Wednesday, March 26, 2003

topicless and moodless

been scanning thru a couple of frens' blogs lately. see.. there's zhong's, jes', zesin's, pj's and a couple more. haix.. my life has indeed been a whirlpool the past week.i think i went mad and now i'm paying the price by feeling ill. right now i'm in a sort of stoned state. moodless. i dun even care about anything now. my maths hw is strewn over my chair.. pending. long overdue. tml there's maths. glory glory. i feel so tired of everything.

i admit. i didn't want to go to school on monday. threw a sort of internal conflict kinda hissy fit. finally reached sch around 11.25. thank goodness for jes. i personally wouldn't be able to cope if not for her. she brings color into my monotone ajc life. ugh. i miss all my friends. what's wrong with me. i sense a dark cloud that hovers above me. and the curtains that veil me whenever i come into contact with people so that they won't know what's wrong with me. i think i need to see a shrink. i think i want to be a shrink. conflict. contradiction. as always.

it repeated itself today. i din wanna go to sch today. so i didn't. 1.30am now and i'm still awake. i dunno wtf i'm doing to my body. argh. feeling like i'm internally burning living on borrowed time i'm lagging so bad i can't hope to catch up i just want time to stand still while i gather myself and unscrew this life of mine. sometimes i wish i could restart j1 all over again. wishes. they will get you nowhere.

in the end i had to rush to sch. kinda had to spring out of bed around 1.30pm, bathe, eat, change.. take the damn feeder and then the mrt down to yck... all this trouble just to pass up my damn sat reg form. wtf. stupid unlucky day today. i swear someone cast a curse on me. or perhaps i'm jinxed. ugh. was crossing the road to aj today when my foot felt funny. shit. my damn slipper broke. wtf. what do to? in the middle of the fucking road. so i grabbed it in my hand and ran across, half barefoot. wtf. wtf. wtf. and i thought it wouldn't get any worse than me feeling ill, queasy, internally burning and not myself... and the thread on my button unravelling and me having to wear pants that din have a button.. only a zip. but it held. thank GAWD.

stupid slipper. what to do? so i dragged my foot along. wtf. ppl from aj going home from class. saw some ppl i know. they gave mi this funny crap i-know-who-you-are-lol look. fuck fuck fuck la. knn. i saw peiqiu. she gave me this half smile. uGh... fine. STARE. it's funny aint it. ya ya. _|_ go f.o.a.d. ya, screw urself too.

i saw shuting's fren also.. now i know her name. it's jia hui. my saviour sia. she was about the 3rd person i met. not counting all those others that passed by me with weird stares. wtf. haix.. anw, reli thanks to her. she offered to company mi back to sch to submit that form and stuff... haix... and the thing is, some ppl thot we knew each other well, altho i've only seen her around... reli must repay her.. maybe get her a bdae pressie... ya.. must ask shillingz...

so i hobbled/dragged/went barefoot down that long path back to sch. haix.. feeling dazed and so tiny and i so wanted to go home and bury my head in a 10000m hole underground. ya. twas that bad. suay suay day today. fuck it. in the end, when i reached the carpark, i just gave up. i picked up my slipper, and walked half barefoot to the foyer. the ground damn hot sia. wah lan. ppl still registering for sats. a good sign. haix.. suddenly found out that exact change was required. wtf. hobbled my way over to the bookshop to change money and buy elephant glue. haix.. wanted to reli go and bang my head liao.. *sobx*

sat was most impt. already standing out starkly in my 4s3 yellow class tee, still got funny looks. haix... i blurly handed the man my form.. den he checked it. den i went to the cashier to pay... still blurred... arGh... gone case. ppl making way for me like i was a lost person... out of place and out of pity.... and UGH. i DUNNO.

later after that was done, i went to the study area outside lt1.. saw jessie and minyi.. sat dere to fix my damn slipper.. was already a nervous wreck. hair damn messy. perspiring like crazy. my mind still in a whir.. and still feeling so embarrased. aRgH.. never again. fixed my slipper. what a relief. felt so bad making jia hui wait.. =/ my en1 ren2...

went back to mrt station.. met her fren. later i found out her name is ming2 wei1... ok.. talked... jia hui was taking bus. so i thanked her again.. took mrt with mingwei.. she on the way to meet her bf... which made me think about one guy i know.. i dunno wtf liao. argh. also dunno how to take initiative. wah sian loh. kaox... --' and i think it's quite obvious he likes mi. and perhaps.. (or it used to be) the feeling is mutual. so.. make a move, dammit... --'

went back to tpy.. ppl still staring at mi. i bought tnp.. ugh. just remembered i shouldn't have bought it. aRgH... cos of them reporting the class pic of jas and sarah. wtf. *strangles self*

went home, stoned. went to sleep after reading paper. felt sick. ate. did some hw. went online. still here. tml sure die. ughh... that's enuf update for today. perhaps one day i'll update what i did in the hols.
oyasuminasai minna~

wUv dith~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:46:00 AM

hmm.... finally blogging.. but i think this will only be a v short entry.. been feeling ill these couple of days.. i reli hope it's just the common cold that's been nearly as wildly virulent as sars.... now 69+ ppl have sars in singapore. scary. from 3 to 69. wtf. those 3 women who returned from hk.. knn...

ok.. i've been wondering.. how come ppl ask mi how me and my so called bf are doing? esp in #ajc main? i have no bf! wtf... haix.. ficticious one sia.... and i'm not even looking for one....... *pengz*

eh. this reli will be short.
night...
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:58:00 AM

Saturday, March 22, 2003

gawd i love this song.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:52:00 PM

DMX feat. Eminem & Obie Trice - Go To Sleep - OST Cradle 2 the Grave

[Eminem]
I ain't gonna eat, I ain't gonna sleep
Ain't gonna breathe, til I see, what I wanna see
And what I wanna see, is you go to sleep, in the dirt
Permanently, you just being hurt, this ain't gonna work
For me, it just wouldn't be, sufficient enough
Cuz we, are just gonna be, enemies
As long as we breathe, I don't ever see, either of us
Coming to terms, where we can agree
There ain't gonna be, no reasoning, speakin wit me
You speak on my seed, then me, no speak-a ingles
So we gonna beef, and keep on beefin, unless
You're gonna agree, to meet with me in the flesh
And settle this face to face, and you're gonna see
A demon unleashed in me, that you've never seen
And you're gonna see, this gangster beat on himself
I see you D-12, and thanks, but me need no help
Me do this one all by my lonely, I don't need fifteen of my homies
When I see you, I'm seeing you, me and you only
We never met, but best believe you gon know me
When I'm this close, to see you exposed as phony
Come on, bitch, show me, pick me up, throw me
Lift me up, hold me, just like you told me
You was gonna do, that's what I thought, you're pitiful
I'm rid of you, all of you, Ja, you'll get it too!

[Chorus]
Now go to sleep bitch!
Die, motherfucker, die! Ugh, time's up, bitch, close ya eyes
Go to sleep, bitch! (what?)
Why are you still alive? How many times I gotta say, close ya eyes?
And go to sleep bitch! (what?)
Die motherfucker die, bye, bye, motherfucker, bye, bye!
Go to sleep bitch! (what?)
Why are you still alive? Why, die motherfucker, ah, ah, ah...
...Go to sleep bitch!

