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argh. now feeling damn sick. well, it's an improvement from yest anw.. at least now i can sit upright to blog.. blah.. haven't been online for 2 nights in a row, if anyone's noticed.. haix.. been that sick indeed.. guess what? it's the same damn affliction again. tonsilitis.. =/ haix..... furthermore, my chem teacher's looking for my shit again. something about if i dun bring the damn chem file to sch today i'm gonna be punished. how can????? why punish a sick cat like mi? x_X haix... poor mi.... =((((((((
tml's maths ct.. die die die... but can lar.. cos i've more or less been doing tutorials.. wun guarantee it will be a breeze, but i think i can pass tho.. just gotta upgrade my maths ram.. XD hahahs.... speed too darn slow sia.. dun even know if tml i will be well enuf to pop into sch.. gotta see what's up tml.. anw i have backup mc... so can always take the retest on fri.. but so stupid right. always take retest. -_-;;;;;; haix............ how how how mi in shit now..... *cries*
people got back their o lvl results today. day of judgement. i remember this time last yr.. lols.. i think? hahas... at first i was calm.. den tentative.. den when we were all seated in the classroom and teacher was reading out our names for us to collect our fate, i got nervous... but nope i din cry.. hahas.... marks were.... expected lar. borderline satisfactory.. hahas... blehs. i dun give a damn either.. heh.. just glad my place in my first 3 months jc was reassured and that i achieved what i wanted to achieve... ;) just did enuf to get mi by... XD
hmm.... been thinking abit about a fren whom i think has been avoiding mi.. either he's v v damn blur or he's avoiding mi for some reason. dun think he dislikes mi. perhaps he either 1. thinks i like him -that- way or 2. he's beginning to like mi that way.
i mean, come ON. there's no way i would fall for a pri sch classmate. so what if i think you're cute? i think many many guys are cute. -_-; blehs.... there are so many fish in the sea. as if it's so easy to fall for a person. gahs. not saying ur of low standard. but ur just not my type. perhaps i like in the sense of a good fren. someone i can crap to and have fun with. hang out and laff. but no no to the whole love thing. *shakes head* some ppl are just too sensitive for their own good. -_-;;; what's wrong if i come off as kinda too frenly? isn't it good to be frenly...? or perhaps he has restrictions from his gf or whatnot. like: no speaking to or looking at another gal. gah. hahahas... now that's dumb. if i had a bf, if i knew he was loyal and stuff, i would not get jealous. well, unless i saw him and another gal doing something intimate.. hahas.... -_-;;;;;;;
i seriously think he's avoiding mi leh. but in order as not to make the misunderstanding worse, i did not say hi. i pretended not to know he was behind mi. yep. but i'm thinking. is that what i should do? or just confront him: "hey. are you avoiding mi? and why, if so?" that would just make it worse, i guess.. bleargh. he even changed mrt sides. gahs. i mean, come on... isn't it good to have a going-to-sch buddy? buddies can be gals too? or in my case, guy/gal (optional) wahahahs.... -_-;;;;; i dun understand guys.
that gotten off my chest (trivial matter lar, that) let's go on to other issues.. why don't guys get hints. esp OBVIOUS hints. dun keep at it and practically forcing the gal till she's like totally fed up and wanted to kill ya. you know who you are. gahs... it's not nice. i mean like, come on, this yr's a bz year. dun make it a stressful year too? one does not need emotional stress to pile atop one's physical and mental stress. gahs....
ah.. i love movies~ pity i'm sick. or i'll be skipping off to the theatre.. =/ bleargh.
ok lar.... gotta end here. feeling cold liao. think fever returning. using internet during peak hours. mom will be stoned and crushed by the phonebill.... x_X
tataZ peeps~~~~
wUv sickdith (x_X*)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:50:00 PM
runrunrun.... ran like a mad woman all the way! and it's not say v near lohs.. -_-; 100++ m sprint sia.... haiyox.. i CAUGHT it i CAUGHT it!!!!! yay! congratulate mi~~~~ XD so was on time for sch.. i am adamant NOT to do yeoman.... bleargh..... sucky!!!!! heh.. mom as usual watched mi performance from the balcony... eh. >.< hahas.. she's my one and only ardent fan... =P
kpo person beside mi looking at mi entry just now.. not say a sideways glance but a damn obvious look loh... aiyah.. go mind ur own business lar.... -_-;;;
today was liyun's bdae.. so happy for her k! hahas.. john was teasingly asked to plan and organise her canteen bdae. at first he declined den he volunteered.. XD omg.. she's like sooo lucky.. so many guys like her.... x_X hahas... what a show to see leh! hahahas... some of the gals got a mrs fields cookie cake with icing on top for her yest. mi included! pink and white icing around the edges and Happy 18th Bdae Liyun! in white and blue... ooOohs... so lurvely~ XD passed by tangs.. went after pe.. haas... eyebrow guy steven approached us of cos... one group of chiobu except for one ~ mi! XD haha. they were like kinda tio stun when i turned around and scolded that eyebrow faggot. i was like "YOU AGAIN! I KEEP KICKING YOU OUTTA THE CHANNEL" wahahs... i think he wun dare to approach aj gals for a while now... =P i'm doing the sch a favour! =P
aye. can't blog with ppl around mi. now 2.15pm. cca in 15 mins... =) yep yep yeppers~ (kelv: feel proud! ;D)
we got the heart cookie cake for $28 den headed to haagen daz for ice creammmm... so ex. -_-; eh i prefer buds. 1.90 per scoop! x_X haagen daz is like WHAT?! $7.50 for a single scoop in a cone!? wTf sia. -_-;;;;;;;;;;;;;; oh ya. saw dennis' hair yest. and saw him 3 times.... so freeeeeeeeee ar he.. haha.. nothing new about his hair.. and to think he made such a fuss over it.. =P vainpot dennis! =P wp gave mi kinda a fright when he tapped mi (slightly too hard) on the shoulder while i was queueing up with jessie for chicken cutlet yest... hahas.. so paid him back by kinda repaying him the same way today on the way to sch.. =P hahaa... anw wp... thanks for the maths test tip hor!!!!!!!!! =D
met cheng and banana yest while waiting with sok teng for the train yest.. wah i damn blur siaaaaaaa~ she had to call mi name like dunno how many times... been stoning alot these days.. i think i owe it to being too tired.... XD hahas..... finally i see and know who her crush n vdae date is!!!!!!!!! oOoOo laLaaaaa~~ hhahaa... go gal!!!! =P had to alight at tpy so entrusted sokteng to the care of cheng n banana... X) sok said cheng's and mi very similar... erm. same sch lar.. but most importantly... we're CHENGS!!!!!! XD ahahas...
hmm.. ok.. back to today's happenings. recap: we're in the canteen and john is bringing the cake over to the canteen table... oOo.. cheeks aflush and hearts apounding here.. =X heh... liyun's such a nice gal.. everyone loves her.. ahh.. so fortunate. =) but kindness begets kindness, like they all say... =) *hops around* perhaps i'll make her my role model...
we planted the candles into the cake and sang her a bdae song~ heh. i hugged her a total of 3 times today!!!!! lol!!! haha... wo zhuan dao wo zhuan dao! *exclaims in glee* so paiseh ar john.. he brought the cake in front of her. and her cut it after she made the initial cut. my fren commented that it seemed like they were cutting wedding cake.. XD the cake was nice. mango with vanilla cream.. with finely chopped peanuts at the side.. XD yeah~ pj's coming in.. kelv just arrived.. hahas.. she's here she's here! X)
anw, while he was busying himself with cakey matters, liyun who was behind him (and making him RELI nervous) thanked him for the cake and stuff.. wahahs... oMg~ have you seen a human change color? his already pinkish face fLusHed from pink to a crimsony scarlet.... *eyes widen* whoa.... john's reli gooooood at blushing. that i must admit... he's liked her since the beginning of 17/02 2nd intake.. oh man... but yay! he's so brave, making a move.... =))))))))) perhaps she will start to like him one day... =D so sweeeeeeeet.... *dies from the saccharine overload* X)
yep.. and after she thanked him he shyly shrugged and went back to cutting the cake, his task's difficulty level increasing tenfold... his hands were shaking... so his cuts were like shaking... oOo.. heh.. larkily the cake was like easy to slice thru... oh man.. everyone standing around was commenting on his shaky hands and red face.... wahahahahs.... *faints* i could FEEL their paisehness! XD hahahs.... lol~ i would have wanted to stick my head down a hole like an ostrich... oh man oh man oh man.. haha.. pity her other suitor, jiatong, wasn't dere.. blehs.. i think perhaps he was too paiseh or sth? -_-;
anw, the slice that john finally carved out he offered ever so TeNdErLy to her....... whole class went OOoooOOoooo~~ esp chye kiat. loudest sia. john turned an unbearable beet red den quickly left the canteen.. XD ahahas... so horrible my class.... teasing dem liddat... tskies!~ XD lao shi and mrs leow came by. she was notified of john's erm. fufilment? (if i could use that word... XD) gosh~ hahaha.. this was by far the most interesting bdae celebration i've seeeeen! *flumps and laffs* yep.. liyun also shed tears of joy.. waaaaaah.... =)
some other things happened that i most prob can't blog about cos some of his frens erm.. might see... haha... synapse starting soon... CORRECT VENUE! i have renewed confidence in my lurvely wax-clogged ears... =X hahaha... at least today's a happy happy dae! lalala.. maybe i'm going out with aje exco to watch movie lata... if it's to my liking.. see what movie they're watching.. hehs.. *pls be either chicago, daredevil, or sth i haven't watched before.. pls pls pls... XD* nick just came in.. now so noisy. doubt i am able to blog for any longer.. blogging stamina wearing off too.. but i'm sooooo full of crap today! i feel like i could go on and on and on forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahas... =)
okie lar... ttyl dear blogGiE~
wUv ccadith~ (._. ) ( ._.) ( '-') ('-' )
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:40:00 PM
another sms came in.. sorry ar mu.. mi too busy blogging to attend to your wittle tochi fantasies.. XD you come for chan outing den i show you the guy who cosplays toshiya lah.. haha.. he's a nice guy.. =) hmm... back to after mon's phy prac.. yep.. since i had no way to contact my sis and she was having a course.. i hung around.. theng yiu said he was taking mrt.. and he had no one to go with.. and me, having nothing better to do.. since everyone else was going for chem FOE remedial.. hmm.. which i din feel like going cos i wanted to celebrate mi mom's bdae plus i was tired.. so i left with him.. he wanted to buy stuff from the snacks stall in the canteen.. complained of the long queue.. blah.. i thot i might as well take the train back to tpy and stone there while wating for mi sis.. XD was heading to the traff light.. larkily nvr chiong across.. met jos n erm.. someone.. shit. i forgot which gal.. -_-;;; =/ my memory is failing mi... >.<
so good.. can delay~ we decided to have icecream from the uncle.. hahas.. but the usual favorite uncle wasn't there.. so we had to settle for another one that was so 'good to eat' ... =P i got raspberry ripple in bread..but gardenia bread lehs.. not the lurvely rainbow swirly ice cream bread that we always have.... *sobx* kelvin finished class n was studying for his nihongo test.. XD i nvr knew he studied that... -_-; i reli envy those who take japanese lessons lei... x_X so was smsing him to confirm place of meeting.. chewed on my ice cream in the meantime.. dribbling and drooling.. melting so fast.. and i was holding my chem file n phone.. waccows.. balancing act sia... XD experienced multitasker here... =P hmms.. yuwei walked by and we all waved.. jos asked him to eat ice cream.. so he went (in his usual kawaii manner) okay!~ and went to queue up in the long long queue.. X) wah... took so long for him to get his ice cream.. so we all chatted and asked him about peihua, his class, etc... whether he was still slacking off in class anot... XD hahahs... world-renowned slacker + napper.. =P eeks.. bell just went.. i think the place is gonna be filled with ppl.. =_=; already one guy's in here with mi lehs... die.. XD
after they all ate their ice cream, i bid goodbye and went to nyp to meet kelvin.. blehs.. was still waiting for my sis to call mi... zhen mafan.. XD JUST only settled down in nyp fj and was opening my chrys tea when my phone rang.. my sis. wah BEST loh... win LIAO ar... -_-; i told her to meet mi at 6.. cos i was doing sth.. hahas... aiyar.. timing so zhun lehs... -_-; had a drink and chat with kelvin.. oohed and aahed over his japanese notes.. ordered him to study.. blah.. den i had to leave or sis would be spewing smoke from erm.. all her openings.. XD hmms.. i was like 4 mins late.. hahas.. according to my watch lahs.. which is fast. i think in actual fact only 2 min or so... kelvin went to amk library to 'study'.. instead he busied himself with mindless doodling and sleeping.. -_-;;; wonder how he fared for the written... XD
met sis. so FUNNY arrr~~ she stood there looking in my direction for like 2 or 3 whole mins. yet she din SEE mi! *pengz* powerrrrrrr... hahas...(eek.. another guy just came in... -_-;) she so blurrrrr sia.. took a train to orchard and bought a $24 strawberry shortcake for mi mom.. totemo oishii desu yo!~ hontou ni!!! *drools* =D~~~~~~~ i think it was the wonderful cream......... X) ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh... anw, bought two prawn takopachi for mi and sis.. sat at fountain awhile eating.. den left for home.. gave mom a call.. told her that i would be meeting my sis shortly at tpy hdb hub.. hahas.. bluff bluff! XP
just got sms from pj notifying mi that synapse in 1312.. hmm.. i think i'm reli going deaf.. but nvm.. =) i'll blog finish den head over.... lalalal`~
anw.. mom got a pleasant surprise! ahahs.. after she spent her whole day scolding ppl regarding being charged for what she din subscribe to.. heh.. starhub sux!!! =X yep.. hmm.. so flat out everyone was.. slept at 11.30pm.. i conked out at 12.30am.. wah...... x_X heh.... so happy that day.. found out i was gonna get broadband!!!!!!!!! yAy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so haPpY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *faints in her euphoria*
eh. continue later....
wUv schdith (^-^*)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:57:00 PM
night~~~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:26:00 AM
aNs: how do you breathe in that thing?
my reaction: tio stun for a few wols seconds before realisation hit. and den. omg! bwahahahahaha..... lame ar!!!!!! *flump*
experienced internation speaker andrew matthews gave an inspirational talk during j2 mass civics today. he's also a doodle artist and a writer, having published like 5 books.. i bought the cheapest one to get it signed. hmm... his talk was interesting, but i saw ppl sleeping.. hahahs... i din slp... where i slept was in maths lect.. =P argh damn.... complex numbers... XD
i think what made his talk interesting was his philosophy and his live doodling.. large drawing pads clipped onto the whiteboard on rollers with two files below to stop them from rolling while he drew.. ahaha... at first i thot like win lose or draw sia.. hahas... his drawings are so darn cute leh~! blehs... oh btw, the above was his joke... -_-;;;;;;;;; *pengz*
it wasn't motivational tho... just interesting. haha.... and he in real life when he was signing books is kinda quiet.. i sorta commended him on his doodles and he was reli quiet about it with one word answers.. haix... perhaps it's like he's tired or he is a schiz? =X hahaha.... some ppl are liddat, i guess?
oh man. i was reli crapping crap last night. what thing about movie with mr koh sia. -_-; pengz. i think i was dreaming of watching a movie... uGhs... but NOT with him... i meant he weighed mi... i din lose nor gain. damn. haix..day quite slack. but i was like tired cos i slept at 4am previous night. had gp compre CT.. wah sian. two periods or less to finish everything, including AQ. i finished. but wasn't well done. AQ lacking concrete evidence.. haix... it was a botch job.. x_X so happy when it was over tho!
had phy prac. kept smsing mom under the table under the teacher's nose. either she din notice or she pretended not to. -_-; we nvr know lehs... =/ we did terminal velocity experiment with ballbearings of 5 diameters, a large measuring cylinder of glycerine, two stop watches, etc.... quite fun leh. dropped the ball in and timed. haha.. when it passed the marker we started it and when it reached the other one, we stopped it.... XD
had fun recoving the ball bearing with the magnet.i think i'm pro at it liaox! din even need to use tissue.. =P
(eh. i think i post this first before i zzzzzzzzzzzzzz)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:14:00 AM
woke up at some funny time. 6.30am i think.arGh. overslept~!!!! scrambled outta bed and hurriedly bathed, den packed mi pe attire in. was in a rush, so kinda grazed my finger on my darn bag. =/ hurriedly grabbed my incomplete chem file and schbag. den dashed outta the house to catch a lift so i could catch the bus. lift came.. yay! went downstairs and sorta strolled to the busstop. bus came! yay!~ it was like craawwwwwling along the road, but reached the mrt station on time! din see any of my frens tho.. so lonely... =/
mrt came. i walked to sch from yck mrt with my lonely self. haix.... smsed chem teacher in the train regarding meeting him to pass him the file.. he said to meet afer assem outside stafffroom... hmms.. ok lar... =) pre u seminar meeting commencing nearby.. classmates were dere. loitered around till they were done, den we headed to the audi together for maths lect. 15 mins late. damn damn damn. sat in a damn erratic manner.. hahas.. (freaking. got sms.. -_-;) cos not enuf space...
maths ended. i was beginning to be slpy. chem begun.. finishing up carbonyl compounds... wah sian.... filled in the summary part.... lata did carboxylic acids.. but din get the notes yet thanks to a very responsible chem rep.... loL~ sarcasm lar.. i'm also not a responsible gp rep... =P
wah double sian. double pe leh. went to the gym toilet to change into our attire.. crowded. did two rounds warm out. den lata just slackslacked around waiting for our turn at relay while cheering for the others... XD hmm... i did the 8 by 50 one.. wah sian.. cheered loudly for the guys and gals.. den pe was over.. followed mr koh to watch movie.
eh. ignore what i said. what movie with mr koh. weight mi lar. not watch movie. fell asleep in front of the comp a little while ago... think i blog tml.. so tired. night..
