Sunday, May 25, 2008

Forbidden Kingdom

3 Silly Monkey Boys out of 10

you know, i dunno why the hell they call this forbidden kingdom when it's more about journey to the west and wannabe angmo boy that somehow learns kungfu in the flash of an eye. and i always can't stand it when the heroes in a story ALWAYS seem to behave like dota heroes, where no matter how LOUSY they are or how NOOB, they can always kill the creeps or the peons. seriously. the jade army is so lousy? until they become nothing but easy kills for the newly initiated? like pawns. even in narnia, it's so easy to kill them? even in so many other shows. the bosses/heroes charge against a sea of hundreds and can easily take them down like flies until faced with another boss/hero. GOSH!!!!!!!

i know it works well into the mechanics of the story, and well-utilized in movies because it WORKS but HEY. it's lame. then again, who said that movies have to be realistic when all they need to do is fulfill the function of ENTERTAINING.

if you watched forbidden kingdom for chopsuey action, you've got it. choreography by yuen woo-ping is top notch of course. love the fight scenes, although you gotta IGNORE if they open their mouths to speak in ENGLISH. *shudders* the special effects and the qi powers are a bit hilarious to watch though.

(CAN'T WAIT FOR DRAGONBALL THE MOVIE OMG I WILL NEED A TRANQUILIZER)

jet li as a monkey is also priceless. it's so damn OOC it's almost cute. the cheeky way he laughs in the scenes on top of the mountain. but jackie chan does this IRRITATING old man voice and throughout most of the movie i COULDN'T UNDERSTAND what they were saying because they MUMBLE and enunciation isn't good. either that or they over-enunciate. OMG like the bai fa mo nu. her english omfg. so forced. loved the beginning when they spoke chinese, felt more natural. EVEN THE ANGMO BOY MUMBLES. wtf. I NEED ENGLISH SUBTITLES.

think jet li was the funniest in the movie.
monkey!
playing a practical joke by peeing on jackie chan. HAHA omfg. crude and OOC too.
one moment he is a poker faced monk. (typical of his standard characters played)
another moment he is this stupid joker. lol.

fucking typical and predictable narrative.
only parts worth mentioning were when the monk was revealed to be a copy of the MONKey HAHA omfg hilarious.

and beginning there was a reference to SPanking the monkey.
"Crouching Tiger, Spanking Monkey"
wtf!!!! injection of crude american humor into chinese culture -.-

overuse of chinese cliches, like reference to old kungfu movies.
some of the stuff they say that TRIES to SEEM profound is just a load of bullcrap.
it's a sentence about NOTHING. omfg.
CHEESY!!!!!
guy meets girl in past, she dies, he sees her in his own time.
OLD!!!!!!!!
young kid finds weird object in curio shop, he is the outcast, he becomes the seeker and is transported to another time.
OVERUSED PLOT DEVICE!!!!!
odd person not in his element does weird things.
TYPICAL OF A COMEDY!!!!
(if it was aiming to be a comedy. BECAUSE I WAS LAUGHING AND LAUGHING)

omfg.
brain BURNS!!!!!!!
next is speed racer.
wheeeee.
time to be blinded by the GAUDINESS of it all.
and i hate gaudy stuff.
BUT
the motion graphics are way cool.
will risk going blind to watch it.
if only to admire and say,
"HEY, IT LOOKS GROSS, IT SUCKS. I HATE HOW IT LOOKS. BUT AWESOME HOW THEY DID IT SO IT ROCKS"

hence, it sucks but it rocks.
okay?

and i really must sleep.
ahh~~ blogging is therapeutic.
by this month i need to pop two random surprises on two random people at LEAST.
LOVE REACTIONS.

make me feel powerful.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:15:00 AM

new randoms: 250508

*lift reaches floor*
*indian workers thought it's their floor and almost rush out*
*dith a bit shaken out of her stupor, gets inside*
*silence in lift*
*suddenly:*
Worker A: "today very hot, never bring umbrella ah?"
*silence*
dith: "huh? oh..."
dith: "no la, i like the sun XD"
Worker B: "yeah the sun is good"
*silence until the lift reaches the ground floor*

random conversations in the lift. dunno why random people like to suddenly talk to me. even the weird malay caterer guy who suddenly called out to me "makan already?" when i walked past. omgomgomgomg zzz
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random happening #2:
very gross when in the mrt on a hot day and it's crowded.
then some old man near you is 'airing his armpit' cos he is holding on to the handles that are high up. and you are standing near him.

AND YOU CAN FEEL THE HEAT RADIATING FROM HIS ARMPIT.

AND THE HEAT IS GOING TO YOUR FACE.

omg. gross.

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random happening #3:
today when i walked to the national museum, i decided to turn behind and i noticed an ERP gantry that said IN OPERATION. which brought back to mind the time when we were saying how we felt we had 'earned' if we had taken a bus past the erp gantry instead of driving so there's no charge. and then i added on to say it's even better if you walk under it right? but then your head might beep. and then mintz said, hers will beep continuously because of low value. ahahaha!

so today i walked past the gantry and my head didn't beep! rocks.

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random happening #4:
gigantic pink sculpture with small parts. ahem. but then again, they did say the ancient greeks ACTUALLY used their minds to think.

just felt it was SO RANDOM and SO PINK. (with some floral pattern to boot, omg)
AND young KIDS were snapping pictures of it with their parents.
LOL!!!!!!!!!!!

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random happening #5:
the Great SG Sale is now on.
happened to be in town on the first day.
grabbed a white shirt for convocation at $23 from topshop.
the only one in my size! half price.

and so funny, was talking to mu about "when you need something..."
seriously, when i need something, i can NEVER find it.
but so odd, i was thinking i need a white shirt and then SUDDENLY,
dorothy perkins sells a whole lot of them on offer.
topshop sells a whole slew of them on offer.
it's like you say one day, "I need _____!"
and then when you walk out of your house they appear everywhere xD
the next day you think, "I Need ______!"
and it happens again! (i wish) it's MAGIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anymore magical and the cockroaches and the lizards and the weevils in my house will start dancing like in that disney show about the princess and prince who got transported to the modern world.. was it Enchanted? haha! omg gross.

fuck i haven't done my japa homework.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:48:00 AM

shucks

i can feel i'm going into a slump.
no job offers, no job replies, no job full stop.
NO MONEY.
stressed.
and my sis needs to pay $500 deposit to NUS faculty of Sci.
gotta dig out the money~
from somewhere.

die, if this gets any worse, i'm just gonna be an odd job labourer.
nah, but i will most prob go look for any job.
but i am doing that now wad!
shucks.

and i'm not that picky! just gimme 2k and above.
hmm maybe i should settle for less,
go work in the internship company.
sigh.
but my heart won't be happy.
i will spend day 1 of work with a heavy heart.
cannot.

if my heart is not in the work,
nothing will be accomplished.

i need a change of scene.
i hate this feeling of being in perpetual purgatory.
it's like, wtf i've graduated.
SO, I SHOULD BE SLACKING RIGHT?
but i can't slack, because
STILL HAVE SCH STUFF TO DO.
it's like trying to sleep with a headache.
you wanna do something, you CAN do something.
but there's something HINDERING you.
can i just throw everything away and SLACK without things WEIGHING ON MY MIND.
it's like sometimes the burden i feel on my mouse when i CONTROL C
and i haven't CONTROL V'd yet.

wanna bang the wall.
slump slump.
what am i destined for?
where will my heart be happy?
when will it actually be happy?
walking zombie.
doing random weird things interspersed with responsibilities and worries.

i wanted to do the things i like.
i wanted to invest my free time properly.
but it's a neverending cycle.
feel so chained, so restrained, so heavy.

i have the keys to the iron cell, but not to the iron cuffs weighing my limbs down.
there is nothing nothing nothing.
i am absolutely somewhere yet i am not there.
The Gate of No-Gate.

i feel so internally frustrated almost all the time.
even when i sleep.
there's something SCREAMING into my dreams.
saying: THERE IS SOMETHING YOU NEED TO DO, YOU CANNOT SLEEP.

there is always something STUPID to do.
and today more news of narcissistic, egoistic, vain OLD MEN.
i hate you all.
i am not soft.
i agree i am too nice.
it's like a pillow harbouring SPIKES inside.
to protect others from the spikes, a pillow had to be put around them.
the spikes are angry.
the pillow is deteriorating.

argh.
soon soon... i am gonna explode and give someone attitude.
either that or internally collapse and become ditHERMIT for a few days.
while i find it in my heart to be nice again.
while i once again force the evil troll into its cell and muffle its rants with a pillow until it lies still; unmoving.

fuck.

feel so frustrated and directionless yet burdened.
would like to escape to somewhere alone.
and do something creative like write stuff, doodle, or just stare blankly.
can't even find the music in my heart to write songs.
damn anti social now.

must find some poor soul that i can destroy...
to transfer the happiness stolen to my own soul.
drink others' souls.
i need to cause misery to feel powerful again.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:27:00 AM

Saturday, May 24, 2008

the PR virus

gah!

it's so easy to smile sweetly and be nice to people,
EVEN WHEN YOU DON'T MEAN IT.

but life is ALL ABOUT PR-ING.
in this PR-Nation.
we are PR-ioritized by how well we PR.
the best way to act PR-ofessional.
and to PR-olong our career.
the PR-ognosis for the future don't look too swell.
where's your PR-ide people?
swallowed up to appear PR-esentably pleasant.
PR-esenting yourself PR-imly and PR-operly
even to those whom you PR-ofoundly dislike.
but PR-actice makes perfect.
in order to not seem like a PR-ick or a PR-ude,
we need to PR-etend!

and i realize i'm getting better at it.
wrote a nice letter to someone whom i don't like.
gonna do nice things for some people that kinda disgust me.
sometimes i'm too nice for my own good.
but that's good, i like having the reputation of being nice.

wonder if i should.
out of pity, out of spite?
out of the sheer goodness of my heart?
or to maintain the facade?
or to cause more intense hurt? XD
but it will hurt me too (my pocket).
i feel like being nice.
hmm.

anyway madness.
i'm still awake and i need to wake up early later.
post some stuff,
hand deliver some stuff,
then omg another trip to jb.
(MADNESS)
somemore they say wanna make Wed+Sat official jb movie days OMG.
hahahahaha. see how.

