Wednesday, February 05, 2003

ok. can't say i'm in a better mood now... i guess i'll write about the stuff i did another time when i feel better i guess. now it's just thots thots thots. not feeling so trashy now thanks to some ppl... =D quite a few ppl.. you know who you are.. ^^
having mixed feelings now. i guess it's better than how i was feeling just now. contributes even more to my blurness. haven't done any hw either.. argh.. but i'll get it done later. i guess since some ppl are rehearsing for the NE thing i'll take early leave tml and just run off synapse.. haven't gotten anything done either over the space of the nearly non-existant cny hols.. hmmx...
haven't gotten enuf slp lately.. looking kinda panda-ish... hmmx.. i owe that to not being able to juggle my time, having extra things to do and stuff.. it sucks..but essentially it boils down to one thing. it's all my fault. mi and my poor time management. my lack of discipline or responsibility. argh argh argh.
i wanna know. am i reli blind and now i see or did i know all along and was pretending? kinda obvious. suspiciousness and curiousity naturally enticed me.. and now i can't help but keep looking for clues. i'm like that i guess. for those who know me well.. i'm sure you know how i'm like by now. but pity pity... mu's comp still spoilt... but yui sent mi a few diru songs.. yui good! X)
interactions. is that what makes us human? i dunno anymore. blehx. wrong signals perhaps if there's nothing behind the screen. or am i getting everything right, but it's just an unsaid truth? man oh man oh man.
a suggestion i got was to go wooden scarecrow totally. but i can't do that. it's bad. and it's unlike me. ugh.
i can't reli write anything here now.. too personal and i'm too tired. cough medicine taking effect.

damn.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:41:00 AM