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Strange, walking down the avenue
You're strange just the way you are
Strange, always doing something new
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SATS
i'm flattened by the SATs. oh bleargh.
SAT I Test Completed
Math 680 91%
Verbal 580 73%
sux sux sux.
i feel so....... blar.
someone.. SIT on me.
oh, and gp sucked today. compre was rather tough. uncharacteristic of the school. GIMME SOMETHING EASY SO I CAN SCORE WITH MY EYES CLOSED CAN ANOT? =/
*dies*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:56:00 PM
ayeeee..
sorry i didn't wake up till 5pm.. hahahaha.. whahahaha..
thankies manyi, joyce, yujing, shuting, leah, liyun, owl, mark, alwyn, cher, jianhua, jz, my mom's fren jeanie, auntie aggie...
ahh..
thankies to my mom and sis and jes and aunt for all e bdae pressies and e treats.. lol.. it's all going to my stomach.. o.o;
fat faaaaaaat! LoL
thanks ahma anne, seniorZ chuin, master lex, mike aka beefie, angeline, mu darling!!!!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:48:00 PM
aha. i'm feeling MUCH better now! thanks to one and all! thanks to jes for going out w mi today and thanks for e early bdae gifts and the hugssssssss. lol.
thanks to kelvin for that FIRST bdae sms! wahaha.. win liao. first siaaaaaa. hehehe..
thanks to decade fren yuzhong for the second sms!!!!!!!! love yaaaaaaaa. hahaha..
thanks to weiquan for that third sms! what a surprise man! =)))) money ar? will treat ya to lunch if ya wan. :P
thanks to my mom (yes. mom.) for that fourth sms! hahahas....... where's e bubbly.. =/ u said u would pop e bubbly.. aye. tml den? =D
thanks to jessie for standing by me and for that fifth sms + pic msg!!!!!!! aieeeeeeeee. so cuteeeeeeeee ne ne. x)
thanks to darrrr diiiiiii for that sixth sms! i din know u knew my bdae! :X hehehehe..... muaksssssss.
and thanks to all e well wishers on irc!!!!!!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
lemme think.
nig, bren, turtle, yuanie, aaron, zesin, roy, drew, alex, moumou, shangyong, etc etc!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. you guys rockkkkk!
hehehehe........
hope tml will be an ok day. =))
oh ya. sizzler's is so DAMN filling. gah. lol.
tataZ~
wUv dith ^-^*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:02:00 AM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:56:00 AM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:56:00 AM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:56:00 AM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:56:00 AM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:56:00 AM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:56:00 AM
[00:57] * Chia has left #ajc
[00:58] * jAs0n^ has left #ajc
[00:58] * sToNeCraB is now known as dr3a`
[00:58] f|aW\burn> haHAHahahah
[00:58] uh-oh> wau lau flaw, u so fat and ugly still always kaopei so much in ajc main. You think u very popular is it.Kan na sai. So many ppl in school see you they run ah. Go look yourself in the mirror lah, bua pai sei..go sweep the FLOOR lar!
[00:58] f|aW\burn> admirer sia
[00:58] * uh-oh has left #ajc
....
oh well.
should i comment?
should i say anything.
first off, they are cowards. leaving after saying that load of shit.
secondly. i will not comment further.
Session Start: Sat Jun 28 01:02:39 2003
Session Ident: #17/02
[01:02] * Now talking in #17/02
[01:02] * Topic is 'tok please'
[01:02] * Set by valens on Sat Jun 28 00:49:51
[01:02] f|aW> ..
[01:02] bRo0klYn> damn shit...
[01:02] * uh-oh has left #17/02
[01:02] f|aW> and who is that?
[01:02] f|aW> my own classmate
[01:03] f|aW> wow.
[01:03] f|aW> WOW.
[01:03] f|aW> thanks a LOT
[01:03] f|aW> coward i say
[01:03] * ^LpPl^ has joined #17/02
[01:03] f|aW> COWARDICE
[01:03] f|aW> if u have something u wanna say
[01:03] f|aW> SAY IT TO MY FACE
[01:03] f|aW> =)
[01:03] ^LpPl^> yucks
[01:04] f|aW> have a nice night.
[01:04] * You were kicked by valens (f|aW)
[01:04] * Attempting to rejoin channel #17/02
[01:04] * Rejoined channel #17/02
[01:04] * Topic is 'tok please'
[01:04] * Set by valens on Sat Jun 28 00:49:51
Session Close: Sat Jun 28 01:04:11 2003
come to think of it, i WILL comment.
guess what, MY CLASSMATES SAID THAT.
WELL. THANKS A LOT.
my VERY own CLASSMATES.
ISN'T THAT HEADLINING NEWS?
wonders will never cease.
thank GOODNESS i only have 4 more FUCKING months more in SHITTIFIED AJC.
GO TO HELL AND BURN THERE ALL OF YOU.
I'M SO DISAPPOINTED IN YOU PEOPLE.
REALLY, I AM.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:06:00 AM
haix. did i mention i was so frustrated just now when i woke up? mom immediately started firing a barrage of nagging and question and orders at me. and in my half awake mood, i get pissed easily. wanted to tear my hair out, kick something, kill someone. but thank goodness i didn't. instead i passively ranted my frustrations out on irc. as usual. changed my nick, my away, etc. blar. oh well. tml's gonna be a really messy day. hectic. confusing. alot of running around and screwy. guess i just gotta play it by ear. what will be shall be. the clock never stops its ticking for the likes of us mere mortals anyway.
yeah. hopefully i'll get to meet some friends after my party and their kohaku. -if- they will be going. i miss them. yes i really do. although it hasn't been long. only a few weeks, and i miss them already. but i always say this. i miss them so bad yet when i actually see them i react differently. wtf is wrong with me... haix. i'm beginning to wonder what is wrong and so right about this world we live in. what does humanity mean.. and thus forth.
ah well. going to sizzler's tml for pre bdae lunch, meeting merv to pass him a cd, meeting jes to go orchard n zouk, and perhaps later meeting friends. and then perhaps on sunday, feel my health completely screw up totally. blar.
let's hope i survive the entire ordeal. after hell on mon to thurs, at least i will get to rest on fri sat sun. or at least, chiong my tutorials and stuff. fuck.... and then the real hell will commence.
holidays are merely an interlude to sheer torture.
i feel like writing another song or poem. but inspiration has left me a long time ago. and i have yet to meet my muse. haix. hopefully things will work out tomorrow.. hopefully. play it by ear, wish and hope, serendipity, chance, coincidence, luck. haix.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:36:00 PM
it's my bdae very very soon. about a day's time. as i near eighteen.. life is getting shorter. makes me wonder what the hell i'm doing with it now. oh well.
just talked to dearie pj online just now. argh. i so wanna go out n have fun now. not necessarily parties and stuff, but just walking around, hanging, talking.. maybe some solace and hugs would be nice too. haix.
no no i'm not sad. just in a contemplative mood. i'm at peace now.. feel like i'm carelessly drifting. and i find, that people actually look up to me.. or ask for advice. i feel appreciated. isn't the feeling of being appreciated wonderful? like you do something for a person and that person replies with a smile, or a thank you.. something to just make you feel appreciated. shows that effort is not going to waste.
haix. i shouldn't keep chatting on e phone at wee hours. it's screwing up my health. haix.. i know it's not their faults, it's mine too for being so obliging. why oh why am i always so obliging? WHY. haix. i guess it's good and bad also. everything is good and bad. haix.
seems tomorrow there's kohaku going on in e cosplay world. alot of things have been going on there as of late. can't say i'm very bothered or affected. simply because i'm not involved in such things. i just roughly know the people and chat to them on occasion. nowadays it's all just a brief hello or whatnot. most of them, that is.
i can't go, going to zouk with jes for machi thingy. i dunno if my body can take it. most thing is, it'll screw up come monday. haix. and then i'll miss one week of bloody exam torture. *touches wood* i can't. if i do people are gonna be disappointed and and... haix. i might just....... blow.
aren't i supposed to be in my happy mood now? the 'push everything aside' and 'just pretend everything's ok' mood? ah well. i dunno. should i leave some people alone? am i bothering them too much? seems whenever i have hols i live a different life. still anchored by school because i'm constantly reminded of it, but i have a different life out there. i -live-. argh... haix................. i wonder how i will be like without school? will i become totally insanely MAD and OUT OF CONTROL? going out every single damn day? outright, outgoing, etc? i dunno... i might turn into a big buayee.... hai.
aiyah. disturbed by irc.....
hopefully i'll enjoy my bdae...... aka the last day of hols.
hopefully i get what i want.
and i only want a few specific things.
sometimes i really dunno what i mean to those who matter.
haix.
will try to sleep early today.
tataZ~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:26:00 PM
Magic Number 16
Job Celebrity Nobody
Personality Unfulfilled Dreamer
Temperament A Yo-Yo
Sexual Straight
Likely To Win The Lottery
Me - In A Word Unique
Colour White
i put in my fren's name and i got this:
Magic Number 23
Job Serial Killer
Personality Drifter
Temperament If I Lose It - Run
Sexual Gay
Likely To Win The World Cup
Me - In A Word Effervescent
Colour Black
and another fren's name:
Magic Number 13
Job Porn Star
Personality Slacker
Temperament Steely
Sexual Just Say No
Likely To Win A Duel With Pistols
Me - In A Word Effervescent
Colour Orange
Yet another one...
Magic Number 4
Job Singer
Personality Multiple
Temperament Steely
Sexual If I Have To
Likely To Win The Lottery
Me - In A Word Dull
Colour Purple
..could i conclude then that it's rather true?
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:57:00 PM
i..
have been thinking.
but a lot of my thoughts have somehow dispersed into my surroundings and into nothing.
let's just say that my head is a messy void. if that's possible.
i think i'm going mad.
well. madder than i already am, in that case.
so many things i wanna flush outta my system now but i can't.
why?
dunno.
was pondering over some things.
people love to regret.
they like to look back and think:
what if i did something else? would it be better?
what if i -had- done this? would the situation have been any different?
what if i hadn't done this? what if i could have done this but i didn't?
why why why?
do not regret.
what's done is done.
over.
what more can you do?
travel faster than the speed of light to somehow go back in time?
even so, that might not end up turning back time, but simply making it much slower than it is.
it will pass over faster if you are happy.
i try to be happy now.
i am trying.
make jokes out of shit.
try to laugh when people are crying. not laugh at them or laugh crudely of cos.
i mean, don't they say that laughter's the best medicine?
arh. i dunno.
i have no idea what i'm doing now either.
what do i want? am i trying too hard? is it a futile effort?
plus.
exams are coming.
ugh. i am like only 10% there.
someone. ready the slaughterhouse.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:49:00 PM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:46:00 PM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:44:00 PM
ah. long time since i've typed some (non)sense here. wahahha.. someone commented that it's beginning to be some sort of lyrics page. oh sorrrry. =P too bad if ya missed me. heheh
might be going out tml! yay yay yay!
my heart holds nothing but joy! :X
well, more or less. whahaha... nothing much has happened, i'm still e same me, altho slightly more hardworking. and i emphasize. SLIGHTLY. =)
trying to change my outlook on life. wahaha. cos now at least there's something for me to hold on to. actually, for quite a long time. but. =))
hmm. discovered this band, dishwalla. they rockkkkk. i think i might buy their album opaline. yeahhhh.
my bdae's coming up. i'm gonna be legal! yAH. but anyway, what's e pt? lol. it's all gonna be e same anyway. hahaha.. can't say i'm strictly law-abiding. =)
ah well. dun feel like updating ya guys.
tataZ and take care~!
wUv dith
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:40:00 PM
this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside
I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time
the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see
still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time
the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us
if I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one
that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:04:00 AM
(Verse 1)
Miss independent
Miss self-sufficient
Miss keep your distance, mmmm
Miss unafraid
Miss out of my way
Miss don't let a man interfere, no
Miss on her own
Miss almost grown
Miss never let a man help her off her throne
So, by keeping her heart protected
She'll never, ever feel rejected
Little miss apprehensive
Said ooh, she fell in love
(Chorus)
What is this feeling taking over?
Thinking no one could open the door
Surprise, it's time, to feel what's real
What happened to miss independent's no longer need to be defensive?
Goodbye, old you, when love, is true
(Verse 2)
Misguided heart
Miss play it smart
Miss if you wanna use that line, you better not start, no
But she miscalculated
She didn't wanna end up jaded
And this miss decided not to miss out on true love
So, by changing a misconception
She went in a new direction
And found inside, she felt a connection
She fell in love
(Chorus)
What is this feeling taking over?
Thinking no one could open the door
Surprise, it's time, to feel what's real
What happened to miss independent's no longer need to be defensive?
Goodbye, old you, when love, is true (when love, is true)
(Bridge)
When miss independent walked away
No time for love that came her way
She looked in the mirror and thought today
What happened to miss no longer afraid?
It took some time for her to see
How beautiful love could truly be
No more talk of why can't that be me
I'm so glad I've finally seen
(Chorus)
What is this feeling taking over?
Thinking no one could open the door
Surprise, it's time, to feel what's real
What happened to miss independent's no longer need to be defensive?
Goodbye, old you, when love, is true (when love, is true)
Miss independent
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:02:00 PM
Now, don't just walk away
Pretending everything's ok
And you don't care about me
And I know there's just no use
When all your lies become your truth and I don't care... yeah, yeah, yeah
Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you're happy now, ohhh, ohhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
You took all there was to take,
And left me with an empty plate
And you don't care about it, yeah.
And I have given up this game
I'm leaving you with all the blame cause I don't care, yeah, yeah yeah,
Could you look me in the eye?
And tell me that you're happy now, oohh oohhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now? Ohhh, ohhhh
Are you happy now?
Do you have everything you want?
You could never give something you aint got
You can't run away from yourself
Could you look me in the eye?
and tell me that you`re happy now, oohh oohhh
come on tell it to my face or have i been erased,
are you happy now? Ohhh, ohhhh
are you happy now?
Would you look me in the eye?
Could you look me in the eye?
I've had that all I can take
And I'm about to break
Cause I'm happy now, ohhh, ohhh
Are you happy now?
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:51:00 PM
I'm just a simple girl
In a high tech digital world
I really try to understand
All the powers that rule this land
They say Miss J's big butt is boss
Kate Moss can't find a job
In a world of post modern fad
What was good now is bad
It's not hard to understand
Just follow this simple plan
Follow your heart
Your intuition
It will lead you in the right direction
Let go of your mind
Your Intuition
It's easy to find
Just follow your heart baby
You look at me
but you're not quite sure
Am I it or could you get more?
You learn cool from magazines
You learn love from Charlie Sheen
If you want me let me know
I promise I won't say no
[CHORUS REPEAT]
You got something that you want me to sell
Sell your sin. Just cash in.
You got something that you want me to tell
You'll love me. Wait and see.