[Obie Trice]
We got you niggaz, nervous
On purpose, to hurt your focus, you'se not MC's, you'se worthless
You'se not them G's, you'se a circus, you'se no appeal, please
You'se curtains, you use words, cool heard, slurred in two thousand third
You'se purpin, you'se no threat, who's ya servin?
When lyrically oughta bury you beneath the dirt when
You fuck with a label overseeing the Earth
Shady muthafucka, O. Trice's birth
And as I mold, I become a curse
So we can put down the verse, take it to the turf
Cock and squeeze, and he who reach the hearse is he who
Depicts fiction in his verse
And as I breathe, and you be deceased
The world believe you deceived just to speak
You'se not the streets, you'se the desk
Use not your chest nigga, use a vest
Before two's choose ya rest, you chose death
Six feet deep, nigga, that's the debt

[Chorus]

[DMX]
Hey dog, I'ma walk like a beast, talk like the streets
I'ma stay blazin New York wit the heat
Stalk on the beat, walk wit my feet
Understand my pain, the rain ain't sleet
Peep how I'm moving, peep where I'm going
Shit don't seep, then sleep not knowin
But I'ma keep growing, getting larger than life
Easy-going with the same one that started the fight
He be knowing how dog get, when dog gon bite
Tried to show him the dog shit, it's dog for life
Grand champ, and my Blood Line is tight
Cuz it's all good, it's all right
Niggas tried to holla, but couldn't holla back
Now they gots to swallow, everything in the sac
Blood Line, and, we can go track for track
Damn dog, why'd you have to do them niggas like that?

[Chorus]

[Eminem]
All you motherfuckers, take that!
Here, take this too, bitch! Uh, Uh, Uh, Uh, Waaaaaahoo
We're killing all you motherfuckers dead, all of you
Fake ass gangsters! No more press! No more press!
Rot, motherfuckers, rot! Decay, in the dirt, bitch, in the motherfucking dirt!
Die nameless, bitch, die nameless! No more fame!
Ahhhhhhhhhh! Hahahaha
Yo X, come on man, Obie, let's go, haha
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:49:00 PM

Thursday, March 20, 2003

haha.. dunno.. i feel mean and confident today. been feeling so this past week. lol~ yepyep. it's only a matter of time.. lol~! haha.. den i'll see if this will be successful. anw i've only passed phase 2.. more to come, i hope. reli reli hope. i like this. makes mi feel... good~ haha.. i like the feeling of having higher self confidence n esteem. mmm.. yeah.

i guess it's working. i hope it is. hehehe... wonder what's gonna happen next tho... *hops around* erm. hmm. hehehe.... i might have to help in this.. heheh.. get thru the learning curve. =X

guess i'm being damn roundabout in what i'm saying here. guess u guys will know sooner or later. heh. yep yep. utilisation of assets to the max. ^^
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:30:00 AM

Monday, March 17, 2003

back home now and feeling more or less sorted out, i think. i should start with my initial decision. get him no matter what. yes. dith is on it. dith will get it. i sense something good in the balance if i succeed. could it be that for once, the odds are in my favour?

*hopes*

but it seems that this time, the circumstances are more or less in my favour... yes? i just hope it will fall nicely into place, with me doing minimal work. please work please work. can't pass this chance up. he's too good a catch. argh...

had an extremely L-O-N-G and draggy sms discussion today. i think i blew about 50 sms. argh. that's like what.. hmm.. actually only about 2.50 i think. still, it will add on to my already hefty bill.. =/ sometimes one just needs a listening ear.. thanks! you know who you are! ;)

went to enquire about singnet bb today.. seems i need windows 98 2nd edition. argh. sian1/2 again. nvm. least of my worries anw. *fwaps self* BAKA DITH! argh........
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:47:00 PM

freefall

there's only so much a dam can take. troubled waters swirling over the crumbling walls, wearing away the plaster and stone. until.. finally.. it bursts, swelling into the deep blue sea, venturing further and further beyond...

take heed little one, before your mind is gone...

one tiny word that keeps popping into my mind like a recurring nightmare/fantasy. never before would i have believed this. i guess it's true when ppl say that one never realises what is happening around one if one happens to be the centre of it all...

i am the eye of the tornado. all is calm where i am, but around me, whirlpools of wind lash past wildly...

i am but human. forgive me if i happen to hurt you. unknowingly i might. i apologise.

to err is human, to forgive is divine

it's been hectic this year. gonna be a hectic school year very very soon. gonna be hectic for my feelings too. experiencing ups and downs, lows and highs. and one particular feeling that messes up the infrastructure of the fragile human heart: confusion of emotions.

i dunno what to do.

well, actually i do. just need a listener, a guide, to lead me out of it. i wander in a well-trodden forest, in my heart lies the map. but suddenly i am blind. i only need voices to show me the way. then into the sunlight i emerge, eyesight regained.

it was affirmed last night. dith, you really gotta be true to your gut feelings. they're always 80% correct or so. i know i shut you off, i know i ignored you, dear voice in my head, but it was for my own good too. i need to concentrate. but you keep getting louder, and after sometime, i HAVE to stop and listen to you. to throw everything aside to help you shut up again...

to bind your arms and gag your mouth...

you know what i have to say to all this?
SIAN. JI. BUA.

perhaps i shouldn't continue any longer.. but i just need to push all my thoughts out, before i go crazy, before i become insane. that's why you're here, dear blog, to serve your purpose. =) i'm glad you're always here for me. silent unspoken listening forever.

i would be lying if i said i weren't flattered by all this attention. but perhaps, i'm just thinking too much. was talking to mom today. she said, act clueless, and if so be it, wean them slowly off. like a baby. like a drug. this is life. i am, i truly am flattered, i'm happy, i'm stunned. but at the same time it's pushing me into this precipice, where i teeter and totter wildly about...

arms spinning in the air like two aeroplanes...

if all this were to leave me suddenly, i admit, i would be left feeling empty. empty and suddenly... all would be quiet. like the serenity of a clear calm lake hidden in the middle of a lush green forest.

but like going shopping, i have other choices, alternatives. i'm sorry if likening all of this to mere items were demeaning... but this is how i feel it's all to me. sometimes you see something hanging on the shelf, slightly dusty, slightly dented; scarred, but it draws you near. this is how i feel too.

