Tuesday, July 29, 2003

s.c.i.

course i like needs 66 pts to get in. that would mean at least an AAB + b4 chinese and a2 english i guess.

anyone know details on ze counting of points system?

puhleassse enlighten meeeee.

please.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:40:00 PM

today

today i attended the talk on Crime and Punishment by a lawyer whose name sounded familiar. i believe perhaps my friends have been attached to his law firm before? mm. it was informative. i didn't sleep. nuh uh. not one bit! yay! proud of meself okaesss. hahaha... took notes too. hehe..

ran into kitt like 2 or 3 times today.... omfg? can i say coincidence? haha.. wasn't late for sch today.. thank goodynesssss. had company in the mrt tho. had roy and quan han. yay. bwahahah.. hopefully tml i'll have yf, sl, dn, qh, ry, my, pj and tons more ppl to accompany meee to sch! bwahahah.. cca day tml. feel like running off earlier. =X heh.

oh yah. finished maths tutorial 34 today. might start on 35 after midnight. then perhaps finish up my physics lecture assignment questions and my physics tutorial. don't seem to have touched on chem at all tho. =\ i'm beeeeehind timeee! save meeeeeeeeee. *faints*

thank goodnesssssss on fri i have help from turtle on stats. ZZz. stats test on sat. i MUST ace it. MUST MUST MUST! *chants* dith get into your study gear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU CAN DO IT! CHIONG ALL THE WAY TO THE A's!!!!!!!!! DEN YOU CAN SLACK BABY!!!!!!!! SLACKKKKKKKKKkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk~

muaks. dith. do it for me. muakx.

jes. you work hard too.

all the j1s i know.. dun slack!
all the j2s i know... YOU CAN DO IT! DUN GIVE UP HOPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
<3 dith
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:30:00 PM

Saturday, July 26, 2003

aiya. been eating again. but still not normally. hahaha...
managed to 'bump' into kitt once again, this time outside the girls' toilet. nonono~ i swear i wasn't stalking her! XD oh well. anyway we have quite a lot in common.. and we have some of the same outside friends.. namely the cosplayers. kewl shitx i say! ya. exchanged numbers w her... *evil grin* wahahaha.....

friday was a good day. finished school at 1pm. mm. haix. but i'm getting increasingly depressed over my weight, my image and my school work plus my results. ughx. went to see mrs leow then i met my mom in popular to get some files. went home, changed, got some stuff, went out again. ymca for the usual sgma outing... surprisingly ojisan was still on the way.. and to think when i smsed him around noon he said he was gonna prepare. bleargh. i reached at 3.35pm.... thru way of sms, bumped into him and went there together.

ugh. i knew it would happen. sooner or later. =i'm so disappointed in myself.
never ever ever camp outside in a fastfood joint!
ugh. i ate a big packet of mac shaker fries. every last fry. GAWD.
x(

but i did one unit of chemistry.
had some fun.
had my portrait drawn. (ugly me. haix)
random chatter with friends....

oh. and a few ajcians appeared there. scaryness.....
eek.
luckily i was in outing clothes. :D~

haix. slept the whole of saturday away. what am i left with?

utter.
failure.

booooooooooooooooo.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:05:00 PM

Wednesday, July 23, 2003

3rd day 3rd day! yAy~
=D

2 containers of fruit/veg juice - total of 712kJ
1 banana
1/8 honeydew
chicken meat. =/
fresh walnuts.

wonder what else i ate.
die die. still fat! tml taf! oh shit.

and.

horrifying fact of the day: mr koh takes the mrt to sch from amk.
yikes.
today while getting out of the carriage, his large white form was right in my line of vision.
shit.
gawd.
save me.

will this horror never end?

oh. had cca today as well as the career fair.
mmm. talked to the lady who teaches SCI. mmm..
did some enquiring and random chatter.
ahhhhhhhh! i want to go there!
A/B avg + high B or A in GP.
omfg. i hope i can make it.
time's a wasting.

fuck it.
FUCK ME!
x~(
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:07:00 PM

Tuesday, July 22, 2003

aiyah

hai. eating apples n bananas these few days.

and only that.

scale still remains stagnant. diedie.