If you want me
Don't play games
I promise
it won't be in vain
Uh-uh-uh
[CHORUS]
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:44:00 PM
so what if i cuss
so what if i swear
so what.
just passed my old handphone to my mom.. and den sis decides to check what words i have in my dictionary by testing words. she found e word 'fuck' in dere, i guess. suddenly announced: "jie, din know you so vulgar. blarblarblar.. wah ma~ din know she so vulgar leh.. orh hor.. tsk tsk"
aiyah. vulgar den vulgar la. none of yer fucking business also.
fuck, after all, is a multipurpose commonplace word. so fuck off if ya dun like it.
hey, i'm 18. i'm bound to cuss. you too. dun act like ur so pure n innocent ok.
wat's e big deal man.
tell mom also no use.
as long as i dun cuss at home can le, what fucking more do you want.
stupid younger sis.
always seemingly trying to control me.
foad.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:27:00 PM
is food chem included in e midyr?
if so, which parts?
>_<~
ionic eqm leh?
>.<;
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:07:00 AM
Last time I talked to you,
you were lonely and out of place.
You were looking down on me,
lost out in space.
Laid underneath the stars,
strung out and feeling brave.
Watch the riddles glow,
watch them float away.
Down here in the atmosphere,
garbage and city lights,
you gotta save your tired soul,
you gotta save our lives.
Turn on the radio,
to find you on sattellite,
I'm waiting for the sky to fall,
I'm waiting for a sign.
All we are is all so far.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
Hope you remember me,
when you're homesick and need a change.
I miss your purple hair,
I miss the way you taste.
I know you'll come back someday,
on a bed of nails awake.
I'm praying that you don't burn out,
or fade away.
All we are is all so far
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there, oh.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity....
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me.
Well I know,
I know.
You're falling out of reach.
I know...
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:14:00 PM
just thot i would continue this entry right now.
i know i know. it's like 8.48am in the fucking morning
and
the weather's so DARN nice!
the cooling rain that we ALL adore and LOVE to sleep in!
arghhh
pulling our blankets to our chins
snoring in bed to sweet dreams
as the rain drizzles past...
doing a fren a favour. woke up at 6am.. but somehow.. i decided to argh.. nvm.. i shall zZz.. ended up going online to check it only at 7.30+.. blar. i so suck. but HEY! he got mi outta bed THIS early
and
i'm still up! omg
this is a miracle!~ if it were sat or sun it would be more of one tho
right now it's mon morn.
monday's suck. blarrrrrrrrr.
hmm.
yeah~ mugging!!!!
damnn. dar started before mi. but his are nearer anyway..
at least.. at least..
with ppl mugging around mi..
i'll be driven or at least.. slightly pushed.. to mug myself too!
even jes is pushing mi to mug..
she says she'll even mug with mi outside.. haix.. still haven't found the best way or method of mugging.... chem phy maths gp.... chinese can go rot in cheena hell! =X wahahahah.....
gawd. the things some ppl do.
listening to carrie chong on p10 right now via my phone.. goodness! this guy actually is trying to make his way across dunno-fucking-where by CRAWLING. and.. he's all bleeding.... wtf. hmm. nick carter's song right now....? i fell asleep to this last night.. and left the radio on. -_-;
last night went somewhat crazy. i burned like 3 cds.. 2 mine.. one for jes. =)
grrr.... steph steph steph! i still can't get it! wahaha.. *sigh* if only camp could irc or whatnot.. h-eeeey~ teach mi maths! =X
9am already.
the hour doesn't feel so.. unnatural.
oh oh. meandering from title.
this is in referral to saturday's gravi outing.. and i went. oh well. had nothing better to do anyway. and and.. met up with ojisan's drawing gang halfway thru too! ye-saaahhh! adel went! yay! it's been awhile since i've seen her.. pity my anata bt wasn't dere.. *sigh* altho he aint my 'real' lover.. but. he's cuteeee. =X so it's cool. wahahhahaha.. he kinda looks like my fren from pri 1 tho.. *grins*
oh oh!
kuroineko is cool!
blackcat blackcat blackcat! 2nd time seeing him. never reli talked to him.. he's.. kinda.. elevated? cos he's like.. reli tall. whoa. and.. he's dressed in black. looks like a stately cat. oops. X)
*hops around*
oh oh oh! i dragged kelvin from his well (aka hmv's listening station) to kino's usual gc outing.. wahahaha.. *glares at kelvin* tSK. not say u dunno them loh. hahhaa.. *fwap!*
hmm. chatting to mike aka beef on irc now. gawd. early riser. but it's cos of his neighbour's drilling. blar.
kk. back to topic.
was late arriving at dhoby gaut (aiyah! i'm always like that... >_<) so met them at ps .. *sms comes in*
ah! 1627 informing mi that the new plan has been put into effect!
*big grin*
does it mean, that.. my gprs will also come?
den nig can send mi the pic of his dog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....
oops. meandering, meandering.
typical gravi outing i would say, alot of stoning, waiting around, and looking for lost ppl most of e time. bleargh.
serendipity. =D
i had a relatively warm welcome when i arrived.. i'm blind without my specs.. so walked around blurly looking for a group of young bored ppl.. lol. found them in the corner. dar and xiaodi waved to mi~ wahahaha.. both in black. perhaps i should dub them my official bodyguards.. since i always stay out until so late. *grin* *drags jl and dl around w her*
usual ppl were dere.. snow, his gf, kula, jl.. even asa, sw kor (yeah! of 2 days! =X).. salad! wahahahaha... *evil grin*
at least e ppl i wanted to see were there. i'm weird like that. if the ppl i wanna see dun go, i won't go. *snide grin*
do ur deduction, do ur deduction. LoL~
it's not diff to deduce anyway. i shall let everything be transparent. fWahahahAHah.. aiyah. nothing going on anyway, so what's dere to hide anyway? bleargh.
wahahahaha..
[09:19] LameKilla> ?
[09:19] LameKilla> HGMM
[09:19] LameKilla> BEEF is up early
[09:19] BeEfStEaK> well, if i'm extemly bored, i pcc... burns tgime real fast
[09:20] BeEfStEaK> :D
[09:20] LameKilla> ..
[09:20] BeEfStEaK> morning vamp
[09:20] LameKilla> ur sick
[09:20] LameKilla> hi
[09:20] BeEfStEaK> i noe.. :D
[09:20] LameKilla> muz as well u go eat breakfast with flaw
[09:20] BeEfStEaK> learned it frm sendoh
[09:21] BeEfStEaK> nah.. she stay too far
[09:21] BeEfStEaK> she at north, i at east nia
[09:22] LameKilla> lol
[09:22] LameKilla> i oso east
[09:22] BeEfStEaK> u maggot mah
[09:22] f|aW> O_O
[09:22] BeEfStEaK> nvm.. she going out with her bf 2day
[09:22] f|aW> pcc too much
[09:22] BeEfStEaK> K�K�
[09:22] f|aW> ur dick will drop off
[09:22] f|aW> ;)
[09:22] f|aW> my bf?
[09:23] f|aW> dun have one
[09:23] f|aW> LOL
[09:23] BeEfStEaK> i noe.. i screw it back so many times liao
[09:23] BeEfStEaK> XD
[09:23] f|aW> altho kinokunya always says thisthisthis and whowhowho is my bf
[09:23] f|aW> wahahahahhaha
[09:23] f|aW> so dat day i was like: -_- *puts arms around him* ojisannnnnnn :X
[09:23] BeEfStEaK> flaw cfm got bf de.. she shy onli
[09:23] f|aW> dun have de
[09:23] f|aW> LoL
[09:23] f|aW> single and available
[09:23] BeEfStEaK> dun bluff :P
[09:23] f|aW> wahahha
[09:23] f|aW> reli.
[09:24] f|aW> who's my bf loh?
[09:24] f|aW> hai.
[09:24] BeEfStEaK> how i noe?
[09:24] BeEfStEaK> u nv say mah
[09:24] BeEfStEaK> ｶｦﾞ
[09:24] f|aW> i dun have dat's y i nvr say
[09:24] f|aW> wahahaha
[09:24] BeEfStEaK> so, if u have, u say meh? *showoff*
[09:24] BeEfStEaK> K�K�
[09:24] f|aW> looking for one tho
[09:24] f|aW> :P
[09:24] f|aW> if i have, will mention sometimes ;)
wahaha. aiyah.
oh. so was at food court waiting for more ppl to arrive and waiting for the ppl dere to eat....
chatted with jl and dar.. abit the separated leh initially.. wahahha.. guys table gals table. *blinks* since when was gravi liddat? LoL
jl was cosplaying! i think? he brought his rave sword.. he found rave! i only noticed that when leah came later and proclaimed he did! heh. now his 'exprosion' is complete. *grins*
jia hui also came!~ oOo.. aw jia hui =X (hope she doesn't read this. XD)
twas already 2 or 3pm by the time everything was settled.. and the sun was predictably scorching.. and i wanted to hop to gc to kajiao ojisan! and dar wanted to meet his frens dere and catch e jrock cosplay and e bands.. so we hopped on a bus..
ojisan wasn't at gc. i later learnt he went to cine to eat with them. -_-;;; nvm.. saw zer0 e bishie!!!!! yep. true bishie. =X that's just as good! wahahaha.... hung around abit.. went to see the jrock thingy.. (erm. cheena-rock? *pukes*) first band zai! played two songs i knew! and one song i liked but haven't heard before! wahahahah
*grins*
guess who i ran into? wilson aka d4igo and wendy!!!!!!! wenwen~ wahahaha.. =))))))))
*hops around*
started raining when the 2nd band came onstage tho. blargh. the guy singer's voice was rain-inducing. i think it was just the clouds puking. *wink*
ergh. made my music loud enuf to drown out my mom's voice. but seriously, i can still hear her voice! #%#$%&$&*
irritating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think i'll go deaf. -_-;
so. it was raining. went back to the sheltered safety of heeren with wen and her fren. heh. guess who i bumped into? ojisan and gang!!!!! bengbeng!!!!!!!!~~``` wahahahaha.. he was called 'so cute!' by erm.. another forum person who was conducting some drawing session at kino later.. heh.
they went to gc... wahaha. adel!!! i think she came down from sch. she was wearing her sr uni.
hung, chatted, listened to beng's cd that ojisan burned for him. wahahhaha
'i tell you, she kicked my dog! she fucking kicked it!' <-- indian accent
dunno wtf it was about also.. some weird dialogue....... -_-;
anywayyy.. yeah~ got kelvin to come up, den we headed over to kino~ hmm.. walked around listening to beng's cd.. him too.. so was having quite a hard time.. being 'attached' is hard, ya? *grin*
somehow ended up in youthopia.. den went back to heeren..... -_- walking in circles?
just in time to meet the rest to head to suntec....
hai. i hate angering ppl or making them wait or being a burden. *long sigh*
negative feelings aplenty. feeling depressed, pissed, pathetic, useless.. etc etc....... failure! >_<
haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
#%&$^^*$^*$#$#$@#$#%#%$*%(%()%^()
mom
@$#^#&#&$&$#@$#^#$&*$*&$%&*$%%&$
nagging.
@$#$^#%&$&*$*%
said i was on e comp until reli late last night
and i'm on so early right now
dad woke up, saw mi online
when he was sleeping, i was last online.
gahhhhhhh i suck.
anywaaay. leah and master were dere.. rayn mei also! songwen kor~ wahaha
made our way to suntec. they wanted to eat. so stopped by somewhere to eat. (forgot the name of that place.. the one with the basement bk outlet.. in front of somerset mrt station) lex's hp died, so he got lost. hai. leah tried looking for him, but she couldn't find him. >_<
stoned dere while they ate. chatted to leah about some stuff... philosophical, analytical, cynical.. blar. told you, wasn't in a good mood den. -_-; was kinda sick and depressed. wonder if anyone cared. blar. even if they did. i din feel like they did. *sigh* esp those that mattered most.
took a bus to suntec. SOMEHOW, saw lex walking up the bridge to suntec when we alighted. *blinks* O_O;
dar ran up after him, leah also.. i couldn't.. my shoes not made for running.. lol..
whoa... talk about coincidential.
turns out he walked dere. =D timing soooooooo zhunnnnnnnnn boh! X)
haix. gotta turn off comp. @#$#$^#^$&^
maybe continue lata.
title: and the adventure continues into the night.. at sky garden... *hush falls over crowd* <-- ne?
XD
tataZ~ i neeeeed breakfast!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:29:00 AM
unscrew urself!
i command you!
i demand of you!
my word is law!
cos
i am your master!
*sighs*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:06:00 PM
today.. was fathers' day.
and.. this time i tagged along with the family for porridge at chinatown..
family outing.....
and it's not chinese new year or a wedding or a funeral (choy! touchwood!)
hmmmm....
did loads of stuff today. walked around alot.. bought alot.. probably spent alot too..
was rather evil towards the chinese culture..
(racial discrimination? at least i'm chinese.. or i woulda ended up being punched black and blue by all the lao pek pek.. fwah)
they're building a hotel 81.. i poked my sis and *winkwinknudgenudge* asked her to go dere with mi.. wahaha
she was like 'bian tai!' *starts to brisk walk*
i felt like a kid today.
everything feels great and looks great when ur feeling like a kid.
child-like.
wonderful.
shiny and new.
unaware.
children are explorers.
i read a passage in my SAT test.. it was about this writer, an 'accidental explorer' cos he always seems to get himself lost (like mi, NSD. no sense of direction.) and thus begins his adventure. like a child lost in a department store.. *mind wanders*
porridge.. was.. porridge.
i heard from my sis that the stall that's sorta become like the one we loyally frequent was featured on yummy king.
as far as i can remember, i've been going to that stall time and time again with my folks.. i think even before my sis was born.. whoa.
piping hot porridge.. fish slices cooking in the sheer heat right at the bottom.. (when i dug them up, dey were initially raw-ish)
they ordered red-sweet potato balls too.. chinese cruellers (spelling?) aka yew cha kuey.. some tapioca thingy (quite dry, i din like).. yu sheng.. (raw fish with seseme seed oil, sauce and various condiments like chilli and spring onion and garlic..)
had traditional coffeeshop tea with evaporated milk. (teh-si)
damn filling.
made our way to yu hwa (aka 'the cheena shop')
wahahahahahahhahaahhahahahahahahahhaha
oh man. i feel sooooooo bad for (in mi n my sis' words:) 'defaming' the stuff dere.
wahahahah
but it was soooooooooooooo fun!
and we got a kick outta doing that!