-----------------------

hunter's bow lies on the shelf
nearly brand new.
set aside for its need is not seen
fishing rod droops alone in the water
the fish won't bite properly
in the clarity of the moment
i see from afar
a young boy with a goldfish bowl
set you free, he did, young carp
new species
fresh and free in the stream
why oh why won't you drift to my rod
and i'll take it in my hands
and reel you out
i spy you from afar
colored scales flashing in the golden light
do you remember me?
i hope you do
why did you forget me?
no one knows
yet i still recall
in the clarity of that day
i met you

can't write in another language. can't write what i wanna write. can't -don't- write. gotta settle for something in encoded english: prose/poetry form, using imagery to carry forth what i wanna say. oh well.. =/
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:50:00 PM

ok well. now i'm disappointed. =(
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:38:00 AM

happy~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:21:00 AM

Wednesday, March 12, 2003

shagged outta my wits.

at home slacking now. only promised that i would go online for only about 1 hour or so. but see la. dith and her usual antics again. nottie nottie. been online for 2 hours already. nothing done. only feeling full, warm and sleepy. not to mention a tad constipated. haix...

cca today was quite fun. we had an uninvited house guest with us. wp.. lolx... sounds like a rodent ne ne? :P well.. perhaps. *winks* but good lar... could crap around and slack around with him and pj.. and kelv occasionally.. hahas... i dun care kelv! it's YOU who is going into that lucrid pink bunny thing! :P hahas... tall bunnies would attract attention. who knows, kelv, you might get bunny gal wannabes swarming over you like bees to honey... XD lolx~ *tries to imagine* O_O

we were just crapping. stretching our minds to come up with lame crappy and not so witty answers.. haix... what to do when one is feeling so damn shagged? wed and i'm shagged outta my hide. aRgH.. gonna die liao.. yep.. today was bitching about huiting.. seems i'm not the only one with this opinion. sometimes guys like gals who are... disliked. to put it mildly. i dunno. aRgH. why does this have to befall such a nice guy? he doesn't deserve this. blehs....

oh ya.. entertainment during cca sia... weird sms's from two weird numbers.. one i forgot to save in my phonebook.. asked mi if i was this person called ginny... somewhat rings a teeny tiny bell in my mind..? hmms.. anw i said i wasn't ginny. i was dith. den the person asked if i was a guy. i replied that i was a gal.... den the sms ended. =_=;;;; weirdness. perhaps that led to the next sms? i posted a couple of the cleaner ones onto my tagboard.. asking if i was open minded, a gal, pretty, horny, whether i wanted a free screw, to meet up, to have my vagina licked. WTF? haix... bloody idiot. in the end, by wp's suggestion i told that perv michael (or so he/she calls him/herself) that he could find mi at my workplace in changi village. and that, no, i din have a vagina that he could lick. lolx~~~ haix...

pj wanted to stay in sch to wait for her dog. see lar.. tsk tsk.. in the end no patience. she went home.. wp and mi drag her also no use... hahas.. he did 20 push ups in the parade square.... whahahas... what a sight to behold.. lolx.. and the j1 guy staring.. prob thot it was live demo of hanky panky in the sch compound... XD haha.. reli looked like it.. i was like ^^U

hmms.. today lao shi and mi on good terms again liao.. mi become her bao bei again.. i guess that's good. she can take care of mi and i can pretend to wallow and bask in her care and concern.... yeah right. *retches* aRgH.. gross! she nagged at mi during chi lesson. like i mentioned in the previous entry. den she talked about some method of making her students study. said she would take her 2 worst students.. (mi and john.. but he's liyun's!!) and if they din work hard, she would make them pak tor around the garden and lim kopi.. bo liao.. actually i dun care. it's all an act. life is superficial. wun it contribute? as usual, teasing went on. din bother mi tho. most of the burden was on him... i just sat there looking innocent but at the same time not wanted it to happen.. looking sincere.. that i would study, etc... =_=; sian1/2 leh lao shi... haix...

today was having the test.. den halfway she walked outta the staffroom.. from behind i could hear the clompclomp of her high heels.. den i felt her hands on my shoulders, den on my hair. today i din tie my hair cos forgot to bring hair tie in my haste to rush to sch. she asked mi in the saccharine sweet voice of hers, dripping with concern, to tie my hair.. hot day.. i half shook my head and tried to return my attention to the compre in chinese before mi... den she said sth to encourage mi and walked away saying my hair v mei3... =_____=;; if i wanted to retort, i would have said that my hair artificial one. rebonded. full of chemicals. =_=;; got hair dye also.. ammonia. blehs.

anw, i finished the test. sort of. haha... den went to 213 met pj, den edited the thing and blogged abit.

ohs.. this morn i met manyi on the way to sch~ company~ stepped outta the train and wahey! it's drizzling somewhat heavily.. =_=; gah.. wasn't precipitating at tpy leh.. manyi also agreed. stupid lar. run like mad for the bus in the end also no need cos raining. -_-; haix.. nvm lar... we walked to the canteen where she refilled her water bottle den we walked to the audi. but she took the longer sheltered path. while mi, the mad one as always, decided to just walk in the now heavy rain across the parade square to the audi. wah sian. i think i heard hoots and whistles from those bloody j1 guys sitting outside that area. cannot be bhb. but i think they saw mi in the rain.. strolling. cock lar. i din look up anw. even if it were for mi, so what? rain so shuang. pelting down my face and hair.. drenching my uniform totally.. could feel water dripping into erm.. my blouse.. XD hahas... met yangxi and amanda outside the audi. they couldn't recognize madwomanwetdith.. hahs... i sure think i looked a crazy mess. drenched with hair all wet. face all wet. :E crazed look on face. anw, we're still faced with the going back to ij problem.. gahs... later walked into audi.. ahhh.. aircon and water... shuang! stood in front of stage at podium there discussing.. saw juan... den we all discussed.. cannot come to conclusion. haix... as usual. blehs... i went to sit with juan's class for chem today... fun. talked alot of cok with her and did catching up.. i miss my juan!!!! =)))) yepyep.. ^^

hmm.. for break today i ate malay stall number 8 for the very first time other than the apok-apok... had rice with 3 condiments. first thing i chose was this funny fish thing in chilli/curry gravy.. den cabbagey veggies and den burgedil.... yep.. i asked for more gravy. $1.80.. but funny. i only got 10cents back. hmm.. nvm lar.. doesn't matter. i wun kick up a fuss... =) lata realised that the fish thingy was stingray.. sok teng got so excited over it.. calling ev1 over to tell them.. erm.. haha.. ok..? ppl kopped abit the eat.. i ate finish with 15 mins to spare.. full arhx~~! reli damn full. but not bad. =) quite nice. :E saw jes briefly after her pe.. i ran errand for jessie with sok teng.. bot her a fish burger n pack of green tea.. she was doing duty in point x... one day she nv come, and all the sales records are one damn mess.. haix.. anw after doing that, i dumped my bag over at the shop den went outside staffroom. test paper not there. so called lao shi... i think i blogged about that earlier....

eh. mom nagging. red blinking things in irc waiting for mi. icq msg waiting for mi... hw waiting... gtg.... tata~ eek now also sms comes in.. -_-;;;;

wUv dith (^-^*)
8.47pm 12/03/03 wed

ironic cynicism

argh. imagine. i load my blog and he's in 213 beside mi. hmm.. actually i knew he was here, i just pretended not to notice him. act blur. that's the best charade. haix... act stupid. that's my best defence. the greatest front. so he called my name. "hey meredith" and i looked up at him, trying to insert the floppy into this sleek black dell comp and i look busy and lost in another world, a slight glimmer of recognition passing across my face for a second while i reply :"oh, hey, hi.." small talk ensues. den nothing. i do my stuff. he does his.

