Friday, October 31, 2008

otanjyoubi omedetou, kaze kun~
may you be happy forever
& may all your wishes come true.
have a good 22nd =)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:25:00 AM

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Meredith
Your name Meredith has given you tenacity of purpose and has made you extremely independent. Whatever you undertake, you approach from your own point of view, and others either have to conform to your ideas or go their own way and leave you to work things out for yourself. You are so narrowly focused in your pursuits that you frequently overlook the little personal considerations and attentions that create a bond of understanding and sense of companionship. Thus it is difficult for you to merge your efforts harmoniously with others. In the home, you can inadvertently be offhand and abrupt when you would really like to show your affection. In circumstances that require a little finesse, you find that you are inclined to be too direct and straight to the point and suffer frustration in your personal relationships as a result. Tension could affect the eyes, ears, teeth, or sinuses. Frequent head colds or severe headaches are potential problems.
http://www.pressanykey.com/cgi-bin/names.cgi
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:29:00 PM

Myers-Briggs
The Myers-Briggs Personal Assessment Quiz

Introversion
Based on your answers, the personality type you are strongest in is "Introversion".
You tend to make decision somewhat independently of constraints and prodding from the situation, culture, people, or things around them. You are quite, diligent at working alone, and socially reserved. You may dislike being interrupted while working and may tend to forget names and places.

Strengths
independent
works alone
is diligent
reflects
works with ideas
is careful of generalizations
is careful before acting

Weaknesses
misunderstands the external
avoids others
is secretive
loses opportunities to act
is misunderstood by others
needs quiet to work
dislikes being interrupted

Introversion Considerable strength
Intuition Considerable strength
Thinking Considerable strength
Feeling Considerable strength
Perceiving Considerable strength
Extroversion Definite strength
Sensing Definite strength
Judging Some weakness
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:12:00 PM

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

on tenterhooks...
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:11:00 AM

Monday, October 27, 2008

wahahahaha.

i sense insane times ahead.

going mad mad mad!!

but don't worry i won't be like mad wen watch kids cartoons and high sch musical and sing to the dawn and winx club =x yucks =x =x =x

LOL

k going to be late to my personal movie date! wheeeeee with my NDS accompanying me! rabu rabu!!!!!!!

ja baibai~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:54:00 AM

Sunday, October 26, 2008

feeling unwell, achy and heaty again.
no more late nights for me.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:14:00 AM

Saturday, October 25, 2008

daikirai koto

think i have issues with everything. of late, my wide-eyed newbie-ness is slowly diminishing and i am becoming more like myself, albeit milder. i am a very critical and cynical person as my dear blog readers know. plus am paranoid and antisocial to boot.

i really dislike humans. what a disgusting race. so many faults and shortcomings. so ineffective and faux-superior. but i can't say much, can i? seeing that i am sadly human myself.

personally i feel many people don't make sense. there is no rationale, no logical line of thought. sometimes it really pisses me off. other times, hilarity ensues. and i have been finding that a lot around me. so amusing yet so aggravating.

every day wishing and hoping i could run away and hide; take flight with these invisible wings. but my wings have long been clipped; because i am human. i have fallen to earth from my safe place high above in space. and i constantly feel trapped; grey 6ft high cubicles, 4 walls of my home, surrounded by commuters daily, surrounded by buildings, by ongoing construction... by eyes that see and stare and penetrate and scream voyeuristic sadomasochism.

ink black pools throwing messages that scare me. humans... oh disgusting. all the powder and the fluff and the cotton wool strewn to the wind. would like to immerse myself in nature away from it all, away from everyone. run away and hide in my corner with shadows as my blanket.

metamorphosis. kaishain ni natteiru. slowly it happens. cocooned and made to change. unnatural; much like your body's joints are on backwards and your head can turn like an owl's. deep pools of eyes. deep wells of thought. the constant jangle in the air. so jarring and chaotic. big clumps of black static; screeching endlessly while invisible eyes and ears hover and reside within the grey cubicle dividers.

hiss hiss hiss hiss
rustle rustle rustle
zaa zaa zaa zaa zaa
hisohisohisohisohiso
fuufuufuufuufuufuufuu
banashibanashibanashi

and i'm drowning in the flood, slowly losing my sanity, becoming more and more unlike myself yet still remaining who i am.
psychosis, split-personality disorder, estranged, schizophrenic.

oh the invisible plankton in my vision; floating down; looking like transparent microbes under a microscope.
i would like to go where you go; staring into the sunlight until i am absorbed away.

of being around yet not really being.
ningen no seikatsu wa daikirain.