I NEED A JOBBA!

call me PLZX.
FINDING JOBBBBA!

gah!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:23:00 AM

Thursday, May 22, 2008

limits

ah.. sleepy. i wanted to blog about limits but looks like i have my limits too. sleepy sleepy. yet... somehow apt aint it?

crossed my mind today while thinking of stuff that have transpired.

how long can you keep at something before reaching the limit?
how far can you go before pushing the limit and eventually breaking it and perhaps crossing the line into dangerous territory?
when will you know you have reached the limit?

mmm. is there a limit to physical activity? of course, we will feel tired.
even for mental activity, tiredness will kick in the the brain will begin to feel like cottonwool.
things you can't control? desire? love? lust? urges? depression? hate? contempt? jealousy?
pushing the limit. number of hours without sleep? running a marathon? asking for something? efficiency calculations?

and what keeps us going? hope? a drive? what drive? from where? defiance? challenge? endorphins? masochism? egoism? determination? stubbornness?

can you really control the mind and its emotions?
like take for example, the liking for someone.
i believe i can.
some people can't.
i think it's all in the mind.
some people have said they've tried and they still can't.
perhaps, everyone is different?

but some people, i don't understand how and why.
i would love to analyse their minds and how they work.
7years odd and duh, obviously it's a lost cause.
but why!? still?
even when the signs are all negative and the temperature is sub zero.
bringing more pain to the self. we humans are masochistic.

maybe it's like how magnets work.
the easier it is to magnetize, the easier it is to demagnetize too and vice versa.
but no leh... there are exceptions to the rule.
and gender? does it play a part?
are females more susceptible to their emotions getting wrung about?
or are males actually the more vulnerable ones?
because the armour over their emotions is thick.
while females carry only a thin shield.
but then again, no leh!

how long can you be hung up over someone?
especially if that person has caused you emotional pain.
and it's pretty obvious he or she is not reciprocating.
i don't understand. so many things. of what i see.
if she's blowing hot and cold, why don't you just give up.
if she is a two-faced bugger, why don't you just give up.
and
if she doesn't really bother to contact you, why don't you just give up.

oh no, now i sense this is bordering into a rant.

at least it's not some pervert from friendster looking for a sex partner in addition to already having a girlfriend. *shudders* evil place, friendster is. hence i changed my location and gender and pictures and status for awhile. yes i am still staying in the same place. and will be for a long time because the location is quite good. very central. bright streets. and homely. dunno if i should have called the police or told his gf or would that be overreacting. but it was freaky.

argh sleepy.

and isn't it silly to expect birthday wishes on the stroke of midnight?
even if you're waiting for -someone- to wish you, you won't message that person you are expecting to sms you a bare 17 minutes after midnight to exclaim how you are feeling that nothing was received? eh. nonsense man. i mean it's sweet to message people on the stroke of midnight, but it's not a need. i agree waiting too long sucks also, especially if you dunno if the person remembered or not. i dunno if i should deem this as pathetic or overemotional or just sad or impatient. don't expect me to sms you at midnight. we. are. just. friends. although i do like to reap the benefits of car rides. but i don't like to rely on people too much because i don't like to owe people. and the first thing you said today was 'where's my present'. there's nothing for you because there's nothing. you're not on my mind when i go out, so there's nothing. and there's always this awkward silence! you like the silence is it? or do you hate it that's why you turn the radio up? dunno why there's nothing to say. and i'm being nice and giving you face by agreeing to have dinner with you and your friends. i would jokingly say that i'm doing the person a favor. but isn't it true? if you ask someone out and obviously that person is free but rejects you... the feeling of being avoided sucks. even if it's just a normal friend. so i usually won't reject people nor lie. because i'm too lazy to lie and cook up stories. and have to remember them in case i make an error in recounting of my lied story, right?

ugh... i can see a good person there but contradictory behavior.

then again, a few of my friends behave like assholes but i can see underneath they are good people. i play mmos not just to kill monsters nor do quests. not just to talk and interact with people. i also take it as an opportunity to analyse people and do comparisons between real life and online. through speech and little nuances, you can pick out many little things. and the discrepancies are so... entertaining. especially if someone decides to act OOC. lmao!

and the weird number that called me and also called my groupmate is bugging me.
because i called back today and it was either engaged, or no one picked up.
but i managed to get it ringing just after i heard it was engaged. so odd.
suspect it was just ringing off the hook or call-waiting to the extreme.

nehmind. i will try again tomorrow. gah!

anyway, other then random disturbances that have been resolved;
or continuous disturbances that ought to have been resolved but aren't - background processes;
life is just the same~
time moves, and so do i.
i wake, i cabal, i eat, i sleep.
i go out with the same groups of friends, with family.
mundane...
but steady.
no job yet. =_=

got my card though... the membership card WITHOUT a laminated fly. ugh.
at least! and to think, this morning i was thinking they have forgotten about me.
*wails!* woe is me, i am never gonna receive a fly-less card! but i did. =D in the evening.
let things come as they will, move with the ebb and the flow, live for the day~ don't look back! except to learn~ or remember the nice things. keep your heart and your mind open~ live and breathe the world.

oh gosh now i sound like a teletubby.
or a barney.
only less gay... omg les-gay. geddit? wth so lame.

hot HOT night.
i can't sleep.
argh!!!!!
*does a domo-kun*
RawR!!!!!!
flap arms flap!

alright... seeing that i'm quite awake i will now go on to blog about my jb adventures~!

mad fred and his impulsiveness. we decided to meet up with a jb friend from game in where else but jb! but then i had to head to school to do some submission stuff too. so let's rewind to the night i went to mu's house.

i only wanted to stay for 2hours. BUT.
the temptation of the ps2 is difficult to refuse.
and so while helping me with my stuff (ari mu~ T_T once again) and waiting around, we went to play dyn warriors.
and even after stuff was done, and a few more "last round"s later, i decided, HECK IT. JUST PLAY! and thus another overnight session of ps2 when the next day we both have something on! omgggggggggggggggg.

and this was how i ended up not sleeping. @_@

went to school to do stuff, took longer than expected. but submitted! and i had a power nap on the way to school. for 5-10minutes. and that made me alert for the next 12hours -_- waw.

gosh i dread going back to school to gao dim the other stuffs. because it's only ME who can do it. wtffffff. i wanna be LAZY and hide in my SHELL. pl0X!

a terribly HOT and HUMID and SCORCHING day. melted on the way to jb because had to go a couple of randomized places in the hot sun before that. oh but the scanner at the immigration is FUN. omg that's the sweetest thing i played with that day. LOL. there are like 2 gantries. so basically you scan your passport. and then when the first gate opens, you are sandwiched between two. until you scan your thumb and are authorized to go through.

OH.
CAN I BACKTRACK FOR A BIT?
i promise i'll be quick.

while going to mu's house, i stupidly went to the wrong floor because i don't really bother with her block number. and her block number and floor are very close to each other. LOL. so i went to the wrong floor, thought it was good her door was open since i didn't need to ring doorbell. cause i also thought she was waiting for me. but then! i saw an old man, and a little girl. and i thought, eh? she has visitors? and since when is there a little girl in her house? i was going to approach the door when DINGGGGGGG. some lightbulb crackled to life in my head albeit dimly.

inches from the gate i was like OMGGGGGGG WRONG HOUSE WRONG FLOOR.
and i ducked back into the lift before i was seen. XD

GOSH.

another stupid thing i did, or rather had a stupid needless paranoid thought, was during the scanning of my passport. when they asked me to put my thumb there i thought OMGGGGGGG I CAN'T RECALL IF I EVER REGISTERED MY THUMBPRINT FOR THE PASSPORT AND AM I AT THE RIGHT COUNTER COS I DUNNO IF MY PASSPORT HAS THIS CAPABILITY. but LOL! worries unfounded when i managed to get through. DING!

so fun! can i just go out through the checkpoint and go in again just to play with the machines? LOLLLLLLLLL. wth.

and i think 170 is the best bus to jb le. like from kranji mrt it's just straight road. and so fast. 913 sucks, two big loops. ugh. and i have the intention to make jb as familiar to me as sg! another thing on my to do list! but of course i will go there with guys around. although i think i can go alone! but... at night of course not. even my jb friend says it's dangerous at night. like he said, you can get mugged in front of your own house! D: he say one and he's a citizen of that country so i am not being anti-mas!

zzz i realize i make a lot of neutral comments sometimes that sound very insulting. BAD HABIT. SMACKS SELF.