perhaps i was meant to be in eldds after all. or some corrupt version of it. seem to be putting on a false front these days. wonderful shit. act happy when i'm not reli feeling up to it. act stupid when i know i reli am not. act blur all the time. haix.. well, that's just the screwed up life of mi. the bright orange layout reli contradicts what i'm feeling. hahas.. perhaps it might only serve to emphasize and draw out the irony of the situation? =_=; whateva. not reli in an analytical mood right now. surrounded by temptation in 213 in the form of an installation disc by the ever-familiar name of wc3. must... resist. =/ i can just kop from my fren actually. they're all playing. haix.. first thing i do when i get a new and faster comp is to buy wc3! play on lan! arGh~ i NEED~ x_X

dunno how to edit the article. frankly, pj's done such a good job editing it, i can't reli nitpick out any flaws. no matter how hard i look. i did some slight editing tho. she did the bulk of it. now i feel like i'm a slacker. haix.. guilty. =/ i feel guilty when i feel another has done the bulk of the work and i haven't. =( haix.. and to think i was reading about some crap like this in cleo mag during my slacking break in point x earlier on.

supposed to have chi retest at 11.30.. but when i went to the staffroom she wasn't around altho i rang very long on her extention and finally this annoyed female voice picked up and barked a hello. i politely asked in my nicest schgirl voice whether i could speak to mdm foo. that woman growled into the phone:"she's not around." then kinda slammed it down before i could utter a forced teeth-clenched "thank you" argh. bloody teachers. but can't blame them. busy marking our papers. have fun you whiteboard marker lubbers. (can't say chalk no more. times have changed. haix.. miss the chalk.)

anw today wasn't as bad as i envisioned it to be. shit! supposed to stay back and talk to ms tan. haix. but nvm. *shrugs* dunno. reli so blur today. but at least wasn't reli shit now. *checks clothes* at least i'm dry now. that's good. this morning i was nearly late. in a fluster, hair still wet and dripping, bag barely properly packed. i hurriedly shrugged on my uniform and my socks and crammed my stuff into my pocket, slung the bag on my shoulder, was half buttoning my blouse and putting on my shoes. mom yelling from the room while ironing.. telling mi not to go out unbuttoned or i would cause a stir or something to that effect. i reckon it would be mass puking. =X hahas...

i caught a lift, den when it opened, i burst out of it in a rush, walking hurriedly out of the lift lobby, hoping for a familiar sight. for the bus to pass by in a whoosh of catchable air. yep. catchable. i can run after the bus these days. fitness improved! =) yeah~ i was SOOO happy to see it! altho i had to make a mad dash with my wet hair trailing behind mi, my bag was kinda light. and i caught it with time to spare.. so happy. ^^ wasn't late for sch. yep. met chengcheng at tpy mrt. yepyep cheng~ we'll plot plot plot tml night for sunday hurhur~ lolx! XD i might go to milieu on sunday. maybe bluff my mom. and continue keeping my dad in the dark. haix. if he ever finds out i reckon he might blow his top. or is he just shutting one eye and giving mi leeway? no idea. some ppl dun let on how much they know you know.. haix... mi too. i know more than i let on.

haha.. i see kelv across the door in 212. i dunno if he noticed mi. also typing fervently at his keyboard. perhaps he's blogging too? haha.. gahs.
maybe i'll leave with him lata. at least got company.

so yep. back to mdm foo.. i din get into shit. heng ar. better than i thot. but initially she was like nagging at mi in front of the whole darn class. but i'm used to that so nvm. just stared back slightly soured expressionless face.. blehs. kept it like that even when she tried to sing my praise. weird woman. singing my praises. some crap about mi being very intelligent. dun crap lah. i dun give a damn. i'm not that intelligent. stop flattering my bum. dun boost my ego. i will not. give in to your pedestal making scheme for mi. dun shove mi onto this darn pedestal. i am not a god. i am not the most intelligent creature or female in 17/02. just. shut. up. aRgh.
bell rung. cca time. kelv still sitting there. i see when he leave den i leave. or is cca in 212 again? no idea.......

i think i'll blog more about the mdm foo crap on another comp lata in 212. gotta leave ya dear bloggie for now. duty calls.
^-^*
wed march 12 2003 2.30pm

random entry 1h16mins past midnight.

dunno lar.. feeling quite shit now. how come it's so that i always seem to find solace in solving my problems online.. and it's also online that i tend to get the most pissed and depressed? perhaps it's where i show my true feelings. dith unleashed. how interesting. aRgH. i guess it's true. haix.........

Monday. HALFDAY!

perhaps i'll blog about wat i did yest for halfday also since damn blogger wun post my lt1 entry. gahs. =( saddens mi. uGh. damn you, blogger.

yesterday was an ok day in sch.. spent most of the day smsing away. monday. pe day.. argh.. i caught the bus on time in the morning.. so no need extra exercise.. x_X all of my stuff not done. who asked mi to go out go out no rest. whole day somemore... haix.... =( damn shagged ar! arGh....

can't reli remember what i did.. went thru the usual motions.. had morning pe.. ok lar. i din die. spent it in the gym doing crap. 1 round of warm up, den slack slack take weight. saw sancia.. came in to ask mr koh about her track.. den i told her dennis in jalan kayu having praataaaaa.. blehs.

eeks.. was just away reading the pipi and jemjem chronicles.. ahahs.. still so happy for her.. he sounds like a nice guy from his blog.. =) i proud of ya, cheng! oh yah. u put my linky there.. i reli hope mark doesn't know ur blog. lata he see mine den dig out my old old entries. wah lan eh. haix... oh well.

ok.. my stupid fat% in my body composition dropped like nearly 5%? wah.. that's good! =) yay~~ hahas.. all da running reli helps, i guess. gonna have hulky calf muscles. =( blehs. but at least damn fitness is improving.. now 2 rounds is sorta manageable. more or less. spent pe jogging on the treadmill and cycling on the machine.. ah.. slack slack.. =) larky no teacher to spy on us today.. XD mr koh.. actually now i think he's quite nice.. =) yep~ i like mr koh, ms ong even arthur lim! ahahs.. today so siao. that arthur lim. blah! what's his prob? lolx.. xi3 huan1 dou4 wo3 issit??? gahs... i was walking past him down onto the track for pe today.. den suddenly he shouted my name! omg. i din even know he knew my name? -_-;; haix... hahas... he went like: "MEREDITH!" i went "eh?" and whipped around and looked at him expectantly.. waiting for him to issue out an order or say sth.. ahahs.. all he did was say: 'hi~' DIAO! DIAO! DIAO! =__________=; alamakx lohs.. what's with that.. so what to do? i gave him a confused look back and waved and said: "erm.. hi? *weird grin*" farni sia... hahas... din know i so famous around the pe dept.. >.< haix...