=/
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:23:00 PM

Evanescence - Going Under

now i will tell you what i've done for you
50 thousand tears i've cried
screaming deceiving and bleeding for you
and you still won't hear me
don't want your hand this time i'll save myself
maybe i'll wake up for once
not tormented daily defeated by you
just when i thought i'd reached the bottom
i'm dying again

i'm going under
drowning in you
i'm falling forever
i've got to break through
i'm going under

blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
so i don't know what's real and what's not
always confusing the thoughts in my head
so i can't trust myself anymore
i'm dying again

i'm going under
drowning in you
i'm falling forever
i've got to break through

so go on and scream
scream at me i'm so far away
i won't be broken again
i've got to breathe i can't keep going under
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:36:00 AM

Monday, July 21, 2003

forgot to mention.
didn't eat the whole day.

so far, that is.

keep on going dith!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:23:00 PM

mixed feelings.

bleh bleh bleh.
had pe today.
bleh.

screwy 2 hours of shit.

mr koh as usual in a foul mood. esp at me.
no wonder it happened to him.

had to do extra rounds cause i was walking/jogging too slowly.

bleh.

not that it mattered anyway, cause i cheated on the ones us taf students had to do initially.

had more scolding (indirectly) when everyone was gathered in the gym for a fat talk.

prim your fats, my darlings!

.

he referred to some stuff that felt was directed at me.

as usual, repetition.

namely the shitting on his head and the chase around the track with a whip thing.

then he weighed us.

heavyheavyheavy.

am 4.6kg overweight.

sob sob.

as usual. the scale tips excessively when i step onto it.

caught me cheating.

i told him i lost my balance.

he didn't look convinced.

bleh.

tries to be nice to us.

bah. fuckers will always be fuckers.

as usual, singled me out. wtf.

yay. man-to-man talk.

ugh.

bell rang and he still kept talking.

was late for maths tutorial.

oh JOY!

as usual; talking to the wall. him, i mean, not me. i just stoned at his face.

tiring.

i do not intend to get vocal on him.

calm, unfeeling approach.

N U M B

yes yes.

told me to see him after school today.

so i did. indeed i did.

he wasn't around.

i wanted to whoop with joy and punch the air with my fists.

hospitalised.

sympathise or criticize?

wonderful.

the stars are aligning to my planet.

oh ya.

met roy today.

he passed by while i was having a chatfest with dear pj.
and casually said: 'hi dith.'

lol. so i went. 'hi... roy!'

tis nice.

yet another face in the crowd i can wave to.
yet another passing face that i will put on my mask and smile to.

the world is warm tonight.

rejoice.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:17:00 PM

Sunday, July 20, 2003

speculation

i wonder.

if i were to go up in flames, would my fats fuel the fire into a towering inferno?
if i were to burn, would my fats hiss and spit like the oil in the frying pan?
if fire would take me, would i be reduced to a puddle of oil before fizzling out, leaving but an oily spot on the floor? a mere memory of what i was. in terms of size, state and matter.

day 2 of my non-eating spree gone past.
caved in.
i ate a full lunch and a plate of cauliflower for dinner.. plus a packet of jasmine green tea and 2 dragon fruits.

i swear. i am SO gonna be skinned on monday.

fuck it.

who invented fat.
i hate lipids.
especially mine.

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:53:00 AM

Saturday, July 19, 2003

i hate my template still.
but oh well.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:36:00 AM

Friday, July 18, 2003

fat.

i ate.

i feel so fat.

i'm a blimp.

argh.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:44:00 PM

Thursday, July 17, 2003

H A T E

I HATE MANY THINGS IN THIS WORLD.

I HATE MR KOH FOR BEING SUCH A FAGGOT. AND NO, YOU CANNOT EXPEL ME EVEN IF YOU SEE THIS. WHAT RIGHT HAVE YOU. FREEDOM OF SPEECH IN MY OWN FUCKING BLOG, YOU HEAR? SO FUCK THE HELL OFF. YOU BLOATED BALL FACE. WHAT'S YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM. CAN'T YOU SEE I'M TRYING. WELL. NOW I'M TRYING TO CONCENTRATE ON MY STUDIES. STUDYING IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN PE. DON'T TELL ME OTHERWISE. I SHALL BE MY OWN JUDGE. PRIORITISE, MR. DON'T FUCKING COME UP TO ME ALL THE FUCKING TIME AND LECTURE ME WHEN I'VE LISTENED PATIENTLY TO ALL YOUR FUCKING CRAP. YES. YOUR SHITLOAD OF FUCKING CRAP.

YOU SAID:
"WOULD I LIKE PEOPLE TO BE SHITTING ALL OVER MY HEAD"
YOU SAID:
"DO YOU WANT ME TO CANE YOU TO MAKE YOU RUN?"
YOU SAID:
"I'M THE ONLY PERSON WHO CAN PUSH THE SCHOOL'S FITNESS STANDARD UP"
YOU SAID:
"I MAKE YOU BOIL"

