Wednesday, December 18, 2002

my sister was having a nap today in the bedroom.. and i just thought that i would take a listen to my new cd.. but aRGH.. i'm nearing the end of song number TWO, and i hear yelling from the room.. for goodness sake. i'm in the freaking living room! so i switched it off, yelled SIA LAN and kept my cd.. okok.. no reason to get pissed over such a small matter.. cds are for.. displaying.. in my house, that is. *sigh* it'sbadtorantit'sbadtorantit'sbadtorant

ugh. everyone was crowding behind me just now.. everyone being my sis and my mom.. ok, i know they're probably not spying on me or sth.. just discussing sth right behind me.. but. i'm paranoid. i have reason to be. anyway my sis also gets paranoid when i walk behind her.. as if my eyesight's -that- good.. well.. her's is MUCH better.. once i was on irc.. chatting happily, luckily, about random stuff.. and den, i hear her comment. *heart stops. thumpthumpthump* what did she see? from when? ok, not that i'm surfing porn or anything or chatting real dirty.. but. it's just my privacy. so i see her, leaning over from where's she's sitting.. laughing at me and commenting.. aRgh.. reli gets me.

and today. fresh from her rudely disturbed nap.. which was of course, MY FAULT. oh dear. me and my hateful music. i should just break all my cds.. all hardly played. wow.

oh, go jump in the lake.

she called me cheena. so? i cuss in hokkien. or japanese. better than cussing in english.. you rather i mutter "fuck you, dammit" audibly in the household? no no.. doesn't go nicely on my ettiquette.. not that i have much tho.. i feel much more comfortable muttering stuff like "nani teme!?" or "chikusho" or "wah lau" or "sia lan" or "kao eh"
urm.. not that it's any more polite.. but it's not my mainly spoken language: english.. so i guess i dun feel bad using them.. XD

well.. she's onto this cheena business of hers.. complaining zhss is a cheena sch.. all her friends v cheena and stuff.. and she regrets going... even spb is cheena.. blahblahblah.. words from big sis? singapore is mostly like that. better get exposed to it, rather than suffer a massive culture shock, right? ok, i admit.. aj is cheena.. but i'm more or less adapting.. not that i'm THAT english anyway.. i'm a chinese singaporean too.. i just don't immerse myself in chinese dramas, chinese music, etc..

so where was i? oh.. trying not to rant. but i'm failing oh so horribly. damn. i suck. anyway i decided to ignore those channel takeover faggots. i shifted channels.. now my private channel is #[f|aW] .... gonna get it registered.. *plsbesuccessfulplsbesuccessful*
freaks la.. reli nothing better to do..

anyway two of my friends got their results today.. N lvls.. haix.. not good news. but they're not giving up.. ganbatte!!! i'm so proud of them... =) as for me.. i suppose i might be a quitter if i din pass some major exam.. i dunno.. i dun wanna know..

so yeah.. tonight maybe staying up all night to finish up my costume.. cosplay on saturday.. suntec.. i dunno how i'm gonna lug it there, and i think it will be very ugly.. cos of some technical problems and stupid human error.. UGH.. so yeah.. *BIG SIGH*
*wheeze* just gotta go and feel happy, cos that's the only choice i have. if i back out, it'll be like wasting money.. aRgh... *slaps herself*

sometimes i think i'm too impulsive.
it's true, innit?
ok.. time to make costume and relearn how to work a sewing machine.. cos i reli dun feel like sewing by hand.
oyasuminasai~
wUv dith ( x__X )
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:36:00 PM