so yep. yest did intervals of jogging and non stop cycling for about half an hour or so.. den changed.. only saw steph at the canteen tables .. din see jes.. so anw i just stoned there, my feet basking in the morning sun. gahs. i think jes had a date with paul. heh... din reli talk to steph lar.. mostly stoned there smsing away... i love my phone.. ahhhh.. access to the outside world... =) yepyep... not that sch's THAT dreary, but.... yaah. you get the picture. ;)

argh. mom nagging in the background about phonebill. =( can die. now gotta pay. there goes my entertainment. spend less on food n entertainment! aRgh... haix. good lar anw. can lose weight. shit now i'm addicted to eating in SCH... aRgH... sch food........ *dies*

spent the day slacking around.. larkily tuts also nth much.. yeppers~ just copied stuff off the board.. as usual. lata after sch ended so happy.. can slack off. den remembered chi re test.. aRgH. went to pigeon hole to check. paper not dere.... arGh.. so tempted to SKIP it. so decided to call lao shi. she nvr pick up. on the way to sms.. gonna hit the send button den she appears from the staffroom.. she sees mi, pats mi shoulder.. but her face falls when i tell her i dowan do the test today. blehs. said i had to rush off do sth... (NEED MY ENTERTAINMENT AR!!!) she made mi wait outside. blah. sok teng was with mi.. but she was also rushing... arGHh... finally got my yrbook from the locker.. eeeeeeee that hideous orange thing.. =_=;;; haix... i SO wanna get mi hands on the previous yr's one.... aRGHh.. it's not a want. it's a NEED. XD
hahas.. maybe i just go kope from lib... XD

yep. gave kelvin a ring. toopid guy. in lecture somemore. left his bag dere den went to meet mi at nyp. i walked jessie to mrt first. she rushing to meet mr ajc for movie. dunno if she finally did anot.. ahahs.. baka guy. -_-; den i walked to nyp and called asa on the way over.. alamakx. he reach home le. make him come out again collect notes on partial fractions. feel abit the bad lei.

eh. continue another time. weakest link coming on. JZ! hahahss.... MUST WATCH AR!!!! lolx~

ended: tues 11/03/03 9.39pm

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:50:00 PM

Thoughts outside LT1...

thot perhaps i might blog on paper again. having econs lect now. so i'm generally free to slack around. jessie not in sch today. neither is jes, i think. plus, i'm like so slpy + lethargic now. haix.. wat to do? life in sch. got back my chem test yest. 50% = D grade. just heard there's a retest for those who got D and below. GAH. i guess i brought it upon myself anw. who asked mi not to study? blehs. oh yah. damn mdm foo. uGh. i'm so tired today. jokingly asked her if can dun take test n get zero. she got pissed cos yest i din wanna take the damn thing. early half day yest wat. wanna go out play. have fun, slack around. typical teen behaviour. =/ haix. granted, she has a perfectly GOOD reason to feel this way. putting in so much time n effort for mi. den i'm so... blehs. anw, she said she din want mi to retake the AO chi exam. blast it lah. it's MY moolah, my decision. why dun you just bugger off? like the saying goes, moolah makes the world go round, right? -_-; sian1/2. too tired to go online. too slpy to blog if i do. just spend the time chatting about endless shit. sapping mi of energy the next day, depriving mi of slp. making my mom nag at mi, giving mi damn panda eyes. uGh. =( haix~ bad news. hols equals to zilch. nada. nil. packed with chem lessons so far. haix. gonna spend the march hols cheming away. no time for fun. who needs fun anw? j2 liao. fun shouldn't be in my vocabulary. shouldn't beb in my iteninary, capacity. ='( must force miself to be semi-nerd from term2 onwards or my target of AAAs will be BLASTED to shit pieces. hopes of anything similar will be dashed. can go uni anot? why singapore liddat? must go nursery, kindergarden, primary, secondary, jc, university. those who go by other routes or miss out are kinda looked down upon and osctracized for not being the bright individuals they are perceived to be. hey, there are 6 pointers in poly too, ya know? decisions decisions. it reli depends what ya wanna do, i guess. dun get mi wrong. i'm not saying i'm stressed here. just.... dunno. sian?

today met yf at tpy mrt. hmmm. should i exclaim and say:"finally!" ? -_- at least i think he's now not avoiding mi. but i dunno. uGh. he turned around as he was heading down e stairs and waved, plus he waited for mi to catch up. did he know i was trailing him? like i mentioned before: no. i do not like him that way. verbatim. perhaps i'm just reading it the wrong way...? blehs. today talking to him in the train. asked him wat he did yest. since it was short day. he said he was in tpy watching movie. i looked at him anhd kinda teased:" with who who? =X " ahah.. dunno if it was admittance or a deliberate attempt to keep mi at bay or sth. he sort of half shyly half firmly (with some finality to his tone?) said:" with girlfriend. " hmm. i knew it way beforehand, dun worry. but today he was smsing her, going to meet her. so i bid farewell to him at yck mrt and went off my solitary way, dowan be lightbulb lar.. -_-; anw he also dowan mi around what. (haix. classmate sitting across mi just asked mi what i was doing. i gave a blur face ?_? and said i dunno also. and that i was stoning. yaaah.. right. i'm writing paper blog. and this means, mind ur own beeswax! -_-) haix. nvm lar. i wun admit that i'm writing paper blog. blehs. lata ev1 will want to go see see the site. k.p.o. my life wun be private anymore. sad sad. since i complain alot about my classmates also...

now, where was i prior to that interlude? oh yah. yf's gf. he mentioned before her name is alicia. hmm. offhand i couldn't remember. but after seeing her profile n hearing her characteristic voice today, plus recalling that she's an ij tp gal from 4A1... i think i know who. (update: CONFIRM LIAO) just gotta check the yrbook. if i'm not wrong, it's.. HER.

GOSH. (NO OFFENCE YF..... but......) OMG! OMG! YF YOU DUNNO WHO UR UP AGAINST!! can't believe it. gah. no way. yucks. *faints* him and her............... eEekk.. but watever. as long as he's happy..... *shrug* i still think he's tons way better than her. yep. nvm nvm nvm. to each their own. i still cannot get over this. uGh. later she corrupt him. (sorry yf if you read this. reli sorry. >.<) i just have this... grudge against her, i guess. arGh.... i wun elab. it might get vulgar in here... x_X

as for mi, i got my own private secrets and thots and infatuations and crushes that i wun reveal. wun even wanna admit to myself in the hope that it might just go away. yep. go away. but i keep thinking.. ugH... nearly told master about it. uGh. haix.. was thinking that day about guys also. what does it mean when.... _____ (insert action/gesture/particular behaviour here) yep. wat exactly does it mean. i mean, like all ppl, diff guys have diff standards. like one of my frens. v touchy feely with gals n ev1 else. but there's obviously nth going on. cos he's liddat to all his gal pals.. yep.. and besides, he has a gf. haha.. but for others lei.. >.< dowan to think too much into this. if there's sth. well.. fine. i'm greatly and thoroughly honoured. but pls pls pls. leave mi be until the As are over. i decided i wanna be like nig. carefree and uncaring about all of this shit. other things are much more impt! yeah~ i also agree... =)

hey.. gtg. continue later. rem that i still gotta continue about my tekong trip? =) oh yah. gun or rifle, wadeva. i dun give a damn. cos guess what? it's my blog. i write what i like, erroneous or not. so scram. beat it. blah. =P

tataZ~ ttyl dear bloggie!
wUv dith (^-^*)
10.45am tues 11/03/03 <-- gp lect now!!
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:56:00 AM