*evil grin*
our first observation: the chinese eat glands. loads of glands and weird stuff. like gooey snot. (pandan paste)
second observation: oOo.. so cheEena! wahah.. we were looking at everything and pointing, declaring: 'cheena!'
heh~
reli damn gross some stuff dere. EeEEEEEWww.
esp the glands.
the chinese are weird ppl. (yes! mi included! LoL! i am defaming myself! *grins*)
dried flying squirrel, dried sea horse, dried testicles (reli? *blink* mom say one. LoL)
dried fish eyeballs, dried fish maw (bladder. EWWWwwww. but fish maw soup's not bad reli.. *blinks* if you DUN think SO much about it when you drink it, dat is... *blinks somemore*)
dried deer antlers, dried deer's tail.. dried worms (EEEEWWWWWWW! mom said she cooked it for us before! YUCKS! >_<)
whoa man. time and era trip man. whoaaa..
but. i liked the japanese carp (did i get that correct?) swimming in the sorta pool.. mmm. nice. was standing dere staring at them.. picking out each fish's characteristic.. just watching fish swim has a calming effect.... dunno y.. LoL
one was pure white. one was weally weally BIG. one kept swimming backwards and drifting. one kept 'speeding'.. wahahhaah.. din know fish were so interesting! i wan i wan fishiesssssss
(i used to have them last time.. LoL they died cos of my irresponsibility. :X)
tetra tetra tetra!~
i think we went to og for shopping shopping shopping!
i bought a skirt (my mom and sis said it matched or rather, brought out the color of my hair. o.0;;;)
rather short. sandy black. lol...
and a top.. sleeveless. (eew. i think i look fat. >_< well, what else can i look? LoL)
my sis also bought stuff.. haha..
den we went to eat again....
dessert/snack consisted of offerings of the local food fare.
popiah, ice jelly/almond jelly/cheng teng..
den we went to jurong.. imm...
on the way, dad stopped by to buy 4d..
den somemore shopping at imm... mom went to cut her hair... qb~ lol..
so mi n sis went to giodano to look at jeans.. black black!
but..
material was too thick..
made me look like a fat slob again.. and chunky! eeEww...
lol
went to Giant.. jeans at 9.90?
wah. cheap cheap. (no wonder singaporeans are renowned worldwide for their bird-like noises.)
got myself a pair.
wahahahahahahha..
sis was uneasy about getting hiphuggers tho. LoL
hey~ it's the norm now.. bleargh.
oh well....
went to eat again.
(?!?!)
no la.. 5 or 6 pm liao...
i left the house around 10am.. ahahha...
aiyah.
*no mood to blog*
ate at Han's. mom's suggestion. she said their standard improved over the years.
walked around lvl 2 looking for it.
found it on lvl 3.. (yes, it's on lvl 3.. -_-)
had fish and chips.. (was falling aslp.. zZz..)
sis had grilled fish.. dad had chix chop.. mom had the chicken thigh thingy.
sis treated dad. LoL..
yay~
den i was erm. playing with my food?
(told you i felt childish. wahhahaha. oh shit. 18th bdae coming soon and i can't grow up. *sigh*)
cut my honeydew slice in a v funny manner..
lol lol lol....
no shame no shame from this gal
wahhaha..
somemore.. my nose was dripping.
on off on off.
leaky faucet. fawwwcet.
den we went to Dasio (issit?)
that 2 dollar shop....
whoa man.
it's bigger than i expected.
loadsa shit selling.
AND
it's japanese!
yay!
got light sticks.. hahahah
w00t!
MACHI AT ZOUK ON THE 28th!!!!!!!!
hope i can get in. :X
wahahahahahhahahahahahahhahaha
2 tix!!!!!!!!!!!!!
for mi n my gf!!!! =X
(jes, that is.)
wahahahahhaa. fWaH. phwoarrrrrrrr man
must chionggggggg
andrewwwwwwwwwww! so kaWaii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and he raps DAMN WELL K.
dat's how i convinced my mom to let mi go also. heh.
cos she was also darn impressed by his rapping on mtv chinese when she happened to go channel surfing one afternoon..
and we both stoned in front of the tv.. going.. aWw... WHOA
yay yay yay
can't waiit! prelude to my bdae, perhaps? =X
i'm nearly complete.......
all i lack is a better study attitude.. and.... *winkwink*
yUp.
at least dad was happy today.
wahahahha
damn happy to boot.
LoL
*secret smile*
; )
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:56:00 PM
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michelle branch was guest starring.. so proud of her.
you go gal!
sang Goodbye to You.. i think giles had to leave for britain.
and mom remarked that willow looked so old in e scene where she was crying.
knew michelle briefly. but she's a nice gal. yup.
so i'm glad she's reaping credit for what she's doing now.
cos she reli worked hard for it. and she deserves it.
hell yea she does!
going out tml to celebrate aunt's 74th bdae. =))))
haven't seen her in eons..
oh ya. i'm blogging in this manner (ie: alot of times i hit the [enter] button)
cos of the shit thing that killed the layout of my blog.
but i think a few entries more, and e problem area will be eradicated.. from main, anyways..
wonder who reads my archives tho...
oh gross.
and i can't bring myself to delete them. wtf.....
COS ALL THAT I'VE WRITTEN IS GOLD!
the writings of dith~
=)))))
must be treasured.
muahahahahahahahahaha
going out early tml.
night ppl~~~~~~~
wUv dith
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:12:00 AM
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...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:26:00 PM
oEi dun look up my skirt! o.0; hmm.
LoL~
so cute ok... i love geckos... this one's full of beans... feels like sand tho.. not sure...
today in sch everyone remarked my hair was so brown. >_<
and to think yest i was complaining it wasn't obvious enuf..
biangx....
ppl giving mi curious looks....
brown haired gal in sch uni.... look so guai but.. omg her hair...
erm.
well.
somemore i let down my hair also. too lazy to tie. color confirmed obvious lohs.... esp in the light...
haix. why do this to mi. y y y.
are u only joking? or serious?
i thot i made it clear to you?
yet.........
told sw about it today cos he called mi.
he was laughing......
to some extent, yes, it's funny.... but.
but.
ur not e one involved.
i won't think about it. =)
thot about it before, a long time ago.
and i've long made my decision no matter what happens.
*grin*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:21:00 PM
hmm. eating baktchang now.. or chinese meat dumplings..
these are so cute..and small.. lols.. and so tasty!
gawd i'm such a pEEg ok! eating 5.. darn.
poor ahma.. she's feeling ill. lol... readied e bucket yet, ahma dear? =P
heh. i'm eviL.
chiong free flow lohhh. see wat u get. bleargh.
lun ar.. y u nvr ensure that ah ma won't go drink like a crazed woman? blAr.
hmm. *sigh*
oh wells..... was late for maths lect again today. heng i nvr wait THAT long for jes.. if not no need go le. -_-;
first time eating at teppanyaki bishan fj today. w00t! niceeeeeeee
oishii.........
had sliced beef. mMmMmmmm....
only regret was that e rice wasn't e special sticky japanese short grain (they use short grain right? *blur*) rice n that my chopsticks snapped. blar.
theng yiu today suddenly went quiet.. so weird.
normally he's always chittering n so chatty.... hmm.
anw.. i asked him whr he was going after bishan.. he said amk lib.. jes was going dere but i couldn't find her liao..
y feel extra loh.. =/
all my classmates asking mi where were you leh.....
hmm.
anw he wanted to return lib books.. since see him so sad, i volunteered to help him la.. cos on e way for mi..
i walk home from tpy mrt.. always pass by e lib...
manyee, yanhao n chyekiat somehow walked off.. i think they walked her home....
so in e end i went w thengyiu to mrt.. den he passed mi his 4 chimchim chinese books...
yup.
small favour la....
but lata he smsed: "Thank you!"
that's nice....
makes mi feel appreciated.
wonder if i should watch ju-on w dem lata..
i scared leh.
but they keep asking mi.
should i just go cower in e cinema n waste my $6.50?
*contemplates* =\
might meet ahma lata for erm.. snackeroos.... LoL
KR or C&C anyone????????!
w00t~
hmm.
yup. i'll come clean. i went to milieu last night too.
not bad la. kinda got dragged into it...
ediot lun.. pangseh mi.... chiong free flow.... grrrrrrrrr.
altho i managed to down like, 7 drinks....
got e tix at $20.. james' had connections.... =)))))
lun reli bez loh. $5 left for e entire week. i think he'll shrivel up n die. blar.
how to survive loh????? -_- all this for free flow? bleargh.
haix.
my new fave drink: tequilla-7
issit tequilla w 7-up?
tastes interesting. like a tang of vanilla kinda.... mmm.....
i had like...
hmm. drank evthing cept for vodka. so sick of vodka......
rum is good.. but how to have rum n raisin?
*stares at ahma*
they plonk a scoop of raisins inside?
or add ribena?
-_-;;;;;
i think i would have gotten a weird stare....
music sucked.
boat quay better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =P
hurhur jes darling~~~~`
we go on sat!
=X
cant wait!
*grins*
oh. n i bluffed my mom i went meridian to play pool. badbadgal.
DITH YOU DIRTY FIBBER
erm. k. right.
heh~~~~~``
she believed mi. but i can't pull e wool over her eyes anymore la.
she said she dowan mi go play 'pool' dere anymore. =/
smelled like crap smoke. AGAIN! i always come home smelling like a damnnnnn F A G.
BLAR.
oh well.
so crowded e dance floor.
HOW TO DANCE?
sux...........................
kim n char frenching. gawd.
and char asked mi a v stupid qn last night.
bleargh.
womder if anne did anything that she din tell mi? =X
i'll go find out. muahahahahaha
oh. was on e blower w anne just now while she felt like blowing chunks. LoL
oh.
hapi bdae weiting! enjoy ur bdae ger! =))))))))))
tml going out to celebrate aunt's bdae.....
hmm.
^^
kk. i go talk to anne now. she so poor thing. gonna break e guinness book of world records for oral expulsion of digested food liao.. X)
....whoops anne~ =X
tataZ~
wUv dith
*oink*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:36:00 PM
today i was thinking about my soulmate.
who would he be? or she be?
not necessarily my life-time partner in that sense right?
perhaps i've found him.
today was thinking about him.
i miss him.
i know there was this connection the first time we met.
i can't explain it.
but no.
it's not bgr.
it's more complex than that.
and
i
think
the feeling's mutual.
although there's some bits of him i do not particularly like.
*sigh*
no one's perfect in this world.
..but he said i was.
isn't that the most amazing thing?
*sigh~~~~~*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:36:00 PM
hopefully it'll put me in a better mood.
blogs are evil.
gahhhhhhh.
i wish i had never stumbled upon it.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:34:00 PM
my days are over.
literally.
blar.
i swear.
omens that are foreboding are scary.
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reli dunno wat to say liao.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:54:00 PM
shouldn't be...
prying into...
other people's matters...
just
because
i am...
a jealous or curious or *beep* bitch.
i shouldn't even be reading it.
oh well.
help.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:27:00 PM
i hate seeing my bloggie screwed. haix.....
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nvm nvm.
proves that e33 will forever be screwed =D
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:10:00 AM
maybe it's cos i had booze and i'm all slpy n high right now.. w00t~ kewl combi. had e33 n fcuk cranberry + grapefruit.. wahhaha... e33 sux hor, ah ma? EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE POWER OF 33!!!!! :X
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wahahhaa~ i So roX0rS! AH MA AH MA! MINE NICER! WAHAHAHHAHAHAHA~```
anyway ah ma. ENJOY MILIEU KAESSSSSSSSssssssss~ dance like the SIAOKIA YOU ARE! HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! IJ GALS ROCK! WE ARE SIAO KIAS!!!!!!!!! AND... to all the L-O-S-E-R-S OUT THERE, MUAHAHAHAHAH FWAHHHHhhhhhh! hahahas :X
i'm mad i'm mad i'm MaAAAAAAAAaaaad!!!!!!!! too much sugar in my damn body. FUCKkkkkkk. hahaha
shopping todays was a BLAST! BOUGHT SO MANY THINGS! WONDERFUL! I LOVE SALES I LOVE APPAREL I LOVE FOOTWEAR!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVEEEEEE DISCOUNTS! I LOVE TRYING CLOTHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE PARTIES I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE EVERYONE! HAHAHAHAHAHAH
(yaryar. dith reli mad le. LoL)
FINALLY GOT MY DYE, COLOR RECOMMENDED BY AHMA HERSELF!
hope it's NICE yeah? if not i KILL you! i scalp you!!!!!!!!!!
WAHAHHAHAHA
GOSH
i AM LIKE ON HYPERDRIVE NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
BEEN SO LAME N CORNY SINCE AFTER THE CHEENA PAPER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHA
CHINESE DOES WEIRD THINGS TO DITH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*mentally raped by the cheena paper*
wahahahhahahfWaHAHahahahah...........
kk. it's 1am.
night ppl!
hmm.
mUaAKKKKKkkksXXxxxxxx!
=)))))))))))))))
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:09:00 AM
so bear with it! heh.
wUv dith~
muaks~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:40:00 PM
muaks
heading out now. blogger finally up and working. =)))))))
i'm happy today.
finished the chinese paper without dozing off. heh.
k.. here's my past day's entries that i haven't been able to post. ^^
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Afloat in Darkness
wanted to type up something that i remembered but somehow, blogger aint working today. grr.. lousy pos. hmms.. it now seems abit weird n unreal to mi now. heh. wat with it being at a funny time of night and all.. in the dark.. contrasting with the scene projected onto the screen.. LoL
last night during the matrix reloaded movie.. a dark round spot appeared on the screen. at first i thot it was a problem with the reel of film. den my fren pointed out to mi that dere was a balloon floating upupup that that disrupting the projection. LoL~ a white balloon.. one of those free ones that they were giving out at the entrance of plaza sing last night.. yep. it finally bobbed up all the way to the ceiling so everything was peachy..