SIGH.

anyway citysquare is still boring. watched a movie there. narnia2. omg i thought since i've watched the first narnia i might as well. but i was quite impressed they did a better job of the second one although some bits are really... damn... omgiamspeechless. at least it didn't make me wanna throw my shoe at it. nor make my eyes bleed or brain explode. pity i read the series when i was 12 and can only faintly remember book3. caspian is just a title to me. damn. couldn't do any comparison. or maybe i went into the cinema with low expectations that the movie seemed quite good. felt they were trying to do a little Shrek with the cute mouse thing that seemed like the Cute Cat thing. with a sword too. gosh. and showcasing the stupidity of humans was rather hilarious. like, OVERKILL, much? insane. send a gigantic army to storm a small refuge? you must be kidding. i laughed so hard in the cinema i almost knocked over alf's popcorn. nah, i'm exaggerating. BUT, i did laugh. luckily the music and effects masked my bout of sniggers.

and the cues of attraction were so PAINFULLY CLICHE i cringed and twittered at the silliness of it all! OMG. but yes. definitely better than the first one. usually sequels suck but this is better. LMAO. because the first one was so AWFUL. even if the second one were BAD, it's still better that AWFULLY PAINFULLY BAD... right? lmao.

but i do feel like looking for the pdf of the series and reading the novels. hohoho.

oh the new checkpoint/ktm station they're building in jb resembles one of the dreams i had a long time ago. maybe a few years ago.
i think this is it:
the wiki

the model


imagine everything elevated on a sky-road connected to sg.






really looks similar to my dream.
i forgot most of it, but i know it had to do with traveling from one world or place to another. there was this building seemingly in the sky due to the high roads and rail lines leading to it. very futuristic. and my view in the dream was the view of the train driver as he peers out of his window and sees the tracks and the building before him.

it's gonna be open in jan 2009!

and the best thing is i had the dream before i saw the building. way before. omg.
so cool seeing something from a dream somehow exist.
LIKE
DID I TELL U
I SAW SOMETHING SIMILAR TO THE DREAM ABT JAPA FOOD I HAD?
the double egg udon i mentioned.
well that day i saw double egg sushi.
like the same black and orange eggs.
but on sushi.
and it's the small ebiko and the caviar.
but OMG. i saw it and i was like oMGGGG should i buy? but it was $1 each so i didn't.
WILL DO SO NEXT TIME JUST TO TRY.
omg.

randomness of dreams and similarities appearing and manifesting in real life.
it's like a feeling of dejavu mixed with surprise. not quite dejavu... yet. a sugoi feeling. because dejavu is a scary feeling. dunno how to describe -_-

what else was i gonna blog about?
OH.
i am gonna frequent kovan more because the arcade there is DESERTED enough to play my drummania and daytona and random games without being jeered at or embarrassing myself unnecessarily. woots. and the western food stall nearby rocks. good food, odd company, free transport. BUT! GOOD FOOD. ok i will go there again, with GOOD COMPANY. and then we can go bowling =p cos it's near the bowling alley. lalala.

k. crows are making noises, people are washing the hawker centre floor and the sky is gonna turn bright in a few hours.
TIME TO SLEEP.
BAIS.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:49:00 AM

Monday, May 19, 2008

because someone tagged me...

You're really upset, who is the first guy you'll go to?
Guy? maybe. Girl? maybe. neutral inanimate and even virtual beings? yes. BED. COMP. BLOG. or i'll just go hide myself in game and vent it out on poor monsters. =3

If someone liked u right now, wld u want them to tell u?
anything they would like to tell me that would hint that i have a hold over them so the cat can play with her yarn!~ aiie. IF that would happen. what would i want them to tell me anyway? that they have free movies for me, free dinners at expensive places, or free money? if anyone tells me i have won the lottery though, i'd like them! :D does the opposite suffice also? =x
--edit--
i totally misread the question. LOL. no wonder it seemed odd. would i want them to tell me? why not? then i can keep count ma. =3

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes? Why?
never dated anyone who smokes. probably won't. don't like it, will *kaff kaff*. however some of my girlfriends smoke. does that count?

Last person you texted?
to mom: "LoL. freeloading! also need skill to freeload on the winning side. u wan charkuayteow? last time i bought back."

What's something you MUST do before you die?
enter a circumstance in which would trigger my death. *matter of fact statement*
if there's anything i WANT to do before i die. i dunno yet. could be anything. depends on mood. but then again, is this question asking about the CRITERIA for death or SOMETHING I ABSOLUTELY MUST DO? well. i'd need to write my will too. and burn all my secrets~! muahaha.

When is the last time you went out of the country and where?
last month. KL. for weird reasons. =x
prob going JB tml due to a fren's impulses to meet another fren there for movie and a meal. might actually watch Forbidden Kingdom since it's cheaper =o and buy loads of snacks home~! belinjo~~~~ hohoho time to get on my mom's good side! (then again i always am. so.)

Who was your last received call from?
...it was from someone ytd evening. who you ask? *cough* ask me privately and i may say.

What are you doing tonight?
GH3! Dyn Warriors! Burning of DVDs (and ppl's houses) CABAL! dinner! bed! sleep~

What are you looking forward to?
grad ceremony perhaps. working to earn MONEY $_$ although am NOT looking forward to work. exam results so i will know honours classification, collection of grad gown and final transcript. and SLEEP. but of course. AND LEVEL 70!!!!!

Have you ever been on a roller coaster?
i think so? a tiny one. or the virtual one (which is also quite scary!)

Do you care what others think about you?
but of course. but then again, i think they should be more concerned with what I think about THEM.

Do you take showers at night?
if people sneeze on me while i sleep. or i sleep in the open and it rains. or my window doesn't do its job well. or if i'm just bored and i feel like it. or if neighbours complain of the smell... HMM.

Name the best person who could cheer you up?
anyone who is the bearer of entertainment or good news =x

Have you been to New York City?
would anyone care to bring me? =x

Who is the last person you added to your contacts list in your phone?
i haven't the faintest idea... was it gy?

What is the name of your cousin's best friend?
wha...? not to mention i can't even rattle my cousins' names off quickly.

What did u do yesterday?
Eat. Sleep. Eat. Then Eat some More.

Whose house did you last go to?
my own? why? because i live here? oO"

What is the last movie you watched?
Taxidermy. hoho. cross-swallowing ftw~

Do you believe that you can change someone?
i have. so i believe =x i can change anything!

What are you going to do after you do this survey?
what else? back to cabal! then shower and cross 2 streets to storm mu's house with my presence! hoho.

will i tag anyone?
this survey isn't really the most exciting in the world.
but if you wanna do it, so be it.

*scrambles off to cabal*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:32:00 PM

The Tempting Table of Transition and Other Terrifying Tales

Dusk fell, and the large structure loomed in the fading light as the smells and the heat and the smoke wafted from and ballooned into the sky. The-one-called-Dith sat upright in her seat; suddenly alert upon the appearance of the building. The seat felt odd - too low, much too low - and she was sandwiched between a sleeping businessman and a octogenarian. Pushing past them, she clattered down the aisle and joined the pulsating flow of people; waiting to be squeezed out and regurgitated from the bus like some pustular filth.

They were everywhere; swarming busily around the structure known as O.A.R. Not a single one of them was still. Eyes turning, mouths gaping, fingers twitching; as they marched to and from the modular units. The-one-called-Dith stood at the entrance, beholding the sight before her. She should have been nervous, but she wasn't. It was a common sight in O.A.R.F.C., and such common practice that other structures with similar systems also existed, like the one opposite the Dimension Gate ticketing centre - G.M.F.C.

It was the thirtieth table, it was. And it was theirs. But when the two brothers joined her, a transitory seat was created in temporal time and space. A gateway between the modular unit selling the calorie-laden sustinence so-named Satay Beehoon and the pathway to Eating It.

The first were an old couple. They didn't mean to, but they unknowingly ventured into the wormhole and appeared in front of the stall, at the table. It was as if a force compelled them to place their items on the table while people were busy with their Mouth Input upon it. But they had an express pass called Ta Bao, so they were off on their way without knowing about getting stuck in the wormhole.

The second was an old man. He seemed to know about the wormhole and had gotten himself deliberately into it. He sat across The-one-called-Dith and made himself comfortable. Don't get her wrong, she didn't mind sharing tables while conducting the sport called Eating It, but what made her knit her eyebrows together was the lack of courtesy to Ask. However, she couldn't blame them as the wormhole was unstable, thus people who ventured in appeared at the table before they could Ask. That was the reasoning.

