Monday, November 19, 2007
forget it.
the grudge i've borne from 3.5yrs back has returned to poke me cruelly in the eye.
you have a facade living in these premises.
the facade that wakes up every morning and pretends to be your nice daughter and sister.
.........
coupled with the exams, i've sensibly decided to be a conformist.
it goes against my beliefs, no doubt, but i need to be able to study and get through my final year in univ.
as if struggling through school wasn't bad enough.
i don't need any family conflicts.
.........
the facade is back again.
hatred flares.
then fades, concealed but not extinguished.
.........
asian values, asian values.
ok i will go along with harmony as it seems the wisest choice.
no time nor energy to go about my crazy rebel antics of the past.
i was 19, i had time and energy.
now i'm 22.
i'm jaded, old, tied down with responsibilities and i have no time.
........
no time to bother.
shan't care.
go away, shut up.
facadith is here to stay.
be warned when you talk to me next.
you never know if you're talking to me or my shell.
be warned.
...and
dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:20:00 AM