Sunday, August 31, 2003

cynical

w00t. still feeling cynical this morning. mmm. later going out to sorta give maths tuition to a bunch of people. older than me also. lol.. hai. and i'm gonna try to finish the nyjc and another prelim paper my maths teacher gave us to do. altho monday is a holiday, that is NO EXCUSE to SLACK. but i am. slacking, that is. monday going out to sentosa loh. must get something nice for cheng. hai. (whoops. cheng reads this. XD) dunno what she like leh.... must go read her blog for cluesssssss. x)

phone is shitting on me now. hai. buttons cannot press properly. grr. i hate it. x( ya loh.. so now my sms speed super decreased. and i hate smsing ppl now.. gomen gomen. >_<~ hai hai.

yesterday was cocked up also. wah seh can you say sian day? x( oh well. and i got mad at mark. ya la.. always get mad at him. but he seems to anger me the easiest..... so don't be stupid, dith. don't EVER reconsider getting back with him yea, ger? oh well. always pisses me off. ALWAYS. x( insensitive guys......... uGh. but he's not a jerk la..... aiyah. sheesh. so i guess it was a good decision at that time.................. bleh. hai, i do miss that sweet life zesin and justin and pj and some other people i heard of are having. wah seh. but oh well. i've long given up on it liaos. i'm now convinced that i'm too fat and ugly. hehehe.. i shall look for a farmer to buy this sow! yeahhhh. at least got money and free lodging. and i dun need to worry about what they will do to my corpse.......... bwahahhaa.

ok, i'm going mad. uGh. i shouldn't be thinking about this. so many fucking things on my mind right now i don't need this. i don't need this i don't need this i don't need this i don't need this i'm going crazy totally. uGh.

gibberish, dith. plain gibberish. why do you waste web space typing nonsensical shit? hai..... time to seal my heart, dust the cobwebs off my brain. cut myself off from society. HERMIT DITH SHALL STUDY? (hah. promises. you. will. never. keep. dith. yesssss.) i'll keep it! (no. you. won't. you. will. break. it. after. a. few. days. PROCRASTINATION) hai, i guess i'm like that. but a few days are better than nothing right? then i'll re-promise myself and it should be fine, right? (hah. what. an. innovative. way. to. slackkkkkk.)

don't. talk. to. yourself. on. your. blog. it. aint. healthy.

hai....... i forgot what i wanted to say. shall i talk about friday? but the happiness is fading awayyyy. x(
anyway i did alot of running around. when they said the pd reps could give the presents to the teachers, i contemplated for a (long) while and then i got up from my place on the hall floor to give my teachers the presents. i gave mdm foo first because she was the closest. gave her 100g of toblerone. lol.. she was happy.. i think. (motive: make her FAT. wahahha) next i gave my first three months chinese teacher an apple i tied a silver ribbon on. lol.. she's so nice..... :D long ge was behind so i gave him another toblerone. bwahahaha.. then i ran outside to look for *ahem* megan. XD XD XD i dunno why people hate her so much.. ok la, her tongue can be acid, and she can be loud and beetcheeee and stuff. but hey, it's a female's prerogative mah. ;p i gave her a stalk of the tiny white daisy-like flowers. and i gave her a cute little apple (whoo dith biasssss) she said: *touched* you're always so thoughtful, thanks meredith. hugs. and she gave me a bEEg huGGgg. x) ahhhhhhhh. finally. :X LoL. later i ran to e staffroom to look for whoever (like sai ghor, kim thye, huay lian.. etc.) but they not there. saw mrs ho tho. lol.. so i gave her a apple n wished her n her baby well. ^^ LOL, she said my apple so cuteeeeeeee! XD one apple came untied so i saved it for ms goh. smsed jes that i finished, and arranged to meet her outside kfc there. wah bez leh she. pon school cos of swollen eyes. hahah. like stef said, she must've been watching 'an zhang de dong xi ba' XD XD XD

wah seh zhong.. thot u decade fren. pang seh us. ;p never come for poiching gathering loh.. haha..

