7 songs plus 1 encore song. i also dunno the titles but the 1st song was the one with tanya chua, he also sang fen shou ba, and i really dunno the titles la. but he did sing the title track from his new album. oh and the encore was, ai wo bie zou hehe.

roar! i had much difficulty opening my cd i had to get help wahaha. wonder if pb got help me take pic when i was getting the cd signed. o.O



ROAR zzy never even look up when he signed my cd. ditha is sad!!!!! nvm.

after zzy, walked to can2 with pb. had a cup of tea and he had dinner and my dad came. whee nice ride home. i am so freaking happy. regret didn't manage to borrow camera to film fridge. occupied by shoot shoot shoot and sibei tired after shoot and still need to go zzy later ma.

hope can do so on monday. =3 cos new fridge is coming tues. dad is mad. splurged 1799 on a fridge with an ice maker, non-cfc, temperature sensor thermostat, freezer on the bottom, energy saving and dunno what sai. mad mad madness. enough to buy another laptop. =(

actually today was kinda glad the weekend is tomorrow but then somewhat bad news that he and family will be coming only on sunday and staying in jb so i might not get a chance to even SEE him. but nvm la... xi guan jiu hao. but there's still a chance! a bit down due to this piece of news oh well.

damn red and face feels sore and think should be peeling soon.
i'm very sleepy too. ROAR.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:27:00 PM

incomplete

well, i know i was supposed to be in bed at least an hour ago, but here i still am. the night just doesn't seem complete if i don't blog.

anyway, there was no meeting today. feel so relieved. feeling kinda jittery about tomorrow's shoot too. saturday is so close by, will you really come?

today watched Death at a Funeral with alf. yay! finally caught that show. happy =) and ate the nice ayam panggang at plaza sing. happy happy. teeth not so pain too but i can still feel it's sensitive. nvm. happy! got spectacle case to replace my broken one and it's green. happy happy! bought my mom a cook book for soups. heh. soon have nice soup to drink! happy happy future investment LOL.

bumped into lon today and also edmund saw me. surprise surprise. well, many ppl go plaza sing so it's also not surprising. later in the mrt train itself, alf bumped into 2 of his friends too. heh, we're even.

happy energy returns.
ZZY!!!!!!!!!!!!
yeah oh yeah zzy =D

after friday is saturday is the weekend yeah the weekend
d`imu.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:39:00 AM

Thursday, October 11, 2007

DOWn

this feeling sucks. (and yes my teeth still hurt, so you can imagine how i feel with painful teeth, zero appetite and whatnot)

i think it's mainly about fyp la.

first off, i feel useless because i can't seem to have ideas for fyp BUT i can have ideas for 422. wtF.

secondly, it seems fyp meeting and other meetings always clash. somehow i feel guilty for leaving fyp meeting and for enjoying the other meeting more. wtf.

thirdly, i dunno if today have meeting or not! i hate feeling like a lazy slacker who has gone missing but i really don't know. someone please reply my sms plZ. either my phone aint working properly, or the network hates me, or some new theory i've cooked up. i'm not wanted.

justification for that last statement else i get sued for libel:
actually i think my contributions are counter-productive because they lead the plot round and round and become nonsense. so without me inside, the loopy loop one, they can work better and more logically without fruitloops me. it's just like playing game y'know. dota. i think i bring down the game because i 'feed' the enemy? so they get stronger and stronger killing me, in the end our team loses because i 'feed' the enemy. sighs.

game really is similar to life eh.

now gotta think who to go zzy with.
fuck, just let me crawl into my hole quietly and pretend to be dead.
doesn't help i keep having bad dreams about how much people hate me because i don't deliver, i don't do work, i do bad jobs, i slack off, etc. arghhhhhhhh.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:56:00 PM

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Eulogy for the Environmentally-unfriendly.



i am sad.
the fridge which has served my family for 29 years is passing on to a greater realm.
the fridge, which, older than me, has seen me grow from baby to adult.
and in turn, from taller than me, it has become shorter than i am.
fridge magnets, a collection of memories from past to present.
faithfully polluting the region with CFC from prince charles square, to jurong east, to toa payoh.
my family moved, and so did it.
outlived my grandparents, taking over as the silent guardian of the kitchen and protector of the house when no one's at home.



