Wednesday, May 04, 2005

RP. PR.
after a while, the two blend into a synonymous entity.
why?
PR becomes RP.
you can role play a person who communicates well.
superficially nice to everyone, of course.
and definitely, when you are superficially nice to everyone, you get into character. so into character that, in fact, you are role playing your life.

have i been PRing these few days?
or RPing?

i love MMORPGs.
i become a character in a game.
i go on dangerous missions, dangerous quests.
i kill legendary monsters, head for legendary lands.
i have super powers, i have super strength.

but they also have MMORPGs where the landscape simulates real life.
where you encounter real life situations.
where you are a person with fallacies, with shortcomings.
just that everything moves faster than in real time.
and you're not afraid to die.

real life is an RPG.
but unlike an RPG, there's no turning back.
there's no continue button after you die.
there's no endless HP indicator.
there's no cheat code.

you are alone in the game, without a walkthrough, if you play the mmorpg called Life.

seems like these two days have been a PR RP to me.
i discovered a hidden talent, i've said bad things about people behind their backs, i've played the nice girl when internally i'm not.
i think i can seem interested but my mind is wandering.
perhaps this is a skill we all have acquired from school when we are stoning but pretending to listen.
students' innate ability to appear interested.

and then i get away from it all and say what i really feel (the bad things) about the conversation i pretended to be interested in.
well, i could not help it.
really.
dislike.
you think you guys are doing us a favor.
no.
you are putting words into our mouths.
answering your own rhetorical questions.
bullshitting.
you are not high and mighty.
i am not low.
do not imply that.

i know you love your job. but PLEASE.
imagine if everyone decided that OH, it would be the best career path.
what would happen then?
would our economy really hold?
or would it collapse.
if i do not like it.
do not force it.

you can shove your bullshit up your ass.
just because you have a stable income.
just because you wear a business suit.
just because you earn a few thousand a month.
does not mean you are better than me.
does not mean you know more than me.
does not mean your career is better than all.
does not mean i will agree with you.

sure, i see the benefits.
BUT
i have autonomy.
what makes you think that persuasion can shove everyone over to your side?
my. mind. is. made. up.
do i have to shove that up your ass to?
DO I?

ok nvm. my PR side comes into play now.
i shall be nice.
shall stop ranting.
there was free food and i saw familiar faces.
and the lau pa sat seafood stall uncle entertained us.
so it's cool.

YOU BETTER THANK THE DRUNK UNCLE.
hah.

PR today.. not so much.
was tired but couldn't just flop somewhere.
mingle. chat. smile. laugh.
erm, i managed quite well.
i'm no social butterfly, but i used to be rather sociable.
but somehow i like sitting alone in the quiet.
listening to my thoughts.
sounds nice.
peaceful.
quiet.
comforting.

like sitting on the beach watching waves.
everything falls away and you're taken elsewhere.

eh. request from sk.

Sodapop says:
muust mention how shuai i am

today cos of my bad eyesight i thought someone sitting on the steps at tpy mrt might be him. then i walked over. walked nearer. stopped. squinted. walked even closer. stopped. squinted. wahahaha. then walked away. stopped. turned back. squinted.

oh my.

luckily i cannot see facial expressions (nor facial features) from afar. else i would have seen the person give me a weird look and i would have felt paiseh. LoL!
so, ya la. sk is more shuai than that person by xxxx times according to kamling. she say one, i dunno how many times cos i cannot see that person's face. so ok loh, sk is shuai(-er). (hah, there! i mentioned it)

rushed around getting food...
reminded me of that old gameshow on tv, Supermarket Sweep.
i think it was quite an adventure although kinda tiring.
AND WHAT IS IT WITH GUYS AND ANY KIND OF SHOPPING?
shopping for food also sleepy!
~_~
this one bo bian still sleepy!
pro...

eh the hot weather is driving people nuts.
today shall be dubbed the "2 Rounds of Bandung then CMI" day.
after 2 rounds it was too much liquid and too darn sweet and eeek.
pity kl coughing else can join us.
her cough quite bad. dry cough. but even so quite xiong.
hai.
haha i told her about my nic teo dream.
lmao i have no idea why i dreamt of him.
think i delirious. previous night on msn i think she said she 'zhang dong liang-ing these hols'. maybe that's why i go dream. bleh!

btw i don't wish to see bandung for the rest of this week.
but i do wanna see TEH SI GAO!
ooooooooh lala my fave!
siao liao i drink liao cannot sleep whole night one =X
wahahahhaa.

wow.
i drink gao. then i upgrade to super gao.
later finally i eat tea leaves can le.
omg!
~_~

tml. wed.
go out.
change phone (hopefully.)
today phone wasn't obedient.

WANNA WALK ORCHARD ROAD AT NIGHT HIGH ON DRINK WITH A FRIEND!
ANNE YOU FREE OR NOT!
=X

omg nearly got 'tricked' to watching scary movie on fri....
wahahahahaha.
ok no money to waste.
stevie day.... soon!
i promise i will touch your solid body again stevie!
=D~~~~
tonight too lazy and too freaking hot to print out tabs.
tomorrow.........?
too lazy to watch the naruto movie also.

wah biang i too lazy for everything.
zzzzz pig zzzzzz

my life is stagnant.
i love it!
i love being unburdened.
without a care in the world!
with nothing nagging at me to be done.
with no one invading my thoughts.
yay!

this is the life man.
utter bliss is nothingness.

or is it......?

why do i feel so bored?!
~_~

mom bought a shirt from isetan for me today.
hmm.
=D

tomorrow.
change phone.
tomorrow.
master intro of No Surprises.
tomorrow.
sleep like pig.

erm i don't wanna help with organizing stuff...
very mafan.....
i'm a follower not a leader...

this entry is getting too crappy.
it's late.
i'm lame.

ta all!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:54:00 AM