ok lar. i gave pj darlin' a stalk of flowers too. lol.. and jes a toblerone. she said "since my son dowan i take. anyway he should rang ge mama what." bleh... jes you pEEg ;p hehehe.. we walked to amkss and stood outside the gate chatting. i said i felt so sia sway. cos my school ijtp ma.. later ppl think i from amkss.. wahahahha.. met huiping.. gave her a hugggg. yeah! later i walked to amk mrt and then took mrt to orchard to meet mu, auyong and owl.. hahahs.. only could hang with them for 1/2 an hour den had to zao to tpy mrt. met yingzhi, beeching and caixia.. ahhh. 2 aj and 2 rj kia. hehehe.. took 238 to poiching. wah seh. bus routes changed. walked quite a distance. hrm.

eh i think i shall continue when i come back kaes. late.
hai.

contination

so i'm back home.

what am i doing? eating blueberry/butterscotch paddlepop.

bleargh.

okok. so we reached. hehe.. saw vivian there waiting for us. walked in and saw xuanrong junjie and hua yu waiting for us on the top floor.. haha.. trundling upstairs on those now-too-small stairs we met up and chatted with ms goh. took photos also.. lol. then went to canteen to wait. some went to see ms phua. when school was dismissed the 9 of us went to a nearby coffeeshop for luncheon. hehe.. we treated ms goh. wah only paid $5 each loh. ordered one giant hor fun chan mi fen, snake fish, tofu, some meat.. dunno.....

aye shit. sis finished bathing. i shall relinquish the comp to her. bbl

re-back

hai. this is the dunno what attempt to finish this fucking entry. ok so. we finished eating and crapping. wahha tuan yuan fan! :D kai xinnnnnnnnn! erm. junjie had to leave.. so he left. suddenly after awhile chorliang passed by (BY CHANCE! AHH) and joined us. then he called tzehee to come.. haha.. so tzehee came looking kinda sleepy (LOL. HE WAS ABOUT TO SLEEP) wah sia la. all of us cannot recognize him. hehe.. he lost his puppy fat. XD so we later took group piccies. yay. then departed... yingzhi + beeching went to yingzhi's house. xuanrong and huayu left with ms goh... cai xia took a bus home.. so left me, chorliang, vivian and tzehee. guess who we bumped into at ze bus stop but yongfeng! wahahha.. vainpot was in the toilet nearby making his hair nice nice (but still look the same :X shh don't tell him XD) he said he saw us taking pics but he was in toilet. sheeesh.

anyway later vivian had to leave. so left me and 3 guys. wahahha win liao. always the case. wahahahah. we strolled back to poiching after some discussion.. so went to staffroom to stone. huayu was there. heh. we all grabbed seats.. air con comfortttttttt. mm. anyway. both hua yu and chorliang went back to see ms phua again! lol.. and tze hee and me and yongfeng were chatting.. then ms goh's ex student also came in. LoL. so we three were chatting. geez, i just ADORE chatting with them. *sigh* i wish time had stopped there and then ok. x( haix.... but it didn't. aiyoh. oh ya. zhijian also came in halfway. wah win liao loh. sOME DAO KIA say he DOWAN to come LOH. gEEz.in the end all go see ms phua. left me and tzehee. (since we both from 4c) so we went walking around the compound taking piccies since ms goh went home liaox... she had so many pressies she had to take a cab. hehes..

continue laterx. now bz.

back to typing this entry..

anyway we hung around the school till like 6.. when the school closed. lol.
lalalala.... then i was so shagged i went home instead of joining mu, auyong and owl.. gomen gomen! hontou ni gomenasai!~ bleh.... that wraps up my friday i guess.. doesn't seem like much, but it was probably one of the best days of my life! :D i love re-knowing old friends! i love re-making good friends out of them! LET'S DO IT SOMETIME SOON OK! ahahahahahhas........

wonderful. :D~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:08:00 PM

Saturday, August 30, 2003

weird.

today i learnt some things that i already knew. maybe it is appropriate to say 'remembered'.