i was sitting here, working on my script for fp when i heard it cough and wheeze and shudder. a long wheeze. and i got a fright. dad has removed the life support system. he says the motor is burning up.



death.
this is death.
you, who have provided the family with a fresh stock of food for 29 years.
you, who have faithfully carried on the legacy of CFC even after it was outruled for fridges to do so.
you, the fridge with eyes, a heart, and a soul.
you, the fridge whom i greet every day by opening the door and breathing in your scent.



you, the fridge whom i have grown taller than.
you, the fridge who has seen me from birth to adult.
you, the fridge, whom i have known ever since your light spoilt, your motor replaced, to your shuddering death throes and fatal fever.



and you sit there stoicly in the kitchen, life support system removed, unplugged from the electricity outlet, your contents preserved with a 5kg bag of ice cubes.



you, who have protected 29 yrs worth of groceries, ice cream, homemade popsicles, agar-agar and other random items.
I CAN'T BEAR TO SEE YOU GO.

sobs.
i love you fridge.
this is my obituary to you.
this is my final salutation and eulogy.

goodbye loved one.
:(
you will be missed by all.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:46:00 AM

queer show

after a midterm exam, marathon fyp and fp meetings and what have you, totally finally could relax. went to watch Chuck and Larry. alright i suppose, for 6 bucks cos my friend had discount. hehe.

anyway before that, let me talk about what transpired after sunday.
bam. midterm exam. that wasn't so bad. should be able to pass. results out next week i presume. thank the good earth for mcq, but damn, mcq that has options like "at least 2 of the above" or "none of the above" or "all of the above" in addition to options that are all similar to each other or seem correct or seem wrong or seem ambiguous, with a clarification option... well. blah. but i know his format and i know his style of setting papers. didn't come as a shock to me but still is a bit taxing yet sadistically fun (for him) and masochistic of us, the midterm takers. heh. me, anyway.

had concurrent fp and fyp meetings. and the fyp meeting ran till 10pm. thank goodness for lovely fellow dancing bovine who gave me yet another lift home. mooxiu!

after which i did a revamp of the script for fp and was darting in and out of random msn conversations, one of which was informal discussion for fyp. omigosh. finally finished script at like 3am. which was decent. i wasn't sleepy. miraculous. hmm, then about 330am played audi till 5am then went to bed.

as usual, lunch plans fall through because 12noon is much too early to wake up in time for. and i love my sleep too much.

oh but after small shampoo and bath foam bottle hunting with andrea in JP, an incredulous revelation that i look good wearing lok cok (aka cosplaying a hall-er), and a last minute decision to catch a movie... hey, i am sufficiently entertained and i can last another week.

back where i left off. C&L. interesting social commentary there. not so much a comedy (some scenes they try too hard it's a bit painful) than a social commentary. am wondering if that guy who used to be in n'sync is really gay. but i saw many stereotypes in it which i didn't like. wonder if director did enough background research. alright la, although i started to notice that adam sandler is showing signs of aging already haha.

now that i'm above 21, i don't notice ratings anymore, but i wonder if it is a PG or an NC16 because there is a gay kiss inside and fondling of jugs as well as homosexual themes. well, interesting how 'macho' vocations like cowboy and fireman make such popular jobs to portray gay men or men trying to be gay in are kinda getting stereotypical.

as usual, last train took me home. love staying in tpy. last trains always terminate here. and the last train is always an interesting and magical experience.

imagine this:
you're sitting in a nearly empty train that is 'speeding' through the tunnel. the lights mounted in the tunnel flash by, rhythmically generating patterns of flickering pulses in the train. beautiful, i tell you. wonderful if i had a movie with this visual.
flicker. flicker. flicker.
and as the train chugged to a halt at my station, it was announced that the train would be terminating here. i stepped out of the carriage and the lights of the train flipped off behind me, creating a visual quiet and calm and finality.
wonderous.
and as i got up the escalator, a man carrying a computer crt monitor stood outside the train's open doors. hugging it for all it was worth, and looked terribly lost. i took the escalator and looked at him as he grew smaller and smaller.
i wonder what he will do.

shall continue in a separate post.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:08:00 AM

Sunday, October 07, 2007

blister-ly days

damnation and disgruntledness.
not to mention PAIN! oh the pain. but not quite excruciatingly so.