YOU SAID TONS OF OTHER SHIT. I'VE PUSHED THEM FROM MY THOUGHTS. BUT THEY LINGER. YES THEY DO. AND CONGRATULATIONS MR FUCKOH, THEY'LL BE STUCK THERE FOR SOME FUCKING TIME. I HOPE YOU APPRECIATE THAT. MY FUCKING BRAIN HURTS. IT'S PART 2 OF MY ANGER BOUT. I WAS SO HAPPY ON THE WAY BACK TO SCHOOL FROM MACS. BUT OH NO. YOU HAD TO BE THERE. YOU HAD TO CALL ME BACK. YOU HAD. FOR FUCKING HELL'S SAKE. GO HOME TO YOUR FUCKING WIFE. GO. HOME. FUCKING HELL. IT'S NOT LIKE YOU'RE OBLIGED TO STAND THERE AND FUCKING WASTE BOTH OF OUR TIME REPEATING CRAP THAT YOU'VE MENTIONED TIME AND TIME AGAIN. WHAT'S THE FUCKING USE. GO HOME GO HOME FUCKING LEAVE.

I TRY NOT TO HATE. I TRY TO LOVE. BUT I CAN'T. THERE IS NO CAPACITY TO. TODAY MY EX REMARKED I DON'T SEEM AS ANGRY AS BEFORE. I TOLD HIM. IT'S BECAUSE I'VE STOPPED RANTING TO HIM. YAH. I GUESS I HAVEN'T CHANGED. I MIGHT APPEAR MORE LADYLIKE, GENTLER, ETC. BUT I KEEP EVERYTHING BOTTLED UP INSIDE. FUCKING HELL. FUCK OFF AND DIE.

I GUESS IT'S SELF-INFLICTED. THEN AGAIN, EVERYTHING IS. I'M A FUCKED UP PERSON WHO SHOULDN'T EXIST. IT WOULD DO THE WORLD IMMENSE GOOD IF I WERE INSTEAD, A CHARRED BLACKENED CORPSE. TALENTLESS, USELESS, BRAINLESS PIECE OF FUCKING SHIT. ONLY GOOD AS FUEL BECAUSE OF MY FATS.

I'M FAT. IT'S MY FAULT I'M IN TAF. STARVATION SHALL COMMENCE FROM TOMORROW. IF YOU SEE ME EATING. PLEASE. GIVE ME A TIGHT SLAP ACROSS MY FACE. AND. BE SURE TO BRUISE ME BADLY. EMBASSY PARTY ON SATURDAY. I HAVE A GOOD MIND TO GET TOTALLY DRUNK. MAYBE DIE WHEN I CAN'T FEEL IT.

I WILL BE SO DEAD ON MONDAY ANYWAY WHEN THEY FIND OUT HOW HEAVY I WEIGH.

I GUESS IT ALL STARTS FROM ME. KILL THE ROOT. AND ALL YOUR PROBLEMS SHALL VANISH.

YAH. RIGHT.

I HAVE YET TO FIND THE RIGHT METHOD FOR MYSELF TO GO.

DAMMIT.

I. HATE. EVERYTHING.
WHY DID YOU FUCKING HAVE TO SPOIL MY MOOD TODAY. WHY.
NOW I CAN'T STUDY. I CAN'T THINK STRAIGHT. AND I FEEL........ SO..........................................

UGH
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:30:00 PM

Wednesday, July 16, 2003

after-oral shock

finished oral like less than an hour ago.. sitting in the cold cold cca room now.. 212.. mm. gonna meet jes at orchard mrt soon to celebrate hp's bdae.. i miss her! =D~ ah well. re-read the article on blogs that me and pj collabbed on. mm. oral was fine. yah. in fact, it went along rather well. i'm quite happy with myself. yeah. rather smooth reading of the assigned passage and a generally ok spouting of ideas later during the discussion on current events section. yep. today's passage was on friendship and stuff. and. the conversation topic was on my views on foreign talent in singapore. lol. i had some problems expressing myself tho. i didn' know the term for third world countries, or erm. combining. or.. stuff. bwahahhaa.. but they helped me along anyway. nice teachers. i like em. i did smile and laugh with them tho. hopefully i get a merit.. i want a merit! hopefully it will pull up my bloody chinese grade.. grr. sucky language. =
ah well.

time to devote all my time and energy on english now. but i've been corrupted by the ways of the chinese speaking and dialect. blar. slang and words from hokkien make their way occasionally, often unknowingly into my speech patterns. ergh. oh well. anyway good riddance to english oral a long time ago in sec4.. yep. i was never fluent in reading english aloud. i have no idea why. i tend to fumble to cock up. grr. ah well.

hopefully today will be a good day. the rest of today though. tomorrow gotta get some studying done in school.. studystudybreakbreakbreak x3.. oh MAN. *sighsigh* note to self. must get home by latest 7.30 pm today. i MUST. studying will commence at 8, followed by -some- idling at midnight. thursday will be a long and hard day. pe teachers breathing down my fucking neck.. mom breathing down my neck for slacking too hard.