1. people change.
2. some people are just plain weird.
3. some people change only subtly. =)
4. the best years of your life was in your innocent unplagued youth.
5. feelings aren't special unless they're rare. ^^
6. one cannot control everything. so take things in your stride.
7. do not be quick to blame others. consider what you did first.
8. some people make assumptions too easily.
9. being vulnerable sucks.
10. blogs aren't private. yet we think they are. what false sense of security is this?
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:35:00 AM

Friday, August 29, 2003

shit man. why is my blog back to normal? x(
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:25:00 PM

OMFG I HAD SO MUCH FUN TODAY! AHHHHHHHHHHhhhhh
i love primary school gatherings!
XD XD XD XD

will try to blog about it later.. sis gonna use soon.
AHAHAHAHAHhahahahas
*dreamy sigh*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:22:00 PM

Thursday, August 28, 2003

once again i am compelled to stay online?
hai.
WIN LIAO LOH DITH.
you're like jingjing. don't think with your brain man, use your BUTT gal! my ass....... =|
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:14:00 PM

finally

(^___________^) YAY! oops. gp essay has to wait. (^__________^;)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:45:00 PM

words

reading a friend's blog re-jolted my brain into thinking again. i thought i promised myself not to think about these things until i can truly find the time to afford to? seems i have failed myself again. i went crazy after watching mars last night. maybe that's why they say mars is the god of destruction and war or some sort. i loved the energy and madness and power it lent to me. maybe it was also due to crazy me downing two cups of teh tarik and possibly going for more if my mom had not stopped me. was totally shagged last night. my attempt to caffeine-overload myself backfired and i ended up just crashing, slouched on the chair.. and slept for gawd knows how long.

take note that i used re-jolted. because my mind was already beginning to enter p2pr analysis mode anyway. see la. hyper all day, now entering calm, then low. win liao loh dith. i should learn to trust myself more. but still. people aren't maths questions. you can't enter the variables into a formula to get the result. you. just. can't. so i am not quick to infer from what i see. i've learnt from that. the hard way. last year i inferred so much i nearly killed myself (figuratively. don't worry your heads) over all the stress. geez. but i sure love drowning in brood and misery. i'm crazy, i tell you. absolutely.

weirdness. why do i still feel these waves emitting from him. are they wrong signals that i'm tuning into or something that has been going on since i felt them last year? *sigh* but it seemed to natural to him. like nothing. so i guess it's nothing? can't say that i dislike it... because seriously if i were to consider him, it would be possible. let me be honest with myself. the possibility is like... really high. either this is how he treats gal friends who he feels closer to.. or unknowingly he's hinting to me. or what? i can't understand guys. can't understand people. but i thought i felt something amiss last year. and i still feel it now only stronger? i do not know either. enlighten me.

geez this really sucks. i shouldn't even be blogging about it. but i guess i should unload what's weighing down my thoughts so i can actually finish up my long overdue gp essay for my teacher tomorrow. i went out after school today. bought apples with the help of my sis (cause i can't choose them for nuts) bought silver ribbon bought a discman pouch bought toblerone for 3 lucky teachers/people. bought some flowers. (actually i wanted to give the pe dept black chrysanthemums. but i'm not that evil. not while i still have my A levels to go. heh.) today was a good day. socially. and i was totally hyper the whole day. i felt like dancing around the whole time or skipping around. i felt like this last evening too. i could have sworn this guy from my pe group gave me a weird look. o.o; sheesh. dith stop imagining things.

yesterday was fun. whEe~ on a whim i stayed back initially to accompany shuting who was late and had to wait till 6pm to collect her ezlink card. suddenly sok teng, manyi, jocelyn and liteng also stayed back together. and we (some of us) decided to watch mars later. funnnn. as expected, we slacked and gossiped. we laughed, chatted.. shared secrets. compared stuff. lol. like we were saying how funny and weird it was that none of the guys we ever liked had the surname Li. (or Lee, or anything sounding remotely alike) lol. and we compared how many guys we liked in the course of our (nearing) two year experience in jc. the mode answer was around three i guess. i said i liked five. which, isn't really exaggerating. cause i think my heart changes quickly. *sigh* or sometimes, not too quickly. or. multitask. geez. i sound like a total whore here man. who cares.