But this old man, he reached forward. And his arm could penetrate through the wormhole's walls. It was very odd, so very odd. And she felt a chill of something run down her spine as his gnarled fingers and bony arm approached, getting closer and closer to her face. And he took her tissue packet as if it were his and was going to use a piece. The-one-called-Dith's mouth formed a small 'o'. She turned to The-one-called-Vin who had been squeezed to the seat right beside her because of the wormhole. (A table of 6 seats can sit 3 people comfortably, but due to this shift in Matter, they all had to sit together with less elbow room.)

Then the old man spoke.

Muffled as first, but then loud and clear:
"Is this yours?" as he gesticulated by waving the blue packet in the air.
The-one-called-Vin then said, "Yes, but you can use it."

The old man awkwardly returned the packet and shook his head, reaching his other hand out of the wormhole to perform a waving action that... SUCKED ANOTHER INTO THE WORMHOLE!

This old man had immense powers for sure. He might have been One Of Them.

He summoned a foreign worker to clean the table, that he had wanted to use a piece of tissue for, and then parted the walls of the wormhole for the cleaner to leave. The-one-called-Dith exchanged looks with The-one-called-Vin. They were astounded. Eating It was conducted in silence while the old man ordered a plate of Satay Beehoon and proceeded to the stage of Eating It before he finally finished and disappeared from the seat.

After him there was another. A young man who accidentally ventured into the wormhole by way of the scent of the Satay Beehoon. He had stepped onto the wrong path, and thus ended up in the wormhole eating before he found his way out again. But he was a quiet one. He stayed in the wormhole for the whole period, Eating It in silence.

The mystery of the wormhole was never solved, and remains to this day. However, The-one-called-Dith must testify that the Shredded Chicken Curry Noodle from the same stall was quite nice, and thus one day she is going to eat the Satay Beehoon and risk getting stuck in the wormhole for ETERNITY.

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*all characters in the above story were absolutely non-ficticious.
*all events are the result of overactive imagination but could possibly be true events.
*OAR = old airport road food centre
*GM = golden mile food centre

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the proper account - you can believe it with a pinch of salt!

well, i called the office and asked for an extension for the submission of soft copy. ended up scanning 147 pages. ugh... then pdfing the scans with the word documents and other pdfs. going to submit tomorrow, but too lazy to burn the files into cd. =x

watched taxidermy on fri. twas good, if you like weird stuff, bordering on gory and crude. flaming penises! oops. hungarian shows are odd.

went shopping with wen on sat. mmm. shopping is... shopping. haha. sun was japa then dinner at old airport rd! bought home black carrot cake and durian cream puffs. yumyum.

and cabal! 60% tnl to 70!!!!!

ok this is damn brief, but. nothing much to update~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:05:00 PM

Friday, May 16, 2008

flood

ar. soon will be flooded with stuff to do.

like i have so many things due (and overdue).

like the film fest list (badly overdue), then today just found out need to do softcopy of fyp report (which is like dunno how many MILLION pages), still need to burn one dvd for a particular person, as well as burn dvds of film for school archival purposes and to give one of my friends and his bro. then not to mention, another film fest just came up, whee that one sabo J to do ba. but damn sian lost the dvd img file. omfg where is it! D: sian it was like, 1.5years ago? hope can submit to SSC5 (link on my sidebar), sculli they dun accept cos too old? hmm iono. den maybe need to submit sog also? waw so many sai to do. as well as next week i forsee running to sch million times (machiam like diarrhea run to toilet like that. even i diarrhea i will just sit on the pot and not move lor. hahaha) to do film fest stuff, the encoding, the formats, the ZOMGWTFBBQshit. booooo. then still need to wait for grant money to come in. but luckily that's not my job. still got pending jobs i've applied for and awaiting replies. booboo. and i totally missed the deadline for the campus interviews la damn but the companies i not very interested hahaha. at most i go work for newspaper and write rubbish that i probably only half believe in? anyway tml i hope i can have lunch with pb AND complete my stuff AND watch taxidermia (R21) with mu. arrrr. and still come home and do filmfest stuff which i've STILL been putting off HAHAHA oops. aiya but lazy la. today heng the stupid machine never cock up on me so i managed to finish on time before the lab closed. and whee tml gonna try my luck collecting free zouk passes hohoho. anyone wanna go wib me? zoukies. but no drink lahs. boo. aiyah. sian banana. oh good news is that people have been talking about my film? maybe it's because my name is more memorable cos it's diFFerent? so funny that they credit me and not the director for the film? and word has gotta come from her to me about me? hilarious. mmm. think somehow attribute it to year1 when i was more outspoken and i actually voluntarily voiced my opinions in class. haha. after that became jaded. sad sad. so slid into oblivion and antisocialness. and i really hate doing double work. it's a fucking pet peeve. SIGH! hate it when people go MIA also. like call or sms or what also no fucking reply. as if dropped off the face of the earth? or like people go overseas also cannot fucking contact them and even if i do, there's nothing they can do to help me or send stuff to me (cos the only copy is with them! argh) cos they're not physically in reach? blah. irritated.

and i love to type in long long long-winded paragraphs because it's cathartic to just type one whole chunk and purposely avoid the enter key because i want people's eyes to suffer hehehe. and Across the Universe is great in a surprisingly random way! didn't expect it to be random. and it plays off like a large extended MTV with a plot. cool beans. love it that the lead sounds somewhat like kelly from stereophonics. nice high yet growly voice yet i dunno? but a very UK voice hehe. mmm. random awards i do present for random film. and the director is a female! woots. but really quite awesome. a lot of planning to secure the locations and stuff. a lot of design for props and set. (oh btw reminds me of the set design book i got at a ripoff deal price of $15! and it used to be $85, imagine that) and incorporation of music + singing + what the characters are doing + visuals + choreography + shot planning + SPEECH + storyline + story characters and their part in the movie as well as cohesiveness with the song lyrics + transforming the sung into the spoken which is the dialogue and the storyline. and the sequences where things get very random and i see overdose of aftereffects and many sleepless nights at photoshop, trying to get uncle sam superimposed and talking, or layering graphics with video and more video like a big big visual motion graphics sandwich. i could go on and on about the movie. although it is slow, no doubt. but it is amazing. transition from scene to scene, some within the scene is a bit disjointed cos of sudden location swapping but it's expected cos it becomes a sort of style, and mtv kinda thing. i expected a very zhen jing movie u noe. this is bordering on experimental. whee. and hmm. dunno why i always feel a bit connected to distance related stories. boo. well, duh.

anyway i gotta get to bed.
waking up at 7+am later to shower and then collect stuff, rush to scan, rush to sch, rush to burn dvds, rush to submit to library, rush to lunch, rush to dbg, rush to movie, then rush to eat dinner somewhere in between, then rush home to rush the film fest list submission and dunno what else. good news is, SATURDAY IS AROUND THE CORNER! maybe makan with vin and buddies, maybe shopping with wen, maybe outz with sis and mom, maybe thon again at mu's house to play game and do work. HOHOHO her dad is gonna throw me out of her house soon or gonna install an anti dith gate like those gates which either keep cats inside or outside D: otehnoes.

and dammit, i need to find an opportunity to wear my new green hua1hua1 top!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:18:00 AM

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

faint

eh let's have a little chat about ethics here. there's a fine distinction between the ethical and the unethical at times. consider: a guy wants to know more girls. no problem right? it's natural to want to expand your social circle and get to know more of the opposite gender to increase your chances and have more experience interacting with them. what if the guy is attached? now this complicates things slightly. but it's never wrong to have good friends of the opposite gender and want to make more friends too. being attached doesn't limit you to only that one person. again, consider: attached guy wants to get to know girls on friendster cos he feels they're attractive. okay that's super DOTs, and i dunno how to qualify it, but i suppose if his intentions are purely networking, then no problem? anyway it's not wrong to look around since you aren't married anyway. never limit yourself? but LOL i find it super DOTs (cos he isn't good looking at all... bu zhi liang li?) and of course flattery is a guy's favorite weapon. tsktskies. friendster the rubbish site! lots of junks, despos, weirdos (but that's not a bad thing cos i'm a weirdo) and well, my own friends of course! but it's scary! when he says he lives near you in your neighbourhood! eeeeeee. aieeeeeee. bodyguard please @_@ and i think i vaguely recognize the guy from the friendster photo. like maybe seen him around in the neighbourhood -_- anyway! more things to consider for our little ethical discussion. would it be ethical if i forwarded his gf the msg on friendster? then again it's not incriminating. not quite. i suppose. but i would be wrong if say i spoil what they have when it doesn't mean anything at all (HAHA i could do that if i feel evil -_-) or i could end up as the laughing stock if she's all too used to it or she knows about it. or i would be doing her a favor =x but i'm not interested in being kaypo la. shan't do anything about anything at all. main concern is to know my enemy~ now that i know where he lives... and how he looks like... i can avoid him. mmmmmm. time to invest in sunglasses, a wide brimmed hat, a big sock with eyeholes, fake moustaches and a Scream mask. XD

was having a nice dream last night, didn't wanna wake up. the rain pitter pattering on my window and the light morning air prevented me from stirring too. damn, i needed to wake up early to make some phone calls. but oh well, all is well i suppose. in a massively procrastinatory mood right now. not to mention i'm sneezing again. damn i love and i hate nice dreams. so nice to indulge in, like rich chocolate cake, but when you wake up it's just a dream, poof, nothing is left except excerpts of that sweet neuron firing chemically induced fantastical memory. boo. of course chocolate cake is worse because you have to bear the consequences of additional calories, overeating, indigestion and heatiness. muahahaha. and of course a guilty conscience.