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:47:00 PM
making it quick. came home from movie today. came out of lift. auntie next door was dere.. she asked mi how old i was... o.0; but she speaks dialect... and i dun understand.. so had some trouble communicating.. in the end i understood her qn.. she was asking mi if i was 15... hahas... so i told her i was 18.... that got mi wondering.. do i look young? or? hmm.. weird. 15. nice age tho. =)
hmm. another funny thing that happened. at the mrt station while i was running late for the movie at tpy.. waiting for train... first this old lady approached mi from behind (right side) she asked mi where to take to go to city hall i think. so i told her the other side. den shortly after, another old lady approached mi from behind (left side) and asked mi where to go to take to yishun. so i told her this side.... -_-;;;;
hahahs...
mom nagging behind. =( dammit.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:55:00 AM
i'm like wasting all my time online cos i am moodless.. =/ dammit. what to do what to do.. =(
first update on what i did today
i watched Hot Chick. damn funny show i tell you, while being touching and romantic at the same time. horny and corny moments. rob schneider's actually quite cute. he has nice eyes. =) i loved the movie. dunno why also. got lost with the characters....
supposed to meet shuting at 2.10pm at bishan. dammit. running late. reached dere only 2.35+ cos i left my house at 2.10, missed the bus by a fraction. fine. had to wait. bus came. missed the mrt by a fraction. FINE. waited. mrt came. walked like soldier v fast all the way to theatre. bot tix. managed to catch the last bit of adverts with a few minutes to spare.
later walked about with shuting. checked out the fair on the 2nd level. interesting stuff. i wanna buy socks. yep.
was thinking about buying clothes and changing my dressing and hair (again) she was dressed so nicely and i was so plain. *sigh* i need a good figure and looks as well as a fat wallet. damn.
companied her to delifrance to grab a bite den to orchard mrt, after which i took train back to tpy and a bus. met xiuting n family. when her bus came , her sis turned around to tell her sth. paranoid me as usual took it that her sis was prob saying sth nasty about ME. haix. damn me. always so paranoid. =/
went home did some chem filing. but i think tml sure tio stayback till 8+pm. damn. i just wanna collapse. and die.
did alot of stoning also and chatting online. uGhs. now still doing so.
at least my junior's prob is sorta solved. dunno why ppl are liddat. they got a prob, they will consult their frens. say alot of stuff but in the end resolve it by their own ability. i'm liddat also. it can get irritating. =/
ok. what i did yest.
chan outing.
after slacking, we walked citylink to ms again. wah sian. ate in long john's den arcade again. mi in sch uni. i also din wanna go in. sat on steps and helped asa with maths. =) productive.
they gathered around made noise and said we so hardworking wor. hmm. *shrug* i wish i were. =( den i wouldn't have the chem file problem. =/
after finished with that, did some stoning, den they changed location again. went back to mrt station den we all split up. messy part. ughs. that's why i dun like big grps. a smaller grp is more dedicated and has better inter-communication. i joined the ppl i'm closer to.. we took a bus to somerset. raining. pitter patter became drops and then splashes. luckily uniform not translucent. -_-;
thanks asa for your pullover.. but nvm.. i like walking in the rain. =)
went to cine to stone n talk. alot of hidden stuff came out. *juicy ar~*
lata had to go to taka to meet the rest. from there we stoned again. den went to bk wheelock. you betcha more splitting n miscommunication went on. haix.... stoned there again. so bored n tired. =/
later decided to take a walk to orchard emerald. arcade again. at first i borrowed wilson's trench coat. so warm. hmm.. budden din wanna play anyway so returned it to him and loitered around outside with yui and dar.. leah mei arrived subsequently. chatting dere... ok lar.. interesting way to pass the time. =) we decided to head back to bk.. cos we were so bored n ppl left.. blehs.. all the way back to bk... i saw kelvin i think.... on the way to work when i left bk, and in the kitchen when i went back. haha... sat at the table talking tired cok... sian ar............... =/
in the end we were chased out. ppl left for home.
finally left with me, leah, lex, sumomo, himu, asa, wendy, kula... went to borders.... hung around.... fooled around. den left mi, leah, lex and wendy. mei wanted to get coffee... =) so got coffee we did... ^-^* i admired the large calorie-loaded cheesecake.... ughs.. leah gave us a honey stick~ domo~~~~ =) finally took mrt home. i reached home at 11+ went online to stone again. haix.... settled the time with shuting for the movie via sms.. ended up falling aslp in front of comp numerous times. nearly fell off the chair. haix....
guess i should end here.. night
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:49:00 AM
i went out on sat.. it was quite fun. altho the day started off like shit. woke up late. cos stupid me slept at 2+am.. nearly 3... dammit. woke up 6.45am, chionged my bath, den had to pia a cab down to sch. took a merc cab.. on the other side of the street. din care what cab as long as i managed to get one. driver was quite nice lar.. drove quite fast for mi. reached aj with a min to spare. that was gd. dammit. test sucked. out of the 12 qns i din have a definite choice. 3 maybes. i settled for the one on simple things in life give the most joy n happiness thing at first. wrote a plan. n two paras.. den gave up. with slightly more than half an hour to spare i wrote another one on it is no fun being a man today. comment. ugh. man as in male or human race? -_-;
couldn't finish. nabei. lousiest essay. gonna let mrs leow down. _|_ me.
rushed to collect papers after that. made sure all 23 were in before i had to go outside to sort them into boxes. so slow i was. ugh. i was stuck in first gear... uGhs. came back to lt4. everyone vanished. only my bag was dere. no courtesy to wait for me huh. fine. thank you very much. grabbed my bag and left sch. waited at bus stop outside aj for asa. saw many ppl. wasn't in any mood to be sociable then. leaning against the pillar brooding about my essay. uGh.
when asa arrived we went to nyp to grab a bite. wasn't crowded cos was still early. i had bread from prima deli. met min yee on the way. she had band practise. walked around nyp auditorium to check out the exhibition on the various courses. interesting. ppl thot i was from a sec sch. -_-;; saw an exhibition on some species of mice. guy was frenly. went to look at the dna research thing. saw fish with spliced dna. added dna of jellyfish. so they glowed in the dark. interesting indeed. checked out the animation and electronics. saw micromouse stuff and was reminded of my sec2 cca. hmm. ok lar.
lata hopped on the train to cityhall. #gravitation outing. 11am congregation time. but as meetings go, ppl were late. dar n wilson were early. mi and james were next. den xiao di and gang filed in one by one. hung around just waiting for 1hr20+ mins. kinda waste of time. i would describe the outing yest as kinda sian. but it was 3 ppl's bdae. =) yep~ and i had some fun crapping plus i learnt some internal secrets. lol~
i think i gotta blog later. sis wants to use. that little bugger. haix.
bbl~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:45:00 PM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:49:00 AM
today was a strange day. ppl were weird today. things din go well.. haix... i think i offended some ppl today. i feel damn uneasy. i hate it when ppl are pissed at mi. i just feel so hated. and guilty. anw, i guess we all feel like this. it affects my conscience. if i did sth wrong i need to rectify it or i'll feel bad. junior called mi today when i reached home. she sounded so devastated. she was attending this self-awareness camp thingy.. it's an ij thing.. something happened btw her and an old fren.. haix.. i din know who she was initially and what she was talking about, cos her words were all jumbled with the tears. and i dun have caller id. in the end i figured out and got her calmed down... i hope i did more good than harm... haix.. i'm not exactly the best person to turn to for advice in my opinion.. cos i can't even deal with my own problems.
started sch on my right foot today. ran for the bus but caught it in the end. din sleep during lessons. had some fun in nyp after that. and then some fun in talentime.
lao shi came back to sch today. she still looked kinda under the weather, so i wished her and asked her how she was... the flu bug is back.. but now all the teachers are down with it. mr tan s.l. was sniffling all the way during his maths lect.. poor long-ge.. haix.. mr lim k.t. was also using tissue during chem tut.. he's on medication. lao shi was also nursing a runny nose.. sai ghor who came back today seemed impatient and distracted. ms tan was, well, ms tan. but she forgot to check mi work... henggggggg...
finished sch at 2.50 today cos chem was delayed. went immed to nyp to look kelvin up.. walked like ten thousand miles to the sports hall.. finally met cyndi.. ahahas... i took her side, of cos... =P to kelvin: should i start cursing you now? lol~
hung around dere for awhile, den left.. kelvin walked mi to fj.. (thanks!) den he went to apply for a new line.. haha... hi card suxxxx.. XD i got his new number now.. haha... met jes, karene, jessalyn and angeline dere.. dun reli like 2 of them. blehs. yaya.. i'm bias. -_-; i ate hot plate.. black pepper beef.. surprisingly it wasn't hot. tongue still scalded tho.. (too greedy! tsk!) not half as scary as the sambal fish.. o.0;;;;
drank bubble tea too.. passion.. karene treated mi... haiyox.. no need lar.. vdae stuff was just a thot.. =)
got word that ppl were cosplaying near the pond dere but was too lazy to walk over. zz.. went to look at the booths den went back to sch. i din go with dem to watched literary week's final performance.. so went to blk 11 to slack. saw the talentime participants hanging out there... den finally found a dressing room with a comp.
jes went to watch her HOT vcd ( i think ) while i slept on the table. haha.. hope no one walking past the windows saw mi legs.... ^^;;;; queue for talentime was already snaking by 5.30... so rushed dere to secure a place in the queue.. nu`er sitting behind mi. she din even see mi. bleargh. saw shiling, pj, zs, dennis, and ton and tons of ppl i know.. ah yah.. kelv was the synapse photographer as usual.. hehe.. snapping pics fervently, but he din bring enuf film. hehhe..
talentime was good this yr. had front row centre seats.. hahah.. i loved all the acts... all were soooo good! imperfect duo was soooo damn zaiiiii k! omg. classical being played like an electric. i CANNOT make mine sound like that.. oh man i suck.. hehe.. the pianists were great too. pieces full of energy, charisma.. mmm.. opening act by guest performer was cool too.. haha... ajcsb were good too! sth different... =)
cai lilian was dere today. she's reli chio n frenly n talented man.. met her at the gate dere leaving during interval.. said bye to her.. =)))) omg.. she rocks... hahas.... perhaps i might buy her cd. but damn it's in chinese... oh wells.... hahah..
had the song catagory after. joey sang great! texas n charmaine too.. the broadway trio too... so hard to decide... heh... texas n charmaine were a damn popular choice.. everyone was like cheering for them.. heh... there was also a SHE wannabe euphoric saccharine or sth... not bad lar... blehs... but joey won! hahha....
dance catagory damn gao xiao loh.. haha.. first ones up were not bad.. saw cass n hx... second up was LOST. that was the gao xiao one. msged ty and learnt that he had alot of funny comments.. hahas.. well.. they were.. interesting.. as i put it to him.. lol~ but effort that paid off. altho -some- ppl abit the EXTRA n AA lohs.... those two ppl... -_-; no comment. think they ming xing or sth.. ugh......... been liddat since day one of orien... *shakes head n sighs*
the gals after that were great too! loved their dancing.. =) so cool n so energetic.. but darrelle was different. that's why she shone thru... doing ballet on stage.. contemporary ballet.... and she could stand on her tippie toes and walk.. omg.. =) we gave her standing ovations.. hahah.... she won.. yep!
but the overall winner was Imperfect Duo.. or lack thereoff (of imperfections) their performance was like astounding n captivating.. if i din hinge my mouth i would have been salivating.. perhaps on kelv.. lol~ cos he was like constantly sitting below mi or squatting taking pics.. hahaha.... =X
after that jes had to run an errand at ntuc. i accompanied her. but i think i offended someone by doing so.. =/
haix... wanted to apologize but was afraid that i might anger her further. so we went to ntuc, got the stuff. i walked jes to the interchange den i walked to the mrt den took my 235 home.. reached home around 10.30 or so.. ok lar... =) perhaps earlier. i can't rem...
that was when my di called mi... haix.. poor thing leh she.. mi also not a good counseller.. =/
lessee... what did i do on thurs? went to nyp.. openhouse 1st day.. met kelvin.. he said there were cosplayers.. got inuyasha... INU!!!! cos she's in nyp too... so i went over to see see.. indeed it was her.. and who did i see also? xiao di n yui... lol~ toked cork awhile den they went off.. shortly after i also had to go off... had lesson....
chem prac was interesting... but QA was confusing as usual... heh... lata went home to eat den slp... zZzZz
tml i'm going for gp test den meeting asa for breakfast den maths + channel bdae outing.. =))))
happy bdae yuanie, parish n yui!!!!!!!!!
yepyep.... =D
hope tml will be a gd day. i'd better get some slp now too.... night! wish mi luck for tml's test!
oyasuminasai minna!
wUv dith~ ^-^*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:46:00 AM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:04:00 AM
gp test on sat.. can die arhs.. i hate essay... =/
today had synapse meeting.. rushed over after the test in lab 3.. alot of ppl took the test lehs.. until they spilled over to lab4.. lol... many teachers took turns in invigilating.. mr arif, ms sim.... erm.. can't rem... heh...it's mrs leow's bdae today... 20th of feb.. i have no idea how old she is.. but she's retiring this yr so my class is throwing her a bdae celebration.. they ordered a gigantic cake.. whoa.. i went out after sch today to get stuff for her.. went with my mom and sis.. cos my mom just fetched sis from sch.. hmms...
we went to fish n co to eat... i had grilled cajun threadfin.. nice~ been eating like silly these few days.. i'm gonna explode soon... a bigbang of fats and gristle.. ahahas..
on tuesday i did 2 rounds around the track without stopping k! den since it was raining, we went to the mph to do some figure 8 baton passing exercise.. i kept getting lost.. lol.. so was zigzagging all over the place.. XD later changed and went for the BG gp course.. last day! =D kinda sad tho... it's fun! but oh so late. =/
met mi kor after that for a scrumptious dindin.. =D~~ mouthwatering.... pity i was kinda shagged by then.. but a promise is a promise. =) went home around 10+.. tried to study abit, but fell asleep at the y = -Asinwt part in waves notes.. reli buay tahan le.. so crashed until 5+am.. wowx.. no choice but to study in sch the next day...
packed the essential stuff for wed... still v heavy tho.. =/ 9 stacks of phy notes.. 1 phy tys.. blehs.. spent the first half of the short day sleeping and stoning and eating in 412... den when it was time for break+econs free period, i parked miself outside lt1 to mug.. haha.. oh gosh. what a nerd i am. but i wasn't mugging! *denies* i was just reading mi notes n making notes.. (reli! i was!)
went for phy lata... faggy teaching magnetism.. oh gosh.. he said alot of faggot things today.. ahahs.. no notes lehs.. so sad.. nothing to highlight.. =/
after phy lect ended at 1, parked miself back outside lt1 to study somemore.. (yep. took this test -kinda- seriously) ^^
busied myself with that till nearly 2.15 before i made my way to the phy lab...
back to synapse meeting.
so slack wor.. switched on the comp, checked out pj's new doman.... (muaks! it rocks!) some discussion.. blahblah.. den ms megan came in.. and we went off... yep yep....
ohs! i got mi gp tutor a votive candle at 50% off! yay... a card and a box of nice belgian biscuits.. =) hope she likes the stuff.. wanted to get flowers.. but thot might be too AA.. somemore so near vdae.. lol... lata the class think i suck up or sth.. but i genuinely like mrs leow lehs... =)
*hops around*
v tired now..... so incoherent.. catch ya guys lata~
wUv slpydith ^-^*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:02:00 AM
infernal contraption. =/
(just heard first bus go past.. loL~)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:20:00 AM
did pe today.. survived 6.5 rounds of torture and 20 mins worth of cycling. argh.. hmm.. but my calves dun hurt right now... 2nd round (ding ding!) tml afternoon.. den it's off to gp class... haix sian... but it's fun... today had the gp time practice essay test in double gp.. i din prepare at all and din have the qns.. but den again, all of us din.... XD rushed thru 3+ sides + 1 plan done in pencil... finished on the dot. *whew* i was just stapling the infernal thing covered in my chicken scrawl when the bell went...
hmm.. i like pe dept's chairs.. so comfy.. =X sat down to endure nagging till 11.30.. about an hour or so.. blah..