i must remark. it's amazing how hard i work at slacking instead of channeling all my mortal energies into studying. damn you dith. you gotta buck up. damn you. fuck you if you fail. screw your ass if you continue to get mediocre grades. no less than 3Cs for prelims, you hear me? DO YOU HEAR?

ya. so start up your engine dammit. start the fuck up. deadline, tonight. if you don't, i promise you that you'll be screwed for life. engineering in ntu does NOT sound like a probable vocation for me. yes. it's fucked up. and i can't handle engineering. it's fucked up. so, fucked up dith, pull up your fucked up socks. get our your damn bloody dusty notes and work fucking hard from now till the As.

it's not an invitation, it's an order.

then again, it's not an order.

IT'S MY FUCKING FUTURE.

grrr.
you'd better work hard dith. or i'll fuck you in the ass to the ends of hell.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:36:00 PM

Monday, July 14, 2003

infiltration...

twas cold today.. c-c-c-c-old! nose began to drip drip drip in school today.. and it didn't help that i spent 50% of my classes in coldcold air conditioned rooms.. omg. LL.. brrrr! got through today fine anyway. managed to escape taf during pe.. so i got to play netball instead! YAH! ANYTHING'S BETTER THAN MINDLESS RUNNING!

bleargh.

torturous trying not to sleep.. not only me though, but somehow only i get noticed. i bet even if my friends SNORED the teacher wouldn't even bat an eyelid. oh well. fucker. ;)

by gp, i was down to my second pack of kleenex. ergh. and it didn't help that we felt as though we were in meat storage. blar. physics later. nose kept dripping. omfg. thank goodness i finished my practical. found jes at the study area and did some maths while waiting for 6pm to come so that she could collect her ez-link card. ediot late coming system. grr. aaanyway, we somehow decided to head to nyp for dinner! bwahahha.. and yes, we KNOW they don't allow outsiders in anymore. XD especially people from ajc. muahahaha..

people were looking at us weirdly. and i mean LOOKING. erm. we didn't give a damn la. although jes was kinda gonna turn back. XD but me and my stoic belief that we HAD to eat there today since we were already in the compound made us go all the way in. heh. after a multitude of stares.. we reached the atrium. oOoo. security guard. o.0;;;; anyway we just brisk walked past him and i didn't look back, although jes said he was following us.. creeepy. so i kept asking her: 'eh, is he still following us?' *heart starts to thump slightly faster*

we reached the top of the stairs and heaved a sigh of relief. turns out he got up, followed us for a bit and then went back to sit down. ah well. food court had a big sign telling all outsiders to KEEP OUT. (and that means US) muahahas.. oh well. we did hesitate a while, but i pushed open the double doors and inspected the card scanning system. we just walked past it.

*shrug*

tried our best to stroll as cooly as we could into the food court, while trying hard not to giggle. hehehe... funfunfun! settled on japanese food and bubble tea.. T_T i'll miss the auntie and the uncle.. waaaaaaaah... x~( ran into michael there; he came up to the counter and said something like: "what are these aj gals doing in nyp? *wink*"

LoL~

i was quite surprised to see him there.. so i was like *surprised look + wave + smile* XD
met nicky on the way to nyp also.. forgot to mention. LoL. i'm surprised he recognises me in sch uni. lol.. ahh.... he was there to witness an act of rebellion and impulse. :X

anywayyy, in the near-empty food court, two illegal stowaways from ajc ate their meal happily. hehe.. yupx. then around 6.55pm, the canteen cleaners and attendants recognised that we were from ajc. so they said in their loud voices about how serious an offence this is if we were caught, we would be fined, now we know, etc etc.. *evil grin* little did they know that we WELL KNOW we're not welcome anymore. we took that risk. yep. people turned heads to stare. aiyah. so kpo for what. never see ajc ppl in ur canteen before mehs? :X

michael and gang left before us.. jes wanted to pinch his cheeks, so we followed shortly after. yah.

turns out he was chilling outside fj, so she couldn't ambush him from behind and pinch his cheeks. awwww. too bad jes! yep. said bye to him, then headed down to the atrium. security guard wasn't in sight. more looks. blar. i started sneezing again. -_-'

yep yep. and then now i'm home and blogging!~ record time i reached home.. 25 mins! whoohoo~``

anyhoo, who wants to volunteer to da bao food from nyp next time? T_T

i'll miss nyp.................................
till next break-in! =X
<3 dith

XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:23:00 PM

Wednesday, July 09, 2003

I have lost my muse.

It has occured to me with much disdain, that in the past year and a half, my standard of english has begun its wayward plummet. Distinct from my writings of late and with the low calibre of the language with which i use.. oh dammit. How do i concentrate on this entry with a chinese song blaring from the google box - a chinese drama serial, no doubt. Ugh. Where hath the peace of mind with which comes inspiration gone? Suddenly, i have lost the desire to write once more...