Sunday, March 09, 2003

hmms.. update on cosplay. now mi cosplaying gravitation. confirmed liao... as mika.. =)

heh.... i hope i look ok... fat leh mi... i got the top today. exact color.. about the same pattern... my fren has her hat.. and i'm wearing mi tight hipsters... hahas... gah. lol... hilarious.... x_X

if anyone's interested to see us strutting our stuff, it's at taka 23rd march in the basement square. ^^ come come!
(^___^*)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:47:00 PM

okok.. i know i haven't been blogging.. so in zesin's words: sue mi. hahas.... haix... busy busy busy whole week. either that or too damn shagged. now also sacrificing schwork time.. so good.. tml half day! yay! cos we did well in the A lvl results. in fact, i think the entire island did well... =)

shit. damn beetle flying it's ass around. cannot conc.... x_X

i guess first thing i should blog about is the trip to tekong. i might do a short summary... too darn tired to do a long detailed one... i apologize for that. =P

wed: tekong~

so good~ wed was short day.. cca day. not only did i get to legally skip my cca (dun get mi wrong, i dun hate my cca.. =P) i got to slack around in some new fun place... =) out of singapore! (erm. technically? but it's still part of it.. just not on the mainland.. )
i had break from 10.45-11.30.. so was slacking around until 11.30+ when i headed to the canteen to grab some munchies to chew on the bus. i got that cake with red bean filling and a pack of milk pocky! =) moo~

we assembled in the foyer... actually i was supposed to be with my class but after alot of wheedling and moving back and forth, i finally settled with jes, karene and frens.. =) hahas... not that i hate sok teng + li teng, but let's just phrase it that i prefer to hang with jes.. =P you guys must recall that i'm not reli close to my class... =P

yep.. we boarded the bus! yeahhhhhh.... lol... (watch movie sia, jes.. =X) heh... i was like stoning beside jes chewing on mi food.. den after i was done with that i took my med... X) hahas... den we talked cok and stoned outta the window... yep.. bus ride was good.. comfy seats... ^^ we went all the way to changi beach that area i think... then alighted at some place where our belongings were checked thru that x-ray thing by computer.. and we had to pass thru a metal detector... heh.. reminded mi of guesswhat? court! XD yepyep.. metal detectors aplenty dere. =P

hmms.. we were amongst the first few jcs to arrive... sat around in the waiting area on those plastic seats akin to those in polyclinics? hahas.... checked out the sajc ppl, oi ppl, yjc, srjc... got shuai ge ar! =D~~~~ finally twas our turn to board the ferry... =) yep~ ferry! i like ferries.. ^^ we had to walk this bridge thing and a jetty i think... to get to the ferry... looked liked some princess liner.. star cruise... XD bobbing up and down.. i gingerly stepped off from stable ground to it.. the seats were those soft furry seats you have on trans island buses... with the exception of a life jacket under every seat... =) we got in, made ourselves comfortable... interesting ferry.. had two storeys.. a double decker.. =)

our tour guide introed himself.. heh.. jz~ not bad hor hor.. managed to charm ur way thru some of my gal fren's hearts.. =P *fakes a swoon* XD anyway, seriously he was a good sorta host and guide.. kudos! =) ex ajcian.. knows all our traits le.. hahahs.. my attention was kinda shifting around but i listened to most of what he said.. =P beside mi sat two teachers.. irritating whores... =X hahas.. ah.. den we watched this OH SO EDUCATIONAL video on the tv... how to secure ur life jacket.. or some shit. i was staring out the window most of the time. watching the churning water swoosh past as the ferry sped towards tekong.. leaving singapore speedily.. ^^

we reached tekong in record time.. so fast. so sad. =/ haix... i like the ferry trip!

after the ferry was secured, we tramped out and stepped out on reclaimed land.. tekong ar~ =) hopped onto the wibbly jetty and then we walked down this path.. "welcome to tekong" or somesort it said.. with music playing on the speakers.. reminded me of pasir ris coasta sands resort.. somehow.. =D it reli looked like a holiday resort.. sun sand sea... buildings were modern and green... ahh.. so unexpected. i expected somewhere ulu with loads of sand around abit like a construction site/desert... =) surprises surprises... =D

i think there was minimal waiting before we were led in the sun to this monument statue thingy... bronzy looking singapore flag on a pedestal, with a man in army uniform on one side and children on the other.. looking very majestic. i din get the chance to see the children, but i saw the side with the army man.. description and background of statue followed and what it symbolised, etc.. fact of the day: it is 1ｰ hotter in tekong than on the mainland.. =) that explains the mass sweltering going on.. XD

after that we headed to an auditorium. first one in. sat on velvety seats in air con with classical music playing softly in the background. wow.. XD after we were all settled and feeling extremely comfy and sleepy, jz spoke more about life in army, himself, etc.. and answered a few questions.. heh.. sun1 zi3 bing1 fa3! =PpPpPp (wonder if he knows mi blog.. lolx) the other jcs filed in and den we watched a movie on the security of singapore and stuff.. i think? can't recall... was feeling so comfortable... mmmm... fell asleep during the speaker's presentation after the video... Zzz.. head lolling around on the chair.. high backrest.. but my annoying ponytail... in the way... so head lolling around... gahs.. =/

head lolled around until the question and answer session (after the speaker's presentation) was over... half stoned, i stumbled outta the audi into bright tekong sunlight. was only a little after noon, i think... XD early early early~ =D

we piled into a bus if i recall properly.. and headed off to BIC (?) battle innoculation centre? can't reli remember all the abbreviations and stuff.. ahahs.. i got bad memory.. =P long drive dere.. and to imagine jes wanted to walk! x_X wahahs... sure cannot reach by sundown... interesting stuff we viewed on the drive dere.. =) yepyep~ you gotta go dere to see for yaself.. =) it's reli interesting... ^^ despite the heat.. the heat is bearable.. XD

first thing we did was listen to some background info and a briefing... james called mi hp about the milieu party.. oh ya.. derek just pmed mi on irc... asking mi to go.. haix... see first la.. x_X dun tempt mi!!!!! den we were going IN... we collected ear mufflers from the army guys before trekking on sandy/pebbly uneven ground uphill.. heard shots ringing out every few seconds or so... it wasn't that loud... so din reli need the mufflers.. i've heard louder... heh... i love guns. i'm weird. i remember when the army ppl came to my sec sch and we tried out the m-16 and a heavy machine gun mounted on something.. that one we had to wear mufflers while trying out.. and a warning was yelled out everytime it was fired.. =))))))))) wonder what the neighbours thot.. XD XD XD

so anyway there was a short briefing on what we would be seeing. an exercise that would be sort of a simulation of war... crawl from the trench and den drop to the ground and crawl around to the end of the field with your gun and back into the trench before jumping out to safety or some sort. din get a good view. =/ there were real shots flying overhead so they just couldn't jump up on their two feet and run... sounds of airplanes dropping bombs in the background.. oh ya.. from the trench you had to throw out a grenade before climbing out and running to safety... hmms... weirdly interesting exercise...? x_X i dun understand it tho.. hahas....