ended up gossiping until shuting and manyi left around 6.30pm. jocelyn left around 7 for dinner. and me, sokteng and liteng were left. definitely quietened down. did some maths, and soon before i knew it.. 7.30. mars viewing ala astronomy club. walked around with sok to the lib. tried to find jeff but failed. tried to find steph but he was absent. -.- saw xiaojia's name but still dunno.... saw an alwyn. but definitely not. tried to look for my seniorZ but unfortunately the wrong year. and lun still has my yearbook. *sigh* later we went to the toilet. lol. not that dark and scary la. but just as smelly. hahaha.. oh wells. what to do? toilet = place where waste matter is deposited ma. body's sewage has to go somewhere right.

of course my lover beat me to the lt. so i was the piggy. oh bleargh. the presentation on mars was nice. heh. the lights were dimmed and i couldn't see anyone cept for my lover sitting middle centre. bwahaha.. cheeky thing! ;p so i was surprised to see who else but roy. LoL geez. he came over and we chatted. yup. me in chatty mood since yesterday 5pm. oh well. kills the brain, ya know.

finally we had the opportunity to head for the track and look into the bEEg telescope. wah mars so small like how i describe: "a blot of indian curry dripping down the lens". hehe.. so cute ok. then me and lover lay on the track (first without mat, then with the mat) looking at the constellations. scorpius and saggi so cute. *sigh* lol, my flabby stomach was fully utilised as a pillow yesterday. wahaha. "soft" somemore! geez. guess who i saw too. yes. he came for the viewing. or rather, they. got eye candy to see loh. haha.. dith ar.. this also fun? crazy beetch.

couldn't eat my mars bar so i gave it to lover. lol. we threw (or rather, i) it into the sky and it hit some guy on the head. LoL. so funny. extra topping. ;p spent a lot of time just lying down (ergh. you nearly squashed my boobs. XD) and talking. reflecting. stoning. viewed mars through the telescope a second time, then decided it was time to head home. school was closing anyway. saw roy lying on the grandstand benches. lol, can only recognise people by their silhouettes.. haha.. and no, i didn't abandon sokteng ok. she was with another friend. and i was too busy getting to know lover anyway. :X bwahahha. take that whatever way, it's intended.

dillydallied to the mrt station as usual. study area rather abandoned. my stuff strewn in a mess over the table was untouched. lol. packed my bag and got nagged at (tell your mom to spank you ah!) and guess who we were behind? ya loh. lover and i got the same taste. one day must attack him with a scalper. scalp the poor fellow. hahaa.. poor guy doesn't know what's in store for him. bwahahah.

ran for the train again. a repeat performance of the morning's. sheesh. sat down, stoned. watched roy yawn. geez he's like a lil bro to me. haha.. at macs i discovered my phone batt finally died on me. LoL. and yes, i use FINALLY. because i was practically abusing its juice. radio, sms, call, regular pressing of buttons etc. all when it just left one batt bar. wahaha. i'm surprised it didn't conk out earlier. reached home, mom was kinda flustered cause she couldn't get me. LoL. and my sis didn't want to listen to me speak of mars for she missed it. she could've come, but. i had fun without her anyway. =)

had dinner (without rice), stoned, chatted. and family outing again. ecp. lol. sis took really long trying to locate mars. and passer-bys kept exchanging words with us. we set up the telescope in the carpark. lol. the ecp f2 carpark. i so wanted to go for a walk on the pier. but i didn't get the chance to. *sigh* next time if i'm free call me if you're going there k? anyone. ;p

