Friday, January 24, 2003

fucking hell. pangseh pangseh pangseh seems to be the word of the day.. wait.. word of the week more like it. avril concert today. kena pangseh. sort of la.. uGh.. actually it was quite ok.. got totally squished up in the crowd. some hair torn out from my scalp. getting pushed around till i moved places unwillingly.. became esp bad when she came onstage.. ev1 started swimming to the front and shoving like crazy.. those blardee foreigners at the front kept shoving their asses back. she wore a thong/gstring.. wtf is with that man.. haix.. ppl were fainting and security were like carrying them out.. those small kids.. a guy.. cuss words aplenty flying back and forth from carefully madeup lips.. genteel looking faces.. etc

she did an hour long concert i think.. played all (or nearly all) the songs on her album.. played guitar.. spoke to the audience.. etc..
i emerged all hot sweaty and wet.. with other ppl's hair on my shirt.. ugh. looked like total crap. no idea what i smelt like too.. uGh.. din give a damn anyway. basically just followed the crowd to cityhall mrt.. haiyox.. took train to marina den back to tpy.. got off, waited for the bus.. went home.. stoned, ate, watched tv (a bit of Being John Malkovich) bathed..

frens all pangseh me for lush. now all not going. i ask, what the HELL is THIS?! haix.. now it's either:
1. go with yingzhi's clubbing clique
2. go with christabel's clubbing clique (which also includes a couple of guys i know from aj)
3. go with a stranger (cannot. that would confirmed be dangerous)
4. dun go at all until after A's...
5. continue stoning.

i dunno. i know if i dun go, i'll regret it. i know if i go i also might regret it. no close frens going.. cannot get bloody shit freaking drunk. maybe when i'm 18 i'll buy a carton of booze and booze myself to stonamentville... should be fun.. drink until my eyeballs pop out. drink until i lose all sense. drink until... whatever....

feeling quite sad now loh... =/

can life get anymore suckier? yes. and it will.
i know so.

ok. i know i'm making a fuss over a tiny party.. but hey.. i so want to go.. and i'm getting pangseh..
if i go with other frens..
1. will i sia suay myself?
2. i will feel uncomfortable.. but den again there's nothing a few glasses of alcohol wun fix..
3. moneymoneymoney
4. alamakx.. will they even CARE about ME?
5. what's the point? _|_

uGHh.........................
hellx. think i'll go out after sch tml...
wherever i dun care.

just go.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:45:00 AM