headed back down the path while sweaty army guys looked longingly at the gals.. (i guess? lol... =P i assume. ahahshs!~) i passed my muffler to one of the army ppl handing them out and he passed it to an srjc guy. srjc only sent guys. what's up with them man.. -_-;;;

we settled around on tekong highway (ie: the road) in a circle of some sort.. i couldn't reli hear what jz was talking about.. everyone was drenched in sweat. could see rivulets running down their faces and their shirts were practically plastered to their backs.. had to make way halfway for a truck to pass by.. important looking guy inside.. o.0 oh ya.. we were also told about the importants of headwear.. berets and caps.. etc.. what color for what rank... can't remember offhand now...

shortly after, we piled into the bus again.. eh. time for a short commercial break:
"ACCENTUATE" Glow(By J.Lo) JCparty@MILIEU(ORCHARD) on 16th March(SUNDAY) $15 per tix. one free drink. doorgifts. RnB and HipHop all night. msg dErEkZ
lol~~~~

so anyway, we were headed to the quarters of a company. i forgot which. but it was an eyeopener indeed.. =)

ArGh.. so many sms flooding in... HOW TO BLOG.. *cries* so many ppl on irc looking for mi also.... gah. continue later.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:16:00 PM

Wednesday, March 05, 2003

amazing...
guess what i found.... after all this time... gahs.... XD

http://www.sggirls.com/?action=photo_display&photo_id=20555
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:49:00 PM

recce on reclaimed land - prelude

TeKoNg!~ today went tekong!~~`
ahhhhh.... new experience outta singapore. finally.
change of scene. =)
and best of all, EXCURSION!!!!!
meaning can skip few periods of sch, slack off, be with my frens, see new sights, and have fun!!!!!!
=))))))))))))))))

hmm..... recap for tues.
was sick. din go sch. couldn't wake up. throat too pain to talk. everything rolled into one i guess.... gahs.. shouldn't have gone all mad n hyper on mon.. -_-; yep... had to cancel movie with kelvin.. hahas... den went to see doc... head throbbing, feeling nauseas... gahs.... after dat went home. mu was in central so decided to meet her. she was heading to QB to cut hair... (mu: you xiu li xiu li hao le mah? =P) waited there for erm. 10 yrs? stoned dere n smsed her... lol.... finally she got her hair cut.... BISHIE ONNA! =X but the back abit the square.. she kept worrying over that the whole way leh... i say bishie means bishie liao.. still must complain... -_-;;;;;

walked around, got drink from macs... went to look at handphone housings for her 8310.. nothing fitting... mu! buy the star wars one! lolx~~~~ went back to hub, took bus, went home.... decided to meet later study....

orh... master smsed mi while i was out with her... asking if i wanted to watch movie with him and his "DAMN YANDAO LEH :D" (his words, not mine) brother of his... hahas.. 21 yrs old... blehs... watching daredevil.... 7.15pm... i declined... din wanna rush to bugis... gahs....

went home to have my solitary dinner since mom and sis were out with their movie premier of star trek: nemesis. soup with thick kind of kuey chap kway tiao with minced chicken and prawns.. bland. but essential to my recovery... =/ went online while i ate... nobody online... sad.

mu smsed mi to meet at 8.30pm her place. twas 8pm liao. packed my stuff ended my session on irc.. packed stuff for her too (sweets, chobits, neko vcd, maths notes) den headed over. quite dark liao. i locked up the house... din leave a note for mom tho.. XD walked two blocks via lorong 7... so heavily under construction.. argh.. blur diao again.... but found her house. called her when i was at her lift lobby... she came down in shorts and tee.... lol... hahas.. we went to the study area opposite to do maths... two guys also studying. physics. could hear them muttering P=F/A etc etc.... XD

time slipped by... soon it was 10pm. mom, kan chiong as ever, called.. gahs.. so finally around 10.30+++++ left... mu walked mi home.. her parents came by on their paktor session.. =X i couldn't say hi tho.. =/ mi too wols.. stopped at bp to get a bottle of apple gatorade for tekong the next day.. mu the PIG (oink!) got two packets of junk food, den put back one when she discovered the beginnings of a snount.. lol... no lar mu. you not pig lar.. =P hahas.... no matter how much u eat you aint one and will never be one... blehs... =P

got home before 11 i think with mu's help.... blehs... all the way to my block... x_X made mi feel bad...
i hope she got home safe...............
went online, irc... den Zzzz.... looked forward to tekong~~~~ =)
ahahs.... tekong tml. damn tired today.

night!
wUv tiredtekongdith (^-^*)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:27:00 PM

chitty chitty bang bang

this is monday's entry.
today i heard about the car that flew a metre onto the mrt rail that caused disruption for nearly 3 hours. whoa.. yiochukang dere also... near my sch. thankthankTHANK goodness i someHOW made the right choice to leave sch after phy prac immed.. XD hahas... went home with jessie... we met shiling on the way and went home together... t'was raining... i supplied my umbrella and they tried to shelter mi cos i was just recovering from my recent bout of unknown illness.. lolx... gahs.

met mom at hdb hub around 5.15... hung around, ate ice jelly at koufu, waited for sis, packeted food.... sis finally came around 6+... they were restocking some goods at the fair outside ntuc... so this man kept loading and unloading this large trolley... rolling rolling i mean. correction. GRINDING GRINDING across the floor, it made helluva lotta noise. thank goodness my ears are more or less used to this with the amount of ppl i have shouting at mi all day.... XD ppl all around covered their ears and grimaced each time he went past. i was looking on with amusement, nearly grinning, hands miles away from my ears.... =P

hmm... if i can recall correctly, twas also a fun day at sch. woke up kinda rushed for time, so din go sch. instead i hung around, ate breakfast, took medicine, did some homework, watched anime, smsed, took phonecalls, chatted to my mom, etc until around 10.45... when i decided to leave for sch. see, schedule's like this: Maths lect, Chem lect, PE PE, break, maths. =)

yep.. new junior (or hopefully junior to be) Green-Tea mj msged mi asking for directions to aj... wah.. i offered to meet her.... so i reached the station around 11.15 den waited... waited till 11.25 den called her to ask her where she was. confirmed she would be late and i couldn't make it for lesson... so i went for lesson. had break at 1pm, so decided to meet her then. smsed her detailed instructions to ajc tho.... =) gives mi a sense of security.. =P dun call mi extra. hahas.....

yep... after chem had to deal with something regarding that damn chem file again. lugged it back to sch for monday... gahs.... in the end, all the wanted to do was take a tiny look at it, write ok in his file and tell mi that it would be sent for HOD checking after march hols.