...and den there were two.
i guess it needed company.. cos another balloon soon followed the same path and drifted upwards across the movie screen.. everyone was like 'awwww man'.. LoL.. and then it floated to the top where the other balloon was. o.0;
nothing much after that.. but den the movie graduated into the sex scene between neo and trinity. LolS~
the balloons once again started their antics.. dark ovalish patches on neo's naked body.. across his face.. his lips.. across trinity's body.. moving with passion against neo's.. LoL! the sex scene turned into some comedy.. bleargh.. and then i think morpheous was talking.. and the ballon drifted up his face and hovered at his nostrils.. -_-; cinema was in stitches.. whahahahas... X)
finally they stopped dancing around the screen and returned to the safety of the ceiling.
balloons freaked mi out yesternight. i dunno if anyone's mentioned this.. but.. i thot that balloons are scary? not in the sense that they can just POP with a BANG or sth.. yup, i'm also afraid of that.. LoL~ but.. there was something about the way they drifted last night..
the 2nd time the balloons bobbed down from the ceiling (i dunno how come they kept going up den coming down again.. EEeee) they moved in a random pattern across and around the cinema.. they seemed to be floated midway between the screen.. and then getting bigger and bigger. i finally realised they were FLOATING towards mi. visions of a floating head invaded my mind. EEK. DAMN SCARY. floating floating towards mi.. menacing white balloon in the dark cinema.... eEee..
and den it slowly floated back and up again.
this happened quite alot of times.. until one floated so low, and so close, that someone stood up and grabbed it down. the cinema actually clapped for him.. and he waved like some star.. lol.. (methinks of the scene where neo was welcomed as if he were a god in zion..) wahs..
when the other balloon bobbed down solitarily, another guy grabbed it by its string.. (one seat away from me.. in front. EEK) and then there was peace..
but.. i think u guys shouldave been dere to witness this. altho it was damn funny.. it was also damn distracting.. yet DAMN SCARY. yes. balloons are scary. and this was during the MATRIX.. my fren remarked.. what if this had happened during JU-ON? EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
erm. weirdness. i still believe that the balloons were possessed. crikey! >_<
(dith.. dun think so much about it. -_- u'll only end up freaking urself SOMEMORE! as usual.)
shoo shoo go off and study dith! SHOO!
kk guys.. tataZ~
wUv dith~ muaks
18.19pm sun june 8
Imbued Affinity
*sigh*
i wonder. is dar ok? he.... haix. giving mi cause for worry. and.. yet.. he's still concerned over the mental well-being of his jie. *shrug* sad souls gather on irc at night. some are explosive and voice out their anger or sadness.. some... are still and silent. broody. always denying that something's wrong. and there are those who don't show a damn thing. i... am more of the vocal type. i show when i am angry or sad or happy or whatnot. i dunno. i just like ppl to share what i'm feeling. it's mean i know. when u share pain or sadness. haix... influencing others to get into the kind of mood ur in too.. gah it sucks.
and....
i dislike guys who develop affections for gals like.. less den a week of meeting her. acting all despo. omg. shit. it's happening again. get outta my face.... i dun even belong to you. i'm quietly rejecting you. pls pls pls. move on. move. it's not ur fault that you like mi or wat. i know i'm mean. but i dun feel anything towards you. stop pushing it. stop. and.. u must realise that my character is liddat, and it will always be. it will. i have my own mind, my own freedom. i.... haix.
i reli dun understand myself anymore. telling ppl weird things, giving them weird thots. i.. i.. dunno myself anymore. i'm turning into a bitch. well. isn't that what i've wanted? isn't it?
spending.. overspending..
looks like i'm gonna join you soon.
mom is nagging over that. but i won't see a shrink cos we can't afford it. full stop. i guess that's the difference between you and mi. and i dun even know if you have access to my blog or not. oh well. =)
just got off the phone w jes. wanted mi to go clubbing w her on saturday. i.. reli want to. altho i can bluff my mom that i am going to a chalet (and that's pushing it already) but. coming home, stinking of fags and cheap liquor.. SHE'S NOT erm. smell-less(?) k. she aint stupid. haix.. so i guess i either gotta be creative about it, or just go out walking around the whole night. hmm. i wanna see the stars at mount faber! my fren told mi about that today. i'm sooooo jealous.
crapness. i hate how ppl overreact to trivial matters. imperfections are commonplace. excessive studying can even deem psychological help. ANYTHING IN EXCESS. but. only ppl see the 'negative' things as.. problem areas. like over-ircing, over-slacking, over-slping, this that this that thisthis thatthat. i give up. maybe i'll just start a new habit of overwashing my hands. sucks.
prediction for this month?
a sucky birthday.
and...
i hate how teachers misconstrue everything about me. it's good that they only see the image that i project to them, but it's bad also. in not understanding mi, they dunno the reasons for the many things i do. they dunno me. who in this world can honestly say that he/she knows mi very well? some only see my bad side. some only see my good side. some... see a side that is made up. either projected by me to impress or thru rumors and gossip.
surprisingly, mdm foo knows mi quite well. she said i'm kind and caring. (i am, to a certain extent)
she said that my character is hard n tough. ( i only act tough. i am not tough. =/)
and she keeps telling my mom i have an attitude problem. (mom's been hearing that for eons on end.)
i....
reli have nothing to say anymore.
i wish i could sit here and typetypetype endlessly until all my thots run out from my head and are drained. so i can get a good night's slp tonight. but i can't. i can't cos mom's nagging for mi to get off the comp. she wants mi to pass my chinese well.
'why do you waste $30 to retake ur chinese when ur not even putting in effort to do it well?'
don't 'why' mi. cos i also dunno. i dunno alot of the choices i make. i dunno anything anymore. sometimes i wish i could be a store dummy, a mannequin. silent, staring at passer-bys on the street...
maybe if i have prozac, i'll be happier?
but why rely on drugs for my happiness?
what can i do to fix my life?
in life there are alot of things i don't like. i'm a fussy bitch.
but when i'm nice i'm reli nice.
but
why am i nice?
i suck.
to those whom i should be nice to, i... hurt.
i intentionally hurt unintentionally.
and
i hate counselling.
don't counsel me.
i fucking hate it.
yet.
i think i fucking need it.
but....
i am made in the way that
if you tell me to do something, i won't. i fucking headstrong stubbornly WON'T.
i should be destroyed. =)
anyone selling bazookas? think i'll shoot myself to the moon and explode into millions of pieces.
on another note, i dun understand some ppl. why do they ask questions and then cover them up with reasons that seem so fake when i can see what they're hinting at? or perhaps it's only made to seem that way. cos alot of the things i say or do can be damn misleading also.
why do i lead some guys on?
ans: cos i am a despo bitch.
mom is nagging again. saying my addiction to irc is reli.. over the top. haix.
i...
i.........
lack determination.
i.............
lack discipline.
i..................
lack motivation.
i........................
lack.
in many areas.
*sad smile*
maybe i should lack life.
why do i like to hurt myself?
do i actually enjoy this?
what sorta person am i? what sorta fren am i? what sorta daughter am i?
back to the guys.
i...
i'm sorry if my reply hurt you today. but.... =\
and...
why did you ask something like that?
you expect me to believe that you were just bored?
why me?
i...
am
but
a
pathogen
i
am
harmful
to
one's
existance
so
please
hands
off
i
am
toXic
=')
1.09am ~ chinese exam in a few hours. kill me please. hang me.
rubbish existance
mom: all you ever write is rubbish. 'hehs. haha. lols. which boy.' it's ok if you finish everything before going to irc. i don't want you to repeat j2 again.
me: (thinking solemnly) i write rubbish cos i am rubbish. yes. and.. about irc, it's not as easy as it sounds. it's a more complex matter than you make it out to be.
*sad smile*
*wry grin*
going to slp now. i hope. doubt i can. everyone's feeling so.. blar.
don't condemn what you don't understand.
don't.
please.
-1.14am-
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:37:00 PM
fight scenes.. choreography damn zai loh. still amazes mi how they coordinate. fighting is like a dance. a violent dance of defence and offence. flying punches and kicks. not flaying all over, but calmly aligned..
concept good too. chim chim chimology. i likeeeee. =D wordy, but. somehow.. meaningful. mind games. i like.
and the movie overall.. good!!!!!!! =) neo rocks when he enters supersonic superman speed.. w00t!!!! :X
reached home 00.40am. blar. mom definitely peeved off. hahas.. after the stupid talk w teachers today. zZz... ev1 got home safely. and i ran to e mrt station. heh.
wore e top from 77th st for the first time today. rox0rs. =) i look slim in it. must dye hair. den can look chioo. hahas.. still deciding between garnia 100% and gatsby bleach. =/ both so.. tantalising for purchase..... blar!
met up w aaron before the movie for awhile. he was alone. and i was kinda bored w my friends.. so met him, walked around while he sipped on kopi from the upmarket kopitiam from the ground level.. den helped him pick out a card for his fren.. whose bdae is tml. =) happy 21st bdae whoever you are! heh. YOU ARE NOW OFFICIALLY AN ADULT. WE THUS REWARD YOU WITH INDEPENCE AND WE GENERALLY ACCEPT THAT YOU ARE MATURE ENOUGH TO WATCH R(A) FLIMS AND THE LIKE. muhahaha.
sleepy.............
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:31:00 AM
mom thinks audioslave ish noisy.. =/ but but.. dith thinks chris cornell ROX0RS!!!!!!!! w00t
mi in good mood now. wonder why...
same reason as last night. =))))))))))))))
tataZ ppl~ i WILL enjoy myself tonight~~~~!!!!!
*determined*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:08:00 PM
parent-teacher thing? bored outta my mind.
chinese one-to-one w mdm foo? acted throughout.
all in all? good.
cos nothing can take away e feeling of SATs from mi.
=D
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:53:00 PM
yesssssssssss. ^^
*content* (o^__^o)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:06:00 AM
=)
hope my first day of hols will be eventful, ya? and den i'll also draw up a study timetable
=D
w00t~ dat's about all..
night ppl! muaks
wUv dith~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:35:00 AM
who wan watch w mi? *despo for movies* :D~~~~~~~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:17:00 AM
dad came home today, called my name, and passed mi 2 50-dollar bills.
"dee-dith.. for you to spend.."
gawd. he spoke to mi. i was stunned. heart beating. yet i was smiling..... o.0;;;; awkward tho. ^^;;;;
=)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:51:00 PM
I don't know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation.
You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Mexico around the year 1825.
Your profession was that of a medic, surgeon or herbalist.
Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
You had the mind of a scientist, always seeking new explanations. Your environment often misunderstood you, but respected your knowledge.
The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
Magic is everywhere around you, even in the most usual, most ordinary situations. Your lesson is to understand this magic and to help other people to see it, too. You are a magician!
Do you remember now?
Past Life Analysis
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:46:00 PM
hmm. actually, it's quite true. after a gd slp (or power nap in sch) one's mood improves. blar.
i had a nap just now before phy lect. blar. was feeling so shit before dat.. haix.. can die sias. in so much crap trouble. haix haix haix.. was imagining myself hanging from the staircase area near the study area outside lt1.. spinning spinning around.. motionless legs swaying swaying... the noose tight around my reddened neck, my expression a crude grin and my left hand twisted into an expression of vulgarity. i would stay in sch until late at night; my bag containing a length of rope. i would hide away until night fell.. and then slowly ascend the steps.. stop in the middle, slowly tie my rope into a firm noose, loop it over the rail and loop the noose end around my neck. maybe even write stuff in blood along the corridor outside lt2.. mmm.. den sit on the rail, my legs dangling over in the cold silence. sitting dere.. until a wave of sleepyness catches mi, and in my moment of unconsciousness, i would topple over, in a half dream state, my neck snapping with a quick snap.. and it would all end.
they would find me in the morning. looking for me to scold mi, to taunt me. and they would find mi. dangling dere, the crooked grin on my face, middle finger directed at them.. a smirk that would follow them to their beds and haunt their dreams...... won;t it be great?
ahahhas.. rox0rs..
=P
parents gotta see chem teacher on sat. wtf. a bloody waste of time. #$#$#^#%#@@!. esp when i'm in this fucked up mood. i think i seriously need prozac for saturday. someone anyone... gimme! just ONE strong DOSE of PROZAC to tide mi thru.. or some other mind-numbing drug..... T_T
heh. cca soon.. can't wait! =)))))
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:55:00 PMMy results for the SelectSmart.com selector, What Kind Of Pokemon Are you?
#1 JIGGLYPUFF
#2 HAUNTER
#3 MEWTWO
#4 PIKACHU
#5 CHANSEY
#6 EEVEE
#7 MISSINGNO
#8 MEW
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:18:00 AM
You said its over
I said "that's ok
I wasn't in to you anyway"
I told you "lately
you irritate me your laugh is too loud
you're the last girl I'd look at
if you were in a crowd"
Could you tell?
I was lying and hiding the truth away
and what I really wanted to say
CHORUS:
is you are incredible you are amazing
you blow my mind one of a kind
I'm having a meltdown
you are incredible you are amazing
but sometimes telling the truth
is easier said than done,
"don't leave baby" -
now that's what I meant to say
"My worlds not ending I'll be just fine"
That's what my mouth said
but not what I felt inside
I told you "baby,
your not the answer to all of my prayers
cos I like my girlfriends in short skirts with longer hair"
could you tell?
I was lying and hiding the truth away
and what I really wanted to say
CHORUS
Well I said I didn't care about what you felt about me
couldn't care less about what I said or done
I didn't mean it - its not what I meant to say
you know the truth is that I care
about what you think about me
maybe too much, I've been puttin' on a front
I didn't mean it - and what I meant to say
is you are incredible you are amazing
you blow my mind one of a kind
I'm having a meltdown
you are incredible you are amazing
but sometimes telling the truth
is easier said than done, yeah yeah
telling the truth is easier said than done.
Can't you see
telling the truth is easier said than done.
"Don't leave baby" now that's what I meant to say
sounds like myself. blar.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:02:00 AM
and damn.
why do i feel used again.
this might spoil a friendship.
i fucking hate this?
sux.....
but den again, it's just me.
=/
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:00:00 AM
gAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaH.......................................
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:34:00 AM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:06:00 AM
JES IS HORRIBLE WHEN SHE IS DRUNK!
hmm.. just got home, bathed, chatted w mi mom, etc.. blar..... now i'm online.. (fei hua)
it was fun, i'll admit, and i know it was, cos yes, i thoroughly enjoyed myself. but after every feeling of high wears away, you feel tired, worn.. contemplative, n this makes u depressed.. jes was right. it's my turn... blar! but not for long! XD won't waste time brooding over useless shit la.. wu liao....
hungryyyy........
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:36:00 AM
i'm flattened by the SATs. oh bleargh.
SAT I Test Completed
Math 680 91%
Verbal 580 73%
sux sux sux.
i feel so....... blar.
someone.. SIT on me.
oh, and gp sucked today. compre was rather tough. uncharacteristic of the school. GIMME SOMETHING EASY SO I CAN SCORE WITH MY EYES CLOSED CAN ANOT? =/
*dies*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:56:00 PM
well-wishers
ayeeee..
sorry i didn't wake up till 5pm.. hahahaha.. whahahaha..
thankies manyi, joyce, yujing, shuting, leah, liyun, owl, mark, alwyn, cher, jianhua, jz, my mom's fren jeanie, auntie aggie...
ahh..
thankies to my mom and sis and jes and aunt for all e bdae pressies and e treats.. lol.. it's all going to my stomach.. o.o;
fat faaaaaaat! LoL
thanks ahma anne, seniorZ chuin, master lex, mike aka beefie, angeline, mu darling!!!!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:48:00 PM
on the road to recovery?
aha. i'm feeling MUCH better now! thanks to one and all! thanks to jes for going out w mi today and thanks for e early bdae gifts and the hugssssssss. lol.
thanks to kelvin for that FIRST bdae sms! wahaha.. win liao. first siaaaaaa. hehehe..
thanks to decade fren yuzhong for the second sms!!!!!!!! love yaaaaaaaa. hahaha..
thanks to weiquan for that third sms! what a surprise man! =)))) money ar? will treat ya to lunch if ya wan. :P
thanks to my mom (yes. mom.) for that fourth sms! hahahas....... where's e bubbly.. =/ u said u would pop e bubbly.. aye. tml den? =D
thanks to jessie for standing by me and for that fifth sms + pic msg!!!!!!! aieeeeeeeee. so cuteeeeeeeee ne ne. x)
thanks to darrrr diiiiiii for that sixth sms! i din know u knew my bdae! :X hehehehe..... muaksssssss.
and thanks to all e well wishers on irc!!!!!!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
lemme think.
nig, bren, turtle, yuanie, aaron, zesin, roy, drew, alex, moumou, shangyong, etc etc!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. you guys rockkkkk!
hehehehe........
hope tml will be an ok day. =))
oh ya. sizzler's is so DAMN filling. gah. lol.
tataZ~
wUv dith ^-^*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:02:00 AM
w h y.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:56:00 AM
wHY
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:56:00 AM
..why
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:56:00 AM
why.....