Can i say that I am utterly disappointed in myself? My ignorance will only prolong my misery, yet make it seem that it creeps closer. Averaging about one page per minute... how embarrassing. fuck it. My haven of silence will never come. total peaceful silence, where i can relax and let the calm take over. when i will put my thoughts to words.. and let them meld, twist, liquefy and flow. flow endlessly from these fingers they shall.. a neverending torrent of...

dammit.

why can't i experience the joy once again?

dammit.

DISTRACTIONS DISTRACTIONS.

pulling the words from my head. dragging inspiration over rugged terrain until it is but a ragged mess. ravaging my mind. intervening with my sentences. i will not stand for that.

it would be nice. to be alone in the semi darkness. alone, yet not so. friends surrouding me, but yet as though as i were invisible. not bothered, untouched, not disturbed by things on this mortal earth, and to just... write.

wouldn't that be fun? or am i merely returning to a ficticious place in my head once more?

.......

all i can say is; i had numerous inspirations; ideas. and words that flowed gracefully, like how a swan's unbalanced neck somehow looks elegant with its short body. i liked how they sounded. wrote and rewrote the same things in my head, but phrased differently. and now it's all gone. thanks to the garrish noises of the television. the inconsistent drilling outside. and numerous other sources of jagged notes.

ugh ugh ugh.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:09:00 PM

err. hi mr tan? ^^;;;;
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:30:00 AM

tuesday...

wasn't so bad.
didn't get scolding.
mr tan sl knows i have a blog.
pe was slack.
rushed home to collect mah piccies.
read neverwhere.. halfway.
scanned them.
uploaded my cosfest piccies.
chatted on irc.
stoned.
now am blogging.

...when will i start on my hw?

=\
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:29:00 AM

Monday, July 07, 2003

14 hours outta my house

woke up bright and early on sunday morning at 7.40am.. zZz.. smsed awhile and den i fell back asleep.. wtf? lol.. oh well. finally stumbled outta bed around halfpast nine.. dammit.. late! LoL.. finally got out of the house at 10.15.. went to central to buy film and stuff.. oh well... they had a free nemo glass! wahaha.. ok ok loh... so i 'chen ji da jie' and got that free gift.. was kinda too early cos some plans changed.. so yep. reached yck mrt station on time... after stoning for a long long while at tpy.. smsing and walking around.. ppl kept staring at me weirdly.. did i look -that- bad in what i was wearing? *insecurity sets in* erm.. fine.

so.. anyhoos, met up with eddie and mich.. had to wait for the so-called organiser to reach.. *sweats* more about him later ba.. i @$#^ with him liaox.... uGh. let's just dub him as 'org' for now. gah. more and more ppl reading my blog. =\ kelvin was as usual.. BLAR! he went to pasir ris.. but that's cos he din receive e sms.. so also not his fault.. LoL.. but so damn funny yet ^^;
we finally reached cityhall around 12.30 or so.. met up with more ppl. do i look like her? why say i look like her? another fren said i didn't look like her what. what's wrong with you! she's ok but i dun reli like her? maybe it's personal preference.. but i can tell she's sort of domineering and smart type. oh blar. i guess we would clash? *sweats* spent most of the time talking to other ppl. i feel quite bad. ugh. esp after what some ppl said.. BLAR.

we reached pasir ris mrt.. finally! at about 1.30pm or so. wasted alot of time just plain stoning. went to the interchange to meet gwen! meow~ kawaii neko ne! and she called it bakaneko! LoL
original cosplay~ hhehhe.. den this guy in white suddenly approached us looking lost. hahah.. he was like "erm... are you guys going for the cosfest... could i possibly join you... and follow you there cos i don't know how to go..." fwahaha.. poor shy guy reli. brave of him. so, being the nice ppl we are, we agreed! :D yep.

walked back to e mrt station again.. kelvin in macs.. AND some guys din wanna see each other.. so FINE, i went in to pull kelvin out.. *shrugs* keesiao was talking about me when i reached.. o.0; something about me licking kino.. lol.. so i diaoed her.. :X bwahhahas.. somehow ran into master and chris there! YAY!~ good good. uhhh. long long queue for the bus.. so some of them decided to walk.. *phew* good good. was saved some erm. misery. *sweats*

aaanyway, reached there quite fast.. exactly 2pm! met dar at the entrance, exchanged a few words, den i walked around looking lost. found gwen and the gang later.. well, spent most of the time with them or taking pics with ppl i knew in costume.. exchanged words with passing people that i knew, etc etc.. or hugs with some girls.. met the sgma gang.. ojisan! lol. erh. ku din wanna see sw, and what to do, he was following behind me like a lost puppy. uGh. what to do what to do what to do! *sweats profusely* oh well. they asked mi to hide in their mass of people, so i did, and i guess he gave up and left. either that or he found his friends whom he said he'd 'lost'. blar. kelvin didn't make any things better by continually asking me where he was. uGh. fine...