after the span of bad luck which started with the pimple on my ass, followed by the hole in the crotch of my pants, came the blisters at the back of my heels and then the blister on my foot.

thus, after 2 days of blisters and 3 plasters later, i am fed up with footwear.
tomorrow i shall go barefoot to class. *ahem*
no i can't. else i'll have encounters with sharp glass lying in wait to cut my feet.
*stares*
jitto miru.

well, apart from that, have studied an entire media law book, developed random headaches on various sides regions of the head, slept and overslept on various occasions resulting in me being late and extremely so.

oh yeah today pig bro said something which made sense.
he said at least i won't break my record of being late.
omigosh, that was indeed food for thought. i AM efficient at doing something, and very much so. i am very good at being late and being slow and being lazy and procrastinating. wtf.

it's the dithsease i tell ya! D:

well friday. missed a project meeting, a film theory class, late to leave the house to have dinner with mom which resulted in me being somewhat late to the screening of Silent aka mo4 sheng1 by my juniors. ahem.

well, let's talk about the food first, shall we?
went with mom to shatec's Charcoal to eat. well, she complained about the soup. the poor things! hahaha. hilarious but cruel. now you know where i got my mean streak from. ahem. but true ya. the soup too watered-down and not flavorful enough. but give them a chance la, they're all trainee chefs. main course was good though. i had sea bass in citrus sauce, while mom had chicken in i dunno what. but the sea bass was really damn nice. meat was firm, supple, soft and tender yet springy. yummiliciously so. great fish. skin was springy yet slightly crispy too. maybe lightly seared and stuff. great fish. very fresh. very firm. mmm supple. mmm springy. sauce was nice too. but the vegetables didn't have enough flavor. i think that was grilled eggplant, but unfortunately didn't have enough grilled flavor although i felt the texture of the vegetables was very good in that they were crunchy yet bouncy and chewy. just nice.

mom said her chicken was very well done too. light flavor, with tender meat and juicy too, with the skin nicely crisp.

and we had cake too. tiramisu was good. but the alcohol flavor wasn't strong enough. but it was still good. i had strawberry cake which i felt lost to the tiramisu. tea was alright. bread rolls were good. soft and warm and crusty and stuff. mmm. ambience alright. amusing to see young and cute waiters and waitresses occasionally drop forks and scurry about.

mom remarked they looked like 'interns', in a nice way of course.

later i rushed to *scape the best i could. hobbling due to plastered yet still hurting blisters. damn those shoes. i need to stretch them. roarrrrr.

somehow people weren't feeling very good. well, my friends anyway. SY and HM seemed a bit under. esp HM. well there were only 2 things for the cause. feeling like a super underachiever and having wasted 3yrs+ in this course that have amounted to nothing. well, it's normal. most people here are like that. either that or she was really annoyed at me for being absent minded and late and stuff. which she wasn't, i think. so it's good.

but eh, good friends have been mad at me and it's scary. the atmosphere suddenly gets choking and it seems the invisible walls close in on you. heat trails from their steps and a poisonous aura emanates from them.... oh their eyes.. never the same friendly eyes but that of murderous intent. very very scary when good friends suddenly get angry at you.

and then i feel so small, start to walk slower, walk behind, try not to breathe, not to make a sound, lest one tiny squeak would mean me being exterminated in every way possible. rat poison, rat traps, pesticide, dettol, fly swatters, fly paper, mosquito coil, zomg zomg.

don't know if i should run, should get myself killed to calm the choppy seas of stormy relations, vanish from sight, pretend to have never existed, or just go away quietly.

i can't apologize to the people whom i hold in high esteem. but i can apologize easily to strangers. so easy to say sorry to someone when you accidentally bang into them on the bus, but so very hard to tell your sister or good friend sorry because you have angered them in some way or another by just being yourself.

ah yes, i am irritating. i know it.

maybe one day i'll fly into a mosquito coil with my name on it and be gone for good. fizzle pop bzzt. hiss. byebye dithquito.

went home to sulk. especially after mr elbows pissed the hell out of me. audition didn't do any good either. sis complained about how my keyboard keys clattered and i got fucking angry i just left. that resulted in hebi apologizing to me for no reason lmao. does that show he is just insecure and needs his master's love? awww pet hebi. -_-

no time to deal with people when i can't even deal with myself.
feeling regret for having spent 3 hours on the phone but i felt happy at the same time after doing so. odd, very odd.
people are like that i suppose, always doing things that gratify, especially instantly so. and abhor things that only after amounting to much labourious intent, will result in fruit for the reaping but it might be sour fruit and sour grapes after all.