MINTZ! paging from sg to usa! give word give word give word!

sianz, job woes, fyp straggling shit woes, obligatory woes. BOO BOO BOO.
trying to sell 2.28m worth of adept amulets in game woes.
ROAR.

so feel like going to sleep again ~_~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:04:00 PM

Monday, May 12, 2008

escapade at the airport

yesterday woke up terribly early (to my standards) and headed to the airport. was terribly early cos dad so kindly gave me a lift, so i spent half an hour looking at planes after which met up with S and Z for popeyes! while trying to locate the missing mintz. lazy to blog, so shall just leave you guys with photoessay of my doings at the airport. of course won't post more personal pictures here, let u guys crawl to my facebook to see if they're there =p

after sending her off (sobsob) we went to viewing gallery to see if we could spot her then only realized later D40 is not in view! went all around helter skelter trying to find but viewing gallery doesn't extend to that aisle. awwws.

later spent some random time exploring terminal 3 and realized something cool~ about the skytrains. haha. it's regarding the passengers outside of check in and within the check in place. you guys slowly go figure out why.

terminal three is quite pretty but very sterile and cold. think it's the epitome of a Concrete Jungle because of the bits on the ceiling that look like metal scraps and the jungle theme to the terminal with the odds and ends of plants on the wall and the tree designs and the green glass. think it fits singapore to a T. wonder if in the future the entire singapore will be like this. such a cold and alien feeling. i don't like~!

view from the viewing gallery

Popeye's Chicken! mintz i swear i didn't go to the airport just to eat it =x

so glassy x_x Terminal 3

and they call it 3-Top.

some odd pinwheel looking thing that can spin almost 360 degrees. looks like those battery operated tiny fans. lol. dunno how it fits into the design. jungle needs flowers?

odd lifts that look like hanging tendrils of vines.

oh i like this~ the counter signage. like eyeballs.

the odd ceiling architecture. like scrap metal in the concrete jungle.

a wider view.

another angle~


a little bit late for japa, and extremely sleepy. luckily there's an mrt link to t3 and t2. quite cool. because t2 and t3 meet in the middle according to the map. was walking to class via bugis mrt and then suddenly this idiot approached me. he was selling colored paper clips he had twisted into small heart shapes. i remembered my sis telling me about a similar event at east coast, so i tried to shake him off by telling him i'm late for my class as it is, and i know all about his thing, and i don't want to buy, etc. and i increased my walking speed.

but this fellow, relentlessly followed me at my speed, spoke quicker to accommodate his paces, and still proceeded to almost beg me to buy the thing. sounded desperate and whiny. so irritating. so i only proceeded to walk faster. then he said it's mothers' day, why don't i buy for my mom. and he wants to sell the thing so he can go home earlier.

i told him, i'm gonna walk to my class, he wants to follow me? he said we can walk and talk, you need to cross the traffic light right? ugh... and indeed, he really followed me across the traffic light. continued with his blabbering and he said 10cents also can... any amount will do.

wtf... and this is a young boy of say, 17-21? throw face.

but then i slowed down, looked at him with a bemused expression and said, "10 cents also can? really ah?" and proceeded to dig out 10cents from my pocket, and he gave me a paper clip. but it was white. so i told him. "No. I want the GREEN one." so he had to dig out the green one. i took it and he thanked me and scurried off and i never looked back.

went ntuc with family after class to help carry groceries. got my green tea snack! and it sat in the trolley the whole time looking curiously at us going about our grocery shopping. too bad it has been devoured already. =x


came home and opened the envelope mintz passed to me before she left. ahhh~ so cute. (the choc i mean =x) waiting for word that she has arrived in US safely. 5 months and counting~ and yes let's celebrate by really going for one day ice cream meals x3. (omg)


been sneezing the whole time today. weather is inducing it. hot to cold, cold to hot. my body doesn't know how to react; it can only sneeze. today i could actually sit down to look through film fest stuff. ugh... and today is the deadline to submit to sch. but i think it's a guided deadline only ba? had absolutely no time to do it. (okay, i'm lying, i did procrastinate... but... i really didn't have much time =x) do until headache today. blah. and haven't finished. tired. lazy. sick. sneezing. dead tired so went to bed uber early ytd like 12mn. womg.

was also looking through convocation stuff today. whee! 26 july but i can't invite anyone i suppose. like maybe only can invite to meet after the ceremony which ends at 330pm? cos i only have 2 invitations, although can get extra *1 hour before ceremony* so i need to try to get extra invite for my sis, cos the other 2 invites go to mom and dad. maybe can pia extra invites (a few only) for additional *SPECIAL* people who might wanna go? otherwise just meet me before or after convocation ba =x

oh ya~ ah ma if u see this, can help me to do makeup? LOL.
mu if u see this, wanna go see see gown fitting at a serangoon shop with me? hurhur.

gown will be maroon with black. it's like the darkest color amongst the whole cohort? where's my gold or silver! lol. but it's good to be special right~ argh. nose been dripping the entire damn day. feel so... x_x
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:19:00 PM

Saturday, May 10, 2008

random dith thoughts

do you know that almost all singaporeans are patriotic? we all carry the picture of our president in our wallets.

open your wallet, his face is all over your dollar bills. yup, Yusof bin Ishak the first president of singapore!



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do you know singapore airlines is a very polite service? it's because of the way they got their name. also, it's very singaporean because it follows closely to the way we speak. all the better to be our local airlines!

auntie in mrt: SQ-Me! (excuse me!)
singapore airlines shortform: SQ

well-mannered, colloqial, and singaporean indeed!


...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:19:00 PM

feed the mother day!

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i forgot to add we also ordered sashimi (5 pieces for $6.90 but like not very fresh), soft shell crab temaki, green tea freeze and also chawanmushi~

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so ytd me mom and sis went to shokudou to eat as a pre mothers' day celebration. tried different dishes from the previous time i went, but ate the rosti again, this time with mustard. for the wasabi and mustard lovers out there, this mustard is laced with the head shooting effect of wasabi. so it's a must have. lol no wonder they keep the mustard away in a cupboard where no one knows. xD

juicy prawns wrapped in bacon. very nice!

rosti with sour cream and wasabi mustard!

shokudo mushroom hamburger. not bad~

carnage. and that's clam chowder which wasn't nice.

changed my mind. ochacha in raffles city aint good. don't like the cloying sticky clumpy texture of their green tea. i like the one at shokudou more. closer to a haato flavor, more natural.

top green tea ice creams:
haato (wheelock, liang court)
yama yuki (suntec)

yeah craving for the yama yuki one right now. cutesy rabbit mascot and their ice cream has a student price and ground bits of green tea dunno what bits in it. awesome! haato of course has that full bodied green tea and underlying bean paste flavor that is so japanese and awesome. get the one with the red bean! have yet to try their waffles. yum yum.

on the next 'to eat' list:
chocolate obscenity @ gloria jean coffee
claypot laksa at alexandra market
curry udon at liang court

oh, btw i have tried the round round cake thing with filling thing at liang court. ate the last one with sis. custard flavor. it rocks! gonna go back there to buy home the red bean for dad one day. yum.

btw choc obscenity is this gigantic slice of chocolate cake. omg. see liao nosebleed. so i wanna try! hahahaha. ate loadsa free food today. overate omg. went to sis' welcome tea (VELCUM T) at sch of bio sci, ntu. cos she wanna learn more abt the course. she got in, but having 2nd thots, thinking of going food n tech at nus, anyone got any advice? so first we went for a talk, then a tour by a professor (wah the labs so cool, so much million dollar equipment) then food food. yeah. the food they catered was nice. think by ISS and it's halal. so anyone who is going to cater food, can try ISS catering. (or is it ISSS? dunno xD but it's nice. dun reli like the food cs caters, like not v nice)

oops, skip back to outing with mom and sis. walked to clarke quay central mall and omg i didn't know they have a foodcourt hidden right at the top! cos it's hidden. duhz. only ppl with 'auntie senses' like my mom can find it. lawl. then later walked round looking at clothes and stuff. then it was dark by the time we finished, so cut through the scenic route of CQ night life to head to liang court. lol? sis was so fascinated by the night life. mmm. quite funny. the first time she saw all the nice bars and stuff lit up at night and walked that area i suppose. but that area is really nice at night, i do agree. i like to walk there at night too.