i feel so mean now. meanie dith! *slaps self* oh well.

after about 2 hours of stoning around, we went to bk! yes yes yes! sgma ppl hogging the tables drawing and eating. lol, eraser bits do not mix well with double mushroom swiss! x) oh well. no place to sit.. so stood around chatting.. den ate abit.. i treated gwen. lol. feeding the cat :X ahahas... oh well. her cat feet got all black. >_<~ ow. pure white fur becoming black. haix.. oh ya, eddie and mich left den cos mich needed to be home and eddie needed his slp. lol..

headed back to the dome around 5 or so.. one hour left to stand around. got caught on someone else's cam.. grr.. oh well... i look fat and ugly, as usual. ummmm. stupid keitaro kept bugging her. i think like 3 friggin times? oh well. this time i just grabbed any random ppl i knew *rather* well to take pics with moi. LoL~ had to draaaaaaag some ppl. but others were willing victims. lol. might let you guys have glimpses at those whom i victimised. bwahahha.. later later. :P

the event was over with ggxx, yuanie and eugin clinching the prizes.. for best group, best female and best male respectively. expected, could i say? hmm. i went to look at the booths.. bought this kitty in a clam from kknm in the end.. nyankohanten! :X oh well. have a sticker on my phone too.. kitty in green tea.. o.0; sadistically cuteeeee. ah. hung around while the lights were switched off and ppl started disappearing/gathering. gravi ppl wanted to head to tamp mall for dindin.. but sgma ppl were in bk.. and i think gwen was following maria's group.. lol. my loyalties lie with.. :X
hahah.. guess where i ended up in the end. bk! was good anywaaay. got to see some ppl. =) good choice i went to bk. *grins*

yep. usual stuff. hung around stoned around.. OH OH OH. and gwen + hellpig + others took down the canvas from the grafitti board.. LoL! at least the artists' efforts are not gone to waste! yepppp. uh huh. hurhurrrrr. =) was relatively heavy tho.. erm. back to bk.. looks like everyone decided to gather there... ahhhh. great minds think alike. was initially hanging with the sgma ppl, den gravitated to kaede ppl, and den liz, himi, suzuno, leah etc etc came.. and den i also ran into turtle.. who, coincidentially, din look so turtlish today.. aye, and then playworks ppl were there interviewing the winners.. plus some other cosplayers were hanging around at other tables...

ahhhh. well. they left one by one. and my eye candy too. *blinks* oh, and at least -he- left early. i didn't want to see him. ugh. erm erm erm. ku's v bad leh.. LoL. meanie! bwahahha.. plus he uses the f word generously. lol, bad guys bad guys! insulting ppl who are erm.. big sized.. but she reli is.. sorta. ah well. at least i wasn't the one being insulted. but then again i wouldn't know what is said behind my back. =( like what happened today.. or so said my brudda. no idea... maybe i might give him the benefit of the doubt. but i was like daoing him and ignoring his pm today. ah well. shan't spoil his image in the eyes of her tho. owl doesn't need to know.

blar.

so we stoned in bk till 11+pm. den we walked to the mrt station. reli near, i must add. hmmm. joanne's so cuteeee. :D somehow or the other we just managed to catch the last train to boonlay.. OMFG! if we had stoned any longer.. OMFG. SCREWED FOR LIFE!

O____________________O;

erh. lady luck was smiling upon us yesterday. =) reached home 12.15.. yay~ early early early. and i got on the phone as usual.... slept at 4.30 and somehow woke at 3pm today. T_T
LoL. LAST DAY TO SLEEP IN! tml's sch. DAAAAAMN. my sickening day too. x(
just hope i make it alive tml. cyaaaaaaaa ppl!

wUv dith ^-^*

oh, and i guess i'm fine with it. guess it was just a passing thing, or so i hope. yep. or perhaps i was purposely intended to know? ah. i'm still ok with it. li suo dang ran, i must say. ^^; life. full of things like this anyway. =) but just being around makes me happy and such. it's been a long while......
till our paths cross again, i guess. ; )
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:35:00 PM

Sunday, July 06, 2003

You're of the "I hate school"
breed!
You just hate going to school
and can't stand waking up every day just for
school. But no choice, you just force your way
through school and when the time comes, you
leave the country for other, better education
systems. Bah, at least you have the resources
to do so, you rich/smart bugger!!


