Tuesday, September 30, 2003

A New Day
...or is it?

ahaha always the pessimistic skeptical side of dith. monday. i'm still alive. congratulate me. first off: the good things. i passed my maths. yay. go me. note the lack of excitement in my tone. yes. the excitement is way past. it is stale. anyway had 46.5 for paper 1. i'm so happy i passed k. looks like there still is hope for my maths. nothing much after that.. nothing good. *sigh*

woke up this morn as usual, bathed, went to braddell mrt. lol roy was in front of me. big strides he took. cannot catch up with him. wonder what his mom feeds him :X hahaa.... sian. his comp spoilt now. one source of my entertainment is gone. LoL. met pj in the train too. heh... always a bright smile to warm my mornings.. ;p sian. met manyi on the way also. she told me she sprayed her hair black with gatsby spray. lol. aiyohx.. i hate sprays. hai. apparently today got spotcheck. but mdm foo always dun care one so nvm. zZz.. anyway i think my hair now become black liao... sian. so ok lohs...

hai i feel so lazy. maths told us to do vjc paper. i nvr do yet.. a bit, but all nvr finish. sian... i still stone. hai. chem must do june paper1 and 2... 2003. hai i nv do also. today come home song song 12.15pm nv do anything. lessons pretty much ended after pe. grr... talk about pe later... chem no prac mr lim on holiday.. haha congrats mr lim! happy honeymooning! LoL :X bleh.. den after that no physics remedial so they either song song go out watch pirates of the caribbean lol i was so tempted to watch it a second time aAHHHHhhhh Jack SParrow! XD hai... kohl lined eyes! :D sian... or they go home.. so i went home to stone.... yesss. super early. so happy. before that went school library with sokteng to borrow SAT book. lol i got two. gonna study dat soon.

another good thing. i heard tml we all gonna watch movie. lol. guys won tix to RUnning ON KarmA apparently thru some shuttle run competition. 10 guys each one 2 pairs.. 20 tix loh. invited all the gals. haha.... song boh. so tml got movie date. maybe wednesday going out with mark. but i'm reconsidering it. scary shit he. suddenly so weird.... hai. keep asking me about minyi.... no i'm not jealous. bleh.... but i just find it weird k. today a lot of weird occurances. bleh.. a lot of hateful occurances. i hate myself.... sux.

pe... yes i went for pe you bastards who spread bad shit about me. first thing in the fucking morning mdm foo come talk to me about results den ms ong come and talk to me about pe. den mdm foo about pe. fuck... *kills self* i have no remorse liao. zZZzzzzz. u say anything i will agree or tell you the worst den liddat loh.... fucking hell dun care liao. now target is As... CHIONG AR DITH! :D~ hai. anw mdm foo asked me how my prelims. i told her liddat loh. bad loh. den she say how? i told her orh liddat loh.. ahhahas.... sian. den she come pat pat me etc. eyer..................... *runs away* den ms ong come over stare at me with her goldfishie eyes. lol.... fisheye lens effect. XD hahaha....... the usual shit la.... (ya ya bastards laugh.) den mdm foo come talk to me tell me to avoid trouble etc..... _|_ get out of my life la. i wanna nerd quietly u guys dun let me. instead fill my morning with knn ccb shit. E#%#$%&$*.

during pe ar... SUAY SHIT SIA. *cries* next time must tio theng yiu, yanhao, weiquan... yucks yucks yucks. today some lame dancing thing. all had to form circle. two girls sit on the two sides of one guy. guess what. my class got 13 gals. 10 guys. i am number 13. w00t. $#%$&^R&*(% expected. and since i'm the kind always rang wei gei bie ren na zhong, i tio the last one.... *CRIES* WHY AM I LIKE THAT MUST CHANGE MUST CHANGE. SO YOU GALS IN FRONT HAPPY LA. CAN HEAVE A SIGH OF RELIEF LA. THAT YOU'RE NOT ME, THE UNLUCKY LEFT OUT ONE WITHOUT A PARTNER SIMPLY BECAUSE I SUCK... *laments* nvm. i am strong i am unyielding. i will live. nvm. LAO TIAN YOU YAN. they had problem with the cd player and russian music. in the end everyone try to fix technician come also cannot. LAO TIAN ZHEN DE YOU YAN. XIE TIAN XIE DI! XIE XIE! *kowtows* the music cannot work so we never dance. w00t. haha.... jessie turned around and saw me paired with those two #$%%*$ guys. eyer john and taoyi. i felt so horrible cos i know they HATE ME HATE ME HATE HATE HATE ME. ooh yes. hate. lovely word there, dith. hai. suan le. bastards. so we went to the track to do 2 round warm up den can play games. sian. badminton. first thing i'm damn sian of that game. second thing i v long time nv play games with classmates so dunno also. used to it le. everytime always do taf. nv get to learn netball. so nvm... fine loh..... hai. last yr also the same. do taf nv get to fully learn badminton. sheesh. the life of A FAT PIG IS TOUGH INDEED! YA.... spent the entire time doing makeup pe. walked around the track while others played games around me... solitary. lonely... haix.... wo zhen de bu yao lian.... so sad. guys all playing soccer in the field.... a group of gals playing frisbee on the track.... fun fun fun..... i am devoid of fun....... salvation where are you.......? x( haix....walked for 30 mins. the toughest 30 min of the day. so sad..... at first walked innermost ring.... den began to walk outer.... 4th round theng yiu talked to me. now he den got heart... one of the few guys i know who got heart.... his friendship lent me some strength but i still felt miserable... hai.

reported to ms ong after that.. she come talk talk to me den liddat loh. den cleared one makeup. i went downstairs with my class gals to the shower stalls.. haix. mostly stoned and gave wistful smiles here and there. dun reli talk to them. i also felt sleepy... haix i'm going into depression mode. cannot study...... watch me fail................................ be happy you bastards out there.. be happy........... haix. rubbish. i'm too fat....................................

*dies*

got angry with a few buggers on irc just now. you jerk offs just shoot your mouths off dun think of others. win liao loh..... hate all of you........ or is it the other way around? you all hate me and i deserve it? i think so too........ everything's a fake..... everything's a fake..... if i just sleep forever when i wake up everything and everyone will go away............................................................................................

i'm sorry for sounding so sad. but i really am. been quite a long time, huh. welcome back sadness.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:20:00 AM