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:56:00 AM
why?
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:56:00 AM
why.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:56:00 AM
[00:57] Chia> wau lau flaw, u so fat and ugly still always kaopei so much in ajc main. You think u very popular is it.Kan na sai. So many ppl in school see you they run ah. Go look yourself in the mirror lah, bua pai sei
[00:57] * Chia has left #ajc
[00:58] * jAs0n^ has left #ajc
[00:58] * sToNeCraB is now known as dr3a`
[00:58] f|aW\burn> haHAHahahah
[00:58] uh-oh> wau lau flaw, u so fat and ugly still always kaopei so much in ajc main. You think u very popular is it.Kan na sai. So many ppl in school see you they run ah. Go look yourself in the mirror lah, bua pai sei..go sweep the FLOOR lar!
[00:58] f|aW\burn> admirer sia
[00:58] * uh-oh has left #ajc
....
oh well.
should i comment?
should i say anything.
first off, they are cowards. leaving after saying that load of shit.
secondly. i will not comment further.
Session Start: Sat Jun 28 01:02:39 2003
Session Ident: #17/02
[01:02] * Now talking in #17/02
[01:02] * Topic is 'tok please'
[01:02] * Set by valens on Sat Jun 28 00:49:51
[01:02] f|aW> ..
[01:02] bRo0klYn> damn shit...
[01:02] * uh-oh has left #17/02
[01:02] f|aW> and who is that?
[01:02] f|aW> my own classmate
[01:03] f|aW> wow.
[01:03] f|aW> WOW.
[01:03] f|aW> thanks a LOT
[01:03] f|aW> coward i say
[01:03] * ^LpPl^ has joined #17/02
[01:03] f|aW> COWARDICE
[01:03] f|aW> if u have something u wanna say
[01:03] f|aW> SAY IT TO MY FACE
[01:03] f|aW> =)
[01:03] ^LpPl^> yucks
[01:04] f|aW> have a nice night.
[01:04] * You were kicked by valens (f|aW)
[01:04] * Attempting to rejoin channel #17/02
[01:04] * Rejoined channel #17/02
[01:04] * Topic is 'tok please'
[01:04] * Set by valens on Sat Jun 28 00:49:51
Session Close: Sat Jun 28 01:04:11 2003
come to think of it, i WILL comment.
guess what, MY CLASSMATES SAID THAT.
WELL. THANKS A LOT.
my VERY own CLASSMATES.
ISN'T THAT HEADLINING NEWS?
wonders will never cease.
thank GOODNESS i only have 4 more FUCKING months more in SHITTIFIED AJC.
GO TO HELL AND BURN THERE ALL OF YOU.
I'M SO DISAPPOINTED IN YOU PEOPLE.
REALLY, I AM.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:06:00 AM
playing by ear
haix. did i mention i was so frustrated just now when i woke up? mom immediately started firing a barrage of nagging and question and orders at me. and in my half awake mood, i get pissed easily. wanted to tear my hair out, kick something, kill someone. but thank goodness i didn't. instead i passively ranted my frustrations out on irc. as usual. changed my nick, my away, etc. blar. oh well. tml's gonna be a really messy day. hectic. confusing. alot of running around and screwy. guess i just gotta play it by ear. what will be shall be. the clock never stops its ticking for the likes of us mere mortals anyway.
yeah. hopefully i'll get to meet some friends after my party and their kohaku. -if- they will be going. i miss them. yes i really do. although it hasn't been long. only a few weeks, and i miss them already. but i always say this. i miss them so bad yet when i actually see them i react differently. wtf is wrong with me... haix. i'm beginning to wonder what is wrong and so right about this world we live in. what does humanity mean.. and thus forth.
ah well. going to sizzler's tml for pre bdae lunch, meeting merv to pass him a cd, meeting jes to go orchard n zouk, and perhaps later meeting friends. and then perhaps on sunday, feel my health completely screw up totally. blar.
let's hope i survive the entire ordeal. after hell on mon to thurs, at least i will get to rest on fri sat sun. or at least, chiong my tutorials and stuff. fuck.... and then the real hell will commence.
holidays are merely an interlude to sheer torture.
i feel like writing another song or poem. but inspiration has left me a long time ago. and i have yet to meet my muse. haix. hopefully things will work out tomorrow.. hopefully. play it by ear, wish and hope, serendipity, chance, coincidence, luck. haix.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:36:00 PM
getting older...
it's my bdae very very soon. about a day's time. as i near eighteen.. life is getting shorter. makes me wonder what the hell i'm doing with it now. oh well.
just talked to dearie pj online just now. argh. i so wanna go out n have fun now. not necessarily parties and stuff, but just walking around, hanging, talking.. maybe some solace and hugs would be nice too. haix.
no no i'm not sad. just in a contemplative mood. i'm at peace now.. feel like i'm carelessly drifting. and i find, that people actually look up to me.. or ask for advice. i feel appreciated. isn't the feeling of being appreciated wonderful? like you do something for a person and that person replies with a smile, or a thank you.. something to just make you feel appreciated. shows that effort is not going to waste.
haix. i shouldn't keep chatting on e phone at wee hours. it's screwing up my health. haix.. i know it's not their faults, it's mine too for being so obliging. why oh why am i always so obliging? WHY. haix. i guess it's good and bad also. everything is good and bad. haix.
seems tomorrow there's kohaku going on in e cosplay world. alot of things have been going on there as of late. can't say i'm very bothered or affected. simply because i'm not involved in such things. i just roughly know the people and chat to them on occasion. nowadays it's all just a brief hello or whatnot. most of them, that is.
i can't go, going to zouk with jes for machi thingy. i dunno if my body can take it. most thing is, it'll screw up come monday. haix. and then i'll miss one week of bloody exam torture. *touches wood* i can't. if i do people are gonna be disappointed and and... haix. i might just....... blow.
aren't i supposed to be in my happy mood now? the 'push everything aside' and 'just pretend everything's ok' mood? ah well. i dunno. should i leave some people alone? am i bothering them too much? seems whenever i have hols i live a different life. still anchored by school because i'm constantly reminded of it, but i have a different life out there. i -live-. argh... haix................. i wonder how i will be like without school? will i become totally insanely MAD and OUT OF CONTROL? going out every single damn day? outright, outgoing, etc? i dunno... i might turn into a big buayee.... hai.
aiyah. disturbed by irc.....
hopefully i'll enjoy my bdae...... aka the last day of hols.
hopefully i get what i want.
and i only want a few specific things.
sometimes i really dunno what i mean to those who matter.
haix.
will try to sleep early today.
tataZ~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:26:00 PM
you know, i put in my real full name and it came out like this:
Magic Number 16
Job Celebrity Nobody
Personality Unfulfilled Dreamer
Temperament A Yo-Yo
Sexual Straight
Likely To Win The Lottery
Me - In A Word Unique
Colour White
i put in my fren's name and i got this:
Magic Number 23
Job Serial Killer
Personality Drifter
Temperament If I Lose It - Run
Sexual Gay
Likely To Win The World Cup
Me - In A Word Effervescent
Colour Black
and another fren's name:
Magic Number 13
Job Porn Star
Personality Slacker
Temperament Steely
Sexual Just Say No
Likely To Win A Duel With Pistols
Me - In A Word Effervescent
Colour Orange
Yet another one...
Magic Number 4
Job Singer
Personality Multiple
Temperament Steely
Sexual If I Have To
Likely To Win The Lottery
Me - In A Word Dull
Colour Purple
..could i conclude then that it's rather true?
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:57:00 PM
...
i..
have been thinking.
but a lot of my thoughts have somehow dispersed into my surroundings and into nothing.
let's just say that my head is a messy void. if that's possible.
i think i'm going mad.
well. madder than i already am, in that case.
so many things i wanna flush outta my system now but i can't.
why?
dunno.
was pondering over some things.
people love to regret.
they like to look back and think:
what if i did something else? would it be better?
what if i -had- done this? would the situation have been any different?
what if i hadn't done this? what if i could have done this but i didn't?
why why why?
do not regret.
what's done is done.
over.
what more can you do?
travel faster than the speed of light to somehow go back in time?
even so, that might not end up turning back time, but simply making it much slower than it is.
it will pass over faster if you are happy.
i try to be happy now.
i am trying.
make jokes out of shit.
try to laugh when people are crying. not laugh at them or laugh crudely of cos.
i mean, don't they say that laughter's the best medicine?
arh. i dunno.
i have no idea what i'm doing now either.
what do i want? am i trying too hard? is it a futile effort?
plus.
exams are coming.
ugh. i am like only 10% there.
someone. ready the slaughterhouse.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:49:00 PM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:46:00 PM
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...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:44:00 PM
non-existant mugging
ah. long time since i've typed some (non)sense here. wahahha.. someone commented that it's beginning to be some sort of lyrics page. oh sorrrry. =P too bad if ya missed me. heheh
might be going out tml! yay yay yay!
my heart holds nothing but joy! :X
well, more or less. whahaha... nothing much has happened, i'm still e same me, altho slightly more hardworking. and i emphasize. SLIGHTLY. =)
trying to change my outlook on life. wahaha. cos now at least there's something for me to hold on to. actually, for quite a long time. but. =))
hmm. discovered this band, dishwalla. they rockkkkk. i think i might buy their album opaline. yeahhhh.
my bdae's coming up. i'm gonna be legal! yAH. but anyway, what's e pt? lol. it's all gonna be e same anyway. hahaha.. can't say i'm strictly law-abiding. =)
ah well. dun feel like updating ya guys.
tataZ and take care~!
wUv dith
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:40:00 PM
Dishwalla - Angels Or Devils
this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside
I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time
the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see
still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time
the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us
if I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one
that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:04:00 AM
Kelly Clarkson - Miss Independent
(Verse 1)
Miss independent
Miss self-sufficient
Miss keep your distance, mmmm
Miss unafraid
Miss out of my way
Miss don't let a man interfere, no
Miss on her own
Miss almost grown
Miss never let a man help her off her throne
So, by keeping her heart protected
She'll never, ever feel rejected
Little miss apprehensive
Said ooh, she fell in love
(Chorus)
What is this feeling taking over?
Thinking no one could open the door
Surprise, it's time, to feel what's real
What happened to miss independent's no longer need to be defensive?
Goodbye, old you, when love, is true
(Verse 2)
Misguided heart
Miss play it smart
Miss if you wanna use that line, you better not start, no
But she miscalculated
She didn't wanna end up jaded
And this miss decided not to miss out on true love
So, by changing a misconception
She went in a new direction
And found inside, she felt a connection
She fell in love
(Chorus)
What is this feeling taking over?
Thinking no one could open the door
Surprise, it's time, to feel what's real
What happened to miss independent's no longer need to be defensive?
Goodbye, old you, when love, is true (when love, is true)
(Bridge)
When miss independent walked away
No time for love that came her way
She looked in the mirror and thought today
What happened to miss no longer afraid?
It took some time for her to see
How beautiful love could truly be
No more talk of why can't that be me
I'm so glad I've finally seen
(Chorus)
What is this feeling taking over?
Thinking no one could open the door
Surprise, it's time, to feel what's real
What happened to miss independent's no longer need to be defensive?
Goodbye, old you, when love, is true (when love, is true)
Miss independent
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:02:00 PM
Michelle Branch - Are You Happy Now
Now, don't just walk away
Pretending everything's ok
And you don't care about me
And I know there's just no use
When all your lies become your truth and I don't care... yeah, yeah, yeah
Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you're happy now, ohhh, ohhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
You took all there was to take,
And left me with an empty plate
And you don't care about it, yeah.
And I have given up this game
I'm leaving you with all the blame cause I don't care, yeah, yeah yeah,
Could you look me in the eye?
And tell me that you're happy now, oohh oohhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now? Ohhh, ohhhh
Are you happy now?
Do you have everything you want?
You could never give something you aint got
You can't run away from yourself
Could you look me in the eye?
and tell me that you`re happy now, oohh oohhh
come on tell it to my face or have i been erased,
are you happy now? Ohhh, ohhhh
are you happy now?
Would you look me in the eye?
Could you look me in the eye?
I've had that all I can take
And I'm about to break
Cause I'm happy now, ohhh, ohhh
Are you happy now?
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:51:00 PM
Jewel - Intuition
I'm just a simple girl
In a high tech digital world
I really try to understand
All the powers that rule this land
They say Miss J's big butt is boss
Kate Moss can't find a job
In a world of post modern fad
What was good now is bad
It's not hard to understand
Just follow this simple plan
Follow your heart
Your intuition
It will lead you in the right direction
Let go of your mind
Your Intuition
It's easy to find
Just follow your heart baby
You look at me
but you're not quite sure
Am I it or could you get more?
You learn cool from magazines
You learn love from Charlie Sheen
If you want me let me know
I promise I won't say no
[CHORUS REPEAT]
You got something that you want me to sell
Sell your sin. Just cash in.
You got something that you want me to tell
You'll love me. Wait and see.
If you want me
Don't play games
I promise
it won't be in vain
Uh-uh-uh
[CHORUS]
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:44:00 PM
the downsides of swapping handphones
so what if i cuss
so what if i swear
so what.
just passed my old handphone to my mom.. and den sis decides to check what words i have in my dictionary by testing words. she found e word 'fuck' in dere, i guess. suddenly announced: "jie, din know you so vulgar. blarblarblar.. wah ma~ din know she so vulgar leh.. orh hor.. tsk tsk"
aiyah. vulgar den vulgar la. none of yer fucking business also.
fuck, after all, is a multipurpose commonplace word. so fuck off if ya dun like it.
hey, i'm 18. i'm bound to cuss. you too. dun act like ur so pure n innocent ok.
wat's e big deal man.
tell mom also no use.
as long as i dun cuss at home can le, what fucking more do you want.
stupid younger sis.
always seemingly trying to control me.
foad.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:27:00 PM
eh.
is food chem included in e midyr?
if so, which parts?
>_<~
ionic eqm leh?
>.<;
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:07:00 AM
Somewhere Out There - Our Lady Peace
Last time I talked to you,
you were lonely and out of place.
You were looking down on me,
lost out in space.
Laid underneath the stars,
strung out and feeling brave.
Watch the riddles glow,
watch them float away.