Which Stereotypical Singaporean Student Are You?
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erh.. smart? rich? hardly.. -_-
but i would rate this quiz as erm. relavant and good! =D prob an acjc student who wrote this...
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:13:00 AM

to the ends of (singapore/nel) and back!~

i tried the NEL on friday.. was so happy that day k! no sch no sch no sch! *cheers* went to meet some friends there.. den somehow in the train ran into 3 guys from ajc.. and i know them and they know me BUT we dun talk. lol.. so many of those. oh well. aaanyway, they got off at newton or novena i think.. and i changed train at dhoby gaut! so alien kaes! wah~ big big empty space suddenly.. after they removed all the faux walls and stuff.. wah.. it's like going into a new dimension man. so cooL! i nearly got lost! had to look out at the purplish signs directing me to (6) and (7).. to punggol or erh. something harbour.. damn i forgot. -_-;

got on the travellator.. damn i'm suaku sia. walking was faster. -_-'
den i got on the escalator down.. wah.. so many exits and escalators.. like a hub of moving steps.. interesting manx. anyway i found myself looking at this interesting tunnel.. it's different from the normal one.. it's all clear and printed and stuff.. cool! waited awhile and then the train came. i think there's some magnetic system or detector.. cos it stops perrrfectly at the gates. hmm. it's all spacious and empty inside. not many ppl.. ahhhh. Little India, Farrer Park... Potong Pasir.. Hougang, Sengkang. stopped at sengkang. so convenient! just at the doorstep of e shopping complex! yay!

ok. so basically i walked round compass pt/ville like 5 times! oh blar. more and more friends to stone with.. ahahs.. seriously i think the food court's not bad. yep. interesting gigantico plate of western food.. omg... fWaH sia. and so we stoned until 10. productive stoning i would call it. yep. at least it wasn't with a bunch of $%$& idiots. hahas.. i won't say who. i'm too nice to. =D reached toa payoh, met more friends.. (damn i'm so blur!) stoned stoned until 12 or so.. and den i reached home. mom kinda nagged cos eta was like an hour earlier. hahas.. so i told her i ran into some friends.. which technically isn't wrong. :X

oh well. stoned at the comp until 3 or so. got on the phone to a friend. hehe.. say cannot talk well and dunno what to talk still send mi into fits of laughter loh.. =/ blar! oh well. clonie mah! :X well done well done clonie! :D we shall remain as split amoebas! ahahs.. =) and yes, i shall stick firmly to my first impression of you.. which is.. a nice guy at heart! =) heh.

finally slept at 4.30 or so. damn tired. more or less crashed as soon as i was settled down, my head on the pillow. ahh.

today.... i went to sengkang again.

blar.

but it was good. productive stoning again, i must say! ahahs. at least it was for a good cause. ;p
ah well... got 2 tops from hangten! yay! gonna wear em tml! we were fated to meet! discounted somemore kaes! 19.95 for 2 instead of 12 for 1! ahahahs.. kewl kewl kewl shitx.

tml's cosfest. i predict sun smiles and a super happy dith!

yAy~
let's see how true my prediction will be ne.
night ppl! tml gotta wake up damn early!

wUv dith ^-^*

(sorry guys. can't be dere at the fiesta. it clashes. sorry. but ur just as impt to me! *hugZ* =\ love ya'll..)

OH OH OH. and i saw mica today!
LoL. if i had run into her again.. it wouldn't have been too good. fingers might start pointing.. but YEP! MICA! :D)

-ya. this is reli the end of the entry. u guys can stop reading now.-
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:57:00 AM

Friday, July 04, 2003

What rating is your journal?
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wah sian.. was hoping for an R(A) rating loh.. =\
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:22:00 PM

short term hols

finally.... exams are over.
no more fear in screwing yet ANOTHER subby.
went to suntec bookfair with my mom today...
LoL....

some anecdotes:

