Monday, June 04, 2007

narrative, if you please

please excuse the multitude of posts today.
it's 411am and i can't sleep for want of a happier head and to have this niggling irritated feeling pack its bags and shift to nebraska or something.
here's my narrative offering of the day's events, simply because, i forgot to post a narrative.

ahhhhhh i do adore superficiality at times. =D

well. while waiting for the bus to come, i called up vin to ask him join me for makan. cos well. i don't wanna be alone with D. so anyway, he said he was going to the pc show. at 7pm. just nice when i walk there from bugis.

and thus, after jap class, i walked to suntec and squeezed with the geeks and gamer chix and kaypo aunties and techie unclez and random sweaty smelly people in hall 6.
jap class, as a side mention, was alright. got a girl to talk to now. so i won't sleep. =)
hmm. met D first. then anto came. then vin and ken. one squeezy hour or so later, D and A went back in (oh, the brave souls!) to see the ban leong booth and maybe do some real shopping. i followed V and K and we went to carl's to sit down and get a drink etc.
well. D and A came back. unscathed, and soulz unclaimed by pushy people armed with microphones and a long running script of special offerz.
D got speakers.

and we ended up eating at carl's. B came too. haha i ate a super star burger. of course share with V. today i kept sticking to V. i'm so sorry D. but i must get past this uncomfortable stage. yeah i'm like that. always get weird feelings around people. especially as a result of me thinking too much. ho hum. and especially since D likes to pat my head etc. zzzzz. okay, it feels nice to be pampered, like a little girl. but he's not the right person that i wanna be pampered by. the right person is currently residing so far away in subang. i also dunno if he's ever gonna come back for another visit. so. do i wait 3 years? and after that, what? wait some more? hmm. i dunno. future is always uncertain.

anyway didn't notice D put something in my bag until we were leaving.
ya i'm very blur. and this time i was reli blur and not blur on purpose to avoid things.
well. i was surprised, happy, guilty etc all at the same time. kinda amounts to having a book whack you in the face i suppose.
and i have a feeling K was gossiping to V about something about me. i also dunno. nvm. K is a nice guy. i do forgive him. ya he's cute. nice character. but another attached dude. lmao. dith please go look somewhere else or get a life. thxxxx.

well.
i am happy with my new pair of green earphones.
i am guilty because i don't want anymore things.
as a rule, i generally don't like to accept things from ppl.
dun like to feel i owe ppl, y'know?
(amounts to myself again? pukez)
and very surprised, because i was looking at it earlier.

nice guy. friendly. chatty. warm. sweet. does know how to please a girl. entertaining. so many good points i suppose.
but being the person i am, i cannot accept.
there's always some element lacking.
besides, i already told him abt kaze.
he himself asked me today something which ended in 'your malaysian boyfriend?'
i forgot what he said.

anyway.
it's 430.
sleeping time is so fucked up.
but it was fun having an msn drawing conv with K.
oh, K is interesting.
and i avoided going into maple today for fear i might see I.
hmm.

mass-avoidance campaign going on.
i just wanna run away from everything and everyone.

escapism, if you please
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:11:00 AM