anyway.
saturday. wholly inefficient. many apologies to wen who had to wait for me although she had a bad day at work. my bad. warui. i woke up late. plus ate lunch. plus bathed very long. plus very slow like snail. plus weather hot. plus go ntuc pick up some stuff. luckily i found it =) yatta~ and somehow found some funny box to put stuff in. heh heh. crawled to city hall, damnation. queue slow moving and in the 2nd queue. ah what to do? thank goodness though, shortly after i queued, it went to the 3rd queue and became super super slow. phew.

psycho thing i attempted to do on saturday but attempt fell flat on its face.
i attempted to laugh out loud (yes i was alone) like some psycho in the hope that some random person would give me a look, a reaction. but nothing. DAMN. haha. it started when i saw the couple in front of me hugging and stuff. okay, then the guy started grabbing her ass. because from her waist, his hand moved down to her ass and cupped her butt and squeezed it. right buttcheek. different side from the pimple on my ass. yeah i am observant.

ok fine. it's like "..." at first.

later on, because the cd shop nearby was playing music, he was tapping her butt to the song and slapping it to the song. i was smsing wen and ki darling at that point and telling them about it because i was so damn bored. then i tried to control my laughter but hey, i thought, why not just let it out? damn my soft voice. laugh also no one take notice, even though i laughed a couple of times.

at that point i thought, how nice if MintZ were with me, we could laugh like psychos at the butt-percussion action. and she has a scary laugh. wahahahaha. i think she will kill me after monday. ahem. but i was literally the 'butt of jokes' recently. and voluntarily so. hehehe.

anyway, got half a dozen doughies for ki darling + 2 rasp choc for me and wen. went to JE, met darling who so blur didn't realize we had an ulterior motive of giving her early bdae gifts wahahaha. even when wen came with a big bag zomg darling!!! u so blur so cute hehe.

yokatta.
i hope i bought the right bottle of aoi yama kouhii. cos i very scared buy the kind that cannot brew properly zomg. i very louya at buying kouhii. only can buy tea cos teabag easy ma. LOL.

managed to study abt 1+ chapters then lon came and entertained us with his misery until we couldn't study. eh well. he was sad yet high and crazy and very funny and entertaining. different people deal with things differently. i too, tend to go a bit mad or too damn depressed. nvm, crazy people are fun.

sunday. awoken at 9+am. i think 940am by pig bro's sms. but what alerted me was kaze also smsed me good morning at 920am. yokatta :) itsumo ii toki ni modotta. but now gone missing again after telling me he got dizzy after reading while driving. dou kana? but i think he can take care of himself ba.

shimatta, i lazed until the last reply which was around 11am. kedo i managed to finish up the entire textbook of Teo. whee. but that's not the last of it. D: teh horror.

crawled to japa and it was drizzling. saw the tall guy that sits at the back, hoping i could talk to him in the lift but it was too crowded. nvm~ haha. i am still the girl who sits right at the back alone in a row of 3. arrives silently, leaves silently. never interacts, never speaks. think there's an aura of 'talk to me and i will behead you' about me. but hey! i am actually very friendly and i have a nice smile. wahahaha. kedo sometimes it's really mendou kuse to talk to people and interact. roarrrrr.

pig bro was in national lib. thought i could meet him up for a chat and stuff but dad had to come early to pick me. sighs. at least we learnt something new today. the other side of the road near my sch is called Manila Street. heh. yeah the one running parallel to Middle Road.

anyway had a family dinner at Crystal Jade cos dad won consolation by buying his taxi number. small sum but it's still money and can be used to buy some nice dinner and groceries so it's good. gawd. actually was feeling quite ill cos kinda dizzy. i think the effect of studying too much or it's just japa lesson or what. no idea. shared some la mian with sis and xiao long bao and prawn dumplings. parents had congee. full full very full.

trying to learn canto from dad but unfortunately, speaking japanese is still easier compared to it. yikes. will me and my sis forever be unable to understand and participate in reunion dinner chitchat? damn.