"but.." i protested... "i haven't... it's not.... complete" i whined..
"that's the whole point." he smirked before returning mi my file.
GAH.
but nvm. make mi do all my chem tuts.... i got tons to do. at least my chem will improve.... =)

hugged my chem file downstairs to lt1 study area where i dropped off my bag and file and took my wallet... went to 213 to look for junior... hmm... saw two gals nearby... but i went past to peek inside the lab... weird stares from inside... ^^;;;;;;;;; oops?
turned back and walked towards those 2 gals.. gave them a frenly grin den hopped around the area... she decided to gimme a call.. yep.. twas mj and fren... hahas... YEP.. i LOVE MEETING NEW PPL....!!!! so EXCiTiNG ne ne!!!!!!!!! =))))))

so i gave her a personalised dith tour around aj~~~
hahas.....

i showed her the area that she was in.. block 2.... den walked to foyer.... showed her the locker, the pond.. the study area, the bookshop, lt1, LL, block1..... the grassy area behind block1 and 2.... den we headed upstairs to the lib..... showed her comp area.... went downstairs... first timers always find those stairs ricketty and tricky... XD but i'm used to it liao....
cracked lots of stupid corny jokes and made alot of comments.. hahas... i was in my super hyper frenly ready to meet ppl mood.. =)))) showed her the discussion rooms, the yearbooks.... took a long time looking thru that.. i showed her mickey tan, and mrs tay.... some pe teachers... some of my teachers... hod of phy.. mrs ho... =X hahahs!!!! showed her some classes, etc.... =)

after poring over that, we headed outside. peered down at the canteen. i showed her the little shortcut thru the grass where the pavillion is. the blue sculpture, the canteen, the hall.... etc... yeps.... hmms... later we went downstairs.. i showed her block 10 and 11... the reading room... pe dept.... our lovely technicolor track area.... hmms.... lounge.. ran into alot of ppl i knew on the way: Theng Yiu, one PE teacher whom i dunno the name of, but funnily he knows mi... -_-, ms ong.... hahas... pe teacher again.... a couple of frens... ty... my nu`er candice.... hmms... gave them quite a fright: "YOUR DAUGHTER???" *puzzled stares* lols... my illegitamate love child in aj... lol... shh... =P met my class as i was passing by block 4.... gp lesson.. i asked dem where.. "422".. hahas... bell had already gone. while walking back to foyer, passed the stairs to sci labs.. saw mrs leow coming down. she din see mi... rushed past to study area, got my bag, met yangxi... lols... den hastily this host bid farewell to her charges and made a mad dash to 422... i met theng yiu on the way.... hahas... so crapped with him while i made sure that it was inDeeD at 422... mrs leow not inside.. think she went out again to get some stuff as her things were dere.... =)

yep... pretty much nothing much.. cept for phy lab... we did design expt... pingpong ball... wat factor determines its bounce n to quantify that, etc.... ok lar. no doing. just writing. so i wrote till time was up.... handed over my mcs.. did some corrections that she went thru... den went home. it had begun to rain halfway thru as usuall.... wonder why lab sessions always induce a spell of precipitation.... XD

yepyep... so left with jessie, etcetc....
came home watched anime went online, etc.... =)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:26:00 PM

change of tune

[01:24] <|ceF|sT> anyway ... i gtg slp le
[01:24] <|ceF|sT> still got long day ahead tml
[01:24] <|ceF|sT> still got long day ahead later
[01:25] <|ceF|sT> byebye ... n get well soon!!

-_-;;;;;;;;
that was from the guy who infuriated mi just a few weeks ago.... gah....
he's lucky i'm so forgiving, but i dun forget.
remember:

i. don't. forget.
ever.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:27:00 AM

Tori Amos - "A Sorta Fairytale"

on my way up north
up on the ventura
i pulled back the hood
and i was talking to you
and i knew then it would be
a life long thing
but i didn't know that we
we could break a silver lining

and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you

things you said that day
up on the 101
the girl had come undone
i tried to downplay it
with a bet about us
you said that-
you'd take it
as long as i could
i could not erase it

and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you

and i ride along side
and i rode along side
you then
and i rode along side
till you lost me there
in the open road
and i rode along side
till the honey spread
itself so thin
for me to break your bread
for me to take your word
i had to steal it

and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you

i could pick back up
whenever i feel

down new mexico way
something about
the open road
i knew that he was
looking for some indian blood and
find a little in you find a little
in me we may be
on this road but
we're just
impostors
in this country you know
so we go along and we said
we'd fake it
feel better with
oliver stone
till i
almost smacked him -
seemed right that night and
i don't know what
takes hold
out there in the
desert cold
these guys think they must
try and just get over on us

and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this
day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you

and i was ridin' by
ridin' along side
for a while till you lost me
and i was ridin' by
ridin' along till you lost me
till you lost
me in
the rear
view
you lost me
i said

way up north i took my day
all in all was a pretty nice
day and i put the hood
right back where
you could taste heaven
perfectly
feel out the summer breeze
didn't know when we'd be back
and i, i don't
didn't think
we'd end up like
like this
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:16:00 AM

Monday, March 03, 2003

today while i was having my long warm bath, i was thinking bout prom, fitness n studying.. lol! see see~ not so much on bgrs... hahas... well abit. n i was thinking bout mi frens...

prom! wanna have a makeover.... sparkly black sexy dress... maybe halter, somewhat bareback.... =D glittery jewelery.. or jus a sweet silver chain and pendant.. =) need to get nice heels... hmm.... do my hair.. i want the edges slightly tousled n curled.. hmms.. heh.... i'll get clip on earrings... lol.... and maybe wear some ear cuffs.... mms... i want nice makeup too! lols.... wth am i thinking bout prom so early.... hahaha..... gah

fitness.... i wanna work out at the gym! nono.. not another jojo sinclair.. hahas.... just wanna be toned... esp arms n stomach.... =) yep.. mu say she'll go... yay! dunno what to wear tho.. nvr been dere.... x_X

aye.... studying.. wanna fa fen tu qiang! for term 2 i wanna be SEMI NERD AR!!!!!! [ｯ]-[ｯ] lol!
haix.... so many thigns to do , so little time.....
ah..... cheng said she's interested in psychology! i think i'll join her... =) heh.............
hmms... maybe this week i'm watching daredevil.... hahas.... eek.... 4th march is premier of nemesis.. hahas.. mom n sis will be at prince theatre beach road.. lol~ i think i'm watching on tues too... hahas..... blehs.
bb~ telemarketing ppl said they gonna call tml from 2-7! =D
first thing i'll do is dl mp3s n hotchick...... yay!!!!!!!!

hahas......
gtg...
wUv betterdith (^-^*)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:03:00 AM

Sunday, March 02, 2003

ehs.. cannot load blog..... =/
oh ya.. test test.... i'm eating beef pepper flank steak with gravy and mushrooms and celery and pek cai.... lol
dinner at 11.15pm... gahs
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:17:00 PM

hahas.. eating dindin n blogging.. think my one-handed typing's improving by leaps n bounds.. altho i must look at e keyboard.. lolx...hmm.. i think i might be cosplaying come 23rd march....

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ahahas,.... mi in a tank top... sigh.... too overwhelming huh... mi n my fat arms.. besides i dun think i look good in tanks.... =/ gahs.... but nvm, i'll try... =E

heh.... as you guys can tell... dith's feeling muchios betterZ!!!! =DDDDD
congrats to cheng also!!!!! =))))))))))))
where's mi ang bao? lol
i'm in no rush to get attached tho.... heh.... for wad, rite? =P

aye...
bbl~

...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:07:00 PM