Wednesday, January 15, 2003

mm.. at home now.. feeling sleepy.. as usual.. i wanna play renewal leh! >.<
yeah.. so damn blur today.. whatever possessed me to just walk into any coming train? kaox.. either i'm just blur or getting old and senile.. *sigh* diao~ loh.. -_-; reli amazed at myself today.. wahahax... i walked to the mrt station with my classmate.. talking crap.. den went up the escalator.. i din check the direction of the train! .........
haiyox!!!!
just auto waited there, cos erm.. i guess i'm like so used to having the train on that side.... so i hopped onto it.. stood near the window and stoned.. stoned for nearly the whole train ride to khatib.. erh.. din notice until 7/8 of the way there or sth.. passing over the water liao.. past the trees.. den a thot crept into my head in the midst of my ston-a-ment.. (is there even such a word? lol..) "why is there so much water? how come the journey's so long? how long have i been out? eh? am i on the wrong train?" realisation hit me den. and hit me hard. stoning at the final stretch of water, it came to me like a shock of ice water to my face... WAKE UP MISS! YOU'RE ON THE WRONG TRAIN DAMMIT!!!
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in my WHOLE life i have nvr gotten on the wrong train.. perhaps yeah, if i reli dunno the way, maybe.. but like this?! pengzpengzpengz.. what the craaap! i was gonna curse out loud on the train.. haix.. luckily seeing alot of water in one place together (ie: open sea / lake) has a calming and soothing effect on a person...
train reached khatib and i stumbled out, cussing myself.. saw siru come out.. *sia suay* quickly pretended i was gonna head down the escalator.. just when i thot it was safe... out pops kailing.. alamakxxx!!!

she was like: "eh meredith! what'cha doing here?"
me: "ehm.. *silly laffter* took the wrong train! *more silly laffter (like a featherhead's)*"
she: *laughing* "i was thinking how come you stay in yishun lol"
me: "ehhehehe. haha. yeah.."
she: "so where you stay?"
me: "toa payoh... "
she: "lol.. ok den.. meredith you blur ar! *turns and walks down the stairs*"
me: *more lame laffter to hide my embarrassment* "yeah.. hahaha.... seeya~!"

diao~
=/ so took me extra long to reach home today.. plus i walked home from the mrt station like i always do.. gotta work off the fats, train the legs muscles.. and get a breath of fresh air all in one! hehehe... yeah.. multi-purpose.. was thinking about the seminar too.. mental training.. >.< i mean, walk sure can walk finish.. dun tell me i suddenly stop dead in the middle of the street, right? wahahx.. reli a sight to see.. or just sit down halfway? kaox...

orh yah.. alot of cny stuff selling .. everywhere's red and gold and auspicious-cie! =D erm.. not that i'm suddenly in love with cheena stuff.. but yeah.. tradition! =D hong bao! $_$
shoe lace came undone halfway.. think some idiot stepped on it.. but den again, that idiot could be me! haha.. so walked quite a stretch with it dangling on the floor getting trodden on by my own two feet.. >.< ehx.. so sleepy now.. =/

yep.. actually the S^3 thingy wasn't so bad.. the presentation was good.. better than what i can do, anyway.. today just did gp presentation on terrorism.. haiyox.. sux la me.. can't present properly loh.. =/ either too luo suo, too dry, too boring, too stumbly on words, not coherent or unprepared or whatshit.. eh.. den again, i'm ALWAYS unprepared! lol... i think ppl going to sleep liao loh.. eeks~~ =/

the skit was good.. altho only 3 main chars, out of which 2 were uncles.. 2 supporting actresses, (ah mahs).. and alot of crap! haha.. damn lame loh.. some bits were lame till funi.. haha... creative~ at least i din slp.. means it was good! =P hehehe.. crazeeee one la... din know army so shiokk~~ haha. not that i will join it.. my fitness lvl aint high enuf... and i'm afraid of the medical checkup and the various immunisations i will have to endure.. dowan la.. >.< already not taking the hep b thing cos i'm too darn chicken.. and a big wuss, to top it all off.. i admit. i am a wuss when it comes to doing certain things.. =/ ah.. everyone has their own imperfections.. hehehe.. i'm no exception! =)

mr wee singing song today.. ehx.. hao lian la! sing aj sch song.. j2s dun even know the words leh.. hehe.. i came early to sch today.. theng yiu was already in the parade square.. so toked cork with him.. den marc came.. also toked cork.. tze kang.. manyi.. etcetc.. wasn't late today.. not like yest.. ran for the bus like siao charboh loh.. =/ reli damn fast.. in comparison to what i do at pe and how i normally run.. think i was reli damn enthu about NOT being late.. hehe.. my mom said she saw me "galloping"... diao~ what a way to put it ok.. well.. erm.. at least she din say "stomping" or "hobbling" or "stumbling" or "pounding".. er.. she -did- use pounding la.. to suan me.. -_-;;