Rocket collecting dust
Hidden from all memory
Bathed in outrage and rust
Waiting for you and me
To own it
Watch you as you douse the ceiling
Light up all the evil dreams
Till they ignite screaming into the night
And we run away clean
Chorus:
I wish i was half electronic
The last shreds of skin are in the sweet sunlight
And i've turned into this smiling, snarling monster
As i watch the walls descend
As i watch the walls descend like stars
Half submersed
I reach your island at night
Washed up tangled on these stones
A gorgeous wreck crashing
To lay here for the next 600 years
The storm will play out there for miles on every side
So tell me who's got the dominoes
But you'll have to leave your lightning outside
Chorus:
the weeds reach the top of the trees
- Milla Jovovich

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:27:00 PM

Friday, October 24, 2008

RandoMagnet

Yet another random encounter today. I seem to have many random encounters that mostly start with, "May I know how to get to...?" aka lost people asking for directions. So much so that I think I attract randomness, like a gigantico electromagnet. Only it's called the Randomagnet.

You have the insurance salesman with whom I chatted 1hr+ with. Not about insurance mind you... but tons and tons of random stuff.

Then you have the computer salesman also. With whom I chatted tons and tons of random stuff, in particular computers with, over a period of a few days and hours whenever I went to the store o_O

Then there's the ang mo fellow I met in the train and unfortunately brought him the wrong way omg. And ended up talking about gps units and things like that.

And then there's my psychoanalysis lecturer with whom I chatted randomly with after class, and furthermore on the bus and the train home. omg.

And off-hand, I can't remember, but there's gotta be a few more =O

haha, not surprisingly, I think you know where this entry is going. Today I chatted randomly with a japanese girl, i think about my age, and even accompanied her for dinner =O sugoi. as usual, started off with asking directions on her part. stuck in rain outside my night class, just nice asked us. tanoshikatta kedo atashi chotto shitsurei to omou? i think because of our 'too direct' style? another 1hr+ encounter... so random yet fun. an adventure!

quite a good day for me today in the sense that i'm very clear-headed today. must be the sleeping in the morning on the mrt. really helps tons. trainer for night class kinda praised me. i'm happy! plus the random encounter... haha. i feel like i can take over the world with my cuteness power now!

but of course, being more clear-headed means one becomes more easily cantankerous. heh. cos can see all the underlying things and nuances flying about... makes one irritated i suppose.

but such a fun day! randomness oh randomness.

actually i think i take after my mom in this manner? because she likes to randomly talk to people i suppose. maybe it's also a sense of kayponess haha. but it's fun.

and yayness, it's friday tomorrow! weekend baby. but only seems like yesterday that i just ended sunday with a bang that was darling's belated bdae celebration. =O sugoku hayai na... shuumatsu no tsuku koto. tsuitekuru? speed of light, it comes. time shrinks. hands of the clock encroaching upon you with scrunched up calendars screaming silently at the 12 pieces of paper that are torn off or flipped behind too quickly. much like the calendar on my office table which i forever forgot to flip until my colleague notices and does it for me. haha i seriously think it's still in sept right now loh. omg. sculli august still. LOLOLOLOL. pwned.

okay i'm damn tired. gotta prepare for friday's battle. ja oyasusumi! wishing everyone a restful sleep with random dreams and a randomly good day after! yay IMM day!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:23:00 AM

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Wrong Sides and Wrong Turns

Realised I haven't touched this space for quite a while already. Sometimes I wish there were 30 hours a day, but knowing our society, we'd probably have to put in (6/24)x6=0.25x6=1.5hours more at work each day or more. That would be just gross. Even if it were just an extension of lunch hours.

Nothing much has been going on anyway. And if you're looking for a scandal, there's none - other than me having a scandalous lack of sleep and lack of time and mountain of things to do. Not to mention this ex-gamer has been reduced to only being able to commit 15minutes of web-based games a day. Oh the scandal!

