Sunday, January 26, 2003

miserly miserly miserly..

hahah.. no one buaya me today.. so sad.. got dance -briefly- with a few guys.. and by briefly.. it's like, less than 5 min... =/ actually, i dun give a shit.. was kinda.. no.. -very- distracted today.. dancing dancing dancing.. den turn around looksee who's where who's around, etc.. couldn't dance today either.. damn sucky.. at least my feet dun hurt as much as the first time i went to lush..
possibilities:
1. din reli dance.. you say leh
2. seasoned shoes?
3. feet too hard liao.. xi guan le..
4. aiyah. dunno.

music not say wonderful.. better than centro tho.. >.< rnb la.. but certain songs got a certain beat that you can -reli- dance to.. others are like.. blah. eminem's lose urself is a wonderful song.. but i cannot reli dance to that.. it's like.. no kick after sometime.. i reli grooved to prodigy's firestarter.. hmm.. den towards the end they played all techno-ish songs.. no singing or stuff.. why nvr play nelly's hot in here? dammit.. or britney spear's (eee.. damn her! XD) boys.. how about.. hmm.. alot of songs din play leh.. and i like sooooo darn MANY.. personally.. i prefered the lush party i went last yr.. also my first one.. altho i got groped and kinda violated, i grooved like hell.. aRgH... =/ what's wrong with my groove man.. haix.. today i drank 5 cups of alcohol.. 3 bourbon coke.. 2 vodka sprite.. so sian.. but i like bourbon coke! eh.. today either the alcohol not v strong, or i'm getting used to it. haix... that's a bad sign, innit? i like swigged it down without feeling much.. >.< gosh.. i'm becoming a drinker man.. drinker dith will end up drunkard dith... disgusting dith. lol.. haven't reli gotten drunk before.. only once when i was 10... and that is not reli drunk loh.. what's up with that man.. anyway being in a drunken stupor is just plain sucky.. i wun wanna try it.. i'll just have enuf to make me feel like i had my moolah's worth, and get high.. and sugar high to groove on the dance floor....

yep... =)

orh ya.. toe freaking hell urm.. nope it doesn't hurt. but there's a fucking gash on my big toe.. =/ caked blood around it.. haix.. washed most of it off, but din reli wanna tackle it.. ugh.. i'm a wuss la.. dunno how the FUCK i landed up with it man.. uGhx.. i recall ppl stepping on my toes.. hmm.. maybe i got it -just- before heading to the toilet. which was like what... 3am? when the party ended (or nearly ended) felt sth sharp briefly graze past my toe.. din reli think nth of it.. toes all numb n cramping up from all the dancing in heels too... hate heels man... -_-; why do gals have to wear em?

lights went on, i pottered around before heading upstairs to the toilet...saw my toe halfway and was like omifriggingosh.. there's sth on my shoe.. like a round patch of sth.. =/ thot it was a fucking shadow initially.. den it was WET and STICKY and it smelled of Fe3+.. what the fuck? got into a stall and frantically wiped the blood away, but it just didn't seem to stop.. haix.. kept oozing out from my fucked up toe.. =( i did the best i could for it.. perhaps it was also due to me being on my feet the whole time.. blood all collected in my toes... so that's why there was alot of blood.. felt reli disgusted.. and sickened.. was this my retribution for skipping the blood screening on wed? perhaps. i guess there was enuf blood to fill a vial or sth... uGHx..

dumped the wad of toilet paper in the toilet bowl.. looked like someone urm... (you know) haha.... toilet din wanna flush.. sensor-operated.. manual like cannot... -_-; put another wad of toilet paper over to cover up eventually when i gave up.. and guess what? it flushed on me.. diao~ freaking technology... -____-;

stumbled outside the pub and called my fren.. found them.. den i complained about my fucking ass bleeding toe.. and i began to feel faint and disorientated.. uGhx.. nearly fainted man. what a sight to behold.. either i cannot take the sight of blood or i lost too much blood? siaox... everything was like going in fuzzy tv spots.. my ears begin whooshing.. tunnel vision.. i was like sinking into a tunnel or fuzzy spots.. everything turned hollow... like as if you have water in your ears.. a bad case of it.. that's how it felt.. luckily i told my frens about it.. and the guy sitting on a nearby chair kindly eradicated it.. i sorta fumbled and felt my way to it.. and uncertainly collapsed onto it.. put my head between my knees.. at first felt like i would barf or some shit.. but i din.. started feeling better.. fren says i was like -scary- pale kinda.. haix... it even scared the shit outta me man.. shit man.. keeled over in the chair for awhile.. started feeling more like normal, vision returned, so i sat up and observed my surroundings.. ppl leaving the pub... groups of ppl gathered around.. some dead drunk, some just sitting around resting.. some just damn shagged from all that booty-shaking. lol..