laughed like a psycho in the pet food section at my sis. continued to disturb her throughout ntuc. she told dad she was afraid to be alone with me. muahahaha. crazies hit again! pre-exam jitters. usually i don't try so hard for a midterm. but this is MY FINAL YEAR. 40% of a CORE! ZOMG.

damn. sis still wins me in 'man-eating'. WAHAHAHHAA. i must jiayou!!!!!
....but i don't have the time lmao.

well, paid for groceries, got one in one piece and here i am.

in the future, if any of you have babies, please lend me one.
you know when people push trolleys of things and just shout "SIO AH" (hot!) to get people to siam? ROAR pisses me off. even people pushing those rubbish bin will shout SIO AH! walao hot rubbish!?!??! steaming junk.

so one day i wanna push a stroller with a baby (doll or live) around and shout SIO AH!!!!!! hot baby coming through! GIVE WAY PLZ.

insane. think i will end up in the mental hospital soon.
ya anyway i realise that pushing the emergency button in the mrt aint worth it. $5000 for a 5min delay? no way. maybe should push it while it's in the tunnel then maybe longer. ho hum. but still i think no kick. yesterday i think it was activated somehow and an official came in asking who pressed the button. no idea if anyone did but the delay was only 5minutes. i was sad! a cloud appeared above my head and hailstones fell. mmm.

should i be an old lady busking with an electric guitar?
an old lady who goes around complimenting people while they are queuing for their buses at the interchange?
an old lady who pushes a stroller with a plastic baby doll and shouts SIO AH?
or a little old lady who walks around in spongebob squarepants pyjamas and matching slippers with a plastic bag around her chin asking young men on the street for a date or for their numbers.

ho hum.
well, i have fifty years to think of what to do.
bwahahaha.

time to wrap up before this gets too long.
HAPPY MUGGING!!!!!

good luck all for 401 midterm!
*ninmari suru*
(evil laughter)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:53:00 PM

Friday, October 05, 2007

el-bows

fuck it. i fucking hate elbows. especially elbows of bony skinny people. they stick out all over the place. hello, control your elbows please. you may be skinny and occupy very little space cos you have no fats like i do, but your elbows occupy so much space and jab here and there. not surprised you can even use it to poke out people's eyes.

keep your elbows neatly tucked in at your sides, stop jabbering them around like some chicken with no feathers.

dammit. today the mrt so packed. hell crowd. this guy, not even skinny. slim built i suppose, with his girlfriend standing holding the pole. his fucking elbow coming in at my side. i have to cross my arms so that his elbow will just keep pressing against my arm and NOT MY LEFT BOOB OMG LA.

STUPID IDIOT YOU SO BUSY WITH GF UNTIL YOU CANNOT FEEL YOUR ELBOW IS TOUCHING PEOPLE AH? AND NOT JUST TOUCHING IT'S LIKE PRESSING AGAINST SOMEONE LOR. SOME PEOPLE SO BLOODY OBLIVIOUS TO THINGS AROUND THEM.

WHAT YOU THINK I'M GONNA TAHAN WITH YOUR ELBOW PRACTICALLY PASTED AND DENTING THE SIDE OF MY LEFT BOOB??????

i fucking hate it.

somemore he talk he will waggle about his elbow like a chicken wing.
fuck just hold the pole normally and it's crowded for fuck's sake.
will you just keep your arms straight and still.

I WAS ABOUT TO EXPLODE AND GRAB HIS ELBOW, RIPPING HIS ARM FROM ITS SOCKET WHILE I HELD HIM IN A NECK LOCK.

i was contemplating it for the longest time and thankfully he and his gf left at novena mrt. cos i think if he continued to stay there any longer with his elbow pressed against my arm which was guarding my left boob, i would have created a scene on the mrt by really twisting off his arm and BREAKING HIS FUCKING ELBOW.

argh.

i do so hate people very much.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:44:00 PM

free aircon

what a bloody hot day today. didn't you wish you had free aircon the whole day? ironic. i know i love wearing my jacket but not the WHOLE day in the HOT SUN and hot pasar malam omg.

what what what? why why why?
just take it off la?

nuuuuuu. jacket stays. it's green it's comfy it's long it stays.
even though i was sweltering and dying underneath it all.

the first thing i noticed today when i sat down in the first class of the day:
wtf, there's a hole in my pants near my zipper! omg my crotch. exposed! not like i was wearing black undies today too. damn. should have worn black.

and i don't think it was only spoilt today.
i think it was like this the previous time i wore these pants.
and *shock* the time before i previously wore it too.
the so-called free air conditioning that led to wearing my jacket the whole day.

