Friday, June 22, 2007

jaded

and you mix and you mix and you mix;
down the drain it goes.
i'm lost in this
now i understand somewhat
i dunno where i am or what i'm doing or where i'm going

i just love sleeping

feel like shirking all my burdens off my back
and spending eternity like this;
b u m m i n g

but i cannot-i have work
no matter how much i would loVe to forget about it
i still do have work

it weighs on the back of my mind like a sea-rock
a stone
a boulder
a mountain.

i feel like just disaPpearINg
and everything vanishes with me
no one remembers anything about me
it's sad but
it would be great if i could just
disapPear from work
and no one knows.

i suppose this comproMIse should suFFice
still, i am lost.
lost in games.
retreat
feels empty yet filling
feels happy yet sad
feels lonely yet rewarding

lonely sad boy
lonely sad girl
let's continue to play this game
don't make anything happen
don't make anything happen

i've been there done that spun all the way back round
the hate and fear and disgust and disappointment still hangs
like a spiderweb
old old oldy web
with many many dead and disgusting bugs
in the depths of an old forgotten musty yucky dusty dank cellar.

scoop me out of my bucket;
bring me to greater heights.
but i find i can't do anything anymore.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:41:00 AM