[23:39] f|aW> went to bookfair w mom today
[23:39] f|aW> she said: EYEWASH
[23:39] f|aW> lol
[23:39] f|aW> and ppl look at mi and ask: are you a student?
[23:39] f|aW> (mind u, i was in uni)
[23:39] f|aW> and ppl look at mi and ask: are you a student? <-- i reli can't get over this one
[23:40] f|aW> i mean like HEY PPL DUH
[23:40] f|aW> I'M IN UNIFORM
[23:40] f|aW> and then alot of them approached my mom
[23:40] f|aW> they asked
[23:40] f|aW> mam, would u like to buy thisthisthis for ur child?
[23:40] f|aW> *mom beckons at me*
[23:40] f|aW> mom: yupyup.. my child my child.
[23:40] f|aW> lady: O.o erh.... *rattles on*
[23:41] f|aW> lady: now there's alot of projects blahblahblah.. where do u go to research?
[23:41] f|aW> me: *blinks* internet
[23:41] f|aW> lady: you don't use books? well. so how long do you spend at the computer?
[23:41] f|aW> lady: spending alot of time will hurt your eyes.. *rattles on* will it not?
[23:42] f|aW> me: *trying to get a word in* nope....
[23:42] f|aW> mom: *sniggers loudly* she does NOTHING at home
[23:42] f|aW> mom: only chats.. *pull me* come come let's go
[23:42] f|aW> lady: but mam.. *desperate sounding*
[23:42] f|aW> mom: sorry sorry no time for you and i'm NOT itnerested
[23:42] f|aW> me: ^^;;;;;;;;; LOL
[23:43] f|aW> another incident
[23:43] f|aW> *passing by an assessment books corner
[23:43] f|aW> me: maaaaaaaaaa~ i wan to do! buy for meeeeee
[23:43] f|aW> mom: *says loudly* buy for you? pah..
[23:43] f|aW> me: but ma but maaaaaaa... i wanna do the 2A booook
[23:44] f|aW> *we pass by the promoter*
[23:44] f|aW> her: hello.. would you like to buy..... *cut off*
[23:44] f|aW> mom: yep yep.. buying for my dfaughter *beckons* she's in kindergarden
[23:44] f|aW> me: *chortles and we pass by*
[23:45] f|aW> quite eventful i must say
[23:45] f|aW> and i dragged mom to kenny rogers
[23:45] f|aW> suntec!
[23:45] f|aW> :D
[23:45] f|aW> <-- monologue sessions with dith
[23:45] f|aW> oh bleh
[23:45] f|aW> soliloquy.
[23:46] f|aW> bookfair was erm
[23:46] f|aW> entertaining
[23:47] f|aW> bookfair was funnnnnnnn
[23:47] f|aW> but it suckeddddd
[23:47] f|aW> ahahahs
[23:47] f|aW> imagine. how could i find the most interest in the cheena fair on the 3rd lvl?
[23:47] f|aW> LOL
[23:47] f|aW> lady: ni yao an mo ma?
[23:48] f|aW> mom: ?_? (doesn't understand chinese)
[23:48] f|aW> me: *snigger*
[23:48] f|aW> today i was translator!
[23:48] f|aW> lol, she doesn't
[23:48] f|aW> and she doesn't have a chinese name either
[23:48] f|aW> ahahas
[23:48] f|aW> but she understand a bit
[23:48] f|aW> cos we often insult her
[23:48] f|aW> :X
[23:48] f|aW> hmm...
[23:49] f|aW> when i told my mom it was for a foot massage..
[23:49] f|aW> LOL
[23:49] f|aW> gawd..
[23:49] f|aW> but the snuff bottles were cool
[23:49] f|aW> that was the booth i was at LONGEST
[23:49] f|aW> omg..
[23:49] f|aW> longer den e anime house booth
[23:49] f|aW> my mom bought 2 of em
[23:49] f|aW> wah~
[23:50] f|aW> and we chatted to e artist
[23:50] f|aW> lol. love her authentic chinese accent
[23:50] f|aW> :D
[23:50] f|aW> not lame like singaporean accent
[23:50] f|aW> ee.
[23:50] f|aW> cultureeeee
[23:50] f|aW> she wrote my chinese name in the bottle of my zodiac
[23:50] f|aW> wah pro sheeeee
[23:50] f|aW> powerrrrrrr
[23:50] f|aW> :D
[23:51] f|aW> *worships*
[23:51] f|aW> m(_ _)m
[23:51] f|aW> mom told me snuff bottles were painted from the INSIDE
[23:51] f|aW> and i was like
[23:51] f|aW> OMG!

[00:18] " as for you my jie! partay onnn "

i will i will. =)

lol. seeya peeps at embassy on e 19th of july kaes!~
$25 presale... got free flow! rnb~
muahahs.. x)

wUv dith ^-^*
oya minna~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:28:00 AM

fuck...

i hate this.
please, leave me alone.
i do not even understand why, but i'm sure you have your reasons.
yes, the human heart is indeed a fragile thing, no matter how strong scientists claim it is as a muscle.
relentless pumping to keep the body alive.
but emotionswise...
some people so easily torn, so easily attracted.
why did you insult me and then claim now to be taken with me?
wtf is your problem.
i made it clear.
if you want to cause yourself grief by waiting endlessly, so be it.
don't you already know my heart is elsewhere?
be it with my friends, my possessions or with my loved ones?
....
i dunno how to put this politely but..
please. fuck. off.
thank you.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:19:00 AM

Tuesday, July 01, 2003

maths was a killer.. =/
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:12:00 PM