went to Lau Pasat after. twas around midnight. had satay and teh tarik in the middle of the road they sectioned off. heh. i missed it!!!!!!!! XD reached home around 1+am. geez. of course was too shagged. but sis was awake till 4am. omfg. i think i ponned physics lecture today unintentionally. was trying to be nice when i agreed to accompany my friend to the einstein lect. but shit man i missed out on sai ghor's lecture on charged particles. x( and i really really need help in that. jay chia didn't come. i think some people later said we were to join the newtons group. but a few didn't. sat there and slacked. oh well. "ehruashfafjs sjskjfkda kajkns shjioaoadnk adkawiohdn wjojoaj ajoaj opadojoas ahoahs asaohdaho"

sometimes i think being a cancerian is tough. although we are crustaceans and have a hardy exterior, we're actually very vulnerable inside. *sigh* it's hard keeping a relationship platonic unless certain 'barriers' exist. for me they're age, looks, habits, etc. character attracts me.. along with ease, brains and looks. i guess if i don't take note of my actions, i would practically fall for any dashing/cute guy with whom i click with? geez. i'm a weirdo.

haha..
i sure as hell don't want a repeat perfomance... yet i still hope. doesn't make sense eh? it wasn't supposed to. was never supposed to anyway. =)
gp essay awaits.

a very good night to one and all.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:36:00 PM

Monday, August 25, 2003

reminiscent grin

sheesh. i remember i was in a state of reminiscence during one scene in holland v. it's bad.. utterly bad. but it made me recall what i felt. sent chills up my spine. chills of schoolgirl delight. *sigh*

i know it's hardly even been a year.. but. still.
although it's at the back of my memory, i can still will the memory back. and it seems like yesterday, although it feels so distant and strange, as though it all happened in a movie in another dimension.

and when i read back about it.. i feel embarrassed and weird. yet still.......
lol.
this is getting too sick.
i'd better get back to studying for my physics test tomorrow.

tataZ~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:48:00 PM

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Sunday, August 24, 2003

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...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:58:00 PM

Saturday, August 23, 2003

The Fool

i think i really am a fool.
human error. human error.
i feel so dense.
so base.
so thick.

i can't believe myself.
and i shan't elaborate
for i do not wish to become the laughing stock of the century.
but at least it's working now.

*click.*

why didn't i see it?
such a simple solution.

*click*

geez.
shoot me.
technology is slipping from the grasp of my simple mind.

perhaps it is corruption.
over years of forced conformation of thought.

my brain isn't mine anymore.
it's for sale.
any offers?
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:12:00 PM

Friday, August 22, 2003

atashi no himitsu wa doko ni?

sometimes it's painful when all your secrets are splashed out onto the world... just like that.
your whole life isn't yours anymore but everyone's GOSSIP.
well.

wobuzhidtaogaizthenmezuogaeosqhulequafnbudemismihaishibeihendugorenfaxianfwangjhiwangluobusyhiyigewumhingzhiwodeshijiefangerwoyegenhenduorenjianguomdidanyerengshihenduochonglnaliderenniweishenmeyaohaiwowomenbuwshihaopengyoumehnijidaoniyijingshanghailewoduoshaocilemawodexinqishihenrongjyibeitdasuidewofziburangrenkaneryihaikeshikesahiatashinoshengshuowahimitshujanailewornizhidaomaqkuanbusekainoningendoukantoulewoleurusaiyohbakerowodeshengmingbushinidebaguawanjuhegongyuanweishenmedoushitenotomodacshidoushitezhenshitaibukesiyilewogaizhenmebanhaimeihuajianglenishuone.

hmm. walked around in bishan today. quite fun. dragged my mom to eat teppanyaki with me. lol. then we bought mooncake! but sheesh. the discman i bought is kinda faulty. ugh. remote control spoilt. why? ugh. trust me to be down on my luck. hai.

i'd better arrange a meeting with a taoist exorcist or something. wear a talisman around my neck or whatever. maybe the fats in my body are bad for my fengshui and chi.

okok. this is lamer and lamer.

bye.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:49:00 PM

Wednesday, August 20, 2003

GaL at WoRk

lol, i'm busy cooking out another schemeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
*rubs hands with evil glee*
muahahahahhahaha
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:52:00 PM

Sunday, August 17, 2003

sick.

i'm sick.
cos of a person's pm.
EW.

