Friday, September 12, 2003

thoughts

what can i say?
so many things troubling my little head again.
*sigh*

low brains to mass ratio.

was lost in meteora and my thoughts just now. so much so that i finished studying a 5 page notes on group II elements in 2 hours. come on man. wtf. you're crazy shit. no one takes that long to re-read some crap. uGh. oh well. i have like 7 or 8 things bugging me like incessant flies right now. sheesh. but there's no rotting meat. instead it's my head. =
back to the guy who i suspect may like me. sheesh. he's not the one. hopefully he can face it if the time comes, but i guess he knows already, cause i've been dropping SO many hints.
another guy who i used to like, tried hitting on, then became my toy. hai. he's on my ignore list and i even ignore his sms. what sort of person am i? why can't i shake off this feeling of disgust he gives me.....
another guy who i've known for one and a half years. maybe i've been attracted to you from the start. lol i dunno. but you're kinda cute, talkative although practical sometimes, friendly, comfy... and maybe cuddly? *sigh* i dunno. did you ever like me or do you still? subtly i find myself growing fond of you? =again to yet another guy. hmm. if you like this girl why do you come closer to me. my heart is a weak thing. do not break the walls if you know you're only gonna hurt me.... again?

*sigh* heard dad make his *irritated* throat-clearing growl. gotta switch off comp soon. x(

to another guy, i tried to message you on irc today but i was ignored. like the previous time. i should forget you, but i can't. it's wrong.. it's so wrong cause i know i aint good enough for you.....
finally, to you. lol, suddenly you're maturing and becoming sweeter. *sigh* do i regret what i did?

lol dith, so many guy issues. this really isn't the time.
well. gtg. blog tml. going to fix phone tml then tuition again.
nighterZ~
gonna do phy now.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:12:00 AM