yesterday was somehow the class' bdae.. funnily. 17th feb = 17/02.. haha.. marc brought another homemade cake.. this time strawberry. i din eat. there was some choc bits at the side.. anw, i haven't forgiven him yet. blehs... i think he knows it. giving mi funny looks in class.. ahahahs.. i guess he thinks i'm petty. so be it. =P
hmm.. mon was an ok day... mi taking phy re-test on wed.. (that's tml gal! better study!!!) 2.15pm at lab3... heh..i've only chugged down 4 chappies.. still got 5 more to go~ (you can dooo it gal!) XD hmm... today council was giving out tix for talentime. i'm going!!!! gonna have a lark laffing at erm. one group in particular: LOST .... =X hahhaa... there. i said it. lol~ seriously, it would indeed be a sight to behold.. haha... rotflmfao! THANK goodness for ms joy tan! she let us off early today.. (shh! cannot say.. =X) so i headed to the queue (yes, there was a queue at 4.15+) tickets were still assured.. yay! received jes' sms so i called her to join mi, hoping that she hadn't already taken a bus to amk central.. she din! but it was raining.. had to persuade her to come join mi and somehow 'cut' mi queue.. gosh.. haha.. she gave in and came back to sch.. kinda wet.. heh... good thing tho! got tix for karene + huiping too.. yay~
omg... hp's taking chem S paper.. and 4 A lvl subjs.. *faints* i am soooo insanely jealous. how can she cope?! wahhaha....
yep... highlight of the day: talentime tix!
lata went with jes to amk central. was still drizzling i think. hopped on 86 to jubilee centre.. hmms.. went to popular to get some stuff.. she got 2 notebooks, 1 testpad and 4 color pens.. heh.. lata went to mos to eat.. (pigpigpig mi!) ^@@^
she ate teriyaki, i ate unagi.. but she was so busy with her sms.. so i finished miles ahead of her.. hahas.. lata her aunt called with an urgent matter.. wanted corn soup also.. so i dug my coins and got corn soup.. den she had to rush off so we couldn't do maths.. heh.. i reached home around 7pm i think.. relatively early.. snacked abit den stoned and fell aslp in the chair.. decided to koonz on my bed.. only got up around 1am to do work.. now's approaching 5am.. gotta do some phy... no way i can do maths vectors.. i dun even have the tutorial! argh.. better go stat tml... dunno why i'm missing so much stuff.. perhaps i've been AWOL and MIA from sch for too many occasions... heh..
oh yeah.. gonna congratulate yuwei! he and peihua ( i think ) are together! yessshhh... the wonders vdae can bring.. ah.. love is in the air.. lol. saw him in the canteen today.. he looked so happy.. =) plus, i heard they look soooooo cute + gd together! ^-^*
okies.. mi gonna print the stuff i dled.. catch ya later ya, bloggie? *muaks*
ciaoz peeps! =)
wUv dith ^-^*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:59:00 AM
girls were in a giving frenzy.. so i can't rem the order.. haha... i'll try.. thanks maryanne for the daisy! can't rem if it was the pink or yellow one.. but so nice anyway! thanks jos lee for the heart shaped choc in gold foil! i still have it~ thanks jos kee for the roll of apple mentos! yeshhh.. i love green! thanks manyi for the flower!!! thanks class gals for the heart shaped balloon on a straw! so sweet of you gals altho i'm kinda afraid of balloons.. lol... thanks sok teng for the hug! heh... thanks jessie for the stripey orangey-brown + white candy cane! heh... hope you liked the tiny mug i gave ya! thanks yuzhong for the thank you msg for my humble bundle of sweets.. heh.. what to do, your irresistable cuteness n the fact that i've known you since pri 2 made mi think of you.. lol... thanks karene + huiping for the thank you msg! got it while walking in cine.. lol.. thanks ty for the rose.. haha.. thanks pj for the tulip! so lurvely it was, and YES, GREAT minds think alike! lol.. hope mine din rot too soon.. hehe.. *muaks!* thanks class guys for the bundle of chocs! so thotful of you guys! hehe.. thanks juan for the chocs! love ya! sorry i din turn up later that day for the outing with kimmy.. my hp batt died so pathetically i had to borrow my fren's.. haha.. thanks james for the phonecall.. haha.. happy vdae to ya too! ^^ thanks shinrong for the chocs too! so thotful n sweet of ya.. heh.. thanks zesin for turning up so conveniently so i could pass u ur sweets.. lol.. bewildered expression on face.. lol.. =) thanks weiting for the purple bundle of sweets! thanks liteng for ur hershey's nugget! thanks mrs jo leow for your wise words always n your encouragement, as well as that packet of hershey's kisses.. ur a wonderful gp tutor.. pity ur retiring this yr.. luv ya! =D thanks mr tan s.l. for offering to buy all the gals a rose, but couldn't cos they were all sold out.. thot that counts, right? =) thanks john for the entertainment in class.. haha.. to give or not to give? i turned around but was too late to witness it.. haha...thanks liyun for the candies! to weiquan: hey dude, cheer up.. hope those 2 marshmallows sweetened ur spirits.. ^^ thanks junior elaine didi for the vdae wish! and thanks mervyn yip for the vdae greeting too! hope you both enjoyed yourselves that day too~ thanks kelv for having something for mi, but not being able to find mi... heh.. thanks my 'date' kelvin (another one.. lol) for waiting half an hour for mi, the stuffed doggie *woof* XD the lovely pinkish rose with the blue tissue paper and the movie treat!! heh... such a nice guy you are... hehh.. (oeiz.. dun melt in that chair! hahaha.. ) *lick* thanks again to jes for accompanying me and reluctantly taking the balloon from mi.. haha.. as well as the pink flower n the packet of hershey's plus a few more candies.. =) for helping mi throw the wrappers, and the trouble.. hahah... *muakies again!* thanks weather for not raining on mi today! heh..(goodness, i'm beggining to crap) aha.. thanks angeline for saying you enjoyed the marshmallows!~ thanks owl n mu for waiting for mi and kinda feeding mi in tpy's mos.. hahah.. thanks to everyone i din thank and for putting up with my endless crap.. love ya guys! haha... oh ya.. thanks marc for the handmade photo frame in an envelope.. and eh.. thanks to the coca cola company for the free qoo? (oh man, what a long speech.. -_-)
after much dashing around i was kinda tired towards the last few periods. mdm foo din come, so that meant breaks during chinese lessons.. oh man.. haha.. (eh.. yay?) lol.. i had western food (chicken chop~) for lunch.. oh man.. frens all shocked. i hardly eat in sch.. heh.. slept unintentionally during chem. TWICE somemore. first time mr lim asked mi if i wanted to wash mi face.. i said no need. 2nd time he ORDERED mi to wash my face. -_-; so i went outside, drank a bit off the water cooler, but din enter the toilet cos of the stories related to its haunting.. haha.. eeks.. door closed also.. >.< kinda strolled around dere till i saw someone coming.. so aww well.. *shrug* went back to my classroom.. luckily din sleep.. last lesson of the day.. confirmed tired.. lights all dimmed cos using ohp.. so nice to slp.. =/
supposed to meet kelvin at backgate.. but i called jes (cos her lesson also ended same time) she was at 133, my classroom at 132.. wahahah.. so close yet so far.. saw stef come down, she was rushing meet her bf. met her in cine dere also with her bf.. -_-; pengz man.. haha..they were doing something kinda intimate by the pillar near the staircase there, yo.. hahah.. had to pack mi vdae stuff bag nicely cos it was damn messy.. so took sometime straightening it out.. shoved unwanted plastic bags into my schbag.. and gave jes stuff.. so was lighter. yay~
walked to back gate there, saw some short guy in black walk in... haha.. nearly mistook him for my 'date'.. lols..finally spotted him loitering outside.. omg.. din expect him to carry so much stuff for mi lohs.. so paiseh.. haha...said hi to him n did some introductions.. den jes went back to sch to meet karene. cos she karene n huiping were going out... yeah!~ aj turf.. haha.. saw some ajcians staring at mi.. (diao simi diao ar!!) _|_ hahahs.... kua simi sia... -_-;
instead of going to bishan to watch movie, changed to cine.. my class gals were heading to bishan for pasta mania n a movie.. hahaha.. din wanna bump into them man.. they sure can SPREAD rumors.. lol.. catch me if you can was soooo popular.. reached top level of cine after much blurness cos stupid cine having construction work.. sia lan.. hahahs... suddenly it blinked SOLD OUT at the 4pm slot.. hot chick also got only 1145 pm.. wah pengz..
ohohoh.. did i mention that mi teachers all like bad mood on vdae? dunno lehz. mr tan's lect sux again. better go feedback.. hahas.. sian. i was late for physics.. like 12 mins late.. but she din say anything. haix.. scarier than if she does sia.. -__-;; i lost my way lah! walked to block 2 instead of 1.. mi mind not there lehs.. paisehs...
after getting tix, went to heeren.. met dar di n his gf zer0! lol!~din expect to see him.. heh... zer0, like mi, also in sch uni.. lols.. ^^ zer0 n kelvin crapped alot about some guy.. lol.. so i n darran were like.. hmm.. haha.. *shrug* rushed back to cine.. couldn't decide on escalator or elevator.. haha.. in the end took escalator.. was slightly late for the movie.. dang.. haha.. but nvm la.. lolx.. it was good! cept for fann wong's eng.. hahas. so. erm. weird? lols.. perhaps it's weird hearing a weird chinese-accented english in the movie.. some kinda local flavour? lol....*shrugs*
damn funny show i tell ya. go watch it. yeah~
fren called mi during movie and it TOTALLY killed my one bar of batt.. phone did what it always does when it runs outta juice: it DIED on me AGAIN.. whahahas.. stupid phone. -_-; lata had to borrow kelvin's batt.. luckily his phone roughly about the same as mine. but omg.. that phone's exact model n color is the one mi ex uses.. (-_-;) dunno why but i'm still kinda irked by mi ex, altho we just talked on irc just now.. -_-;
i called owl n asked her where she was.. she said she was in tpy with mu in mos.. settled the place, den returned batt.. so sorry had to pangseh him.. took mrt to tpy.. i got off, said bye.. lol.. den rushed to mos.. they were sitting same seat arhs! always one. lol.. eating family pack of nuggets with the chilli oil paste.. hahas. mmm... and fries with one gigantic ice tea.. lol... kinda freeloaded off them.. wahahs.. mu wanted a dark choc cookie.. no more left.. awwww.. too bad.. hahas...
reached home around 8+ to 9... damn. kena scolding. stoned and stoned till 10+ den went online for a record breaking 33 mins.. switched off the comp cos i was falling asleep in front of it as usual. no one online also.. hahas...tried to study phy + write notes. failed horribly. kept conking off in the chair.after i finished one topic (temperature! lol...) -_-; buay tahan. bed beckoning mi. so i flopped onto my bed. woke up at 6.30 with a fright. OMG! PHY TEST N I'M SO GONNA BE LATE AND SO GONNA DIE COS I ONLY STUDIED TEMP AND THAT TOPIC'S SO MINISCULE!? -_-;;;;; wahahahs... reli can peng.. in the end, decided to see doc bout mi throat n get mc at the same time. *shrug* i got the mc.. yeah.. haiyox.. gonna take retest on wed... wish mi luck minna! haha...
today after seeing doc with mom, i went with her to lorong 8 to buy food + veggies from e market. she chatted with the winnie (person in charge of confectionary) haha... mu smsed mi asked if i could meet her at 1pm amk mrt.. lolx... by the time i reached home to eat, it was already 1245pm.. wahahs.. told her i would be late. in the end i met owl. mu buying present for her mei... we booked the 4.40 show. but seats 3rd row leh.. haha.... for Catch Me If You Can... lols....10-15 mins late for the movie. enjoyed it anyways. haha.... mu met her kor + di while mi n owl slipped off to heeren to eat at Crepes N Cream. CALAMARI~ haha.. ice cream~ lol... =)~~~~~
after movie, i realised i left mi hp in the threatre. OMG. =( in the end nice guy at front passed it back to mi.. lols.... omg. realised i fell aslp in front of comp again. shoot man....
heard thunder.. rain getting progressively heavy. zzz. think i better go slp. i look a sight. -_-;
met chan frens at traffic light facing db mrt..went with them insteading of pei-ing mu home. paiseh mu! =/ walked with owl to her busstop.. aha...den cramped into long john with them to socialise.. haha.. yay~ raise = rules! they were to arcade after eatnig.. we visited himi. lols..
they went arcade to para para.. alamaks... asa gave mi his silver ring thingy... thanks!
eh. trli ta uam ; reli cannot take it. reli nodding off. ahaha... zzzzz....night~ XD
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:10:00 AM
supposed to meet owl at dhoby gaut.. but when the train just reached the station she smsed to meet at orchard... so i got off.. haha... stoned at taka (met crystal) looking at vdae stuff.. nothing much appealing.. all either too ex, or too lame.. or too mushy. cute tiny mugs selling with names on them... reli reli TINY.. dollhouse kind.. hehehe.... so cute... i bought 2... =)
finally she arrived.. met her outside taka.. and we walked to ps.. passed by spotlight, bought shimmery translucent ribbon... walked to ps.. was quite late already.. loaded up on sweets at liberty... den stoned in long john's... after a very messy encounter with the fish/chicken wrap.... ahaha.. must complain.. owl left a wad of burrito skin there... =X heh.... (she will kill mi if she finds out i mock her here~ lol)
(eek.. dad grunted from the room.... *resorts to quieter typing*)
reached sch today at 11.15am.. heh.. was too freaking lazy to wake up properly.. but who cares... heh.. so dang tired...
yep.. went to parkmall's florist to get tulips for 2 special ppl... thanks pj for beginning the article!! dunno how i coulda done it without ur ideas.. thanks jes for being dere for mi and being a wonderful fren~~~ *muaks* love ya!! ^^ if i had more money i woulda lavished on the lilies for ya both! heh.. =)
so hapi for mi cheng~ she got her dream date! =))))))))))) *hears wedding bells pealing* heh.... ;)
so incoherent now... lalala.... maybe i used up all my coherence just now....
many special thanks to mi mom n sis for helping mi wrap mi vdae goodies! if not i would still be flustered n panicking here... arghs....
and yep... HaPi VdAe & HaPi IntErNaTiOnaL fReNsHip dAe to all of ya!!!!! =)
wUv sleeplessdith ^-^*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:34:00 AM
saw a paragraph on pj's blog that irritated the shit outta mi. i did not hesitate to show my disgust. muahaha. i guess from now on i will not care about what others think and just blog shit on my blog. =) i wun be politically correct, but i will not be racist or go all out to insult those true frens of mine. =) yep.
everyone's stressing over vdae. getting pressies. rushing around like mad things. vdae. no one special to share it with but i can hardly be bothered. something i've been accustomed to these 17+ years. =P i loved my sec 4 vdae.. twas great.. i made hearts for some special frens of mine and used fabric paint so that they would remember me when they squished those hearts of mine. =) i hope they still have them. i remember cussing when i pricked my finger, not once not twice but three times.. haha.. sitting in the chair sewing continuously by hand, making faces for those hearts, the trip to spotlight to buy the materials.. heh.. and all the sweets i bought for them.. ^^
this yr i'm giving sweets and flowers. no time to make stuff. prob heading to the florist tml by miself. horrid stuff. i recall my sec1 days when i rushed to orchard nearly evday by mi sorry self after sch cos no one was free.. hehehe.. i guess i'll have to get used to that again.. heh.. just for a day tho. smsed owl just now but doubt she's still awake.. gotta wait till tml morn for her reply.. =) perhaps i'll check out the handphones too.. ^^
i read in kor's blog about what he said about his frenships and stuff. i guess sometimes it's nice to be left alone and unbothered. everything to be taken at ur own pace. no stress. no worries. however when you need someone, you realised they've all migrated to others; forgotten about you. it's true to a certain extent. i dunno if it's better to bond better with ppl in ur jc or ppl in ur sec sch. i guess i bond better with my sec school frens. i'm more suited to my sec sch's social environment too. i just can't stand most aj ppl. can't reli talk indepth with them. my laughter sounds hollow and fake. i feel left out. i can't bond. and everything just tires me out. i dunno why. sometimes this makes mi question my social integration ability. am i just a lousy introvert who can't mix well? or is this irc's doing? i thot that in jc i learnt to be more outspoken, more daring and friendlier; less blur, more social? how come this seems to work in the reverse direction? perhaps it's the people. yeah. perhaps.
sitting quiet in a corner listening to my frens crap about something i totally can't contribute to. and when the topic finally shifts, i utter some things, but they dun reli listen. it's like noticing that disgusting oily stain on the wall for a long time; remembering how it got there, den returning to that interesting task you were busy at just now. i feel like that. i am that unsightly oily stain. perhaps it's just my luck. the people in my class. ugh.
wow. goodie. i'm a loner.
..........................
yep yep. still dwelling on the stuff my classmate said about me. i am perceived thus. should i rejoice? fuck it.
reading tabbie's blog now.. the ending paragraph. i agree totally with that. it's like sometimes you just wish and wish and dream for something to happen. yet when it does, it's not the fairytale magical feeling you expect it to be. it's well.. either non-existent or negative. kinda sucks, doesn't it? i get more outta fantasizing or dreaming about it. (nothing dirty here. :P)
read about the marie claire mag in life! today.. feel like getting it. but i predict it will be snapped up like hotcakes.. a controversy's always best for spurring ppl to do sth or to boost sales. i bet it will all be sold out by this week or sth. perhaps even before the article was printed. but sucks. it's like 13 bucks i reckon. i dun intend to fork out 13 bucks for that 5 page article. (well, maybe somewhere inside of me i do.) it's just not practical, my mind tells me. it's too darn ex and a total waste of cash. the internet has stuff like this if you bother to search, my pocket tells me. my heart tells me: omg. that will be such a fucking (pun intended) good read! argh. decisions decisions.
everyone's lovelorn on vdae. it's just right around the corner. split loyalties. dunno whether to do mi chem or study phy on thurs. wondering how ppl would react if i turned up in sch with 10 wilting flowers. omg. guess i have to rush home to get them or stuff. still deciding on the kind of flowers i'll get. something.. lilac? i'm sick of red. cny was red. vdae will be red. i see red. it's like painting a whole town in blood. =) time for some nice eye-easing blue.. heh... irises might be good. but they're kinda ex, i guess. i'm not forking out more than 20 bucks for those 10 flowers.. i hope. $_$
i reli envy those ppl with cash. nice house. nice furniture. neat place. maids. breathing space. privacy. choices. possessions. no financial worries. nice clothes. transportation provided. grr... guess i'll keep envying them till my final breath.
gahs. tis late. sch tml. gotta distribute synapse! finally! it's out! yeahhhh~ reminds mi. my article with pj's kinda due by fri. =(((( phy remedial.. here i come............ how to pia 9 topics when i barely have time for my hw? fuck it. i'm sinking and i can't escape.