sat there for awhile den we went walking around the area.. me half-limping cos my toe was beginning to get that weirdish penetrating pain that you get when you're cut or some shit like that.. i guess it's the blood cells coagulating to form the beginnings of a scab over it.. passed by cafe cartel.. hmm.. saw some frens and sch mates.. one of them dead drunk, slumped in the corner... won't say who tho... my near fainting spell also rendered me like that for 10 mins... haix...

4 gals, sexilly clad (eh. minus one - me.. XD) hopped into a waiting cab to lau pa sat.. reeking of alcohol, smoke and sweat.. discussion about who was dancing with who.. and which guy was hot, etc ensued.. hmmx.. i din reli have anything to say.. i was dancing alone most of the time... sad hor... told ya liao.. miserly.. no guy buaya me.. and i'm not the loose kind who will buaya a guy.. danced atop the podium.. first time i ever did that.. ok la.. i'm a sucky dancer.. but who gives a shit, right? haha... parked my ass there till 2.30+ den got tired and stepped down.. still couldn't find anyone.. haix.. think some of them also became drunk or tired.. and were not dancing no more.. uGHx.. sad.. =/

i had grass jelly desert at lau pa sat.. $1.. not bad.. hmmx.. still have 15 bucks left.. 5 dollars short of what i took from the envelope containing the gp fund.. haha.. should be able to pay that back, i hope.. gotta stat papers on mon.. yep... reminder reminder.. set reminder... heheh.. stoned and talked there for awhile den took a cab back.. cost me 10.95... i think the taxi driver charged me 10.90.. cos i realised i had been handed a 10cent coin while i was in the shower and it clinked out from my jeans..

gingerly bathed cos din wanna wet my toe.. gah.. i'm soooo pathetic.. in the end, i emerged victorious in my mission... haha.. lol.. but i cleaned off the smudged and dried blood around it... i re-examined it.. semi deep gash.. around an inch long on the top right hand corner of my big toe.. where the skin's hard.. so it's not so painful.. i know i should reli wash it.. cos it might get infected.. but no... i'm a wuss, remember?

oh yeah.. liquid courage.. i guess going to a pub and ingesting alcohol kinda makes you high, more approachable and more daring.. henceforth the name. it's true loh.. some ppl i see in sch.. rarely talk to... or dun even talk to.. in pub they'll just reach out and easily touch me... in a frenly way la, not buaya way... and in pubs.. it's like guys are like, when they pass by a gal, they kinda hold her waist for awhile as they past? dunno.. no idea... maybe it's also dark.. can't reli see.. or maybe i'm too large.. dunno where i start and dunno where i end.. hahaha.. massive dith.. o.0; was wearing a black top too... so i guess that contributed to that...

seize the oppotunity! <-- words of encouragement for meself.. haha... for me to know and for you to find out...

at least i'm kinda happy today.. i accomplished some things.. haha.. doesn't reli consider clubbing... just my personal lame aspirations.. lolx.... none the worse for wear cept for my freaking toe-gash... and perhaps gotta face me dad's black face tml.. stern and unspoken.. scarier man....

so proud of miself on sat afternoon.. i did quite a bit of hw .. it's normally how much i would finish in 3 days if i set my mind to it... haha.. daunting task: clear the mountain (everest) of backdated hw.. AND do the new hw before teacher goes thru and you end up copying blindly like a fool, learning nth.. -_-;

shit man.. yawning now.. hope i dun type shit rubbish like the previous entry... what canteen auntie indeed?! siaox.. dunno what the hell i was dreaming about.. =/ yep.. i guess that's about enuf shit for today... some ppl can't even be bothered to wade thru all these (meaningless) words that i have spent time and effort and energy to put down... haha.. but it's a release to me.. i like reading thru old entries.. =)

anyway... night~~~~
i go dl stuff from IVLE... hahahahah... UNEXPECTED HOR!!!
can hear dad snoring... good sign...
wUv shaggedDith.... *_*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:18:00 AM