Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Progress Report #1

why oh why oh why oh why
can't i study properly?

i mean i've been in contact with the material and all (yes, even slept with it. not just under my pillow, but if you have to know, i hugged my japanese book to sleep last night.) but i just have no MOOD or ENERGY to memorize any of it. thus amounting to me knowing nothing. a good example of that would be 6th Nov, Sunday, when i met up with Grace, Cyn and PT (aka Psychoanalytic Theory). oh my, i dunno a single shit.

WHAT THE FUCK HAVE I BEEN DOING?!

well, i'll tell you what i've been doing.

1) daydreaming (or nightdreaming)
2) eating
3) sleeping
4) occasional bursts of gaming (inclusive of mapling, ps2-ing, etc)
5) online loafing (ie msn, blog surfing, forum-surfing, googling, etc)
6) watching tv (tv makes a comeback when i'm in the mood for study-escapism)
7) procrastinating

i'd better go memorize some 201 stuff else i'm as dead as the frozen meat you have in your freezer. or deader than that.
for 202 i didn't memorize and got a nasty shock (although exam wasn't too bad, but because of my inability to be a dutiful student, imma bang wall), for japanese didn't study enough and forgot what "akarui" (bright) is. oh fuck. tomorrow i don't want to be the next iron statue sitting in the same position for 2 hours, staring at the same question, unblinking, but unable to elicit a response from my pen.
oh, by the way, i haven't even TOUCHED 229.

DO YOU EVEN SENSE THE URGENCY OF THE MATTER?

seems like i don't. more interested in leveling up my disgaea characters (aHhh! SPRITES! SO CUTEE!), sleeping, watching tv (4 legendary aces, da chang jin, ch55 stuff that my mom watches. hurhur. cheenafication of the dith)

bah. BAH i say!
someone please drag me backwards through an information processor.
wahahha da chang jin starting in 20min. wahhahaa ends nearly midnight. wahahha no need to sleep le. wahahahhaa.
after exams end i don't even feel like mapling. but EH i need to get to lv90 T_T grr competition sometimes makes one do things one doesn't want >_<"

interestingly enough, i found today's japanese compo topic quite interesting. "write about what you did last hols and why you did what you did, etc." hmm, short compo. they state 350-400 charas but actually with all the redundancy of the language (face it, 70% of language is redundant, i'm not being lingocentric. bahahaha!) i'm like writing 200 words or less. damn short eh. i even exceeded the space alloted (die! will they penalize?) although i wrote many words (even stuff we didn't learn) in kanji. >_>" hope never use wrong...

anyone know how to use "koto" properly? hahaha. anyhow whack.
gaWd i'm a glutton for punishment.
why can't i use tried and tested and learnt methods during exam? experimental eh.
is "mono" and "koto" somewhat similar only that one refers to material object while another immaterial, but both mean "thing" ? hahaha dunno =X better not know.

anyway left 20min before exam ended. must avoid crowd. people like to rush madly for bus until so fucking crowded, all wanna go home mug, or they flood the canteens to eat, THEN mug. hrm. i'm being stereotypical here too, right?

i was on the train, listening to the "train doors closing, dududududu" when grace called. haha, the "221 gang" (grace, cyn, pt, sk) going to can A for lunchie. i go home early also did nothing. what did i do?

me: *reaches home* SIANNN! dowan study! i wan play game!
mom: come come eat lunch
me: *whacking monsters on disgaea and having lunch*
[3 hours later]
mom: eh my tv show starting soon
me: orh.
mom: you better go study. tomorrow exam.
me: orh.
[5.20pm]
mom + me: *watching tv*
[7+pm]
me: *scoots to comp to look at msn*
msn window 1: (with regards to my nick) "now that would have been one heck of a boring reality tv series"
msn window 2: some etc stuff + emoticons
me: *hits esc key twice, grabs notes and heads to room to ponder upon them in sleepy stupor*

and that's what i've been doing.

ok la, maybe blog later. TV!!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:31:00 PM