Down here in the atmosphere,
garbage and city lights,
you gotta save your tired soul,
you gotta save our lives.
Turn on the radio,
to find you on sattellite,
I'm waiting for the sky to fall,
I'm waiting for a sign.
All we are is all so far.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
Hope you remember me,
when you're homesick and need a change.
I miss your purple hair,
I miss the way you taste.
I know you'll come back someday,
on a bed of nails awake.
I'm praying that you don't burn out,
or fade away.
All we are is all so far
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there, oh.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity....
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me.
Well I know,
I know.
You're falling out of reach.
I know...
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:14:00 PM
the non-existant trip up to fort canning
just thot i would continue this entry right now.
i know i know. it's like 8.48am in the fucking morning
and
the weather's so DARN nice!
the cooling rain that we ALL adore and LOVE to sleep in!
arghhh
pulling our blankets to our chins
snoring in bed to sweet dreams
as the rain drizzles past...
doing a fren a favour. woke up at 6am.. but somehow.. i decided to argh.. nvm.. i shall zZz.. ended up going online to check it only at 7.30+.. blar. i so suck. but HEY! he got mi outta bed THIS early
and
i'm still up! omg
this is a miracle!~ if it were sat or sun it would be more of one tho
right now it's mon morn.
monday's suck. blarrrrrrrrr.
hmm.
yeah~ mugging!!!!
damnn. dar started before mi. but his are nearer anyway..
at least.. at least..
with ppl mugging around mi..
i'll be driven or at least.. slightly pushed.. to mug myself too!
even jes is pushing mi to mug..
she says she'll even mug with mi outside.. haix.. still haven't found the best way or method of mugging.... chem phy maths gp.... chinese can go rot in cheena hell! =X wahahahah.....
gawd. the things some ppl do.
listening to carrie chong on p10 right now via my phone.. goodness! this guy actually is trying to make his way across dunno-fucking-where by CRAWLING. and.. he's all bleeding.... wtf. hmm. nick carter's song right now....? i fell asleep to this last night.. and left the radio on. -_-;
last night went somewhat crazy. i burned like 3 cds.. 2 mine.. one for jes. =)
grrr.... steph steph steph! i still can't get it! wahaha.. *sigh* if only camp could irc or whatnot.. h-eeeey~ teach mi maths! =X
9am already.
the hour doesn't feel so.. unnatural.
oh oh. meandering from title.
this is in referral to saturday's gravi outing.. and i went. oh well. had nothing better to do anyway. and and.. met up with ojisan's drawing gang halfway thru too! ye-saaahhh! adel went! yay! it's been awhile since i've seen her.. pity my anata bt wasn't dere.. *sigh* altho he aint my 'real' lover.. but. he's cuteeee. =X so it's cool. wahahhahaha.. he kinda looks like my fren from pri 1 tho.. *grins*
oh oh!
kuroineko is cool!
blackcat blackcat blackcat! 2nd time seeing him. never reli talked to him.. he's.. kinda.. elevated? cos he's like.. reli tall. whoa. and.. he's dressed in black. looks like a stately cat. oops. X)
*hops around*
oh oh oh! i dragged kelvin from his well (aka hmv's listening station) to kino's usual gc outing.. wahahaha.. *glares at kelvin* tSK. not say u dunno them loh. hahhaa.. *fwap!*
hmm. chatting to mike aka beef on irc now. gawd. early riser. but it's cos of his neighbour's drilling. blar.
kk. back to topic.
was late arriving at dhoby gaut (aiyah! i'm always like that... >_<) so met them at ps .. *sms comes in*
ah! 1627 informing mi that the new plan has been put into effect!
*big grin*
does it mean, that.. my gprs will also come?
den nig can send mi the pic of his dog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....
oops. meandering, meandering.
typical gravi outing i would say, alot of stoning, waiting around, and looking for lost ppl most of e time. bleargh.
serendipity. =D
i had a relatively warm welcome when i arrived.. i'm blind without my specs.. so walked around blurly looking for a group of young bored ppl.. lol. found them in the corner. dar and xiaodi waved to mi~ wahahaha.. both in black. perhaps i should dub them my official bodyguards.. since i always stay out until so late. *grin* *drags jl and dl around w her*
usual ppl were dere.. snow, his gf, kula, jl.. even asa, sw kor (yeah! of 2 days! =X).. salad! wahahahaha... *evil grin*
at least e ppl i wanted to see were there. i'm weird like that. if the ppl i wanna see dun go, i won't go. *snide grin*
do ur deduction, do ur deduction. LoL~
it's not diff to deduce anyway. i shall let everything be transparent. fWahahahAHah.. aiyah. nothing going on anyway, so what's dere to hide anyway? bleargh.
wahahahaha..
[09:19] LameKilla> ?
[09:19] LameKilla> HGMM
[09:19] LameKilla> BEEF is up early
[09:19] BeEfStEaK> well, if i'm extemly bored, i pcc... burns tgime real fast
[09:20] BeEfStEaK> :D
[09:20] LameKilla> ..
[09:20] BeEfStEaK> morning vamp
[09:20] LameKilla> ur sick
[09:20] LameKilla> hi
[09:20] BeEfStEaK> i noe.. :D
[09:20] LameKilla> muz as well u go eat breakfast with flaw
[09:20] BeEfStEaK> learned it frm sendoh
[09:21] BeEfStEaK> nah.. she stay too far
[09:21] BeEfStEaK> she at north, i at east nia
[09:22] LameKilla> lol
[09:22] LameKilla> i oso east
[09:22] BeEfStEaK> u maggot mah
[09:22] f|aW> O_O
[09:22] BeEfStEaK> nvm.. she going out with her bf 2day
[09:22] f|aW> pcc too much
[09:22] BeEfStEaK> K�K�
[09:22] f|aW> ur dick will drop off
[09:22] f|aW> ;)
[09:22] f|aW> my bf?
[09:23] f|aW> dun have one
[09:23] f|aW> LOL
[09:23] BeEfStEaK> i noe.. i screw it back so many times liao
[09:23] BeEfStEaK> XD
[09:23] f|aW> altho kinokunya always says thisthisthis and whowhowho is my bf
[09:23] f|aW> wahahahahhaha
[09:23] f|aW> so dat day i was like: -_- *puts arms around him* ojisannnnnnn :X
[09:23] BeEfStEaK> flaw cfm got bf de.. she shy onli
[09:23] f|aW> dun have de
[09:23] f|aW> LoL
[09:23] f|aW> single and available
[09:23] BeEfStEaK> dun bluff :P
[09:23] f|aW> wahahha
[09:23] f|aW> reli.
[09:24] f|aW> who's my bf loh?
[09:24] f|aW> hai.
[09:24] BeEfStEaK> how i noe?
[09:24] BeEfStEaK> u nv say mah
[09:24] BeEfStEaK> ｶｦﾞ
[09:24] f|aW> i dun have dat's y i nvr say
[09:24] f|aW> wahahaha
[09:24] BeEfStEaK> so, if u have, u say meh? *showoff*
[09:24] BeEfStEaK> K�K�
[09:24] f|aW> looking for one tho
[09:24] f|aW> :P
[09:24] f|aW> if i have, will mention sometimes ;)
wahaha. aiyah.
oh. so was at food court waiting for more ppl to arrive and waiting for the ppl dere to eat....
chatted with jl and dar.. abit the separated leh initially.. wahahha.. guys table gals table. *blinks* since when was gravi liddat? LoL
jl was cosplaying! i think? he brought his rave sword.. he found rave! i only noticed that when leah came later and proclaimed he did! heh. now his 'exprosion' is complete. *grins*
jia hui also came!~ oOo.. aw jia hui =X (hope she doesn't read this. XD)
twas already 2 or 3pm by the time everything was settled.. and the sun was predictably scorching.. and i wanted to hop to gc to kajiao ojisan! and dar wanted to meet his frens dere and catch e jrock cosplay and e bands.. so we hopped on a bus..
ojisan wasn't at gc. i later learnt he went to cine to eat with them. -_-;;; nvm.. saw zer0 e bishie!!!!! yep. true bishie. =X that's just as good! wahahaha.... hung around abit.. went to see the jrock thingy.. (erm. cheena-rock? *pukes*) first band zai! played two songs i knew! and one song i liked but haven't heard before! wahahahah
*grins*
guess who i ran into? wilson aka d4igo and wendy!!!!!!! wenwen~ wahahaha.. =))))))))
*hops around*
started raining when the 2nd band came onstage tho. blargh. the guy singer's voice was rain-inducing. i think it was just the clouds puking. *wink*
ergh. made my music loud enuf to drown out my mom's voice. but seriously, i can still hear her voice! #%#$%&$&*
irritating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think i'll go deaf. -_-;
so. it was raining. went back to the sheltered safety of heeren with wen and her fren. heh. guess who i bumped into? ojisan and gang!!!!! bengbeng!!!!!!!!~~``` wahahahaha.. he was called 'so cute!' by erm.. another forum person who was conducting some drawing session at kino later.. heh.
they went to gc... wahaha. adel!!! i think she came down from sch. she was wearing her sr uni.
hung, chatted, listened to beng's cd that ojisan burned for him. wahahhaha
'i tell you, she kicked my dog! she fucking kicked it!' <-- indian accent
dunno wtf it was about also.. some weird dialogue....... -_-;
anywayyy.. yeah~ got kelvin to come up, den we headed over to kino~ hmm.. walked around listening to beng's cd.. him too.. so was having quite a hard time.. being 'attached' is hard, ya? *grin*
somehow ended up in youthopia.. den went back to heeren..... -_- walking in circles?
just in time to meet the rest to head to suntec....
hai. i hate angering ppl or making them wait or being a burden. *long sigh*
negative feelings aplenty. feeling depressed, pissed, pathetic, useless.. etc etc....... failure! >_<
haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
#%&$^^*$^*$#$#$@#$#%#%$*%(%()%^()
mom
@$#^#&#&$&$#@$#^#$&*$*&$%&*$%%&$
nagging.
@$#$^#%&$&*$*%
said i was on e comp until reli late last night
and i'm on so early right now
dad woke up, saw mi online
when he was sleeping, i was last online.
gahhhhhhh i suck.
anywaaay. leah and master were dere.. rayn mei also! songwen kor~ wahaha
made our way to suntec. they wanted to eat. so stopped by somewhere to eat. (forgot the name of that place.. the one with the basement bk outlet.. in front of somerset mrt station) lex's hp died, so he got lost. hai. leah tried looking for him, but she couldn't find him. >_<
stoned dere while they ate. chatted to leah about some stuff... philosophical, analytical, cynical.. blar. told you, wasn't in a good mood den. -_-; was kinda sick and depressed. wonder if anyone cared. blar. even if they did. i din feel like they did. *sigh* esp those that mattered most.
took a bus to suntec. SOMEHOW, saw lex walking up the bridge to suntec when we alighted. *blinks* O_O;
dar ran up after him, leah also.. i couldn't.. my shoes not made for running.. lol..
whoa... talk about coincidential.
turns out he walked dere. =D timing soooooooo zhunnnnnnnnn boh! X)
haix. gotta turn off comp. @#$#$^#^$&^
maybe continue lata.
title: and the adventure continues into the night.. at sky garden... *hush falls over crowd* <-- ne?
XD
tataZ~ i neeeeed breakfast!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:29:00 AM
blogger!
unscrew urself!
i command you!
i demand of you!
my word is law!
cos
i am your master!
*sighs*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:06:00 PM
'chok'
today.. was fathers' day.
and.. this time i tagged along with the family for porridge at chinatown..
family outing.....
and it's not chinese new year or a wedding or a funeral (choy! touchwood!)
hmmmm....
did loads of stuff today. walked around alot.. bought alot.. probably spent alot too..
was rather evil towards the chinese culture..
(racial discrimination? at least i'm chinese.. or i woulda ended up being punched black and blue by all the lao pek pek.. fwah)
they're building a hotel 81.. i poked my sis and *winkwinknudgenudge* asked her to go dere with mi.. wahaha
she was like 'bian tai!' *starts to brisk walk*
i felt like a kid today.
everything feels great and looks great when ur feeling like a kid.
child-like.
wonderful.
shiny and new.
unaware.
children are explorers.
i read a passage in my SAT test.. it was about this writer, an 'accidental explorer' cos he always seems to get himself lost (like mi, NSD. no sense of direction.) and thus begins his adventure. like a child lost in a department store.. *mind wanders*
porridge.. was.. porridge.
i heard from my sis that the stall that's sorta become like the one we loyally frequent was featured on yummy king.
as far as i can remember, i've been going to that stall time and time again with my folks.. i think even before my sis was born.. whoa.
piping hot porridge.. fish slices cooking in the sheer heat right at the bottom.. (when i dug them up, dey were initially raw-ish)
they ordered red-sweet potato balls too.. chinese cruellers (spelling?) aka yew cha kuey.. some tapioca thingy (quite dry, i din like).. yu sheng.. (raw fish with seseme seed oil, sauce and various condiments like chilli and spring onion and garlic..)
had traditional coffeeshop tea with evaporated milk. (teh-si)
damn filling.
made our way to yu hwa (aka 'the cheena shop')
wahahahahahahhahaahhahahahahahahahhaha
oh man. i feel sooooooo bad for (in mi n my sis' words:) 'defaming' the stuff dere.
wahahahah
but it was soooooooooooooo fun!
and we got a kick outta doing that!
*evil grin*
our first observation: the chinese eat glands. loads of glands and weird stuff. like gooey snot. (pandan paste)
second observation: oOo.. so cheEena! wahah.. we were looking at everything and pointing, declaring: 'cheena!'
heh~
reli damn gross some stuff dere. EeEEEEEWww.
esp the glands.
the chinese are weird ppl. (yes! mi included! LoL! i am defaming myself! *grins*)
dried flying squirrel, dried sea horse, dried testicles (reli? *blink* mom say one. LoL)
dried fish eyeballs, dried fish maw (bladder. EWWWwwww. but fish maw soup's not bad reli.. *blinks* if you DUN think SO much about it when you drink it, dat is... *blinks somemore*)
dried deer antlers, dried deer's tail.. dried worms (EEEEWWWWWWW! mom said she cooked it for us before! YUCKS! >_<)
whoa man. time and era trip man. whoaaa..
but. i liked the japanese carp (did i get that correct?) swimming in the sorta pool.. mmm. nice. was standing dere staring at them.. picking out each fish's characteristic.. just watching fish swim has a calming effect.... dunno y.. LoL
one was pure white. one was weally weally BIG. one kept swimming backwards and drifting. one kept 'speeding'.. wahahhaah.. din know fish were so interesting! i wan i wan fishiesssssss
(i used to have them last time.. LoL they died cos of my irresponsibility. :X)
tetra tetra tetra!~
i think we went to og for shopping shopping shopping!
i bought a skirt (my mom and sis said it matched or rather, brought out the color of my hair. o.0;;;)
rather short. sandy black. lol...
and a top.. sleeveless. (eew. i think i look fat. >_< well, what else can i look? LoL)
my sis also bought stuff.. haha..
den we went to eat again....
dessert/snack consisted of offerings of the local food fare.
popiah, ice jelly/almond jelly/cheng teng..
den we went to jurong.. imm...
on the way, dad stopped by to buy 4d..
den somemore shopping at imm... mom went to cut her hair... qb~ lol..
so mi n sis went to giodano to look at jeans.. black black!
but..
material was too thick..
made me look like a fat slob again.. and chunky! eeEww...
lol
went to Giant.. jeans at 9.90?
wah. cheap cheap. (no wonder singaporeans are renowned worldwide for their bird-like noises.)
got myself a pair.
wahahahahahahha..
sis was uneasy about getting hiphuggers tho. LoL
hey~ it's the norm now.. bleargh.
oh well....
went to eat again.