liang court one side escalator still out of service due to the upgrading and renovation works there. so they closed off one section. i dislike taking lifts. they scare me. always have a phobia the door will close on me or the door will eat my finger or something. and i don't trust the lift buttons to do as i say. (open doesn't mean open, it will still close on me like JCS lift!) especially since it's the old kind of lift, very scary. then the door very narrow, easy to kiap me in between like sandwich T_T

went kino, omg i can't stay long there, very bored. eyeing the haato waffle the whole time but didn't eat also. saw a guy who looks like darren, pointed him out to mom and sis, saw their shocked expressions (omg he looks like a paikia!) and had a good laugh. dinner with dad later then went home~ yucks his cab still smells of pee pee pee. eeee. as a result i'm smelling pee everywhere i go~ ugh.

tml going airport... i'd better slp early yups. off to do japa hw and film fest research now~ tatas~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:36:00 PM

ironic turn of events

tis funny when someone you had to pay to work for you is now asking you to work for him and he will pay you. but i dunno how much lah. paltry? generous? i will ask around later. but got money, will work! yeah. applied for some jobs ytd, duh it's saturday, i guess they chucked my email aside. ho hum. maybe the stack will be too high on monday so they won't even care. anyway got stuff due on monday, the film fest submission thing i really gotta look through when i get home today, no time to play game le lah. then i gotta do my japa homework cos tml mintz is leaving =( so am going airport to... EAT POPEYE CHICKEN! haha no. going to send her off AFTER EATING POPEYE CHICKEN. muahahaha. so you wonder... am i excited over the prospect of FOOD, or is the whole purpose to send her off? mmmm. gonna waste half my life today accompanying my sis at her faculty's welcome tea (VELCUM T). 3 hours omg. what they wanna talk about sia. i will die halfway. and i hate it when people become busy and distant. it's like they forgot about you and you cease to exist in their life, whether temporarily or what. yet, so many people are like that, even i become like that at times. for days on end i will lose news of my closest friends. for weeks and months on end i will lose news of (whom i think are) my good friends. but then they also lose sight of me? sms also no reply. where the hell have they disappeared to? is 30s of your time too precious to take your phone, open the sms and type: sorry too busy. or yes, or no? it's like... dunno. even if you replied days late it's still ok. but i am not concerned because the drifting is to the point that you are a distant memory of a good friend in my life. perhaps soon there will be word from the missing distant memories; the ghosts of good friends in my life. we are all graduating soon, your fyps should have been over, your exams should have been over. grad trip? never tell me? never send word? do i need to go to your houses to drag you? change number? cannot be. never tell? busy still need to breathe and eat and sleep and shit right? and it's also holidays now, my other friend, i thought we had a connection. poof you have gone after saying we shall go out on tue? but it's also my fault cos i didn't contact you on tue? but you should have taken the initiative cos you suggested tue. i asked what time that day, you said see how things go. but i had to contact you for you to remember me? people so close yet so far. i suppose that's what they will forever be; distant memories of good friends in our mind. the amicable distance. i know some people we don't need to contact each other because even if we don't see each other or meet up often, we are still close. there is this sense of understanding and deep friendship, but when i do sms you, you do reply. there still is this bridge between us. this bridge with telephone wires and communication devices. heck, if this bridge can be maintained even as far as 400km away physical distance, i don't see why the bridges within the 32x42km distance IS SO HARD TO MAINTAIN. i'm not fed up, not grousing about anything, just contemplating in a very personal manner. i am not disappointed; i have ceased to be. maybe some people only reply IF THEY HAVE TO. not everyone is like me, so vigilant in attending to communication devices *unless i really detest the person or am honestly busy or in a bad mood*. honestly, i don't see why some people are the way they are. CMC is a problem i suppose. because people are still inherently different through communication mediums other than personal face to face communication.

siannded. gotta go bathe now and leave for ntu. zomg. anyway came up with a mixed saying ytd on the way home with family. hehe. cos we were talking about trying new stuff and being daring; saying in life you gotta try new stuff like eating new food even if it sucks. then the food stuff very sour and my dad's taxi still smells of the passenger's pee (YUCKS. yes some idiot peed in his taxi), so very smelly. so i devised a saying, yah, you should "sek seng sek sok". eat the sour things and the smelly things. in life you gotta try everything, even the sour and the smelly things.

keep going out with family. i think it's good. haha. spend more time with my family instead of facing the comp like a soulless body. k la, more thoughts laters. maybe show you what we ate ytd. heh.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:20:00 PM

Thursday, May 08, 2008

chaotah

ONE woke up late
TWO reached 1030am
THREE rented 2 bikes sponsored by sis hurhur
FOUR 12 bucks per bike for 6 hours =x
FIVE actually 7 bucks for 2 hours xD
SIX after many false starts, we were on our way~
SEVEN i cycle damn slow cos rusty after 5 yrs
EIGHT machiam like just learning how to cycle D:
NINE rained! zomg
TEN sheltered with a nice aus family
ELEVEN rain stopped around noon
TWELVE cycled to the end (area A) then to lagoona food centre
THIRTEEN omgwtfbbq slopes + wind + ppl scare me
FOURTEEN returned bikes around 230pm
FIFTEEN walked around parkway then went back~

rainy rainy


vandalism at its funniest


anarchist me


i'm burnt! D:

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:25:00 PM

mountain

there's a mountain of fears
buried under a hillside
like the tip of an iceberg in the ocean

there's a river of tears
in my bathroom sink's basin
as salty as the wide open sea

will you tell me
or will you quietly let me go?
yama no naka ni

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and it's too late to expand further on random song lyrics.

today another slow day.
another gaming day.
another family day.

random people in the lift talking to us today and giving us funny curious looks.
perhaps we look odd to them. maybe they have discovered our true identity!

mom has earned nickname of Factory.
courtesy of random auntie in lift.

another day of nothing other than FOOD.
oh and i'm not fated to buy these cute undies i saw selling.
either don't have my size cos no more stock or the free size is too small.
left my phone at home for it to guard the house.
came home thought it odd no one attempted to contact me at all.
oddity.
perhaps my phone is spoilt or everyone's too busy.
which is good.
i shall cut down on smses and save money then.
shall try to bring it below 1000 smses.
free incoming though, so calling me is no problem :P

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yama no naka ni bakemono ga sundeiru.
ano bakemono wa shinpai sareta koto ni kyoumi ga aru.
itsumo aru hito no koto ni shinpai sareta.
dakedo, ano bakemono no kokoro wa yoi kedo, shitamono wa chotto...
saa, tomodachi wa daremo inai.
hontou ni sabishii bakemono to omounda.
mukashi mukashi, ano bakemono wa ningen datta.
yama mo mae wa utsukushii tatemono datta.
bakemono wa oosama de, oozei no tomodachi ga ita.
toku ni, kono kanojo - oosama no ojyousama datta.
demo, aru hi, ano oosama wa warui yume ni bakemono no taichou ni atte, bakemono no taichou ga aru koto ga irai dakedo, oosama ga tsuyoku hantai shita.
ano hi kara, oosama wa yukkuri ni bakemono rashii ni natteita.
seikaku mo kawatta.
utsukushii tatemono mo kawatte, kuroi yama ni natta.
ojyousama mo kiechatte, shinda kamo ka, nigeta kamo ka, koroshita kamo ka, ryoushin ni natta kamo ka, dare mo wakaranai.
ima dare ga bakemono ga tasukaru?
jibun no sei da ima wa konna ikiteiru.
shinou mo shinenai.
tarinai no wa kokoro no tsumetai da.

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cycling tml and i'm so dead i'm gonna be so sleepy later i'm gonna cycle into a tree and i'll think the birds spinning round my head are real.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:26:00 AM

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

hohoho.
i know what made my blog load long long!
solved!
removed the offending counter code.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:34:00 AM

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Pluggin'

"Absinthe is gonna have their virgin performance @Suntec City Mall level 1 Tropics Atrium, 24-25th this month. please do drop by betw 1230-9pm if you are interested, in the area or be simply nosey!"
JRock, i like!
http://www.myspace.com/absinthe101

i'm gonna be there, will you?
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:00:00 PM

$300 japan trip

there was a 50% discount on the japan mrt from sg, so from a hundred bucks it became fifty a person only. but of course only one way. dad had to work, so mom, sis and me took the train to japan. and there's only one stop, cos it's still relatively new. they're trying to promote the service. the ride's only like an hour. i think it's the closest thing to teleportation.

anyway we stopped under this big blue tinted glass building in the heart of tokyo. so many storeys, so big. did some walking around, trying to see if we could afford anything. lol. comparing prices x_x then we were hungry, so we went to this fast food outlet similar to mos burger. it was quite packed cos it was lunchtime. so we were looking for seats.

this uncle cleaner came to talk to us in simple english, but because i know some japanese i started speaking in japa and he was telling us some random stuff about working there, etc. then one table spilled a drink and he had to go clean it. so he grumbled and then went over to clean it.

then i complained why are we holed inside this building the whole time? why don't we go outside? i mean, come on! it's JAPAN. we went to the balcony overlooking the street to have a looksee. wow high rise buildings in the distance and busy traffic on the road. so wanted to go outside, but then i was disturbed by an sms which threw me back to singapore.