(aww. fuck it. blogger's down again. with a 500 internal server error. 2.09am on a thursday morning. another day of insanity. night~)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:46:00 AM
aye. dunno what to blog about today. been checking out hp models lately tho. i want a new hp! yeah.. but haven't decided which to get. 6510 or 7210..? the one thing i hate about 7210 is that the screen is 5 lines wide. that's bad. forwarded msgs gonna look screwed. =/ but it's a color fone with mms! argh... choices, choices. =( gotta use my ang bao money to purchase that too.. should i trade in my 3330 or not? trusty fone. i will miss it. =((((( again. choices choices.
going out on vdae to watch movie. hmm.. should be interesting. ; ) still haven't gotten mi pressies for ppl yet.. damn. gotta drag myself to go search for them miself tml.. haix.... sux
aye. everything sux. more holidays please~ i reli love holidays. =/
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:40:00 AM
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monday 10th feb 2003
"now i'm slacking in 412... rainy day today. kinda suits my foul mood. no one who saw mi today could tell. why should i show sth i can so easily conceal? life in aj; life in society. we are so accustomed to disguising our true feelings, putting on a fake front and just hauling our sore butt thru life till we get some alone time... finally. i reli din feel like facing anymore yest; din feel like showing up for sch. but i can't. i'm in such big shit. gotta face up to all my tutors. blood suckers. it's not the workload that's stressing mi out. it's the pple. anw, the fact that i am able to maintain this waxed on smile is cos of jes... many thanks! *muakx* i ponned pe today and just nice she had free periods thruout. joy to the world! glory glory halleuiagh! =) reli made my day.
i was talking, smiling and laughing in the reading room... like normal. ^-^ ahh.. twas great.. the solace i sought for was found.. for 2 hours. pe ended, i was in the canteen and i saw my classmates. first words that were uttered. not a standard greeting, but a chilling stab in my face. 'meredith. mr lim wants to see you.' or whoever. i dun even know the names of the pe teachers properly. mood made a 90 degree dip. luckily many years of training helped me maintain my posture. i mentally straightened myself, brushed myself off, mumbled a 'yea' and crashed into my seat feeling like a mouldy spit wad.
math tut. happiness! i was prepared. so i had the privilege to partially stone... altho i was also brooding and moping around, i din show it. merely grimaced at the desk before me, keeping quiet. blehx.. gp lesson ended. bye~ phy prac torture now..."
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:31:00 AM
night! hehehe.....
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:52:00 AM
to hell with everyone. shit the world.
from tml onwards i will become a recluse.
you made me this way. so be proud. yeah. all of you. fuck it. reli. just.. screw it.
solution to this problem: to wipe myself off the face of this too-beautiful earth.
cowardice prevents me.
just. screw it. no need to take pity on me. or ask what's wrong.
I AM THE WRONG.
and i shall be righted.
night. the darkness beckons.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:19:00 PM
[22:49] (anon) they say u like to 'act bad'
[22:49] (anon) den say u too heck in studies liao
[22:49] (anon) as a fren ... i no comments to tt
[22:49] hmm..
[22:49] me?
[22:49] ...........................
[22:49] when?
[22:49] act bad.... and so?
[22:49] (anon) but i do agree tt u shd pay more attention to ur sutdies
[22:50] hahaha
[22:50] i pia maths tutorial ok
[22:50] i did till qn 12~
[22:50] (anon) u know wad i mean by 'act bad'?
[22:50] ....
[22:50] not reli
[22:50] wahahhax...
[22:50] mostly is i am blur
[22:50] (anon) like for example .... act like u know alot
[22:50] ....
[22:50] alot about?
[22:50] dot dot dot
[22:50] (anon) abt like say ... pubbing ... adults stuffs etc
[22:51] (anon) like ..
[22:51] (anon) drinking? drugs? gangs?
[22:51] ok lohhhhhhhhhhh
[22:51] fine
[22:51] i dun talk to them le
[22:51] i dunno what else to talk about?
[22:51] (anon) go chiong wif frens?
[22:51] in depth stuff? dunno them well enuf
[22:51] chinese singers?
[22:51] (anon) i tell u wad they tok abt
[22:51] ......
[22:51] (anon) at least when i'm ard
[22:52] (anon) abt guys
[22:52] .... ok
[22:52] guys.
[22:52] (anon) abt sum experience of their frens
[22:52] (anon) (not themselves)
[22:52] so i'm supposed to talk about guys with them?????
[22:52] .
[22:52] (anon) usualli j lee got ALOT to say
[22:52] what's so bloody interesting.
[22:52] so they want mi to talk abotu guys?
[22:52] (anon) wads wrong wif joinin in their conversation?
[22:52] .....
[22:52] (anon) no ..
[22:52] i dunno what to say about guys.
[22:53] (anon) they dun want u to tok abt it
[22:53] listen?
[22:53] (anon) i juz saying ...
[22:53] i rather not
[22:53] (anon) u need a 'common topic' to mix beta wif them
[22:53] (anon) dun act so like an outcast lor
[22:53] ...........
[22:53] i reli cannot mix with them
[22:53] (anon) 1 more thing ... dun spend so much time online
[22:53] ....
[22:54] (anon) it'll realli spoil ur 'face-to-face' social skills
[22:54] ....
[22:54] (anon) it's weird to 'get frens online'
[22:54] i am friendless.
[22:54] leave me be.
[22:55] i am gonna live in a cave.
[22:55] (anon) dun lame la
[22:55] (anon) u'r in spore
[22:55] (anon) do u tok much to the pple in ur tut grps?
[22:56] huh.
[22:56] who?
[22:56] (anon) how i know whuz in ur tut grp
[22:56] tut grp for what.
[22:56] (anon) do u get involved in the discussions in ur tut grps?
[22:56] (anon) grpS
[22:57] (anon) any tut grp
[22:57] in class?
[22:57] tutorial grp?
[22:57] .
[22:57] why would i give a damn.
[22:57] (anon) FUCK OFF YOU BUGGERS. --> referin to me?
[22:57] (anon) c'mon lor meredith
[22:57] (anon) dun try be loner liao
[22:58] (anon) it's no gd lor
[22:58] (anon) u wunt gain aniting frm it ... it's not cool
[22:58] (anon) pple'll see it as childish
[22:59] (anon) suan le u dun wanna listen..nth i can do...i gg le bye
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:06:00 PM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:57:00 PM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:57:00 PM
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:56:00 PM
FINE.
LET THEM THINK WHAT THEY WANT TO THINK. I AINT BOTHERED.
i need solace. but where do i seek it from?
damn damn damn.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:55:00 PM
(Quit (Love is a gamble,Sex is a game,Boys do the fucking,Gals get the pain.Heat of pleasure,9 months of pain.2 days in e hospital,and junior needs a name !))
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:47:00 PM
the thot just entered my mind.
am i popular? what does being popular feel like? good? bad? what does it take for one to be popular? is not being popular a negative thing?
i don't feel like i am popular. i feel like i am below average in society. friends. waving. chatting happily. the distinction between the real world and the dream world. confusion. i dunno anymore.
i guess i should be contented with my life now. i mean, i wave to quite a lot of people daily. but. does waving count as being popular? i can even wave to people i dunno, but they might give me muddled and weird looks back. waving is an act of friendliness. but is friendliness an ACT? a whole freaking act. sometimes i even wonder if i act just to get through the day. when do i truly feel happy? when i win something? achieve something? feel loved? get praised? i dunno.
i realise i don't understand myself anymore.
sometimes i am this robot. slaving over society; over school; over everything. i just go through things mechanically; without much thought as to WHY i'm doing it. and sometimes, when i think too much, i get depressed.
they say humans have limitations. and one must restrict oneself for fear of committing overly rash acts that one might regret. i agree. think about it. everyday do you want to do something, yet tell yourself, NO. i CAN'T. cos it's _______.
legal restrictions. society. you might get ostracized, put into the jailhouse, regret. whatnot. life's like that. there's no denying it.
life is full of choices, restrictions and problems.
i guess we just have to put on our happy faces. if we feel happy, we're bound to be happy, ......right?
i guess so. if we don't try, we won't know.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:01:00 PM
heh... vdae's coming.. i haven't bought my gifts, made my list.. etc etc... hmm.. should i go out after sch on vdae? let's see... let's leave that up to fate, shall we... ^^ may the best man win! lolx~ watched hubtv again.. rich boy taro... haha.. today was damn lame.. until i took a nearby plastic bag and breathed deeply in and outta it.. heh... hyperventilating! omg... it was SOOOOOOOOO *scrunches eyes* eMbaRaSsInG! wahhaha.... *flumps*
ah well... gotta do gp essay and phy tut... math done.. chem... i dunno what to do, frankly.. heh.............
hmm.. nothing else to write here cos i din do anything worthy of mention today..
*hops off*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:17:00 PM
discovered a new scv channel today... hubtv... all f4.. erm. not that i'm a fan of theirs.. but it's something to watch when you're ultimately bored like i was.. watched something about rich boy taro starring vic zhou.. erm. that was just L-A-M-E.. den now they're showing Meteor Garden I.. that one's not so bad... argh.. i'm reli so damn bored.. did math tut 23 until question 11... go me!!! yeah! i rule! haha... gotta study for phy soon.. sucks...
yep.. yz turned 18 on fri.. went to shop for his pressie that day... it's gonna be a belated pressie... i watched 8 mile after sch with some of mi classmates.. 8 mile is not bad.. but great, but better than average.. eminem, like they say, can act.. and yep, i'm a fan of his, i admit... throughout the whole show i kept hearing fuck, mother, shit, bitch.. heh... hot words of the day.. expected of him tho.. some of my frens came out of the theatre raving of his rapping skills... and suddenly they were hooked onto rap.. perhaps it's inspiring.. it also deals with racism.. and discrimination.. *shrug*
i wanna see soooooo many movies!!!!
yep.. that day at lido, while we were buying tix, the person at the counter looked at us in our uniforms and asked if we were 16.. lol!~ 16 was like sooooo long ago.. so mi fren said we were from ajc... yep.. ooooooookk... no prob with that.. when we were sitting down waiting for the movie to start, a caucasian gal approached us.. asked us if we were 16... and she wanted tix to watch an nc-16 movie.. lol~ she said she was 14... @_@;; whoa.. but i guess they look older than us... yep... my fren said:"must be all the kantang" wahaha..
before that we had mrs leow's special cny party for her gp classes... yeah~~! she rules!!!! mrs leow rocks!! ^^
soooo many goodies.. what a great spread! heh... aepok aepok.. cny tidbits, jelly, chicken wings and drumlets.. mm... i think i ate loads.. gonna be fat fat fat for mon.. not to mention my cough is getting worse... haix....
i reached home around 9+ after shopping around in isetan for luo qi fang's pressie.... yz: you'll see what it is on mon!! heh...
today i watched chingay... been a long time since i have.. i caught aaron's segment den i switched back to channel 26.. ^^;;; tonight's aim: finish the entire maths tutorial...? dunno leh... but i had better tackle the phy and chem one.. and do a GP essay! argh.. busy busy busy.. shouldn't have slept till 3pm today... =/ there's not enuf time in this world.. haix....
hmm.. tml's sunday. i'll spend it sleeping, eating and doing hw again... yep... gonna ground miself... (i hope)
cyaaaa peeps~ ^^
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:48:00 PM
after i crossed the road, a middle aged man approached me. asked me directions to "da pai si shi qi" blk 47, in other words.. blehx.. so i offered to bring him there.. where he could see the block.. not far.. just 2 blocks away.. he thanked me and i said welcome... why do i go the extra mile? the previous time i also directed an old lady to ntuc.. i mean like, why approach mi... i'm like so blur looking.. some ppl even said i look fierce.. =/ do i?
had a nap in the sch library today.. as well as during many of my lectures... it's just so nice to sleeeep... was nodding off in phy today.. i tried to stay awake, i reli did.. but somehow... haix...
listening to "wai tao" now.. by power station... it's a reli nice song.. altho it's in chinese.. but i understand it.. a guy feels that he is but an overcoat to this gal that he loves, yet although she goes to him to whine about all her problems with another guy, she can shrug him off very easily... this is how she treats him... does she know who he is to her? etc etc
i'm not good at analysing chinese songs as well as english... =))))
beautiful by christina aguillera playing on my winamp now.. hit number one on the charts.. it has a classical feel to it... i wonder if it's an original or a cover... hmm... but it's a good and meaningful song... also encouraging.. ^^
blah. nothing to write about now.. might do some essay on the famous two letter word : " no " ... would be fun, wouldn't it? some analysis on a widely used word... just got sms from elaine didi... she called mi to ask for help with amaths lastnight... i also dunno how to do... haix... i'm feeling tired... and The Scientist by Coldplay's playing on winamp... lullabye...... Zzzzzz
such a sweet, sad yet beautiful song. listen to its lyrics and his mournful voice.... so soothing............
cyaaaaa~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:12:00 PM
ran to sch today.. abit like madwoman liddat.. larkily i caught the train.. 1min! it arrived just as i saw the signboard.. so i quickly tapped mi ezlink card and ran down the stairs.. reached it just as the door opened.. heh.. close shave man.. XD haix.. umm.. teacher just announced the pulau tekong trip thingy.. seems 3 gals from mi class going.. dun reli like them.. haix.. it's so hard to blog.. teacher's like coming round to see mi.. ughz.. den i'm looking at some chinese article about having too little or too much sleep..ahahas.. exactly what i did last night man.. too little sleep.. ahahs.. nvm la.. i'm surviving.. i guess.. altho i was like dozing off during the various lectures and stuff.. hehex... lalala.. nvm la.. hehx..
*hops around* maybe i'm going out after sch today.. either go out with classmate buy present for fren.. or meet master they all to go sim lim/ bugis.. heh.. got so many vids to view on mi comp also.. kogepan! and some mp3s to listen to.. irc irc irc.. wasting mi time.. =/ but i din get scolding today... i guess? gp teacher did suan mi today.. about traditional chinese societies.. heh.. she said that in olden days, parents sent their children to sch.. and encouraged the teachers to flog, punish them and discipline them as they see fit.. writing 1000 lines.. as long as their bones were not broken and the lives of the children preserved..ahahahx.. then she targeted mi.. said sth like :"yeah, meredith.. you're lucky you're not living in olden times, yea? heheh..."
frens talking bout beyblade now.. and playing the aaron kwok song.. -_-; wahahahs.. so old still play beyblade.. =X i'm no exception.. hehehs... lalala.. teacher aint here now.. but i better quickly finish this entry.. den maybe start on a new one.. hahahx.. jessie's reading yz's blog now.. hah.. HE NVR UPDATE! go update hor, yz.. X)
so yep.. mi going to pulau tekong.. teacher said i can request to be with 23/02.. X) yeah!!! aiyah.. you people.. it's not a GUY lar.. it's mi gal fren, jes! heheh... yeah.. that's good! can spend quality talk cok time with her!! ah.. so it wun be boring.. =D *looks across* guys flicking john's ear.. dot dot dot.. thot they were mature young adults? haha.. not the guys in mi class.. muahahahx.. nvm la.. makes it more fun.. i'd rather feel like i'm studying in a kindergarden than in a place with business suits and ties, right? hehhe... today mi typing's up to shape.. yeah! adrenalin! fun fun fun.. not so many typos also.. think this keyboard rocks.. i'll kidnap it!! X)
juan din come sch today.. =/ so din see her.. think she got the flu bug too.. everyone's STILL coming down with it.. went to point x during mi 3 period long break today.. hung around.. den jes called to say that she ponned her econs lect.. cos she was tired and wanted to sleep.. hahah.. her classmates reli are damn *censored* man.. little bit of rule-flouting also dowan to do.. little bit of slacking also dowan.. so kan chiong.. and they were mi first-three month's classmates.. haha.. haix... i reli miss mi other first 3 month classmates... haven't seen them close to a year.. all of them together, i mean.. no gatherings.. =/
*swivels in the blue comp chair* lalala.. i'm in 1321, my fingertips are freezing as they are fervently typing this (going to be quite long) entry.. zhen yi jian's song playing quite loudly from someone's comp.. lalalala... seems jan/feb is a v popular time for 1985 babies to pop out.. esp late jan and early feb.. alot of mi fren's bdaes.. not to mention my sis'... mine still long way to go.. but i bet time will pass fast.. i guess stephen's on the plane back to sg right now.. 20 hour flight.. jialat loh.. wahhahax.. what can i say.. was talking to him last night on irc.. eh.. his night.. his 2am.. my 3pm.. XD
ehs. gotta end this entry. hard to type without being caught. jessie already banned from comp lab in the future.. x_X
wUv schdith (^-^*)
buaix~!~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:29:00 PM
anw.. what did i do on... yep sunday.. my sec sch frens had to go their separate ways.. they did had visiting to do.. so i met up with my chan frens... i'm such an idiot at finding stuff, so in the end my master braved the rain to meet me to bring mi to the arcade at marina square.. they were playing cards + para para.. da4 kai1 yan3 jie4... para para aint that bad after all.. it's.... ok. *chokes* XD
went around to river hongbao's fair to check out the rides and what funny stuff they were selling.. gimmicks.. =X first time i remember being there tho.. so was another eyeopener for mi.. we all got on the ferriswheel.. wHeE~~~` X) lalala... din get the chance to get on the bumper cars tho... dunno what's my obsession with cars.. i love racing arcade games.. some violent bumping action.. muahaha.. pity i kinda fractured mi hand few years back... now kinda developed phobia.. eekx.. i din even see a doc for mi hand.. so i think it's abit crooked.. hahas... but nvm la.. can type can le! =D
evday raining.. buay tahan man.. so slippery all the time.. haix.. mi slippers no friction arhx? -_-;
sian sian sian sian.