ZOMG!

i hope there are no crotch enthusiasts or crotch watchers lurking in my midst.
karma karma... yet another bolt of it upon my head.
yaaaa MintZ had a field of a time laughing at me until she couldn't stand up straight.
i still threaten with pimple in ass crack karma.

just you wait.
muahahaha

wow studiousation today.
studied chapters 1 to 3 of media law book.
actually, just read through.
but still, am feeling happy. very sleepy now, can't go on any longer else tomorrow can't survive.

celebrated by heading to geylang serai pasar malam in the luxury of MintZ's car with the value-added company of H. whee Ramly. followed by 3 for $10 keropok and cookies and $10 worth of socks, not to mention the 5 or so cockroach obstacles on the way.

fun fun fun.

and i was feeling kinda ridiculous roaming about with a hole in the crotch of my pants and a thick jacket i couldn't take off. HAHAHAHA. and feeling pretty darn hot too. damn damn.

both of us rendered phone-less and uncontactable with worried parents unable to get a response wahahaha. cos my phone died while i was in school. yup replying some sms while studying and then phone conked off and died while on the way to geylang.

hope no bad spells of karma tomorrow. don't wanna end up with yet another strategically growing pimple or equally strategically located hole in any article of clothing haha.

scary stuff, that.
or am i drawing too many coincidences? haha.

good though today. review for scene exercise. had a positive response from classmates and lecturer. =) great work guys! sorry your director cui but the team and actors zai! woots.

alright. internet is conking up on me.
tatas and goodnight.
long day tomorrow wheeeee.

silent stalker silent stalker momopeach.
and no, confidence is just a farce to gain false self-esteem haha.

lmao.
fulfilling days with psychotic things to do every day!
what psychotic thing shall i do tomorrow?
or rather, who will be the psycho today heh.

happy mugger days~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:19:00 AM

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

karma

courtesy of MintZ, this word and concept ran through my head today.
yes yes, my dearest MintZ, flirt too much and you will have bad karma.

"karma manifests itself in the form of a pimple on your ass".

uh huh, don't snigger back there else you might get karma back in the form of a pimple in your ass crack.

which is worse? definitely pimple in your ass crack haha!

unfair.
am not hot enough to keep the ladies.

damn damn damn.
does it have to end this way?

seriously, have you seen a red MintZ?
damn cute.
nearly rolled on the floor of tutorial room 5 laughing my ass off.
a japanese "guo tie" outside a darkened classroom and i still have no idea why cannot say name but instead say "2 friends".

and damn damn damn,
Ms Invisible and Ms Efficient weren't around in the classroom when i had everything planted nicely. Ms Inefficient was there but she was blurring.
never mind, i shall try again next week :D

my Elephant is smexy.
watch as i stroke its casing.
gives MintZ shudders down her spine. haha!

good day with her today.
this entry in memory of the good times we had since she's leaving me for hot chicka el.
sob sob sigh sigh
where's our hot lesbian lurve?
even wa-wa won't come back to me.
sob sob.
karma baby.
blame the pimple on my ass.

at least i have SY!
(or so i deludedly think.)

MintZ, i will continue your dream of our adventures in the forest tonight.
WAHAHAHHAA

remember remember, the 5th of october.
silent shh shh
silent stalker
face in the crowd

you can't hide for much longer!
muahahaha.
should stalk openly!

my tao hua yun give you.
so that the karma on my ass will go away.
whee!

so if you have a pimple on your ass, you know your tao hua yun is on its way.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:33:00 PM

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

amusing

funny when you're not looking for something, things tend to find you.
kinda feels bad that distribution aint equal, but then again, nothing is.
kinda feels odd too because out of the blue and my eyebrow is raised.

pretty amusing days i've been having so far.
good boost to the ego too.
but hey, i do need a boost to my ego.
school is getting hellish.
i need to FEED on amusement, on people's anguish and disappointment to feel good.

call me evil, but tell me something i don't already know :)

ah well, toodles.
fridge awaits.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:01:00 AM