Oh well. Back to basics I suppose. Somehow I feel an impending doom coming right up my alley. Timelines, timelines and long turnaround times. Gah. Gotta be more proactive, gotta step up the pace, gotta develop the drive. Gotta push push push, go go go! Need to be more kanchiong and more affected by the urgency of work.

It's a fine balance. Drag too long and you will get scolding (doh), drag too short (must pretend a bit when you say you're 'checking' ma) also can tio things one haha. What a tightrope we walk upon. And my MRT sleeping skills have been impressively cultivated. To think I can sleep standing up (but must hold the pole la) and dream some more. Even better is my oversleeping to Lakeside when I was supposed to drop at JE. Dang. Only rudely roused by someone opposite me playing some Beyonce. Well, gotta give that idiot some cred I suppose. Who knows what might have happened if I had not realised... Tampines? LOL gawd.

T minus 14 right now. S'pose I will go pack my things and stuff. Another late night tomorrow. Thankful for Monday's holiday. Praise be to Public Holidays! They really do us a public service. (or disservice, depending on how you're looking at it.) Suppose it's also a disservice for me in this case... But should I blatantly ignore that fact? I should be quivering in my shoes and quaking in my boots - or rather, heels - right now. Two days, can they deliver? On my part, was it too short notice? Chasing is important. Just as important as it is running ahead. Gotta run and pull people or chase them up to speed. yeah.

Shoes. Aluminium Chlroide. Buses. Piling MRT trains. 645am. Oversleeping. Tardiness.

Still feel I am living in a weird world that's out of whack. Just imagine. It's like a vegetarian starting to eat meat. It's like a nocturnal creature turning its biological clock upside down. It's like a jazz lover suddenly listening to death metal. It's like a man who is suddenly a woman. Kaishain ni nattara, hen na kenkyou ni haita. Mou aru no wa, seikatsu ga kawatta... No one seems to have the same face anymore. Everything smells difference, tastes different, looks different, yet still remains the same. Only I have changed... Only I have changed...

I'm walking turned inside out.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:11:00 PM

Friday, October 17, 2008

DONO HI KANA....?



darlingu no tanjyoubi da yo!
otanjyoubi omedetou darlingu!
:))

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:07:00 AM

Sunday, October 12, 2008

aluminium chloride, work your miracle.
let me be a happier girl!

slpy slpy slpy.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:17:00 AM

Saturday, October 11, 2008

lololol
sinking into depression once again.....
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:50:00 PM

Friday, October 10, 2008

my head hurts.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:38:00 AM

Monday, October 06, 2008

Famed Be The Flames

Burn After Reading is an amalgamation of nonsensical seriousness with over-hyped reviews and a star-studded cast – formed mainly to charm people into watching Brad Pitt behave like a total twit onscreen. Well if that's your thing, you will probably like Burn After Reading. What I wanted to do, in true honesty, was burn my eyes after watching.

Criticisms aside, it's not that horrible. Applause be to the intrinsic plot involving the memoirs of this man, which stirs everyone and everything into a big mess. Everyone starts grappling for something, and in the process, people get embroiled into business and even with each other in some twisted twist of fate.

The execution is not bad really, but not worthy of an award nomination. Rather, there is an element of quiet hilarity, further juxtaposed and hence played up by the seriousness of the cast's expressions and simple desires that lead to lofty demands.

Triviality exploding into a mini cataclysm is perhaps what best describes such a movie. Paced at a plodding speed, with a tangle already apparent from the beginning, it took me a good half hour to grasp what was happening on the screen I had paid ten bucks to stare at for the past 2 hours.

An interesting watch, no doubt, especially if you want to see Brad Pitt the (dead) himbotic gym trainer. Could have been better; I preferred Death at a Funeral actually.

Nonetheless, poster gets a full two-thumbs up from me even if the movie didn't.
3 upon 5.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:50:00 PM

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- review of burn after reading
- the damn chio salmon sashimi
- the new 'love' of my life: nds!

~sometimes i wish i were an ignoramus. because i'd be in bliss~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:37:00 AM

Saturday, October 04, 2008

SMEX!


...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:51:00 PM

mou genki ni natta.
doumo ari... hontou ni.
=)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:25:00 AM

Friday, October 03, 2008

madness.
too depressed to study japa.
too depressed to do anything.

hahahaha......
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:55:00 PM