ok la. must admit that the funfair was fun.. the people were great.. =) went home quite tired.. but happy.. larkily jh caught her last bus home.. =) i guess you just had to be there... dunno why i can't launch into descriptive essay mode now.. bleh.. i guess i'm too cold.. been enduring the weather the whole day.. freezing... yet bearable. why do ppl still use airconditioning when they have a natural readily available to them? i dun understand it. make me colder still.. brrr.... and i dun even have aircon at home.. -_-
on monday i went out again.. met asa first at tamp mrt.. den ran into the others. walked around a lot.. went to arcade.. erm.had to admit it was terribly boring.. i was just sitting there stoning after awhile. =( after alot of hanging around and stoning, i rushed to sengkang on a bus.. took mi quite long to find the busstop. but now i know it's just behind the mrt station. silly me. walked one whole round to find it. --;
stood on the bus for awhile den ppl started getting off, so i found a seat so i could look out the window with my bad eyesight at all the road signs... saw tamp st 10 flash by.. and a few more.. den it came to the expressway.. a middle aged man was sitting beside mi. he kept nodding off. of cos i was wideawake.. i kept shifting nearer and nearer the window until i was nearly pressed against it.. he was nodding onto me.. eek... haix... sian. he woke up when the bus hit a bump, den leaned the other side and started nodding off again.. and somehow he nodded from that side back to me. kinda hilarious now.... ahahas....
reached sengkang/punggol... first time i went there.. o.0 quite a nice place. diff from wat i expected. i expected undeveloped marshland w out-of-place condos.. lol!~ looked around for e interchange.. saw this funny structure, so i alighted n called gwen.. when she said it was air-conditioned, i panicked... OMG! I AM LOST! i feverishly thot... =_= it just din add up. i saw sengkang sengkang, and no hougang, so how could i be in hougang... =/ wandered around like a lost cat for what seemed like eternity. until finally i read the number plates.. "at new interchange" a few said. NEW? wah... i looked around.. saw some buses go into this structure.. wah.. followed a woman in heels over.. climbed the mound of sand.. and went over... omg. aircon whooshed past me. i saw buses! SENGKANG INTERCHANGE! X) X) X) okkkkk... i found my way! met up with the rest.. went to compass point.. another first time thing! ooOO.. monday was indeed a day of new experiences and discoveries... =D knowledge is power~ hehehex... master was so nice.. he treat us to crepes.. domo~~ ^^ mine had choc on it.. i ate choc... *_* i ate choc... *_* *keeps chanting that in disbelief* oOooo.. after SO many months... wahahhax.. haix. pity i couldn't reli taste it.. =/ couldn't savour it... but the crepe was nice.. ^^ food~~~ and i din have breakfast.. hehex.. finally we went to gwen's house.. cosy! mi like.. =)))) ate dere... curry was good.. altho kinda hot (both kinds of hot) i was eyeing the chicken, but din eat cos of the mess i would make... X) mostly ate veggies.. yeah.. and i ate a prawn.. mmm.. domo gwen for peeling one for all of us~! hehe.. lolx... later we cleared up and played cards.. ahhh i suck at daidee~ X) tried to learn how to play bridge, but i'm this utter failure.. lol..
hmm now about tuesday. i was v v nearly late for sch. had to run, as usual.. lol.. wasn't so bad. met wp on the way, and we kinda jogged to sch together... comraderie (spelling) wahahhax... the gate din close so early, so i managed to get behind my class as the bell went off and the national anthem came on.. was feeling quite like fuck that day.. so there was this pissed off expression on my face for awhile.. it went off eventually, when the teachers din reli scold mi for not doing tutorials or attending lessons, and i reli reli love smiling.. hehex.. =) can't ya tell? lol....
i showed sai ghor mi mc.. she din say much... later during break while i was queueing with jessie at the chai stall, i felt someone put a warm hand on my shoulder.. mrs leow. mi gp tutor.. =) she started smiling and talking to mi :"so how's my snail?" blah blah blah.. she asked if i was sick, and if so, was i feeling better? i told her about the article in straits times about cny being the sick season this year, to which she nodded and agreed... and i told her about mi family passing mi the germs.. of cos, in an animated manner.. jessie finished ordering by then, so mrs leow noticed.. i was going to leave, then she said :"oh, nvm nvm... you go" lol... i was kinda stoned then.. so took me awhile to realise she was talking about ordering food.. i wasn't queueing.. heh.. so i clarified that..
as we left, jessie commented that mrs leow seemed to like mi alot. well. it's the truth. not being bhb or anything; she did tell me... haix... i guess it's true.. like what i told jessie : " you either hate me or love me " it's the extremes for me, baby~ lalala.. i dunno why either.. haix...
had math lect.. met mr tan halfway walking from the audi... he said hi to me :" hi meredith~" in that cute boyish voice of his.. he din say anything to jessie tho. haix. think he din see her. he was pissed during lect tho.. he's always pissed when he's lecturing. dunno why. den we all cannot understand, he's like talking to himself? ........... dunno la. din understand and din bother to understand about vectors. uGh..
still gotta copy jessie's notes... larkily there was no math lect today.... X)
later we had civics. mdm foo announced ( WHY WHY WHY ) that i was the only student from her class to give her oranges n wish her.. the rest were all her ex-students.. blehx.. so she went like "pei li guai~"... diaozn. haix.. at least no scolding. that's good. =) we did some song-analysing thing. i was busy smsing on my phone, so when ppl asked me, i just randomly crapped. but i guess i'm used to crapping. too much lit.. >.< i love analysing. altho i can get too deep sometimes.. and distort it totally outta proportion and wind up with something totally off track.. wahahahs...
mass civics was about 3 cip projects. was quite entertaining. chye kiat behind me was like leaning on the back of mi chair and making comments. and kept asking mi to get the attention of the guy sitting in front of mi for him. so irritating. -_-; so uncomfortable also. couldn't lean back. =_=;
after that was lunch and maths. i din reli get scolding for maths.. i guess if you kinda look alert n ask qns in class... i dunno? normally she always checks on mi. hahahx.. she did tho, i gotta do math lata.. had break, den pe.. i din go for pe.. so i slept in the reading room during break, den at the study area during pe. den gp class, blah blah...
hmm.. today. what did i do today? as i said, it was cold.. not reli eventful. i kinda dozed during SOOO many lectures.. heh.. so comfortable too.. irritating. today in phy lect amanda and her bf were sitting one seat away from mi. he looks so much like and reminds me of mi ex.. and he's gross. yucks. haix... i dun like her bf. i keep diaoing him in sch. i think he knows that. hopefully he doesn't think i could POSSIBLY be attracted to him.. yucks yucks yucks. reli bottomline. -_-;
saw someone 3 times today or so. i think the someone was checking out mi fren.. hahahas... oh yeah.. ran into kelv today... greeted him with a bdae handshake and a bdae wish.. =) yep yep.. hope he's enjoying himself now.. lol....
hmmx... nothing much to say now... if i have anything more to say, i'll update lata. at least for now, my blog's somewhat up to date... =) finally... hehex.... i reli wUv mi blog... writing is such a release for mi.... =)))))
tataZ~~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:18:00 PM
went to sch like siao char boh.. hair untied.. half-wet, straggly.. sleeves unfolded.. haha.. just rushed down for the bus.. lift lobby was also so damn dark.. blehx.. but.. the important thing is: I CAUGHT THE BUS! finally! hehex..got sms from the guy after pj.. dotdotdot. last night making me so pissed online.. ugh.. keep asking for pj.. den tried to mail me some crap about what he wanted tell her or some shit like that.. blahblahblah.. excusez moi, i have no time for that.. last night so stressed.. den aiyar.. actually din want to go online.. budden i was like sitting in the chair outside.. dad came home, wanted to sit in front of tv eat dinner.. ok loh.. so mom chased mi off, and actually said.. ok la.. i go comp there..you -know- i wun get off.. it's v hard to stop once you start, so i dun reccomend doing anything that you like first, before completing a task you deem menial beforehand.. like hw.. sian sian sian. in the end stayed on till around 2am.. internet was crap last night. din improve my mood. ev1 like getting so irriated left right and centre.. perhaps i reli should quit irc.. spoiling my life only..
today's kelv's bdae... hApI 18th bDaE kELv!!! have a good one, ya? ^^ dunno what to get for him.. :X last night so bo liao.. hehe.. he counting down on irc.. -_-;
so sorry dear bloggie.. so long nvr type in you liao.. blame it on me either being too busy on irc, having no mood or just being too darn busy or sleepy.. gp class yest evening was quite fun.. we did stuff on Affirmative Action.. we watched a vid on it.. about the university of michigan allegely accepting blacks into their schs with lots of leeway, lower standards.. double standards for whites and blacks.. blahblahblah.. copied the definition down.. it was interesting.. =) actually altho i kinda hate it cos it's so late, i also love it cos it's fun compared to normal gp lessons.. =D love-hate reli.. hehe.. so cold now.. brrr.. fingers are like all frozen all and mi bzbody frens coming around to sniff at what i'm doing.. kinda expected also.. blogging's just so fun! reli!~ ahh.. i wuv you, mi bloggie.. ^-^
hmm.. anyway it has unfolded. yep. i knew it all along.. aren't i smart. teeheehee.. aiyar. perhaps i should just let it run it's course, no? dunno lar.. right now i can't be bothered... >.<
perhaps i should talk bout what i did on the days of cny that we had holidays.. hmm.. on sat i just stoned at home.. din do anything.. i mean like, by the time this wormy dith crawled out of her bed, it was already 4.45pm.. nearing 5.. omg.. evening.. can't reli blame mi also.. so sleep-deprived.. haix.. sch sux lalala... hmm.. 10 mins left to blog. guess i better make this short.. but i wun guarantee it being sweet.. hahax..
stonament on sat.. on sun i went out.. went to ml's house to bai nian..collected ang bao from maomaos.. X) hehehx.. den i kop alot of her bakgua to eat.. hehe.. mi pig.. >.< hmmx.. after lazing around, watching croc hunter and stuff.. and talking alot of cok, we left her house.. hehe.. dunno where we went.. ah.. city area.. esplanade that side.. we walked from lao pa sat to esplanade.. went to delifrance to eat.. hahax.. some channel frens saw mi.. omg.. paisehx! larkily i wasn't like slobbering all over mi plate and stuff.. quite cheap.. 9.90 for two sets of meals.. each consisting of 1 tropicana chicken bagguette thingy, a bowl of soup and tea/coffee.. ^^ ate until so full full.. can die sia.. mi lose weight campaign is gone! but these days been cutting down..
yeah.. yest afternoon a pe teacher talked to mi about attending taf, getting out of it, etc.. blehx.. asked mi why i din attend it.. i haven't attended once k.. perfect record! X)
i just told him. i dun feel like it.. he tried to coax me, encourage mi, advise mi.. etc.. so i was like.. "ya.. ya.." *nodding head politely all the time*
hmmx.. after that went to orchard to walkwalk awhile.. ok lar.. orchard is.. well, orchard.. nothing new..
no mood to blog liao.. tell ya guys about mi sunday another time k.. hopefully i haf the mood!!
buaiii~~~
wUv schdith (^-^*)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:14:00 AM
feeling like uneasy crap now.
think i'll just go do my hw and forget about everything that's been said or done.
only mathematical formulae will be floating around in my head when i wake up... IF i sleep.
why is one day only 24 hours long?
it's really not enough when school's already 11+ hours for me today.
i have no time for myself without sacrificing other things.
but then again, it's just me and my HORRIBLE to be DAMNED time management.
goodnight mortals.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:42:00 AM
having mixed feelings now. i guess it's better than how i was feeling just now. contributes even more to my blurness. haven't done any hw either.. argh.. but i'll get it done later. i guess since some ppl are rehearsing for the NE thing i'll take early leave tml and just run off synapse.. haven't gotten anything done either over the space of the nearly non-existant cny hols.. hmmx...
haven't gotten enuf slp lately.. looking kinda panda-ish... hmmx.. i owe that to not being able to juggle my time, having extra things to do and stuff.. it sucks..but essentially it boils down to one thing. it's all my fault. mi and my poor time management. my lack of discipline or responsibility. argh argh argh.
i wanna know. am i reli blind and now i see or did i know all along and was pretending? kinda obvious. suspiciousness and curiousity naturally enticed me.. and now i can't help but keep looking for clues. i'm like that i guess. for those who know me well.. i'm sure you know how i'm like by now. but pity pity... mu's comp still spoilt... but yui sent mi a few diru songs.. yui good! X)
interactions. is that what makes us human? i dunno anymore. blehx. wrong signals perhaps if there's nothing behind the screen. or am i getting everything right, but it's just an unsaid truth? man oh man oh man.
a suggestion i got was to go wooden scarecrow totally. but i can't do that. it's bad. and it's unlike me. ugh.
i can't reli write anything here now.. too personal and i'm too tired. cough medicine taking effect.
damn.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:41:00 AM
tml's maths ct.. die die die... but can lar.. cos i've more or less been doing tutorials.. wun guarantee it will be a breeze, but i think i can pass tho.. just gotta upgrade my maths ram.. XD hahahs.... speed too darn slow sia.. dun even know if tml i will be well enuf to pop into sch.. gotta see what's up tml.. anw i have backup mc... so can always take the retest on fri.. but so stupid right. always take retest. -_-;;;;;; haix............ how how how mi in shit now..... *cries*
people got back their o lvl results today. day of judgement. i remember this time last yr.. lols.. i think? hahas... at first i was calm.. den tentative.. den when we were all seated in the classroom and teacher was reading out our names for us to collect our fate, i got nervous... but nope i din cry.. hahas.... marks were.... expected lar. borderline satisfactory.. hahas... blehs. i dun give a damn either.. heh.. just glad my place in my first 3 months jc was reassured and that i achieved what i wanted to achieve... ;) just did enuf to get mi by... XD
hmm.... been thinking abit about a fren whom i think has been avoiding mi.. either he's v v damn blur or he's avoiding mi for some reason. dun think he dislikes mi. perhaps he either 1. thinks i like him -that- way or 2. he's beginning to like mi that way.
i mean, come ON. there's no way i would fall for a pri sch classmate. so what if i think you're cute? i think many many guys are cute. -_-; blehs.... there are so many fish in the sea. as if it's so easy to fall for a person. gahs. not saying ur of low standard. but ur just not my type. perhaps i like in the sense of a good fren. someone i can crap to and have fun with. hang out and laff. but no no to the whole love thing. *shakes head* some ppl are just too sensitive for their own good. -_-;;; what's wrong if i come off as kinda too frenly? isn't it good to be frenly...? or perhaps he has restrictions from his gf or whatnot. like: no speaking to or looking at another gal. gah. hahahas... now that's dumb. if i had a bf, if i knew he was loyal and stuff, i would not get jealous. well, unless i saw him and another gal doing something intimate.. hahas.... -_-;;;;;;;
i seriously think he's avoiding mi leh. but in order as not to make the misunderstanding worse, i did not say hi. i pretended not to know he was behind mi. yep. but i'm thinking. is that what i should do? or just confront him: "hey. are you avoiding mi? and why, if so?" that would just make it worse, i guess.. bleargh. he even changed mrt sides. gahs. i mean, come on... isn't it good to have a going-to-sch buddy? buddies can be gals too? or in my case, guy/gal (optional) wahahahs.... -_-;;;;; i dun understand guys.
that gotten off my chest (trivial matter lar, that) let's go on to other issues.. why don't guys get hints. esp OBVIOUS hints. dun keep at it and practically forcing the gal till she's like totally fed up and wanted to kill ya. you know who you are. gahs... it's not nice. i mean like, come on, this yr's a bz year. dun make it a stressful year too? one does not need emotional stress to pile atop one's physical and mental stress. gahs....
ah.. i love movies~ pity i'm sick. or i'll be skipping off to the theatre.. =/ bleargh.