*sigh*

anyway i watched LXG on saturday! kinda an impromptu thingy. went with michael to watch it. lol.. hehe.. actually i was resigned to my fate of staying at home doing my homework and/or studying. mmmm. saved me from the hell of drudgery. ahahas...

mmm.

i wonder....................................=)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:20:00 PM

Wednesday, August 13, 2003

non-believer

sometimes i feel as though i'm living in a dream...
and nightmares are my true reality.

why is it when you're having fun... it all seems too surreal?
when you come back to earth and get your two feet back on the ground.........
why doesn't all that happened feel real? or believable? =/

weird.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:13:00 PM

Tuesday, August 12, 2003

tuesssssssdayyy

lol, today sch finished at 3.15. wahooo! zzz. fell asleep in like 3 lessons. hahahs.. gp, chem... well. make that two then. =D wasn't a bad day today.. ahahas... altho i kept smsing in class. and. my phone STILL cannot vibrate! uGhX. =\ was late for sch today. sux sux sux. hai... they recorded my name as usual. cos they KNOW me already. sux, yea. i bluffed them i lost my ez link card. (ya. same OLD lame excuse. hahas) so i wouldn't have to stick my butt in sch till 6pm to collect it. might be from CHANDINI MANI again. unreasonable bitch. be polite also wanna pick fight with you. like the whole damn world owes her something. or at least, ppl younger than her. or people she can command. or. people whom she think wouldn't benefit her 'niceness' and/or deserve her respect. two faced bitch. well. there are many people in this world like her anyway. lol.... just don't mix with em la. ahahs.....

so i ran off before filling up e cwo form. ewwies. *blinks* i'd better not be late. or cat ang will kill me. sux sux sux.

hehehe... i owe phy revision homework on Physics of Fluids. lalala. shall go do that soon. mmmmm
cyasssssssssssssss. ;p
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:13:00 PM

Monday, August 11, 2003

pathetic creatures

..we humans are.

well.

well well well.

you've done it this time, haven't you?

well. i don't care.
i don't freaking care anymore.

i've got my blog and i'm happy.
i've got my friends and i'm happy.
well. some friends.
=)

yeah.

your loss i guess. your loss.

my life still goes on.
my happening wonderful life.
studyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

yes.

study dith study.
=)

if a guy with all Ds can be top student, why can't i get all As?
^^
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 8:16:00 PM

Sunday, August 10, 2003

38 years it has stood alone.

hmm. first off. happy bdae singapore! lol, i know this is abit too late, cos i'm past the 12am mark, but who cares. didn't go for the parade like always.. ahahs.. they should do a cycle sorta thing.. like give tix to diff grps of ppl each yr or something... instead of relying on connections or luck.

went out in the late afternoon / early evening. ended up at sakae. ate until i thot my guts would do the twist. well, no la, i'm exaggerating. just felt relatively sick after. i've felt worse before. this time it's just full. lol.. been sometime since i've been totally full i guess. haha.. stomach shrinks after awhile, yea?

well. i guess i could kinda say i had an encounter of different sorts today. it wasn't bad. no it wasn't. lol.. it was actually quite nice. haha.. i guess it's easier teasing ppl thru the written word than the spoken word? which might also show that i spend TOO MUCH TIME ON IRC. my interpersonal skills might be going down the train. i guess this sucks? lol..

anyway jes and mark so bad!!!!!!! go out watch ndp/set off fireworks also bo jio!!!! ah wells. i prob din miss much anyway. lol.. i guess if i dun think about it i also wouldn't care. i mean, if u start to drift away from something, it won't matter so much to you anymore. like tv. or ppl. or hobbies. or whatnot. haix.... and of course there are ppl/things whom/which one would totally LOVE to be RID off. for LIFE.

