Tuesday, June 30, 2009

:))

and all is right with the world once more.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:14:00 AM

feel like going for a radical change.
see if i can amass the money for a crazy haircut.

need to start afresh in a world where they don't know who you are.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:39:00 AM

rather... expected, should i say?
this is ridiculous.

so i don't care i don't care i don't care.

gonna gorge myself on lovely blackforest kirsch cake until i fall down drunk
(yah right like that's possible)

i feel like cocktail tonight.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:23:00 AM

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

somehow i just feel that someone's missing...
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:22:00 AM

Monday, June 22, 2009

sometimes i feel i am a dumbass or that my way of thinking is just permanently and totally screwed... or just different from all the rest.

it will be hard to survive from here on out.

but.

i will not stop trying.

if i have to learn how to think like the rest, i will try my best... somehow my mind is wired in a very strange way... gives me problems... maybe why i never liked comprehension or summary or newspaper report writing in the first place.

and i must shut up and not say anything when i have nothing to say... just to add things into the conversation... looks bad on me most of the time.

yes, my snake will not have legs.

i'm not getting younger. it's time to act my age. and think like my age.

i cannot use the excuse of being a rookie with minimal experience for much longer.

life was never gentle. even being born is a struggle.

so i will keep fighting and die trying (yes, we all have to die eventually. i'm not being morbid about it)

sorry bloggie for abandoning you. i will try to blog more... but i'm growing out of you.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:31:00 AM

Monday, June 15, 2009

i'm so angry my head is gonna explode.

now i'm just plain sleepy and two maple characters need leveling up to 25.
but yay! MH rocks! time to catch a fairy mouse for the map!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:56:00 PM

next time remind me NEVER to help anyone sell anything. EVER.
especially if it is my SISTER.

so unresponsive and uncontactable.

zzz.

買方もイライラにもされた。

ok i'm over it already. but not with the last sentence. LOL.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:40:00 PM

Saturday, June 13, 2009

shag. spent the whole day sleeping.
nvm... tmr waffle! or something.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:13:00 PM

maybe i'm the odd one out;
the one with the problem;
...

eradication is also fine.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:02:00 AM

just for fun, i created a calendar in google and saved my schedule there. i think you can add events in it and see what i'm up to. just need to add my calendar via my gmail email i think.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:19:00 AM

Thursday, June 11, 2009

push harder, strive forth, chiong ah! i'm going mad liao omg.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:01:00 AM

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

work has swallowed up my life... XD
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:53:00 PM

Sunday, June 07, 2009

next week i will try harder.
i am not going to be a person in the background, the person backstage, the person behind a drape, the backbencher; i want to be at the forefront of it all, in the thick of action;

i wanna be somebody.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:42:00 PM

Friday, June 05, 2009

untainted; yes. this is L-O-V-E.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:47:00 AM

Thursday, June 04, 2009

some people create ideas for a living.
some people create beauty for a living.
some people create happiness for a living.
some people create lives for a living.
some people create jobs for a living.
some people create opportunities for a living.
some people create trouble for a living.

i guess everyone creates.
i'm just glad i'm not in that last spot on my list anymore!

tomorrow my green gloomy; my delicious pig!
wheee!

day 4 tomorrow and counting :)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:25:00 AM

ah. i looked in my new office's toilet mirror today.
and the reflection looked... different.
different from the one that stared back at me in my previous workplace.
maybe it's the lighting.
natural lighting ftw! in comparison to artificial and cold flourescent.
exploration of the new toilet.
the flush didn't want to stop heralding my presence D:

i like the reflection that beams back at me in this new place.

:)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:20:00 AM

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

long, long way to go

my body is old, so so old.
but here i am, taking baby steps once more.
there's a long, long way to go.
but i jumped! and the train didn't stop moving. not once.

目を覚ました、
原因が覚えた、
大事のことは一体何？
いつも心を持たなきゃ。

絶対に忘れない。

and i remembered,
and they remembered.
but will i be remembered?

i am confused by this new road.
but if i don't try to navigate,
i will never leave this dead-end.

hmm and i think i'm somewhat unwell to boot.

tomorrow!!!
yes:
my bear, my calendar.
you will come with me to work.

teehee so fun-kee!

steponthegasandgimmemoreDRIVE!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:35:00 AM