ok lar.... gotta end here. feeling cold liao. think fever returning. using internet during peak hours. mom will be stoned and crushed by the phonebill.... x_X
tataZ peeps~~~~
wUv sickdith (x_X*)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:50:00 PM
i think i'll post another entry now.. since cca starts at 2.30.. X) nothing to do.. but feeling kinda extra in 212.. =/ alamaks.. i think i see a potential j1 couple... x_X wahahha.. i feel so bright.... *dies* today lao shi was reading us an essay on "shi1 lian4".. hhaa.. it's damn funny yet there's truth to it... yepyep.. quite true leh. guys have to carry the burden of somehow providing for their female counterpart... ^^;;; hahas... i guess now i'll talk about what i did yesterday den.. tuesday. afternoon pe.. zzzzz.. quite tired the previous day.. so was slping in either lects or tuts... heh... pe was ok lar.. we did 1 round warmup.. so song!~ i could run WITH my classmates AND keep up with them till the end.. haix.. all that training going to good use.... -somehow- hahas... cos today i was late.. or gonna be late. as i got out of the lift, from the lift lobby, i saw the bus whoosh past.. arGh...
runrunrun.... ran like a mad woman all the way! and it's not say v near lohs.. -_-; 100++ m sprint sia.... haiyox.. i CAUGHT it i CAUGHT it!!!!! yay! congratulate mi~~~~ XD so was on time for sch.. i am adamant NOT to do yeoman.... bleargh..... sucky!!!!! heh.. mom as usual watched mi performance from the balcony... eh. >.< hahas.. she's my one and only ardent fan... =P
kpo person beside mi looking at mi entry just now.. not say a sideways glance but a damn obvious look loh... aiyah.. go mind ur own business lar.... -_-;;;
today was liyun's bdae.. so happy for her k! hahas.. john was teasingly asked to plan and organise her canteen bdae. at first he declined den he volunteered.. XD omg.. she's like sooo lucky.. so many guys like her.... x_X hahas... what a show to see leh! hahahas... some of the gals got a mrs fields cookie cake with icing on top for her yest. mi included! pink and white icing around the edges and Happy 18th Bdae Liyun! in white and blue... ooOohs... so lurvely~ XD passed by tangs.. went after pe.. haas... eyebrow guy steven approached us of cos... one group of chiobu except for one ~ mi! XD haha. they were like kinda tio stun when i turned around and scolded that eyebrow faggot. i was like "YOU AGAIN! I KEEP KICKING YOU OUTTA THE CHANNEL" wahahs... i think he wun dare to approach aj gals for a while now... =P i'm doing the sch a favour! =P
aye. can't blog with ppl around mi. now 2.15pm. cca in 15 mins... =) yep yep yeppers~ (kelv: feel proud! ;D)
we got the heart cookie cake for $28 den headed to haagen daz for ice creammmm... so ex. -_-; eh i prefer buds. 1.90 per scoop! x_X haagen daz is like WHAT?! $7.50 for a single scoop in a cone!? wTf sia. -_-;;;;;;;;;;;;;; oh ya. saw dennis' hair yest. and saw him 3 times.... so freeeeeeeeee ar he.. haha.. nothing new about his hair.. and to think he made such a fuss over it.. =P vainpot dennis! =P wp gave mi kinda a fright when he tapped mi (slightly too hard) on the shoulder while i was queueing up with jessie for chicken cutlet yest... hahas.. so paid him back by kinda repaying him the same way today on the way to sch.. =P hahaa... anw wp... thanks for the maths test tip hor!!!!!!!!! =D
met cheng and banana yest while waiting with sok teng for the train yest.. wah i damn blur siaaaaaaa~ she had to call mi name like dunno how many times... been stoning alot these days.. i think i owe it to being too tired.... XD hahas..... finally i see and know who her crush n vdae date is!!!!!!!!! oOoOo laLaaaaa~~ hhahaa... go gal!!!! =P had to alight at tpy so entrusted sokteng to the care of cheng n banana... X) sok said cheng's and mi very similar... erm. same sch lar.. but most importantly... we're CHENGS!!!!!! XD ahahas...
hmm.. ok.. back to today's happenings. recap: we're in the canteen and john is bringing the cake over to the canteen table... oOo.. cheeks aflush and hearts apounding here.. =X heh... liyun's such a nice gal.. everyone loves her.. ahh.. so fortunate. =) but kindness begets kindness, like they all say... =) *hops around* perhaps i'll make her my role model...
we planted the candles into the cake and sang her a bdae song~ heh. i hugged her a total of 3 times today!!!!! lol!!! haha... wo zhuan dao wo zhuan dao! *exclaims in glee* so paiseh ar john.. he brought the cake in front of her. and her cut it after she made the initial cut. my fren commented that it seemed like they were cutting wedding cake.. XD the cake was nice. mango with vanilla cream.. with finely chopped peanuts at the side.. XD yeah~ pj's coming in.. kelv just arrived.. hahas.. she's here she's here! X)
anw, while he was busying himself with cakey matters, liyun who was behind him (and making him RELI nervous) thanked him for the cake and stuff.. wahahs... oMg~ have you seen a human change color? his already pinkish face fLusHed from pink to a crimsony scarlet.... *eyes widen* whoa.... john's reli gooooood at blushing. that i must admit... he's liked her since the beginning of 17/02 2nd intake.. oh man... but yay! he's so brave, making a move.... =))))))))) perhaps she will start to like him one day... =D so sweeeeeeeet.... *dies from the saccharine overload* X)
yep.. and after she thanked him he shyly shrugged and went back to cutting the cake, his task's difficulty level increasing tenfold... his hands were shaking... so his cuts were like shaking... oOo.. heh.. larkily the cake was like easy to slice thru... oh man.. everyone standing around was commenting on his shaky hands and red face.... wahahahahs.... *faints* i could FEEL their paisehness! XD hahahs.... lol~ i would have wanted to stick my head down a hole like an ostrich... oh man oh man oh man.. haha.. pity her other suitor, jiatong, wasn't dere.. blehs.. i think perhaps he was too paiseh or sth? -_-;
anw, the slice that john finally carved out he offered ever so TeNdErLy to her....... whole class went OOoooOOoooo~~ esp chye kiat. loudest sia. john turned an unbearable beet red den quickly left the canteen.. XD ahahas... so horrible my class.... teasing dem liddat... tskies!~ XD lao shi and mrs leow came by. she was notified of john's erm. fufilment? (if i could use that word... XD) gosh~ hahaha.. this was by far the most interesting bdae celebration i've seeeeen! *flumps and laffs* yep.. liyun also shed tears of joy.. waaaaaah.... =)
some other things happened that i most prob can't blog about cos some of his frens erm.. might see... haha... synapse starting soon... CORRECT VENUE! i have renewed confidence in my lurvely wax-clogged ears... =X hahaha... at least today's a happy happy dae! lalala.. maybe i'm going out with aje exco to watch movie lata... if it's to my liking.. see what movie they're watching.. hehs.. *pls be either chicago, daredevil, or sth i haven't watched before.. pls pls pls... XD* nick just came in.. now so noisy. doubt i am able to blog for any longer.. blogging stamina wearing off too.. but i'm sooooo full of crap today! i feel like i could go on and on and on forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahas... =)
okie lar... ttyl dear blogGiE~
wUv ccadith~ (._. ) ( ._.) ( '-') ('-' )
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:40:00 PM
okie.. rather slack day in sch today.. XD now in 212 relaxing.. ehs.. another hour or so till cca starts.. ahahas.. i hope i heard kelv correctly and that it's in 212.. XD i'm the only one in here now.. cos everyone else's having econs lect.. hahas.. econs.. -_-;;; smsing mu at the same time.. heh.. earlier i was stoning in point x and listening to music.. good songs came on the radio~ i know how to sing! XD hmms.. *hops around* i guess i should update you guys on what i've been doing in the weekend? been meaning to blog, but was somehow to tired.. so the monotonous typing sent me to lala land.. hahas...
another sms came in.. sorry ar mu.. mi too busy blogging to attend to your wittle tochi fantasies.. XD you come for chan outing den i show you the guy who cosplays toshiya lah.. haha.. he's a nice guy.. =) hmm... back to after mon's phy prac.. yep.. since i had no way to contact my sis and she was having a course.. i hung around.. theng yiu said he was taking mrt.. and he had no one to go with.. and me, having nothing better to do.. since everyone else was going for chem FOE remedial.. hmm.. which i din feel like going cos i wanted to celebrate mi mom's bdae plus i was tired.. so i left with him.. he wanted to buy stuff from the snacks stall in the canteen.. complained of the long queue.. blah.. i thot i might as well take the train back to tpy and stone there while wating for mi sis.. XD was heading to the traff light.. larkily nvr chiong across.. met jos n erm.. someone.. shit. i forgot which gal.. -_-;;; =/ my memory is failing mi... >.<
so good.. can delay~ we decided to have icecream from the uncle.. hahas.. but the usual favorite uncle wasn't there.. so we had to settle for another one that was so 'good to eat' ... =P i got raspberry ripple in bread..but gardenia bread lehs.. not the lurvely rainbow swirly ice cream bread that we always have.... *sobx* kelvin finished class n was studying for his nihongo test.. XD i nvr knew he studied that... -_-; i reli envy those who take japanese lessons lei... x_X so was smsing him to confirm place of meeting.. chewed on my ice cream in the meantime.. dribbling and drooling.. melting so fast.. and i was holding my chem file n phone.. waccows.. balancing act sia... XD experienced multitasker here... =P hmms.. yuwei walked by and we all waved.. jos asked him to eat ice cream.. so he went (in his usual kawaii manner) okay!~ and went to queue up in the long long queue.. X) wah... took so long for him to get his ice cream.. so we all chatted and asked him about peihua, his class, etc... whether he was still slacking off in class anot... XD hahahs... world-renowned slacker + napper.. =P eeks.. bell just went.. i think the place is gonna be filled with ppl.. =_=; already one guy's in here with mi lehs... die.. XD
after they all ate their ice cream, i bid goodbye and went to nyp to meet kelvin.. blehs.. was still waiting for my sis to call mi... zhen mafan.. XD JUST only settled down in nyp fj and was opening my chrys tea when my phone rang.. my sis. wah BEST loh... win LIAO ar... -_-; i told her to meet mi at 6.. cos i was doing sth.. hahas... aiyar.. timing so zhun lehs... -_-; had a drink and chat with kelvin.. oohed and aahed over his japanese notes.. ordered him to study.. blah.. den i had to leave or sis would be spewing smoke from erm.. all her openings.. XD hmms.. i was like 4 mins late.. hahas.. according to my watch lahs.. which is fast. i think in actual fact only 2 min or so... kelvin went to amk library to 'study'.. instead he busied himself with mindless doodling and sleeping.. -_-;;; wonder how he fared for the written... XD
met sis. so FUNNY arrr~~ she stood there looking in my direction for like 2 or 3 whole mins. yet she din SEE mi! *pengz* powerrrrrrr... hahas...(eek.. another guy just came in... -_-;) she so blurrrrr sia.. took a train to orchard and bought a $24 strawberry shortcake for mi mom.. totemo oishii desu yo!~ hontou ni!!! *drools* =D~~~~~~~ i think it was the wonderful cream......... X) ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh... anw, bought two prawn takopachi for mi and sis.. sat at fountain awhile eating.. den left for home.. gave mom a call.. told her that i would be meeting my sis shortly at tpy hdb hub.. hahas.. bluff bluff! XP
just got sms from pj notifying mi that synapse in 1312.. hmm.. i think i'm reli going deaf.. but nvm.. =) i'll blog finish den head over.... lalalal`~
anw.. mom got a pleasant surprise! ahahs.. after she spent her whole day scolding ppl regarding being charged for what she din subscribe to.. heh.. starhub sux!!! =X yep.. hmm.. so flat out everyone was.. slept at 11.30pm.. i conked out at 12.30am.. wah...... x_X heh.... so happy that day.. found out i was gonna get broadband!!!!!!!!! yAy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so haPpY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *faints in her euphoria*
eh. continue later....
wUv schdith (^-^*)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:57:00 PM
updated my blog.. i hope it's happier and nicer.. was getting sick of the other template... so many ppl had it.. hahahs... time for a change.. golly it's so late.. sure panda tml... x_X
night~~~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:26:00 AM
What did the eleplant say to the naked man?
aNs: how do you breathe in that thing?
my reaction: tio stun for a few wols seconds before realisation hit. and den. omg! bwahahahahaha..... lame ar!!!!!! *flump*
experienced internation speaker andrew matthews gave an inspirational talk during j2 mass civics today. he's also a doodle artist and a writer, having published like 5 books.. i bought the cheapest one to get it signed. hmm... his talk was interesting, but i saw ppl sleeping.. hahahs... i din slp... where i slept was in maths lect.. =P argh damn.... complex numbers... XD
i think what made his talk interesting was his philosophy and his live doodling.. large drawing pads clipped onto the whiteboard on rollers with two files below to stop them from rolling while he drew.. ahaha... at first i thot like win lose or draw sia.. hahas... his drawings are so darn cute leh~! blehs... oh btw, the above was his joke... -_-;;;;;;;;; *pengz*
it wasn't motivational tho... just interesting. haha.... and he in real life when he was signing books is kinda quiet.. i sorta commended him on his doodles and he was reli quiet about it with one word answers.. haix... perhaps it's like he's tired or he is a schiz? =X hahaha.... some ppl are liddat, i guess?
oh man. i was reli crapping crap last night. what thing about movie with mr koh sia. -_-; pengz. i think i was dreaming of watching a movie... uGhs... but NOT with him... i meant he weighed mi... i din lose nor gain. damn. haix..day quite slack. but i was like tired cos i slept at 4am previous night. had gp compre CT.. wah sian. two periods or less to finish everything, including AQ. i finished. but wasn't well done. AQ lacking concrete evidence.. haix... it was a botch job.. x_X so happy when it was over tho!
had phy prac. kept smsing mom under the table under the teacher's nose. either she din notice or she pretended not to. -_-; we nvr know lehs... =/ we did terminal velocity experiment with ballbearings of 5 diameters, a large measuring cylinder of glycerine, two stop watches, etc.... quite fun leh. dropped the ball in and timed. haha.. when it passed the marker we started it and when it reached the other one, we stopped it.... XD
had fun recoving the ball bearing with the magnet.i think i'm pro at it liaox! din even need to use tissue.. =P
(eh. i think i post this first before i zzzzzzzzzzzzzz)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:14:00 AM
ok.... thot i would be suffering from the monday blues today.. but somehow i din~ everything was rather perfect.. not reli like what i envisioned it to be, nothing can be like that. anw, life without surprises would be a dark diny dull hole. hahas... thot i got off on a bad start today. slept at 4 freaking am last night ransacking the place for some notes i misplaced.
woke up at some funny time. 6.30am i think.arGh. overslept~!!!! scrambled outta bed and hurriedly bathed, den packed mi pe attire in. was in a rush, so kinda grazed my finger on my darn bag. =/ hurriedly grabbed my incomplete chem file and schbag. den dashed outta the house to catch a lift so i could catch the bus. lift came.. yay! went downstairs and sorta strolled to the busstop. bus came! yay!~ it was like craawwwwwling along the road, but reached the mrt station on time! din see any of my frens tho.. so lonely... =/
mrt came. i walked to sch from yck mrt with my lonely self. haix.... smsed chem teacher in the train regarding meeting him to pass him the file.. he said to meet afer assem outside stafffroom... hmms.. ok lar... =) pre u seminar meeting commencing nearby.. classmates were dere. loitered around till they were done, den we headed to the audi together for maths lect. 15 mins late. damn damn damn. sat in a damn erratic manner.. hahas.. (freaking. got sms.. -_-;) cos not enuf space...
maths ended. i was beginning to be slpy. chem begun.. finishing up carbonyl compounds... wah sian.... filled in the summary part.... lata did carboxylic acids.. but din get the notes yet thanks to a very responsible chem rep.... loL~ sarcasm lar.. i'm also not a responsible gp rep... =P
wah double sian. double pe leh. went to the gym toilet to change into our attire.. crowded. did two rounds warm out. den lata just slackslacked around waiting for our turn at relay while cheering for the others... XD hmm... i did the 8 by 50 one.. wah sian.. cheered loudly for the guys and gals.. den pe was over.. followed mr koh to watch movie.
eh. ignore what i said. what movie with mr koh. weight mi lar. not watch movie. fell asleep in front of the comp a little while ago... think i blog tml.. so tired. night..
