Sunday, August 31, 2008

Core (in)competencies

nothing to do, just feel like typing randomly here. made like the typical singaporean and joined 10 million other people at suntec city for comex 2008. pushing past various types of people, a number of strollers, narrowly missing some stray kids (or what was left of them). didn't help that the day started badly with me in a bad mood since leaving the house. (we were late meeting a friend). add the 10 million other bodies emanating body heat, generating bio waste, as well as letting loose noise and thought pollution (argh my brain hurts with all that neural noise).

well, good news is that, got my sis her lappie. not too happy though, but that's totally unrelated to the computer. (chotto ano namae ni bingan suru). anyway, since it was out of stock, got it on preorder and coerced her to get pink. sounds simple enough, but when one is trying to get past 10 million other people all moving in different directions, suddenly it makes a matter of 100m or less a mountainous challenge. just think about it. ASUS-MSI-BENQ-HARVEYNORMAN-ACER-ASUS-MSI if i had the map on hand i might even trace our path out for you. me, my sis and with vin in tow we braved the crowd.

after sis left, looked at other stuff. routers, flash drives, card readers and stuff. then left to look at gashapon and toys. felt so much better when not crowding with the crowd. got some cute gashapon toys. mood improved, quite happy for some inane reason. happy until felt like could eat a horse. so went to eat japanese buffet - non stop sashimi.

managed to settle something that might potentially escalate to some conflict. (actually i think it wouldn't, but i do have a conscience. contrary to popular belief!) kinda sad i couldn't join wen for shopping. yet also kinda happy with how my day went. wrapped up the day (or rather, night) walking in chinatown looking for that indian sailor crap seller of junk but couldn't find his stall. rofl. got freaked by ghost stories then went on my way home.

somehow, i never noticed such mental capacity. i am impressed. my mind should feel stimulated, but it isn't. instead i am left dumbfounded. while i like having power over others, it makes all things imbal. power is invigorating, but never lasting. it's never fun to play with an opponent in kof whom you know you can smash to a pulp and win 3-0 every time. we all need some challenge in life.

the Wii retails for $469. thinking about it... just thinking about it... "Wii will make you happy!" they claim. my television sucks. imagine if i cart a 32" tv to japa class today. ROFL. i doubt i could even fit through the door. much less the back door. squandering $45+$2 today to see if i can pass JLPT2 come dec this year. the forms have been filled, the pictures have been pasted. (note to self: i am all out of passport photographs) what's left to do? STUDY of course. hmm. 90+ days left. approx 3 months. blah. just thinking about it makes me sian.

life is still as boring. i don't like certain aspects of it, but it's hard to change. like ingrained habits and ingrown toenails, they persevere deep within the soul. at my core, i am still inherently unhappy. the source is probably easily identifiable but i don't wish to chip at the flesh to expose my core.

and look! so fast it is monday soon. i think a part of me has just died again.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:40:00 PM