so anyway.. comments that aje's getting crappier and crappier were heard.. haha.. thank goodness i aint in that cca anymore!~ =P and i love to haolian that fact to jessie.. haha.. now 3 enterprise ppl in my class.. ^^ one less! me!!!~~~ altho today i hung around in the e-shop.. now newly christianed "point X" , issit? yeah.. sat there on the floor doing my chem hol hw.. nearly finished introductory topics... ONLY! =/ diedie.. tml detention awaits.. can dun go actually.. but er.. lata mr lim buay song me... wahahax.. dunno la.. see what tml brings! =D i'm always liddat.. living for the day, living for the moment.. the "aiyah heck care la, enjoy now, suffer lata la" kinda attitude.. i guess it's bad.. but my reasoning: why be -usual- and boring or suffer thruout when you can enjoy for awhile and take the suffering lata, right? i mean.. if there's an opportunity to be happy and enjoy yourself for awhile.. and you're having the time of your life, why pass it up? extreme happiness is a precious moment, a rare break in time.. take hold of it.. if you suffer later (but not extreme suffering.. more like lata chiong hw like siao or lata kena scolding is ok.. not lata jail and fined and killed kinda thing la.. nothing unlawful =P) it's gonna turn out ok, right? i mean.. 3 times unlucky, and then everything will just take a shift 180 degrees.. =) i mean.. ok la.. it's an old wives' tale and whatnot.. but i think it's true.. ^^

that's why i always am scolded by teachers.. every day at least once.. haha.. cos it's always like "enjoy now, suffer lata" kinda thing..

was late for chinese lesson today.. *yawning intermission* the moment i stepped into 412, mdm foo immed called me and said "pei li, wo3 yao4 gen1 ni3 jiang3 dong1 xi1".. i thot i sure tio scolding for whatshit.. but in the end she ended up praising me.. was complaining to my mom earlier.. mom said last yr at parent-teacher thingy she kept praising one of my classmates.. eh.. den had v little confidence in me.. this yr suddenly.. -_-; haiyox! turns out that she shifted me from my slack and unopiniated group for the total defence thing to the group doing psychological defence.. the competition group.. diao~ sat me down in a chair beside her, talking to me about what should be done.. -_-;; eh.. kaox.. anyway this group's much more better and much more fun! alot of crap to talk cos i'm quite close to all of them! ^^ hehehe... yeah~ somemore this group alot of the kaobei ppl.. :P so fun.. won't say what we're planning to do.. yet. lata ppl steal our wonderful ideaaaazzzzz~ =PpPpPp

funny leh.. the way mdm foo's treating me these days.. issit because we have the same chinese surname or she thinks i'm suddenly guai? or she wants to take me under her wing for various reasons, one of them being.. (in the words of jes..) quoth: "i'm TOO cute!!!!" wahahahx... :X crazeeeee la, ppl... reli..

today did some reflection in my extra long train ride home.. (-_-;)
was thinking about bgr.. i mean, what's the point? aren't frens better? i discussed it with my mom today.. today observed all the aj couples.. i mean, yeah, it's part of life, and if you're in one now and truly enjoying it, den ok, i'm sorry.. but.. for what? feelings and perceptions.. even behaviour changes towards that person when you go into a relationship with him/her.. it's easy to tell who are -together- and who are just frens.. well.. sometimes..
guy becomes more gentle.. gal also.. alot of playfulness.. touching here and there.. sometimes abit the er xin loh, esp if seen in sch... >.< but some couples are reli reli v cute.. one of my ex pri sch classmates has a gf now, i think.. anyway, he's cute.. always has been.. till now also looks roughly about the same.. haha.. i wouldn't see why he won't have one..
but i was thinking: after most relationships end, the two people drift apart and lose all the closeness they shared last time.. some of them even just whambang! immediately avoid each other forever.. that's why i was thinking: if you reli treasure a person, and the person's frenship.. stay frens.. well, unless you're gonna marry him/her.. yeah.. i know i sound kinda cynical now.. but it's kinda true, right? after a breakup, things get abit weird.. feelings get hurt.. relationship gets torn apart, basically, and things will not revert back to how they were.. so the way i see it right now, i'm gonna remain single.. casual relationships are fine.. but not with close frens.. not only would it be weird, i would also run the risk of ending it totally, one day.. yep..

seriously, i think my logic is flawed at times.. but this is what i think, to sum it up.. stay friends with a person whom you reli treasure. friends are forever.. and nothing can change that fact. =)

what else was going on in my mind today? *thinks*
can't reli think now.. think i'll shrug off my philosophical phase now.. =P

was sleeping in the lounge today.. hehe.. looked like a damn pig.. nearly banged into zesin while leaving.. he din see me.. saw yuwei at canteen today.. asked him about the tix.. cos my frens from cjc interested.. erm.. cept for the gal with the 7210! ｬ_ｬ
hehehehe~~~

think i'll stop now.. blog lata if i have ideas.. now off to read blogs and check for updates! i'm a busybody! *sticks nose everywhere sniffing away* =P
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:40:00 PM