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:47:00 PM
hmms.... funny anecdote while my mom is nagging behind mi. eh
making it quick. came home from movie today. came out of lift. auntie next door was dere.. she asked mi how old i was... o.0; but she speaks dialect... and i dun understand.. so had some trouble communicating.. in the end i understood her qn.. she was asking mi if i was 15... hahas... so i told her i was 18.... that got mi wondering.. do i look young? or? hmm.. weird. 15. nice age tho. =)
hmm. another funny thing that happened. at the mrt station while i was running late for the movie at tpy.. waiting for train... first this old lady approached mi from behind (right side) she asked mi where to take to go to city hall i think. so i told her the other side. den shortly after, another old lady approached mi from behind (left side) and asked mi where to go to take to yishun. so i told her this side.... -_-;;;;
hahahs...
mom nagging behind. =( dammit.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:55:00 AM
part 2 now i guess.. i hope i'll feel better tml. everything untouched. fuck me. =( sure kena stay back tml. haix.... i wanna just curl up and die now. so tired of everything............ =(
i'm like wasting all my time online cos i am moodless.. =/ dammit. what to do what to do.. =(
first update on what i did today
i watched Hot Chick. damn funny show i tell you, while being touching and romantic at the same time. horny and corny moments. rob schneider's actually quite cute. he has nice eyes. =) i loved the movie. dunno why also. got lost with the characters....
supposed to meet shuting at 2.10pm at bishan. dammit. running late. reached dere only 2.35+ cos i left my house at 2.10, missed the bus by a fraction. fine. had to wait. bus came. missed the mrt by a fraction. FINE. waited. mrt came. walked like soldier v fast all the way to theatre. bot tix. managed to catch the last bit of adverts with a few minutes to spare.
later walked about with shuting. checked out the fair on the 2nd level. interesting stuff. i wanna buy socks. yep.
was thinking about buying clothes and changing my dressing and hair (again) she was dressed so nicely and i was so plain. *sigh* i need a good figure and looks as well as a fat wallet. damn.
companied her to delifrance to grab a bite den to orchard mrt, after which i took train back to tpy and a bus. met xiuting n family. when her bus came , her sis turned around to tell her sth. paranoid me as usual took it that her sis was prob saying sth nasty about ME. haix. damn me. always so paranoid. =/
went home did some chem filing. but i think tml sure tio stayback till 8+pm. damn. i just wanna collapse. and die.
did alot of stoning also and chatting online. uGhs. now still doing so.
at least my junior's prob is sorta solved. dunno why ppl are liddat. they got a prob, they will consult their frens. say alot of stuff but in the end resolve it by their own ability. i'm liddat also. it can get irritating. =/
ok. what i did yest.
chan outing.
after slacking, we walked citylink to ms again. wah sian. ate in long john's den arcade again. mi in sch uni. i also din wanna go in. sat on steps and helped asa with maths. =) productive.
they gathered around made noise and said we so hardworking wor. hmm. *shrug* i wish i were. =( den i wouldn't have the chem file problem. =/
after finished with that, did some stoning, den they changed location again. went back to mrt station den we all split up. messy part. ughs. that's why i dun like big grps. a smaller grp is more dedicated and has better inter-communication. i joined the ppl i'm closer to.. we took a bus to somerset. raining. pitter patter became drops and then splashes. luckily uniform not translucent. -_-;
thanks asa for your pullover.. but nvm.. i like walking in the rain. =)
went to cine to stone n talk. alot of hidden stuff came out. *juicy ar~*
lata had to go to taka to meet the rest. from there we stoned again. den went to bk wheelock. you betcha more splitting n miscommunication went on. haix.... stoned there again. so bored n tired. =/
later decided to take a walk to orchard emerald. arcade again. at first i borrowed wilson's trench coat. so warm. hmm.. budden din wanna play anyway so returned it to him and loitered around outside with yui and dar.. leah mei arrived subsequently. chatting dere... ok lar.. interesting way to pass the time. =) we decided to head back to bk.. cos we were so bored n ppl left.. blehs.. all the way back to bk... i saw kelvin i think.... on the way to work when i left bk, and in the kitchen when i went back. haha... sat at the table talking tired cok... sian ar............... =/
in the end we were chased out. ppl left for home.
finally left with me, leah, lex, sumomo, himu, asa, wendy, kula... went to borders.... hung around.... fooled around. den left mi, leah, lex and wendy. mei wanted to get coffee... =) so got coffee we did... ^-^* i admired the large calorie-loaded cheesecake.... ughs.. leah gave us a honey stick~ domo~~~~ =) finally took mrt home. i reached home at 11+ went online to stone again. haix.... settled the time with shuting for the movie via sms.. ended up falling aslp in front of comp numerous times. nearly fell off the chair. haix....
guess i should end here.. night
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:49:00 AM
dunno why.. but now i in this moodless mood. feeling thotful n kinda sad.. haix.... dunno y also....
i went out on sat.. it was quite fun. altho the day started off like shit. woke up late. cos stupid me slept at 2+am.. nearly 3... dammit. woke up 6.45am, chionged my bath, den had to pia a cab down to sch. took a merc cab.. on the other side of the street. din care what cab as long as i managed to get one. driver was quite nice lar.. drove quite fast for mi. reached aj with a min to spare. that was gd. dammit. test sucked. out of the 12 qns i din have a definite choice. 3 maybes. i settled for the one on simple things in life give the most joy n happiness thing at first. wrote a plan. n two paras.. den gave up. with slightly more than half an hour to spare i wrote another one on it is no fun being a man today. comment. ugh. man as in male or human race? -_-;
couldn't finish. nabei. lousiest essay. gonna let mrs leow down. _|_ me.
rushed to collect papers after that. made sure all 23 were in before i had to go outside to sort them into boxes. so slow i was. ugh. i was stuck in first gear... uGhs. came back to lt4. everyone vanished. only my bag was dere. no courtesy to wait for me huh. fine. thank you very much. grabbed my bag and left sch. waited at bus stop outside aj for asa. saw many ppl. wasn't in any mood to be sociable then. leaning against the pillar brooding about my essay. uGh.
when asa arrived we went to nyp to grab a bite. wasn't crowded cos was still early. i had bread from prima deli. met min yee on the way. she had band practise. walked around nyp auditorium to check out the exhibition on the various courses. interesting. ppl thot i was from a sec sch. -_-;; saw an exhibition on some species of mice. guy was frenly. went to look at the dna research thing. saw fish with spliced dna. added dna of jellyfish. so they glowed in the dark. interesting indeed. checked out the animation and electronics. saw micromouse stuff and was reminded of my sec2 cca. hmm. ok lar.
lata hopped on the train to cityhall. #gravitation outing. 11am congregation time. but as meetings go, ppl were late. dar n wilson were early. mi and james were next. den xiao di and gang filed in one by one. hung around just waiting for 1hr20+ mins. kinda waste of time. i would describe the outing yest as kinda sian. but it was 3 ppl's bdae. =) yep~ and i had some fun crapping plus i learnt some internal secrets. lol~
i think i gotta blog later. sis wants to use. that little bugger. haix.
bbl~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:45:00 PM
damn. it was long again. hahaha..... XD
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:49:00 AM
ah.. came home from talentime a few hours ago... tml there's gp essay test. damn sian.. reli hope that this will be a short entry and that i am left woozy and sleepy after, ready to enter slumberland... haha.. the land of nod. ahhh.. i reli owe this alertness to sleeping while it was still light yest.. till the next morning. crazy huh.. so unlike mi.. haven't been online frequently either.. haha...that's why my blog is like.. kinda neglected...
today was a strange day. ppl were weird today. things din go well.. haix... i think i offended some ppl today. i feel damn uneasy. i hate it when ppl are pissed at mi. i just feel so hated. and guilty. anw, i guess we all feel like this. it affects my conscience. if i did sth wrong i need to rectify it or i'll feel bad. junior called mi today when i reached home. she sounded so devastated. she was attending this self-awareness camp thingy.. it's an ij thing.. something happened btw her and an old fren.. haix.. i din know who she was initially and what she was talking about, cos her words were all jumbled with the tears. and i dun have caller id. in the end i figured out and got her calmed down... i hope i did more good than harm... haix.. i'm not exactly the best person to turn to for advice in my opinion.. cos i can't even deal with my own problems.
started sch on my right foot today. ran for the bus but caught it in the end. din sleep during lessons. had some fun in nyp after that. and then some fun in talentime.
lao shi came back to sch today. she still looked kinda under the weather, so i wished her and asked her how she was... the flu bug is back.. but now all the teachers are down with it. mr tan s.l. was sniffling all the way during his maths lect.. poor long-ge.. haix.. mr lim k.t. was also using tissue during chem tut.. he's on medication. lao shi was also nursing a runny nose.. sai ghor who came back today seemed impatient and distracted. ms tan was, well, ms tan. but she forgot to check mi work... henggggggg...
finished sch at 2.50 today cos chem was delayed. went immed to nyp to look kelvin up.. walked like ten thousand miles to the sports hall.. finally met cyndi.. ahahas... i took her side, of cos... =P to kelvin: should i start cursing you now? lol~
hung around dere for awhile, den left.. kelvin walked mi to fj.. (thanks!) den he went to apply for a new line.. haha... hi card suxxxx.. XD i got his new number now.. haha... met jes, karene, jessalyn and angeline dere.. dun reli like 2 of them. blehs. yaya.. i'm bias. -_-; i ate hot plate.. black pepper beef.. surprisingly it wasn't hot. tongue still scalded tho.. (too greedy! tsk!) not half as scary as the sambal fish.. o.0;;;;
drank bubble tea too.. passion.. karene treated mi... haiyox.. no need lar.. vdae stuff was just a thot.. =)
got word that ppl were cosplaying near the pond dere but was too lazy to walk over. zz.. went to look at the booths den went back to sch. i din go with dem to watched literary week's final performance.. so went to blk 11 to slack. saw the talentime participants hanging out there... den finally found a dressing room with a comp.
jes went to watch her HOT vcd ( i think ) while i slept on the table. haha.. hope no one walking past the windows saw mi legs.... ^^;;;; queue for talentime was already snaking by 5.30... so rushed dere to secure a place in the queue.. nu`er sitting behind mi. she din even see mi. bleargh. saw shiling, pj, zs, dennis, and ton and tons of ppl i know.. ah yah.. kelv was the synapse photographer as usual.. hehe.. snapping pics fervently, but he din bring enuf film. hehhe..
talentime was good this yr. had front row centre seats.. hahah.. i loved all the acts... all were soooo good! imperfect duo was soooo damn zaiiiii k! omg. classical being played like an electric. i CANNOT make mine sound like that.. oh man i suck.. hehe.. the pianists were great too. pieces full of energy, charisma.. mmm.. opening act by guest performer was cool too.. haha... ajcsb were good too! sth different... =)
cai lilian was dere today. she's reli chio n frenly n talented man.. met her at the gate dere leaving during interval.. said bye to her.. =)))) omg.. she rocks... hahas.... perhaps i might buy her cd. but damn it's in chinese... oh wells.... hahah..
had the song catagory after. joey sang great! texas n charmaine too.. the broadway trio too... so hard to decide... heh... texas n charmaine were a damn popular choice.. everyone was like cheering for them.. heh... there was also a SHE wannabe euphoric saccharine or sth... not bad lar... blehs... but joey won! hahha....
dance catagory damn gao xiao loh.. haha.. first ones up were not bad.. saw cass n hx... second up was LOST. that was the gao xiao one. msged ty and learnt that he had alot of funny comments.. hahas.. well.. they were.. interesting.. as i put it to him.. lol~ but effort that paid off. altho -some- ppl abit the EXTRA n AA lohs.... those two ppl... -_-; no comment. think they ming xing or sth.. ugh......... been liddat since day one of orien... *shakes head n sighs*
the gals after that were great too! loved their dancing.. =) so cool n so energetic.. but darrelle was different. that's why she shone thru... doing ballet on stage.. contemporary ballet.... and she could stand on her tippie toes and walk.. omg.. =) we gave her standing ovations.. hahah.... she won.. yep!
but the overall winner was Imperfect Duo.. or lack thereoff (of imperfections) their performance was like astounding n captivating.. if i din hinge my mouth i would have been salivating.. perhaps on kelv.. lol~ cos he was like constantly sitting below mi or squatting taking pics.. hahaha.... =X
after that jes had to run an errand at ntuc. i accompanied her. but i think i offended someone by doing so.. =/
haix... wanted to apologize but was afraid that i might anger her further. so we went to ntuc, got the stuff. i walked jes to the interchange den i walked to the mrt den took my 235 home.. reached home around 10.30 or so.. ok lar... =) perhaps earlier. i can't rem...
that was when my di called mi... haix.. poor thing leh she.. mi also not a good counseller.. =/
lessee... what did i do on thurs? went to nyp.. openhouse 1st day.. met kelvin.. he said there were cosplayers.. got inuyasha... INU!!!! cos she's in nyp too... so i went over to see see.. indeed it was her.. and who did i see also? xiao di n yui... lol~ toked cork awhile den they went off.. shortly after i also had to go off... had lesson....
chem prac was interesting... but QA was confusing as usual... heh... lata went home to eat den slp... zZzZz
tml i'm going for gp test den meeting asa for breakfast den maths + channel bdae outing.. =))))
happy bdae yuanie, parish n yui!!!!!!!!!
yepyep.... =D
hope tml will be a gd day. i'd better get some slp now too.... night! wish mi luck for tml's test!
oyasuminasai minna!
wUv dith~ ^-^*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:46:00 AM
ohs. did i mention i finally finished the lit week quiz? some stuff reli so hard to find.. ah.. i reli love technology... esp the internet! =D
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:04:00 AM
aha..... FINALLY PHY RETEST IS OVER! days of mugging (somewhat) are over!!! had some confidence when i sat for it.. altho it looked deterring with all those fancy diagrams, pressed carbon ink and stuff, i found i could fill up more than 3/4 the paper without my usual utter crap~ i hope this feeling will prove that i can actually pass a phy test! i wanna pass! ahhhhh....
gp test on sat.. can die arhs.. i hate essay... =/
today had synapse meeting.. rushed over after the test in lab 3.. alot of ppl took the test lehs.. until they spilled over to lab4.. lol... many teachers took turns in invigilating.. mr arif, ms sim.... erm.. can't rem... heh...it's mrs leow's bdae today... 20th of feb.. i have no idea how old she is.. but she's retiring this yr so my class is throwing her a bdae celebration.. they ordered a gigantic cake.. whoa.. i went out after sch today to get stuff for her.. went with my mom and sis.. cos my mom just fetched sis from sch.. hmms...
we went to fish n co to eat... i had grilled cajun threadfin.. nice~ been eating like silly these few days.. i'm gonna explode soon... a bigbang of fats and gristle.. ahahas..
on tuesday i did 2 rounds around the track without stopping k! den since it was raining, we went to the mph to do some figure 8 baton passing exercise.. i kept getting lost.. lol.. so was zigzagging all over the place.. XD later changed and went for the BG gp course.. last day! =D kinda sad tho... it's fun! but oh so late. =/
met mi kor after that for a scrumptious dindin.. =D~~ mouthwatering.... pity i was kinda shagged by then.. but a promise is a promise. =) went home around 10+.. tried to study abit, but fell asleep at the y = -Asinwt part in waves notes.. reli buay tahan le.. so crashed until 5+am.. wowx.. no choice but to study in sch the next day...
packed the essential stuff for wed... still v heavy tho.. =/ 9 stacks of phy notes.. 1 phy tys.. blehs.. spent the first half of the short day sleeping and stoning and eating in 412... den when it was time for break+econs free period, i parked miself outside lt1 to mug.. haha.. oh gosh. what a nerd i am. but i wasn't mugging! *denies* i was just reading mi notes n making notes.. (reli! i was!)
went for phy lata... faggy teaching magnetism.. oh gosh.. he said alot of faggot things today.. ahahs.. no notes lehs.. so sad.. nothing to highlight.. =/
after phy lect ended at 1, parked miself back outside lt1 to study somemore.. (yep. took this test -kinda- seriously) ^^
busied myself with that till nearly 2.15 before i made my way to the phy lab...
back to synapse meeting.
so slack wor.. switched on the comp, checked out pj's new doman.... (muaks! it rocks!) some discussion.. blahblah.. den ms megan came in.. and we went off... yep yep....
ohs! i got mi gp tutor a votive candle at 50% off! yay... a card and a box of nice belgian biscuits.. =) hope she likes the stuff.. wanted to get flowers.. but thot might be too AA.. somemore so near vdae.. lol... lata the class think i suck up or sth.. but i genuinely like mrs leow lehs... =)
*hops around*
v tired now..... so incoherent.. catch ya guys lata~
wUv slpydith ^-^*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:02:00 AM
ack. can't see my entries again.
infernal contraption. =/
(just heard first bus go past.. loL~)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 5:20:00 AM
heh.. 4.40am on a tuesday morn.. dunno what the hell i'm up to.. finished math tut 23.. yay~ think tml phy teacher not gonna be in sch... went online to get chem stuff from ivle to print for tml.. and to check out the literary week quiz at the same time... =D
did pe today.. survived 6.5 rounds of torture and 20 mins worth of cycling. argh.. hmm.. but my calves dun hurt right now... 2nd round (ding ding!) tml afternoon.. den it's off to gp class... haix sian... but it's fun... today had the gp time practice essay test in double gp.. i din prepare at all and din have the qns.. but den again, all of us din.... XD rushed thru 3+ sides + 1 plan done in pencil... finished on the dot. *whew* i was just stapling the infernal thing covered in my chicken scrawl when the bell went...
hmm.. i like pe dept's chairs.. so comfy.. =X sat down to endure nagging till 11.30.. about an hour or so.. blah..