i watched Home Run yesterday. planning to catch Children Of Heaven on wednesday. =) i actually have decent comments, maybe even praise for the movie. ^^ it's really a masterpiece. altho i downgrade it a bit because he got the main gist and many scenes off the original Iranian Art Festival award winning masterpiece. ;p

BUT. i have high praise for the setting and the props. yesssssssireeee. i felt like i was in newly-independent singapore. even its opening coincides and complements the nation's birthday. well done. appropriateness. =) nostalgia. i was reminded of primary school days. or my kindergarden days. when everything was so simple and fun and innocent. wonderful stuff. i wish i could go back to that time. mmm. now everything's so..... eyer. =
but. like my gp teacher said. young ppl shouldn't brood over the past and get all sentimental over it. ^^ we should move ahead in life. but technology makes everything so boring after a time. little things that once gave u pleasures now seem to be completed with the flick of a switch. so what's the whole freaking point?

mass production.

quality sappers.

grr.

and yes, even humans will/may be mass produced in the future. this is very very REAL.

facts suck. science sucks. existence is overrated.

but people-people relationships still continue. and for that simple matter, things don't seem so bad after all. i just hope i won't be talking or interacting with a simulated person. that would be sad.

JUST. SAD.

think about it, folks.
dith signing off. nighterZ!~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:51:00 AM

Wednesday, August 06, 2003

in a frenzy of academic pursuit

am in the sch comp lab now using their wonderfully conveniently disabled pc. buttons not loading at the top. i fear i might not be able to post this now. zZz. this reli bites. ok. shifted this to notepad. aie. x( hmm. anyway, jes darling, i think that someone is freaky shit. so ya. we shall crack ze case and find him hor! hahas.. weirdos in sch. at least u have a stalker while i have none. LoL.. u seem to have tons of stalkers all e time too.. XD which, isn't a v good thing. =
anywayx. i'm stuck w blardee cca. waiting in the comp lab for pj darl to come. hai. met her in the train carriage today.. lolx~ wahahs.. she was nearly late. i'd say she really really made it in the nick of time! hahah.. so yeah. strolled to school.. mm.

anyway, something that makes me queasy. nurses are in school. yikes. dith to base, dith to home base. we need reinforcements. the enemy are attacking.

blood donation drive at the hall today. you won't see me there. definitely. fear of needles. huge, brain numbing, leg crippling F E A R. haha..

fingers so extremely cold now. brr. sheesh.

well, what can i say? wasted yesterday away also. haix. i suckk so bad. =\ might be meeting jes in tpy central later.. her class is heading to the Hang Ten there to purchase 28 red shirts for this fri. uniformity. conformity. Zzz. i think i might wear something different? lol, no idea.. i have so many freaking RED shirts in my cupboard anyway. aye. red AND black. one white, one pink, one blue, one yellow. hahaha.. omfg. i should change my wardrobe. zZz.. but hell, i just got this spanking new black y-back! hhahs.. can't wait to wear it! but i bet with all my careless weight gain, my fats would buldge out like hulking slabs of meat. =(

routine routine! seems i can't stick to routine! hahahas.. crapness. this totally suckass.

okok. fingers too cold. i can't seem to do a freaking thing.

thing i should perhaps start on my maths tut. or continue where i left off. but fuckkkness. my concepts are all screwed up. hmm. so many things on my mind. so so so many....

1. the thing jes told me.
2. her stalker.
3. my studies.
4. 7 members of the opposite gender.
5. money. (that ppl owe me. T_T)
6. random outings.
7. etc. misc.

ya. well.
off i go now. hopefully i can upload this on geocities. =(
bbl minna.