(?!?!)
no la.. 5 or 6 pm liao...
i left the house around 10am.. ahahha...
aiyah.
*no mood to blog*
ate at Han's. mom's suggestion. she said their standard improved over the years.
walked around lvl 2 looking for it.
found it on lvl 3.. (yes, it's on lvl 3.. -_-)
had fish and chips.. (was falling aslp.. zZz..)
sis had grilled fish.. dad had chix chop.. mom had the chicken thigh thingy.
sis treated dad. LoL..
yay~
den i was erm. playing with my food?
(told you i felt childish. wahhahaha. oh shit. 18th bdae coming soon and i can't grow up. *sigh*)
cut my honeydew slice in a v funny manner..
lol lol lol....
no shame no shame from this gal
wahhaha..
somemore.. my nose was dripping.
on off on off.
leaky faucet. fawwwcet.
den we went to Dasio (issit?)
that 2 dollar shop....
whoa man.
it's bigger than i expected.
loadsa shit selling.
AND
it's japanese!
yay!
got light sticks.. hahahah
w00t!
MACHI AT ZOUK ON THE 28th!!!!!!!!
hope i can get in. :X
wahahahahahhahahahahahahhahaha
2 tix!!!!!!!!!!!!!
for mi n my gf!!!! =X
(jes, that is.)
wahahahahhaa. fWaH. phwoarrrrrrrr man
must chionggggggg
andrewwwwwwwwwww! so kaWaii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and he raps DAMN WELL K.
dat's how i convinced my mom to let mi go also. heh.
cos she was also darn impressed by his rapping on mtv chinese when she happened to go channel surfing one afternoon..
and we both stoned in front of the tv.. going.. aWw... WHOA
yay yay yay
can't waiit! prelude to my bdae, perhaps? =X
i'm nearly complete.......
all i lack is a better study attitude.. and.... *winkwink*
yUp.
at least dad was happy today.
wahahahha
damn happy to boot.
LoL
*secret smile*
; )
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arrgghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
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just...
kill me.
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buffy and spike making out.. phwoar.... looks damn good tho. w00t~!
michelle branch was guest starring.. so proud of her.
you go gal!
sang Goodbye to You.. i think giles had to leave for britain.
and mom remarked that willow looked so old in e scene where she was crying.
knew michelle briefly. but she's a nice gal. yup.
so i'm glad she's reaping credit for what she's doing now.
cos she reli worked hard for it. and she deserves it.
hell yea she does!
going out tml to celebrate aunt's 74th bdae. =))))
haven't seen her in eons..
oh ya. i'm blogging in this manner (ie: alot of times i hit the [enter] button)
cos of the shit thing that killed the layout of my blog.
but i think a few entries more, and e problem area will be eradicated.. from main, anyways..
wonder who reads my archives tho...
oh gross.
and i can't bring myself to delete them. wtf.....
COS ALL THAT I'VE WRITTEN IS GOLD!
the writings of dith~
=)))))
must be treasured.
muahahahahahahahahaha
going out early tml.
night ppl~~~~~~~
wUv dith
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=/
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...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:26:00 PM
my gecko's perched on my thigh now.. looking at what's below e keyboard... looking at the floor...
oEi dun look up my skirt! o.0; hmm.
LoL~
so cute ok... i love geckos... this one's full of beans... feels like sand tho.. not sure...
today in sch everyone remarked my hair was so brown. >_<
and to think yest i was complaining it wasn't obvious enuf..
biangx....
ppl giving mi curious looks....
brown haired gal in sch uni.... look so guai but.. omg her hair...
erm.
well.
somemore i let down my hair also. too lazy to tie. color confirmed obvious lohs.... esp in the light...
haix. why do this to mi. y y y.
are u only joking? or serious?
i thot i made it clear to you?
yet.........
told sw about it today cos he called mi.
he was laughing......
to some extent, yes, it's funny.... but.
but.
ur not e one involved.
i won't think about it. =)
thot about it before, a long time ago.
and i've long made my decision no matter what happens.
*grin*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:21:00 PM
Pretty Intelligent Gal
hmm. eating baktchang now.. or chinese meat dumplings..
these are so cute..and small.. lols.. and so tasty!
gawd i'm such a pEEg ok! eating 5.. darn.
poor ahma.. she's feeling ill. lol... readied e bucket yet, ahma dear? =P
heh. i'm eviL.
chiong free flow lohhh. see wat u get. bleargh.
lun ar.. y u nvr ensure that ah ma won't go drink like a crazed woman? blAr.
hmm. *sigh*
oh wells..... was late for maths lect again today. heng i nvr wait THAT long for jes.. if not no need go le. -_-;
first time eating at teppanyaki bishan fj today. w00t! niceeeeeeee
oishii.........
had sliced beef. mMmMmmmm....
only regret was that e rice wasn't e special sticky japanese short grain (they use short grain right? *blur*) rice n that my chopsticks snapped. blar.
theng yiu today suddenly went quiet.. so weird.
normally he's always chittering n so chatty.... hmm.
anw.. i asked him whr he was going after bishan.. he said amk lib.. jes was going dere but i couldn't find her liao..
y feel extra loh.. =/
all my classmates asking mi where were you leh.....
hmm.
anw he wanted to return lib books.. since see him so sad, i volunteered to help him la.. cos on e way for mi..
i walk home from tpy mrt.. always pass by e lib...
manyee, yanhao n chyekiat somehow walked off.. i think they walked her home....
so in e end i went w thengyiu to mrt.. den he passed mi his 4 chimchim chinese books...
yup.
small favour la....
but lata he smsed: "Thank you!"
that's nice....
makes mi feel appreciated.
wonder if i should watch ju-on w dem lata..
i scared leh.
but they keep asking mi.
should i just go cower in e cinema n waste my $6.50?
*contemplates* =\
might meet ahma lata for erm.. snackeroos.... LoL
KR or C&C anyone????????!
w00t~
hmm.
yup. i'll come clean. i went to milieu last night too.
not bad la. kinda got dragged into it...
ediot lun.. pangseh mi.... chiong free flow.... grrrrrrrrr.
altho i managed to down like, 7 drinks....
got e tix at $20.. james' had connections.... =)))))
lun reli bez loh. $5 left for e entire week. i think he'll shrivel up n die. blar.
how to survive loh????? -_- all this for free flow? bleargh.
haix.
my new fave drink: tequilla-7
issit tequilla w 7-up?
tastes interesting. like a tang of vanilla kinda.... mmm.....
i had like...
hmm. drank evthing cept for vodka. so sick of vodka......
rum is good.. but how to have rum n raisin?
*stares at ahma*
they plonk a scoop of raisins inside?
or add ribena?
-_-;;;;;
i think i would have gotten a weird stare....
music sucked.
boat quay better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =P
hurhur jes darling~~~~`
we go on sat!
=X
cant wait!
*grins*
oh. n i bluffed my mom i went meridian to play pool. badbadgal.
DITH YOU DIRTY FIBBER
erm. k. right.
heh~~~~~``
she believed mi. but i can't pull e wool over her eyes anymore la.
she said she dowan mi go play 'pool' dere anymore. =/
smelled like crap smoke. AGAIN! i always come home smelling like a damnnnnn F A G.
BLAR.
oh well.
so crowded e dance floor.
HOW TO DANCE?
sux...........................
kim n char frenching. gawd.
and char asked mi a v stupid qn last night.
bleargh.
womder if anne did anything that she din tell mi? =X
i'll go find out. muahahahahaha
oh. was on e blower w anne just now while she felt like blowing chunks. LoL
oh.
hapi bdae weiting! enjoy ur bdae ger! =))))))))))
tml going out to celebrate aunt's bdae.....
hmm.
^^
kk. i go talk to anne now. she so poor thing. gonna break e guinness book of world records for oral expulsion of digested food liao.. X)
....whoops anne~ =X
tataZ~
wUv dith
*oink*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:36:00 PM
soulmate
today i was thinking about my soulmate.
who would he be? or she be?
not necessarily my life-time partner in that sense right?
perhaps i've found him.
today was thinking about him.
i miss him.
i know there was this connection the first time we met.
i can't explain it.
but no.
it's not bgr.
it's more complex than that.
and
i
think
the feeling's mutual.
although there's some bits of him i do not particularly like.
*sigh*
no one's perfect in this world.
..but he said i was.
isn't that the most amazing thing?
*sigh~~~~~*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:36:00 PM
heading out reeaaaal soon.
hopefully it'll put me in a better mood.
blogs are evil.
gahhhhhhh.
i wish i had never stumbled upon it.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:34:00 PM
calendar just collapsed.
my days are over.
literally.
blar.
i swear.
omens that are foreboding are scary.
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there's a brick wall of awkwardness between us.
reli dunno wat to say liao.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:54:00 PM
i...
shouldn't be...
prying into...
other people's matters...
just
because
i am...
a jealous or curious or *beep* bitch.
i shouldn't even be reading it.
oh well.
help.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:27:00 PM
annoying blogger!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate seeing my bloggie screwed. haix.....
.
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.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
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| The haxor handle of dith is "Term1nal Ghoul". |
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:56:00 PM
wtf.
nvm nvm.
proves that e33 will forever be screwed =D
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:10:00 AM
again, i'm DAMN HAPPY TODAY!
maybe it's cos i had booze and i'm all slpy n high right now.. w00t~ kewl combi. had e33 n fcuk cranberry + grapefruit.. wahhaha... e33 sux hor, ah ma? EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE POWER OF 33!!!!! :X
Eｳｳ
wahahhaa~ i So roX0rS! AH MA AH MA! MINE NICER! WAHAHAHHAHAHAHA~```
anyway ah ma. ENJOY MILIEU KAESSSSSSSSssssssss~ dance like the SIAOKIA YOU ARE! HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! IJ GALS ROCK! WE ARE SIAO KIAS!!!!!!!!! AND... to all the L-O-S-E-R-S OUT THERE, MUAHAHAHAHAH FWAHHHHhhhhhh! hahahas :X
i'm mad i'm mad i'm MaAAAAAAAAaaaad!!!!!!!! too much sugar in my damn body. FUCKkkkkkk. hahaha
shopping todays was a BLAST! BOUGHT SO MANY THINGS! WONDERFUL! I LOVE SALES I LOVE APPAREL I LOVE FOOTWEAR!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVEEEEEE DISCOUNTS! I LOVE TRYING CLOTHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE PARTIES I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE EVERYONE! HAHAHAHAHAHAH
(yaryar. dith reli mad le. LoL)
FINALLY GOT MY DYE, COLOR RECOMMENDED BY AHMA HERSELF!
hope it's NICE yeah? if not i KILL you! i scalp you!!!!!!!!!!
WAHAHHAHAHA
GOSH
i AM LIKE ON HYPERDRIVE NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
BEEN SO LAME N CORNY SINCE AFTER THE CHEENA PAPER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHA
CHINESE DOES WEIRD THINGS TO DITH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*mentally raped by the cheena paper*
wahahahhahahfWaHAHahahahah...........
kk. it's 1am.
night ppl!
hmm.
mUaAKKKKKkkksXXxxxxxx!
=)))))))))))))))
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:09:00 AM
gah. something's wrong with the layout of my page after i pasted my worthless crap from notepad. no time to rectify it now.. sis wants to use the comp, and i.. am going out soon. =))))))))
so bear with it! heh.
wUv dith~
muaks~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:40:00 PM
continue to make me proud k?
muaks
heading out now. blogger finally up and working. =)))))))
i'm happy today.
finished the chinese paper without dozing off. heh.
k.. here's my past day's entries that i haven't been able to post. ^^
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Afloat in Darkness
wanted to type up something that i remembered but somehow, blogger aint working today. grr.. lousy pos. hmms.. it now seems abit weird n unreal to mi now. heh. wat with it being at a funny time of night and all.. in the dark.. contrasting with the scene projected onto the screen.. LoL
last night during the matrix reloaded movie.. a dark round spot appeared on the screen. at first i thot it was a problem with the reel of film. den my fren pointed out to mi that dere was a balloon floating upupup that that disrupting the projection. LoL~ a white balloon.. one of those free ones that they were giving out at the entrance of plaza sing last night.. yep. it finally bobbed up all the way to the ceiling so everything was peachy..