actually we did a lot more stuff in dream-japan but i cannot remember. =p cos i remember speaking to a lot of people in japa. wahahhaa. and it's not dream japa but REALLY speaking japa. lol. much more fluent than irl though =(

reminds me of the previous time i went to dream-japa but then the system was totally new and it was $100 a trip. only went to some supermarket to look at sweets and cute snacks before i had to return home. awww.

feel so unfit recently. so stiff and lethargic, i think i should start exercising. but i have fear of gym machines cos dunno how to use and i hate running wahahhaa. even more so on the treadmill. cos i think running on the spot is silly and stupid and i rather run on the nice track. maybe going cycling with my sis on thurs morning at ECP. hohum. long time never cycle, i should wear pants! altho very hot. cos scared of falling hurhur.

supposed to go out with pb today but he never contact me, i never contact him. hmm. anyway today is waffle day but i think i've been pigging out on too many things these past few days:
sat: shokudou @ citylink + drinks at wala + oily cheese criss cut fries @ breko
sun: overate with sticks of yakitori, yakibuta and gyuuniku koroke + massive amount of gohan which i couldn't finish. then ate double scoop of haato ice cream. omg totally overate.
mon: ice cream at island creamery + food food food @ shokudou raffles city + more ice cream at Tom's (which has disappointed me for the first time) + snacking on apple pie.

so if today i eat waffle i will kill myself.
i don't so much mind that i'm big sized or plump.
i mind that my double chin is too obvious or my face is too round.
i mind that my tummy becomes too big cos wearing clothes feel very uncomfortable cos must always see that don't wear too tight else very ugly all the fats come out, or very conscious of ugly tummy flopping out. LOL. then also feel very heavy and lethargic.

wah ytd i carry the props all over sibei tiring until battery need to conserve, cannot talk else battery flat. came home damn tired still play cabal, fell asleep at comp so many times, even in dungeon i can fall aslp LOLOLOLOL. luckily all the mobs i hit ytd all no kick one.

time to play some more! hahahaa. and then later i'll go FILL UP MY RESUME online and read through my KANJI BOOK and LOOK AT MY JAPA TB VOCAB and watch ACROSS THE UNIVERSE and hmm, let's see if i will even logoff cabal.

so many things to do, and i'm free but i'm not free.
OH YA still got film fest submission to think about.
boo.

-------update-------

yotei if i'm not wrong, with our shoku card. food card! yeah shoku means food.


food minus the rosti. unaomu (unagi omelette), another unagi with egg but diff style, and kinokotenpura! mushroom tempura.


spot the difference...

ocha freeze with gyuunyuu methinks.

upclose and personal! i think i'm gonna scoff one entire plate in the future =x


layout of shokudou in raffles city seems a bit like the dream i had about cheap and nice japa food.
wonder if the dish of two color eggs exists?
so many things still haven't tried, like the japa kebabs, the sashimi (couldn't find though), the desserts, the donburi, the nabemono... and who knows what. hurhur. but the rosti is nicer than the revamped marche or the vilage.

craving for claypot laksa... womg.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:15:00 PM

Monday, May 05, 2008

groggy

so. i am awake.
but will i be on time?
~o~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:38:00 AM

seikatsu ni RU-ZU

gah.
application of things we learnt in japa class to real life.
lack of routine and discipline in life, waking and sleeping at odd hours, ungoverned and unfettered by schedules, school, commitments and random crap.
my life becomes Loose, so to speak.

anyway have meeting later at 11am in sch, have recruitment talk at 10am but i can don't go. argh so lazy. lazy lazy lazy sleepy sleepy sleepy.

japa class was quite bad today. after effects of drinks, late nights, change of teachers, loud music and lack of contact with japa. got a bit of a headache today which wasn't helped by the new teacher's high pitched overly loud voice. good thing that she is bubbly, animated, energetic, speaks clearly though. but still... ugh.. D:

am i kiasu? sometimes i'm afraid of losing. when there's nothing to lose.
are my fears uncalled for? or do they stem from a larger picture that includes my competitive nature? or my need to prove myself (to compensate for something?)

had dinner after japa today with ki (complicated ki!), wen, and jeff the dbZ. went to liang court and i think i ate too much. ugh... plus i ate ice cream. double scoop some more. but ugh... haato leh! green tea with red bean + hazelnut. yummers. i do love their ice cream the best! top 3! Haato, Tom's and Island Creamery! shall go back liang court soon! waffle and ice cream call to me!!!!!! taiyaki calls to me!!!!! kino discount section calls to me!!!!!

patience running a bit thin these few days. no, it's not pms cos it's not even CLOSE to the date. maybe it's the weather. very hot and humid very hard to sleep. and recently been kinda fed up when people are late, thus making me late for events. or having to wait for people excessively; when they have no reason to be late. or having assholes tell you stupid things or ask you stupid things or do stupid things that make you pissed off only. or being asked THE stupid question like "SO HAVE YOU FOUND A JOB YET?" and many mutations of that question.

NO, NO, and NO.
argh.

iraira ni natteshimatta.
mushimushi tenki to omottanda.

don't feel like doing anything later except sleeping in.
but that would be IRRESPONSIBLE.
should i just shout: "FUCK IT"?

getting old, can't go without sleep much.
need to exercise, stop EATING excessively.
omg.

oh i haven't blogged about the weird dream i had two days+ ago.
should i? now? hmm. ok la. i'll be quick. =3

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i was in a world where there was a difference between Trash and Garbage.
i mean, to us, both are unwanted materials, aka rubbish.
but in this world, we had to sort out rubbish into Trash and Garbage, and put them in different cans for collection.
one is the more wet stuff, and the other is the more dry stuff. like for example, banana skin versus plastic wrapper.

and the toilets cost like sgd100+ to use. actually it was 240 in the place's currency. and yes, i dreamt it was in RM, but surely my brain didn't mean anything bad abt msia right? D:
anyway, through a friend's friend who knew the guy, Shaun, who wore a clown costume and worked at managing the toilets, we managed to enter. so many cubicles, but in addition to having a jamban or toilet bowl, they were like mini homes for weird looking people.
like there was this cubicle so elaborately decorated, you wouldn't have thought it was a toilet save for the toilet bowl in the middle which gave it away. and yes, the cubicle was very small, like those wheelchair toilet cubicle at the most. anyway a lady who dressed like a queen, wearing colorful flamboyant clothing resided within, playing chess on many different boards with her white fluffy cats. while she ate cheese. and she was sitting, one arm around the toilet bowl base. ewww.
and the toilet quite dirty ok, got like water puddling and stuff. eyer. but got so many people living. and they're rich cos it's 240RM a day.

in this place, it was easy to get into trouble if your neighbors know you buy expensive stuff like chocolates or non house brand stuff. if you ever display any sense of being "atas", you are liable to be faced with a criminal charge. if you don't sort your trash properly, or stash trash in the house because you are too lazy to sort it out and clear it, you will also be slapped with fines and criminal charges. even the usage of the toilet is prohibited unless you have the money (240RM) to use it.

i tried very hard to buy snacks home (cos i was visiting this place) but i was very scared later people think i atas then they don't let me go home and lock me up in jail. in this place, even if you are too happy they will find an excuse to lock you up or arrest you.

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and on another note, today while at bugis mrt, a man in front of me was taken to the security checking counter and checked. i made an observation that the people who get checked usually look similar.

they are usually dark skinned,
non chinese
wearing dark clothes
bagpack or waist pouch
lanky, medium height
men

so are they racist in checking people (implication of suspicious)?
or it really is a proven fact that people who have those outward characteristics tend to be more of a criminal type?
why never check fair skinned people? innocent looking? carry handbag?
it's a well-known fact that the smoothest criminals are those who look the most normal or the most unlikely.

bleh.
OK 5am. SLEEP TIME. BAIS.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:33:00 AM

Sunday, May 04, 2008

o_O
ktm derailed.
one week after i took it.
one day after the docu my friend made about it was shown.
heng i wasn't on that train.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:44:00 PM

five in the morning

got home not too long ago. where was i? basically the day didn't start until about 3 in the afternoon, so i'm not really sleepy yet. met up with the gals (ah ma was late as usual zomg) for dinner before heading to S.A.M. for my film screening. food at shokudou is not bad. the pasta is quite nice. although my salmon avocado wafu pasta was kinda fishy but i kinda liked the way and the effort they took to mix the spaghetti thoroughly with the sauce. four stars from me! tofu cheesecake was alright. a bit odd but i totally expected that. heh. tofu texture ma. plus cheesecake texture. their green tea shake was also good. bitter with the green tea but that's the way i like it!

reached like 20min late. lucky thing our events never start on time. didn't miss much. phew. and like damn, i wore a checkered red dress. similar to a shirt another friend was wearing (guy friend) until people said "hey, ni men qing nu zhuang ah?" wth... 2 people said that to me. so i avoided that friend of mine after that. OOPS. so rude but... =x

wanna flame JASON KOH THIAM JOO in my blog. idiot you think you so dua pai ah? dua pigu la. just sit on the floor like a normal human, complain so much like FUCK, give me attitude some more. you think you so IMPORTANT is it? big fuck la. damn angry with him. one of the few idiots who can make me SO ANGRY. walk out then walk out you think i fucking CARE? shit you. waste my energy typing that also.

