Monday, July 21, 2003

mixed feelings.

bleh bleh bleh.
had pe today.
bleh.

screwy 2 hours of shit.

mr koh as usual in a foul mood. esp at me.
no wonder it happened to him.

had to do extra rounds cause i was walking/jogging too slowly.

bleh.

not that it mattered anyway, cause i cheated on the ones us taf students had to do initially.

had more scolding (indirectly) when everyone was gathered in the gym for a fat talk.

prim your fats, my darlings!

.

he referred to some stuff that felt was directed at me.

as usual, repetition.

namely the shitting on his head and the chase around the track with a whip thing.

then he weighed us.

heavyheavyheavy.

am 4.6kg overweight.

sob sob.

as usual. the scale tips excessively when i step onto it.

caught me cheating.

i told him i lost my balance.

he didn't look convinced.

bleh.

tries to be nice to us.

bah. fuckers will always be fuckers.

as usual, singled me out. wtf.

yay. man-to-man talk.

ugh.

bell rang and he still kept talking.

was late for maths tutorial.

oh JOY!

as usual; talking to the wall. him, i mean, not me. i just stoned at his face.

tiring.

i do not intend to get vocal on him.

calm, unfeeling approach.

N U M B

yes yes.

told me to see him after school today.

so i did. indeed i did.

he wasn't around.

i wanted to whoop with joy and punch the air with my fists.

hospitalised.

sympathise or criticize?

wonderful.

the stars are aligning to my planet.

oh ya.

met roy today.

he passed by while i was having a chatfest with dear pj.
and casually said: 'hi dith.'

lol. so i went. 'hi... roy!'

tis nice.

yet another face in the crowd i can wave to.
yet another passing face that i will put on my mask and smile to.

the world is warm tonight.

rejoice.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:17:00 PM