...and den there were two.
i guess it needed company.. cos another balloon soon followed the same path and drifted upwards across the movie screen.. everyone was like 'awwww man'.. LoL.. and then it floated to the top where the other balloon was. o.0;
nothing much after that.. but den the movie graduated into the sex scene between neo and trinity. LolS~
the balloons once again started their antics.. dark ovalish patches on neo's naked body.. across his face.. his lips.. across trinity's body.. moving with passion against neo's.. LoL! the sex scene turned into some comedy.. bleargh.. and then i think morpheous was talking.. and the ballon drifted up his face and hovered at his nostrils.. -_-; cinema was in stitches.. whahahahas... X)
finally they stopped dancing around the screen and returned to the safety of the ceiling.
balloons freaked mi out yesternight. i dunno if anyone's mentioned this.. but.. i thot that balloons are scary? not in the sense that they can just POP with a BANG or sth.. yup, i'm also afraid of that.. LoL~ but.. there was something about the way they drifted last night..
the 2nd time the balloons bobbed down from the ceiling (i dunno how come they kept going up den coming down again.. EEeee) they moved in a random pattern across and around the cinema.. they seemed to be floated midway between the screen.. and then getting bigger and bigger. i finally realised they were FLOATING towards mi. visions of a floating head invaded my mind. EEK. DAMN SCARY. floating floating towards mi.. menacing white balloon in the dark cinema.... eEee..
and den it slowly floated back and up again.
this happened quite alot of times.. until one floated so low, and so close, that someone stood up and grabbed it down. the cinema actually clapped for him.. and he waved like some star.. lol.. (methinks of the scene where neo was welcomed as if he were a god in zion..) wahs..
when the other balloon bobbed down solitarily, another guy grabbed it by its string.. (one seat away from me.. in front. EEK) and then there was peace..
but.. i think u guys shouldave been dere to witness this. altho it was damn funny.. it was also damn distracting.. yet DAMN SCARY. yes. balloons are scary. and this was during the MATRIX.. my fren remarked.. what if this had happened during JU-ON? EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
erm. weirdness. i still believe that the balloons were possessed. crikey! >_<
(dith.. dun think so much about it. -_- u'll only end up freaking urself SOMEMORE! as usual.)
shoo shoo go off and study dith! SHOO!
kk guys.. tataZ~
wUv dith~ muaks
18.19pm sun june 8
Imbued Affinity
*sigh*
i wonder. is dar ok? he.... haix. giving mi cause for worry. and.. yet.. he's still concerned over the mental well-being of his jie. *shrug* sad souls gather on irc at night. some are explosive and voice out their anger or sadness.. some... are still and silent. broody. always denying that something's wrong. and there are those who don't show a damn thing. i... am more of the vocal type. i show when i am angry or sad or happy or whatnot. i dunno. i just like ppl to share what i'm feeling. it's mean i know. when u share pain or sadness. haix... influencing others to get into the kind of mood ur in too.. gah it sucks.
and....
i dislike guys who develop affections for gals like.. less den a week of meeting her. acting all despo. omg. shit. it's happening again. get outta my face.... i dun even belong to you. i'm quietly rejecting you. pls pls pls. move on. move. it's not ur fault that you like mi or wat. i know i'm mean. but i dun feel anything towards you. stop pushing it. stop. and.. u must realise that my character is liddat, and it will always be. it will. i have my own mind, my own freedom. i.... haix.
i reli dun understand myself anymore. telling ppl weird things, giving them weird thots. i.. i.. dunno myself anymore. i'm turning into a bitch. well. isn't that what i've wanted? isn't it?
spending.. overspending..
looks like i'm gonna join you soon.
mom is nagging over that. but i won't see a shrink cos we can't afford it. full stop. i guess that's the difference between you and mi. and i dun even know if you have access to my blog or not. oh well. =)
just got off the phone w jes. wanted mi to go clubbing w her on saturday. i.. reli want to. altho i can bluff my mom that i am going to a chalet (and that's pushing it already) but. coming home, stinking of fags and cheap liquor.. SHE'S NOT erm. smell-less(?) k. she aint stupid. haix.. so i guess i either gotta be creative about it, or just go out walking around the whole night. hmm. i wanna see the stars at mount faber! my fren told mi about that today. i'm sooooo jealous.
crapness. i hate how ppl overreact to trivial matters. imperfections are commonplace. excessive studying can even deem psychological help. ANYTHING IN EXCESS. but. only ppl see the 'negative' things as.. problem areas. like over-ircing, over-slacking, over-slping, this that this that thisthis thatthat. i give up. maybe i'll just start a new habit of overwashing my hands. sucks.
prediction for this month?
a sucky birthday.
and...
i hate how teachers misconstrue everything about me. it's good that they only see the image that i project to them, but it's bad also. in not understanding mi, they dunno the reasons for the many things i do. they dunno me. who in this world can honestly say that he/she knows mi very well? some only see my bad side. some only see my good side. some... see a side that is made up. either projected by me to impress or thru rumors and gossip.
surprisingly, mdm foo knows mi quite well. she said i'm kind and caring. (i am, to a certain extent)
she said that my character is hard n tough. ( i only act tough. i am not tough. =/)
and she keeps telling my mom i have an attitude problem. (mom's been hearing that for eons on end.)
i....
reli have nothing to say anymore.
i wish i could sit here and typetypetype endlessly until all my thots run out from my head and are drained. so i can get a good night's slp tonight. but i can't. i can't cos mom's nagging for mi to get off the comp. she wants mi to pass my chinese well.
'why do you waste $30 to retake ur chinese when ur not even putting in effort to do it well?'
don't 'why' mi. cos i also dunno. i dunno alot of the choices i make. i dunno anything anymore. sometimes i wish i could be a store dummy, a mannequin. silent, staring at passer-bys on the street...
maybe if i have prozac, i'll be happier?
but why rely on drugs for my happiness?
what can i do to fix my life?
in life there are alot of things i don't like. i'm a fussy bitch.
but when i'm nice i'm reli nice.
but
why am i nice?
i suck.
to those whom i should be nice to, i... hurt.
i intentionally hurt unintentionally.
and
i hate counselling.
don't counsel me.
i fucking hate it.
yet.
i think i fucking need it.
but....
i am made in the way that
if you tell me to do something, i won't. i fucking headstrong stubbornly WON'T.
i should be destroyed. =)
anyone selling bazookas? think i'll shoot myself to the moon and explode into millions of pieces.
on another note, i dun understand some ppl. why do they ask questions and then cover them up with reasons that seem so fake when i can see what they're hinting at? or perhaps it's only made to seem that way. cos alot of the things i say or do can be damn misleading also.
why do i lead some guys on?
ans: cos i am a despo bitch.
mom is nagging again. saying my addiction to irc is reli.. over the top. haix.
i...
i.........
lack determination.
i.............
lack discipline.
i..................
lack motivation.
i........................
lack.
in many areas.
*sad smile*
maybe i should lack life.
why do i like to hurt myself?
do i actually enjoy this?
what sorta person am i? what sorta fren am i? what sorta daughter am i?
back to the guys.
i...
i'm sorry if my reply hurt you today. but.... =\
and...
why did you ask something like that?
you expect me to believe that you were just bored?
why me?
i...
am
but
a
pathogen
i
am
harmful
to
one's
existance
so
please
hands
off
i
am
toXic
=')
1.09am ~ chinese exam in a few hours. kill me please. hang me.
rubbish existance
mom: all you ever write is rubbish. 'hehs. haha. lols. which boy.' it's ok if you finish everything before going to irc. i don't want you to repeat j2 again.
me: (thinking solemnly) i write rubbish cos i am rubbish. yes. and.. about irc, it's not as easy as it sounds. it's a more complex matter than you make it out to be.
*sad smile*
*wry grin*
going to slp now. i hope. doubt i can. everyone's feeling so.. blar.
don't condemn what you don't understand.
don't.
please.
-1.14am-
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:37:00 PM
matrix reloaded was gooooooooood.
fight scenes.. choreography damn zai loh. still amazes mi how they coordinate. fighting is like a dance. a violent dance of defence and offence. flying punches and kicks. not flaying all over, but calmly aligned..
concept good too. chim chim chimology. i likeeeee. =D wordy, but. somehow.. meaningful. mind games. i like.
and the movie overall.. good!!!!!!! =) neo rocks when he enters supersonic superman speed.. w00t!!!! :X
reached home 00.40am. blar. mom definitely peeved off. hahas.. after the stupid talk w teachers today. zZz... ev1 got home safely. and i ran to e mrt station. heh.
wore e top from 77th st for the first time today. rox0rs. =) i look slim in it. must dye hair. den can look chioo. hahas.. still deciding between garnia 100% and gatsby bleach. =/ both so.. tantalising for purchase..... blar!
met up w aaron before the movie for awhile. he was alone. and i was kinda bored w my friends.. so met him, walked around while he sipped on kopi from the upmarket kopitiam from the ground level.. den helped him pick out a card for his fren.. whose bdae is tml. =) happy 21st bdae whoever you are! heh. YOU ARE NOW OFFICIALLY AN ADULT. WE THUS REWARD YOU WITH INDEPENCE AND WE GENERALLY ACCEPT THAT YOU ARE MATURE ENOUGH TO WATCH R(A) FLIMS AND THE LIKE. muhahaha.
sleepy.............
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:31:00 AM
going for movie soon! w00t!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mom thinks audioslave ish noisy.. =/ but but.. dith thinks chris cornell ROX0RS!!!!!!!! w00t
mi in good mood now. wonder why...
same reason as last night. =))))))))))))))
tataZ ppl~ i WILL enjoy myself tonight~~~~!!!!!
*determined*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:08:00 PM
SATs? enjoyed it. =D
parent-teacher thing? bored outta my mind.
chinese one-to-one w mdm foo? acted throughout.
all in all? good.
cos nothing can take away e feeling of SATs from mi.
=D
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:53:00 PM
...happy? =)
yesssssssssss. ^^
*content* (o^__^o)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:06:00 AM
tml SATs.. wish mi luck.. and parent-teacher special apptment with chem teacher n mdm foo.. wish mi luck too.. erm.. ya.. den maybe watching movie in the evening or wat.. den maybe going out whole night *hopes*
=)
hope my first day of hols will be eventful, ya? and den i'll also draw up a study timetable
=D
w00t~ dat's about all..
night ppl! muaks
wUv dith~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:35:00 AM
movies to watch during the hols:
- Matrix: Reloaded (yes, i HAVEN'T watched this yet.. any takers? =/)
- Bruce Almighty (fWaH! i NEEEEED)
- Phonebooth (w00t! looks kewl!~)
- Max (ahhhhh! HITLER-SAMA! :X)
- Finding Nemo (normally i wun go for this type.. but it looks kewl~ ahahas.. and cynical. =P)
- How to Lose A Guy in 10 Days (hmm.. interesting? heh)
- The Hulk (OOOOOOOOoooooooooo YESSSSSSS! I HAVE TO WATCH THIS! SOOOOOO BAD IT HURTS! w00t!!)
- Terminator 3 (yup! c1's treating! can't miss it! and the female cyborg is oh so damn chio n cool! w00t! euro-japanese! =D~)
who wan watch w mi? *despo for movies* :D~~~~~~~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:17:00 AM
whoa.....
dad came home today, called my name, and passed mi 2 50-dollar bills.
"dee-dith.. for you to spend.."
gawd. he spoke to mi. i was stunned. heart beating. yet i was smiling..... o.0;;;; awkward tho. ^^;;;;
=)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:51:00 PM
Your past life diagnosis:
I don't know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation.
You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Mexico around the year 1825.
Your profession was that of a medic, surgeon or herbalist.
Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
You had the mind of a scientist, always seeking new explanations. Your environment often misunderstood you, but respected your knowledge.
The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
Magic is everywhere around you, even in the most usual, most ordinary situations. Your lesson is to understand this magic and to help other people to see it, too. You are a magician!
Do you remember now?
Past Life Analysis
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:46:00 PM
suicidal thoughts
hmm. actually, it's quite true. after a gd slp (or power nap in sch) one's mood improves. blar.
i had a nap just now before phy lect. blar. was feeling so shit before dat.. haix.. can die sias. in so much crap trouble. haix haix haix.. was imagining myself hanging from the staircase area near the study area outside lt1.. spinning spinning around.. motionless legs swaying swaying... the noose tight around my reddened neck, my expression a crude grin and my left hand twisted into an expression of vulgarity. i would stay in sch until late at night; my bag containing a length of rope. i would hide away until night fell.. and then slowly ascend the steps.. stop in the middle, slowly tie my rope into a firm noose, loop it over the rail and loop the noose end around my neck. maybe even write stuff in blood along the corridor outside lt2.. mmm.. den sit on the rail, my legs dangling over in the cold silence. sitting dere.. until a wave of sleepyness catches mi, and in my moment of unconsciousness, i would topple over, in a half dream state, my neck snapping with a quick snap.. and it would all end.
they would find me in the morning. looking for me to scold mi, to taunt me. and they would find mi. dangling dere, the crooked grin on my face, middle finger directed at them.. a smirk that would follow them to their beds and haunt their dreams...... won;t it be great?
ahahhas.. rox0rs..
=P
parents gotta see chem teacher on sat. wtf. a bloody waste of time. #$#$#^#%#@@!. esp when i'm in this fucked up mood. i think i seriously need prozac for saturday. someone anyone... gimme! just ONE strong DOSE of PROZAC to tide mi thru.. or some other mind-numbing drug..... T_T
heh. cca soon.. can't wait! =)))))
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:55:00 PM
#1 JIGGLYPUFF
#2 HAUNTER
#3 MEWTWO
#4 PIKACHU
#5 CHANSEY
#6 EEVEE
#7 MISSINGNO
#8 MEW
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:18:00 AM
Darius "Incredible (what I meant to say)"
You said its over
I said "that's ok
I wasn't in to you anyway"
I told you "lately
you irritate me your laugh is too loud
you're the last girl I'd look at
if you were in a crowd"
Could you tell?
I was lying and hiding the truth away
and what I really wanted to say
CHORUS:
is you are incredible you are amazing
you blow my mind one of a kind
I'm having a meltdown
you are incredible you are amazing
but sometimes telling the truth
is easier said than done,
"don't leave baby" -
now that's what I meant to say
"My worlds not ending I'll be just fine"
That's what my mouth said
but not what I felt inside
I told you "baby,
your not the answer to all of my prayers
cos I like my girlfriends in short skirts with longer hair"
could you tell?
I was lying and hiding the truth away
and what I really wanted to say
CHORUS
Well I said I didn't care about what you felt about me
couldn't care less about what I said or done
I didn't mean it - its not what I meant to say
you know the truth is that I care
about what you think about me
maybe too much, I've been puttin' on a front
I didn't mean it - and what I meant to say
is you are incredible you are amazing
you blow my mind one of a kind
I'm having a meltdown
you are incredible you are amazing
but sometimes telling the truth
is easier said than done, yeah yeah
telling the truth is easier said than done.
Can't you see
telling the truth is easier said than done.
"Don't leave baby" now that's what I meant to say
sounds like myself. blar.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:02:00 AM
gawd. i can't believe wat i'm doing.
and damn.
why do i feel used again.
this might spoil a friendship.
i fucking hate this?
sux.....
but den again, it's just me.
=/
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:00:00 AM
i hate myself for feeling this way. i reli reli do.
gAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaH.......................................
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:34:00 AM
blogspot sux... wat happened to my template?
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:06:00 AM
hmm.. first things first..
JES IS HORRIBLE WHEN SHE IS DRUNK!
hmm.. just got home, bathed, chatted w mi mom, etc.. blar..... now i'm online.. (fei hua)
it was fun, i'll admit, and i know it was, cos yes, i thoroughly enjoyed myself. but after every feeling of high wears away, you feel tired, worn.. contemplative, n this makes u depressed.. jes was right. it's my turn... blar! but not for long! XD won't waste time brooding over useless shit la.. wu liao....
hungryyyy........
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:36:00 AM
This is my blogchalk:
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`/.tagGiE~.\'
To Do List - JAN
.devote&resolve
.stevie
.jog
.plan for poison
To Do List - FEB
.3rd MUSE
.13th - 16th: HCNY
.jog
.work x3
.plan for poison
To Do List - OTHERS
.make pyong the fox for my sis (bought materials)
.clean my ps2 lens
.read more thought-provoking books
.start writing again (poetry/songs/prose)
.study philo/random theories/psychology
.study business theories
.tidy the place
.actually BUY a swimsuit
.learn how to swim
.bake
.design wall mural for room
.learn how to knit/crochet properly
.print my grad photos
HOSHII MONO
.ryokou
.phD/masters behavioural psychology
.BANANA.BANAO
.shiawase
.yasetai