apart from being late and dealing with assholes, things went alright. mood picked up gradually. went around socialising taking some pictures. mintz, guess whose hand i shook. and not i initiate one ok! surprised some people said it was good. my response was "REALLY?" with a big DISBELIEF word written on my face. HAHAHA. dunno out of PR they told me that or genuinely meant it? funny funny people. hehe.

after that went to wala wala for drinks and live band.

second round of drinks: whiskey dry. first round courtesy of angela's bf, lychee martini cos they didn't have kiwi vodka. damn damn. almost drank absinth/absynth... weird drink with minty flavor, green tinge, sweet aftertaste... but i kinda like it. heh.

live band at wala was amazing. sat near the guitarist and the amps. OMG my right ear is half gone. hahahaha. but power solos. and singer's voice was uber power. after wala's closed, went opposite to Breko Cafe for supper. was around 2am. ate crinkle cut fries tinged with cheese flavor until quite full. sat around talked about random stuff, saw 3 cockroaches and 1 lizard scurrying about, then took cab back.

didn't see dbc and jagung though. maybe they decided not to go in the end. never mind =p

ah~ sleepy. and i have japa tml. D:
oh bleh.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:04:00 AM

Saturday, May 03, 2008

oh noes

came home hungry and ate 2 bowls of POST blueberry crunch cereal with two different kinds of milk. yumyum. had a weird assortment of food today, not to mention packed in a glass room with 200 over people, half of whom i don't know and half of whom i do know, for 3hours?

anyway, forgot to blog about the time me, my mom, anne and my sis went out together. tsktsk my mom and anne have much in common... the VANITY bits. zomg. so glad i'm au natural. in terms of not using makeup and letting everyone smell my unmasked odour! and not washing face with products and most of the time not even bothering to dress nicely. wahahhaa. i'm so low maintenance and loving it! saves money saves time saves the earth. and yes, i'm ok with how i look. not pretty enough cos i don't wear makeup? never fear, i'm cute enough! not slim enough to be sexy? nonsense! i think i'm an ok size, larger than life, nice to hug! eat too much to lose weight? rubbish! i love my food, how can you not love eating when there's NOTHING ELSE TO DO in sg? why be sad and hungry when you can be happy and satisfied? happiness = health you know. should i be proud of myself or ashamed i shun girl-beautifying schemes? nonsense, all lies in marketing and making money. i don't wish to contribute needless amount of hard-earned money to a cause the world doesn't need. (but no one ever complained of pretty people)... (but no one ever DIED from UGLY people! wahahhaha. but imagine if my ugliness could turn someone into stone or kill people it'd be AWESOME)

lovely thoughts.

and i'm now quite fed up of sgreans. so materialistic. so suspecting. so paranoid. so cynical. so calculative. always have ulterior motives. omg la. i find my friends from msia more genuine. but of course my good sg friends are all very nice wacky off-beat quirky people! and very very real. that's why they're my good friends! but seriously, we're too uptight, overly suspicious and stuff. can't we be more sui bian and hospitable and genuine? breathe without looking over our shoulders? smile like you mean it and don't smile because you HAVE to? i like the msian girls. very easy to get along with, also very independent and very funny! hahhaha. no need to put on a face, no need to act proper, no need to pretend to be Meredith when i can just be dith, or even ditha. but i admit i'm also guilty of putting up a wall, of projecting my public self outwards. i mean, it's normal. unless you know the people well. it's like a two-way thing. if i throw away my facade, wouldn't you too? if i extend a hand, wouldn't you too? give and take, take and give. reciprocate.

i'm a very reciprocal person. and i don't like to take initiative. you gotta do something, which will cue me to following up on your action or give me an opening or introduce protocol i can act accordingly to. to open the gate for me, to open pathways for me to follow. even a very simple thing like touch. i don't touch people unless they touch me first. as in, friendly body contact like touch on shoulder and stuff. or even interaction. i don't usually speak unless you speak to me. maybe that's why i come across as 'dao' sometimes. i'll admit i have mild social phobia. i'm a recluse by nature. i appreciate peace, i appreciate quiet, i like the restfulness and serenity of the night.

i think i'm weird.

but that's who i am and no matter how 'PR' i might forge my public self to be, my inner self still remains the same. i can sit still for hours on end, stare into space at nothing in particular, or enjoy silence just thinking to myself.

.....
just got msged on msn. like lmao, wth is a 'dota handshake'?
hilarious.

kinda lost my train of thought. guess i'll now talk about the bbq on labor day? not really wanted to go for it, more like coerced. some people just have a way of coercing people? maybe i'm just too weak. why do i owe that person an excuse if i don't wanna go and i have no alibi? why should i have any obligation to go for a movie even if you bought the tickets without seeking my approval? boo. and i thought i escaped the group movie when i was ready to leave house too late and the seats were all packed full. wahahhaa. thought i was off the hook but nuuuuu. you tell me got bbq the following day, asked me join for tennis before that. zomg la i don't even know your friends you ask me go. i don't owe you anything! kept pestering me asking what do i have on that i cannot go. in the end i agreed to attend the evening bbq. but it was quite fun la. i'll admit i haven't attending a bbq in eons... thought could be rid of this person once and for all but still he comes back to look for me. dunno as a friend or what. i don't wanna know also. shoo shoo.

really dunno what to say because never say much. emitting a weird aura barrier. awkward socially. the only fun thing is analysing what he is up to and what he will do next. other than that, i don't give a shit. and then he had to pull the stunt of buying tickets for movie without seeking my approval today. blahh. J did it to me last time and i wasn't pleased at all. it's not so much the ACT of buying tickets without asking. it's more of the EXECUTION of it. like if you know i'm free and i really wanna watch this movie and we are on good terms and you wanna surprise me, fine. i don't mind. i'd be happy, even. but HELLO, suddenly you drop a BOMBA on me by saying, "i buy tickets liao"... walao... i don't have a CHOICE? luckily i was free, and i wasn't totally displeased, because i did want to watch that movie, iron man, fyi. but annoyed at being COERCED.

shall stop complaining about a single person. what a waste of blog space. but seriously, from sept last yr till now?!?!?! omg please give up already. hmm. shucks, hope he doesn't find this blog.

anyway! iron man was WEIRD yet HILARIOUS. i almost wanted to laugh at all the middle eastern terrorists especially the video where they had T. Stark with head in sack and threatening on low quality video. wth. allusion to the latest REAL terrorist video of recent times? all the terrorist injections was freaking funny. and did they really use AK (shit i can't rmb the number) guns? lolololol and did the americans really use M-16s? i can't tell guns apart from each other like i can't tell a toyota from a mitsubishi or a honda. and i saw stan lee's cameo. lololol. can't comment if it's loyal to the comic cos i never read the comic. anyway my respect for stan lee has dipped considerably ever since i knew his gameshow about the superhero (read: FOOLZ) existed. omg BLASPHEMY. and OH MY EYES. i think my brain just melted. but then again, when i'm old (AND HOPEFULLY RICH) who knows what WEIRD(ER) things i will come up with. hahahahahaha.

candy empire has NEW RANDOM CANDY! woots. tempted to buy the whole shop and then load the random junk food on to random friends. eh, better not. later they accuse me of making them fat XD

speaking of which, should i wear my red dress tml for Filament Day2? feels odd wearing something other than tee and jeans. and the eu de toilette foongy's mom gave me is nice. i'm an idiot at female stuff, so i was like =O when my mom told me it's quite an expensive range? i also dunno all these stuffs. half contemplating if i should ask sis to do some random makeup for me. *i wanna look goth* but that would result in me feeling utterly scrambled and out of place. very very SICK of seeing my film. i think i will look at people instead during the showing of SotG. felt like a goldfish today in the glass hall with people outside peeking in at us. so i peeked out at them. *wonder who is being watched now* are we in a capsule looking at the exhibits around us, or are we the exhibits in a capsule being looked at by the things around us? it's like the chicken and the egg enigma. only this is the Watcher and the Watched enigma. either way, you need both for the continuum to exist. loop(infinity).

i'm sleepy.
tempted to cabal to 53, but seeing as i'm already a.e and sleepy... maybe i shan't. plus cabal makes my hand pain.

it's funny how people like to be missed but missing someone can be quite a hard feeling. am i too numb, too unresponsive, too unreciprocative, too silent? feel muchly like a robot at times. mechanically sleep, eat, toilet. which reminds me, i have to pick myself up from the resting spot in the rat race, lace my running shoes and continue chasing down the stupid bunny that i can never catch or the proverbial dangling carrot on a stick hanging from my forehead that i can never bite. i need to look for a job, and get lost in the mechanical methodology of mundane brain drain and routine.

to that i raise my glass of full cream milk and proclaim:
"O SIAN!"

(there's a job opening for a company at KL, half tempted to apply for it but lodging is a big question mark... LOL)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:35:00 AM