NB: OH! forgot to mention i made a new fren yest.. liyu~~~` =)

OH OH OH! and i managed to post this HERE! yAH!!!!! x)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:48:00 PM

Tuesday, August 05, 2003

shaking off the old me

today jes told me something. yeah. i was kinda shocked? didnt know what to think. anyway. i think it aint bad anyway. lol. let's see how this goes. *chuckles*

haven't been doing any work since saturday evening. this really bites.

spent the weekend going out, and monday slacking.
slackslackslack.
i was reading my oh so exciting novel which i couldn't put down by midnight. and by then i was too tired to do any freaking work. zzzzzzzz.

did yeoman (or as roy says: YO-MAN) yesterday after school. ugh. t00pid roy. kept seeing him yest and today. heheh.. lolx. tis not bad.. but! i didn't say it was good either....... yaaaaah. fellow cancerian! ahhaahs... so anyway i wiped the tables in the study area and outside the staffroom.. den cleaned the metal bits of the wheely green pin board. haha.. hauled the red pail around... zzzzz. offered to scrub the faces of all the people i knew whom i encountered.. haha.. kitt.. i LURVEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeee your BUTT! :X muaks + lickies
bwahaha

ya la. so sian. zzzzz.
oh ya. kelv caught me as i was walking to the foyer... so we took a posed shot for synapse. omg. this is lameness. roy walked past and YO-MANned me. -.-; hahahaha.... i wanna see pj's slave boy's danceeeeeee. =\ dance baby dance! bwahahah.. she says he's good too. darnnn.

so, bid farewell to um qio and gang, and walked around the sch with an AA red bucket. zzZ. ppl all looking at mi. i think they know me and i know them.. but it's oh so awkward. hehehe... raped kitt + cyndi + other ppl loadsa times with my soapy dishrag......... zzzzzzz.

i actually washed up everything and returned it nicely den reported to ms goh to sign me off. haha.... met roy to go home.. haha.. yAy~ my bus came nearly immediately! yeahhhhh. rox. but spent the entire evening lost in a novel. T_T 300 page novel. ugh. and. irc. bwahhaha.

today had the talk at 1.45 in lt4 by the principal.
erm.
i can't believe myself but i was so tired i snoozed during the talk. hahahaha.. saw soooooo many familiar faces in the lt somemore! omg.. bwahhaha.... :X
today had phy radioactivity test. twas relatively easy. all calculations. so just finished all, den caught a 5-10 min snooze. zZzzzz. weather was just sooooooooooo lurvely for snoozing and slacking today. =hai.

orh ya. and xiao yun collapsed outside sch today. gastric pains. =twas scary. i tried to help, but stood around like an idiot as usual since i dunno a single thing about first aid.
heard mr lim came running. my fren described it such that i nearly split my sides (mentally) laughing. wahhaaha....... oh, and mdm foo had to keep calling me to find me. =aie. i am such an immense pain in the arse. T_T

anywayx. sis wanna use.
bbl.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:21:00 PM

Saturday, August 02, 2003

statistics.

had the stats test today.

can't say i am proud of myself. cos i aint. aint aint aint.
by way of my carelessness and lethargy when i got home yesterday at eleven, i managed to lose my A.
careless mistakes, muddled concepts aplenty.
dammit.
maybe i should hang myself.
i've disappointed myself again.
fuck it.

my eyesight's going gaga.
after coming home from the test, i had trouble doing my physics lecture homework.
9.5 more questions left on superposition.
i really shouldn't go for the steamboat later.
but it would be fun...
just a little while?

i promise i will come home and slave all night over my physics until i finish.
then i'm free to do my chemistry 45 questions.
yes.
must finish.
tomorrow celebrating birthday again.
the weekend should be extended to three days!

skipped the parent-teacher meeting ushering thing today.
i don't have class spirit. i only want to be with my ten year series'.
oh yes.
yesireeee.
A1 for gp is required.
argh.
newspapers every day after school then.
absorbtion of newspaper print. grey fingers marked for eternity.
should be fun.
garnishee garnisheeeeeee.
i learnt a new legal term today.
whoopee~

parents went for ptm today.
they saw mdm foo, mrs leow and ms tan.
wow.
now they've seen all my teachers.
we should all hug and be friends.
*gag*
apparently they praised me.

isn't that what all teachers do at ptm to parents?
singlish: win liao loh.
pah.
pish pash.
them freaks and their nonsensical antics.

ugh. cramp from sitting in the chair bent over my work for so long.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:11:00 PM