yesterday was somehow the class' bdae.. funnily. 17th feb = 17/02.. haha.. marc brought another homemade cake.. this time strawberry. i din eat. there was some choc bits at the side.. anw, i haven't forgiven him yet. blehs... i think he knows it. giving mi funny looks in class.. ahahahs.. i guess he thinks i'm petty. so be it. =P
hmm.. mon was an ok day... mi taking phy re-test on wed.. (that's tml gal! better study!!!) 2.15pm at lab3... heh..i've only chugged down 4 chappies.. still got 5 more to go~ (you can dooo it gal!) XD hmm... today council was giving out tix for talentime. i'm going!!!! gonna have a lark laffing at erm. one group in particular: LOST .... =X hahhaa... there. i said it. lol~ seriously, it would indeed be a sight to behold.. haha... rotflmfao! THANK goodness for ms joy tan! she let us off early today.. (shh! cannot say.. =X) so i headed to the queue (yes, there was a queue at 4.15+) tickets were still assured.. yay! received jes' sms so i called her to join mi, hoping that she hadn't already taken a bus to amk central.. she din! but it was raining.. had to persuade her to come join mi and somehow 'cut' mi queue.. gosh.. haha.. she gave in and came back to sch.. kinda wet.. heh... good thing tho! got tix for karene + huiping too.. yay~
omg... hp's taking chem S paper.. and 4 A lvl subjs.. *faints* i am soooo insanely jealous. how can she cope?! wahhaha....
yep... highlight of the day: talentime tix!
lata went with jes to amk central. was still drizzling i think. hopped on 86 to jubilee centre.. hmms.. went to popular to get some stuff.. she got 2 notebooks, 1 testpad and 4 color pens.. heh.. lata went to mos to eat.. (pigpigpig mi!) ^@@^
she ate teriyaki, i ate unagi.. but she was so busy with her sms.. so i finished miles ahead of her.. hahas.. lata her aunt called with an urgent matter.. wanted corn soup also.. so i dug my coins and got corn soup.. den she had to rush off so we couldn't do maths.. heh.. i reached home around 7pm i think.. relatively early.. snacked abit den stoned and fell aslp in the chair.. decided to koonz on my bed.. only got up around 1am to do work.. now's approaching 5am.. gotta do some phy... no way i can do maths vectors.. i dun even have the tutorial! argh.. better go stat tml... dunno why i'm missing so much stuff.. perhaps i've been AWOL and MIA from sch for too many occasions... heh..
oh yeah.. gonna congratulate yuwei! he and peihua ( i think ) are together! yessshhh... the wonders vdae can bring.. ah.. love is in the air.. lol. saw him in the canteen today.. he looked so happy.. =) plus, i heard they look soooooo cute + gd together! ^-^*
okies.. mi gonna print the stuff i dled.. catch ya later ya, bloggie? *muaks*
ciaoz peeps! =)
wUv dith ^-^*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:59:00 AM
heh.. update for vdae!! realised my blogging's been kinda inconsistent lately.. i do apologize.. haha.. *offers her collection of flowers to everyone as a peace offering* ahahas... but it was fun! tiring, but fun! heh.... as you can recall, i din slp.. but in the end i sat in the chair and slept for half an hour... or so. woke up 6.30am in fright, exclaimed when i found out my sis would be bathing first (cos i needed to rush to sch to distb mag + vdae stuff) ended up bathing around 6.40 ++ am.. ArGh late arrrr!!!! i tried to pack my vdae goodies + flowers nicely into mi bag.. had to resort to using a relatively big OG one, i think.. the pink + green one..? can't rem.. haha.... arranged my bundles of sweets + leftovers + extras that i would give to whoever, and my two stalks of tulips.. mm.. came out of the bathroom around 7am plus or minus a few minutes.. arGHh!~ late arrrr... even if i caught the bus i would have to run. funny sight right? gal with long untied hair, n flowers running helterskelteredly to sch. -_-; what a sight to behold.. haha.. so eh.. my mom gave mi money to take cab.. i carried mi bag, mi carrier + floppy + article printout (cos i din wanna squish it.. =/) and stood outside mi block.. omg.. taxis so rare to come by.. spent a fruitless 5 mins +, hand not even outstretched (cos no cabs) aha... sad.. my luck finally turned when i saw one turn out.. flagged it, it stopped. yay! got in and told the uncle i was heading for ajc.. he looked kinda pissed. did i smell funny? -_-;;; drive there was quite long... reached around 7.15... went by back gate. met jasmine.. first person to receive package of sweets.. =) saw kelv dash down the stairs when i reached the foyer... wanted to help, but all my hands were full, so the only option was to head to aj square to put my things down. called jes on the way, she was sitting usual place outside canteen. passed her the tulip + bundle of sweets.. (hmm.. did we hug? lol.) she gave mi a bouquet... omg!!!! thanks!!!! luv ya! *muaks!* chatted awhile before i headed for aj square.. set my things down... not long after, theng yiu approached mi.. asked for stuff n sweets.. haha.. so i gave him some.. he said he would buy a rose for me.. haha.. (but much later i learnt he couldn't buy any cos all sold out.. nvm bud, it's the thot that counts.. so thanks all the same!! ^^)
girls were in a giving frenzy.. so i can't rem the order.. haha... i'll try.. thanks maryanne for the daisy! can't rem if it was the pink or yellow one.. but so nice anyway! thanks jos lee for the heart shaped choc in gold foil! i still have it~ thanks jos kee for the roll of apple mentos! yeshhh.. i love green! thanks manyi for the flower!!! thanks class gals for the heart shaped balloon on a straw! so sweet of you gals altho i'm kinda afraid of balloons.. lol... thanks sok teng for the hug! heh... thanks jessie for the stripey orangey-brown + white candy cane! heh... hope you liked the tiny mug i gave ya! thanks yuzhong for the thank you msg for my humble bundle of sweets.. heh.. what to do, your irresistable cuteness n the fact that i've known you since pri 2 made mi think of you.. lol... thanks karene + huiping for the thank you msg! got it while walking in cine.. lol.. thanks ty for the rose.. haha.. thanks pj for the tulip! so lurvely it was, and YES, GREAT minds think alike! lol.. hope mine din rot too soon.. hehe.. *muaks!* thanks class guys for the bundle of chocs! so thotful of you guys! hehe.. thanks juan for the chocs! love ya! sorry i din turn up later that day for the outing with kimmy.. my hp batt died so pathetically i had to borrow my fren's.. haha.. thanks james for the phonecall.. haha.. happy vdae to ya too! ^^ thanks shinrong for the chocs too! so thotful n sweet of ya.. heh.. thanks zesin for turning up so conveniently so i could pass u ur sweets.. lol.. bewildered expression on face.. lol.. =) thanks weiting for the purple bundle of sweets! thanks liteng for ur hershey's nugget! thanks mrs jo leow for your wise words always n your encouragement, as well as that packet of hershey's kisses.. ur a wonderful gp tutor.. pity ur retiring this yr.. luv ya! =D thanks mr tan s.l. for offering to buy all the gals a rose, but couldn't cos they were all sold out.. thot that counts, right? =) thanks john for the entertainment in class.. haha.. to give or not to give? i turned around but was too late to witness it.. haha...thanks liyun for the candies! to weiquan: hey dude, cheer up.. hope those 2 marshmallows sweetened ur spirits.. ^^ thanks junior elaine didi for the vdae wish! and thanks mervyn yip for the vdae greeting too! hope you both enjoyed yourselves that day too~ thanks kelv for having something for mi, but not being able to find mi... heh.. thanks my 'date' kelvin (another one.. lol) for waiting half an hour for mi, the stuffed doggie *woof* XD the lovely pinkish rose with the blue tissue paper and the movie treat!! heh... such a nice guy you are... hehh.. (oeiz.. dun melt in that chair! hahaha.. ) *lick* thanks again to jes for accompanying me and reluctantly taking the balloon from mi.. haha.. as well as the pink flower n the packet of hershey's plus a few more candies.. =) for helping mi throw the wrappers, and the trouble.. hahah... *muakies again!* thanks weather for not raining on mi today! heh..(goodness, i'm beggining to crap) aha.. thanks angeline for saying you enjoyed the marshmallows!~ thanks owl n mu for waiting for mi and kinda feeding mi in tpy's mos.. hahah.. thanks to everyone i din thank and for putting up with my endless crap.. love ya guys! haha... oh ya.. thanks marc for the handmade photo frame in an envelope.. and eh.. thanks to the coca cola company for the free qoo? (oh man, what a long speech.. -_-)
after much dashing around i was kinda tired towards the last few periods. mdm foo din come, so that meant breaks during chinese lessons.. oh man.. haha.. (eh.. yay?) lol.. i had western food (chicken chop~) for lunch.. oh man.. frens all shocked. i hardly eat in sch.. heh.. slept unintentionally during chem. TWICE somemore. first time mr lim asked mi if i wanted to wash mi face.. i said no need. 2nd time he ORDERED mi to wash my face. -_-; so i went outside, drank a bit off the water cooler, but din enter the toilet cos of the stories related to its haunting.. haha.. eeks.. door closed also.. >.< kinda strolled around dere till i saw someone coming.. so aww well.. *shrug* went back to my classroom.. luckily din sleep.. last lesson of the day.. confirmed tired.. lights all dimmed cos using ohp.. so nice to slp.. =/
supposed to meet kelvin at backgate.. but i called jes (cos her lesson also ended same time) she was at 133, my classroom at 132.. wahahah.. so close yet so far.. saw stef come down, she was rushing meet her bf. met her in cine dere also with her bf.. -_-; pengz man.. haha..they were doing something kinda intimate by the pillar near the staircase there, yo.. hahah.. had to pack mi vdae stuff bag nicely cos it was damn messy.. so took sometime straightening it out.. shoved unwanted plastic bags into my schbag.. and gave jes stuff.. so was lighter. yay~
walked to back gate there, saw some short guy in black walk in... haha.. nearly mistook him for my 'date'.. lols..finally spotted him loitering outside.. omg.. din expect him to carry so much stuff for mi lohs.. so paiseh.. haha...said hi to him n did some introductions.. den jes went back to sch to meet karene. cos she karene n huiping were going out... yeah!~ aj turf.. haha.. saw some ajcians staring at mi.. (diao simi diao ar!!) _|_ hahahs.... kua simi sia... -_-;
instead of going to bishan to watch movie, changed to cine.. my class gals were heading to bishan for pasta mania n a movie.. hahaha.. din wanna bump into them man.. they sure can SPREAD rumors.. lol.. catch me if you can was soooo popular.. reached top level of cine after much blurness cos stupid cine having construction work.. sia lan.. hahahs... suddenly it blinked SOLD OUT at the 4pm slot.. hot chick also got only 1145 pm.. wah pengz..
ohohoh.. did i mention that mi teachers all like bad mood on vdae? dunno lehz. mr tan's lect sux again. better go feedback.. hahas.. sian. i was late for physics.. like 12 mins late.. but she din say anything. haix.. scarier than if she does sia.. -__-;; i lost my way lah! walked to block 2 instead of 1.. mi mind not there lehs.. paisehs...
after getting tix, went to heeren.. met dar di n his gf zer0! lol!~din expect to see him.. heh... zer0, like mi, also in sch uni.. lols.. ^^ zer0 n kelvin crapped alot about some guy.. lol.. so i n darran were like.. hmm.. haha.. *shrug* rushed back to cine.. couldn't decide on escalator or elevator.. haha.. in the end took escalator.. was slightly late for the movie.. dang.. haha.. but nvm la.. lolx.. it was good! cept for fann wong's eng.. hahas. so. erm. weird? lols.. perhaps it's weird hearing a weird chinese-accented english in the movie.. some kinda local flavour? lol....*shrugs*
damn funny show i tell ya. go watch it. yeah~
fren called mi during movie and it TOTALLY killed my one bar of batt.. phone did what it always does when it runs outta juice: it DIED on me AGAIN.. whahahas.. stupid phone. -_-; lata had to borrow kelvin's batt.. luckily his phone roughly about the same as mine. but omg.. that phone's exact model n color is the one mi ex uses.. (-_-;) dunno why but i'm still kinda irked by mi ex, altho we just talked on irc just now.. -_-;
i called owl n asked her where she was.. she said she was in tpy with mu in mos.. settled the place, den returned batt.. so sorry had to pangseh him.. took mrt to tpy.. i got off, said bye.. lol.. den rushed to mos.. they were sitting same seat arhs! always one. lol.. eating family pack of nuggets with the chilli oil paste.. hahas. mmm... and fries with one gigantic ice tea.. lol... kinda freeloaded off them.. wahahs.. mu wanted a dark choc cookie.. no more left.. awwww.. too bad.. hahas...
reached home around 8+ to 9... damn. kena scolding. stoned and stoned till 10+ den went online for a record breaking 33 mins.. switched off the comp cos i was falling asleep in front of it as usual. no one online also.. hahas...tried to study phy + write notes. failed horribly. kept conking off in the chair.after i finished one topic (temperature! lol...) -_-; buay tahan. bed beckoning mi. so i flopped onto my bed. woke up at 6.30 with a fright. OMG! PHY TEST N I'M SO GONNA BE LATE AND SO GONNA DIE COS I ONLY STUDIED TEMP AND THAT TOPIC'S SO MINISCULE!? -_-;;;;; wahahahs... reli can peng.. in the end, decided to see doc bout mi throat n get mc at the same time. *shrug* i got the mc.. yeah.. haiyox.. gonna take retest on wed... wish mi luck minna! haha...
today after seeing doc with mom, i went with her to lorong 8 to buy food + veggies from e market. she chatted with the winnie (person in charge of confectionary) haha... mu smsed mi asked if i could meet her at 1pm amk mrt.. lolx... by the time i reached home to eat, it was already 1245pm.. wahahs.. told her i would be late. in the end i met owl. mu buying present for her mei... we booked the 4.40 show. but seats 3rd row leh.. haha.... for Catch Me If You Can... lols....10-15 mins late for the movie. enjoyed it anyways. haha.... mu met her kor + di while mi n owl slipped off to heeren to eat at Crepes N Cream. CALAMARI~ haha.. ice cream~ lol... =)~~~~~
after movie, i realised i left mi hp in the threatre. OMG. =( in the end nice guy at front passed it back to mi.. lols.... omg. realised i fell aslp in front of comp again. shoot man....
heard thunder.. rain getting progressively heavy. zzz. think i better go slp. i look a sight. -_-;
met chan frens at traffic light facing db mrt..went with them insteading of pei-ing mu home. paiseh mu! =/ walked with owl to her busstop.. aha...den cramped into long john with them to socialise.. haha.. yay~ raise = rules! they were to arcade after eatnig.. we visited himi. lols..
they went arcade to para para.. alamaks... asa gave mi his silver ring thingy... thanks!
eh. trli ta uam ; reli cannot take it. reli nodding off. ahaha... zzzzz....night~ XD
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 3:10:00 AM
4.21 am.. tonsils hurt. quite bad too. online chatting to some frens.. finished my article.... today after school met owl to buy vdae stuff.. before that met jes at j8 for a trip to ntuc.. she bought pizza and fries.. lol~ the frozen kind.. wahahas.. pasta mania made my mouth water with its attractive prices and colorful scrumptious posters.. =(
supposed to meet owl at dhoby gaut.. but when the train just reached the station she smsed to meet at orchard... so i got off.. haha... stoned at taka (met crystal) looking at vdae stuff.. nothing much appealing.. all either too ex, or too lame.. or too mushy. cute tiny mugs selling with names on them... reli reli TINY.. dollhouse kind.. hehehe.... so cute... i bought 2... =)
finally she arrived.. met her outside taka.. and we walked to ps.. passed by spotlight, bought shimmery translucent ribbon... walked to ps.. was quite late already.. loaded up on sweets at liberty... den stoned in long john's... after a very messy encounter with the fish/chicken wrap.... ahaha.. must complain.. owl left a wad of burrito skin there... =X heh.... (she will kill mi if she finds out i mock her here~ lol)
(eek.. dad grunted from the room.... *resorts to quieter typing*)
reached sch today at 11.15am.. heh.. was too freaking lazy to wake up properly.. but who cares... heh.. so dang tired...
yep.. went to parkmall's florist to get tulips for 2 special ppl... thanks pj for beginning the article!! dunno how i coulda done it without ur ideas.. thanks jes for being dere for mi and being a wonderful fren~~~ *muaks* love ya!! ^^ if i had more money i woulda lavished on the lilies for ya both! heh.. =)
so hapi for mi cheng~ she got her dream date! =))))))))))) *hears wedding bells pealing* heh.... ;)
so incoherent now... lalala.... maybe i used up all my coherence just now....
many special thanks to mi mom n sis for helping mi wrap mi vdae goodies! if not i would still be flustered n panicking here... arghs....
and yep... HaPi VdAe & HaPi IntErNaTiOnaL fReNsHip dAe to all of ya!!!!! =)
wUv sleeplessdith ^-^*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 4:34:00 AM
listening to the song zs posted up on his board. couldn't find it on irc, so had to open my dusty dormant kazaa to search for it. found tons of results. it's reli not bad. just the type of song i like. =) thanks zs for introing the song~ lol...
saw a paragraph on pj's blog that irritated the shit outta mi. i did not hesitate to show my disgust. muahaha. i guess from now on i will not care about what others think and just blog shit on my blog. =) i wun be politically correct, but i will not be racist or go all out to insult those true frens of mine. =) yep.
everyone's stressing over vdae. getting pressies. rushing around like mad things. vdae. no one special to share it with but i can hardly be bothered. something i've been accustomed to these 17+ years. =P i loved my sec 4 vdae.. twas great.. i made hearts for some special frens of mine and used fabric paint so that they would remember me when they squished those hearts of mine. =) i hope they still have them. i remember cussing when i pricked my finger, not once not twice but three times.. haha.. sitting in the chair sewing continuously by hand, making faces for those hearts, the trip to spotlight to buy the materials.. heh.. and all the sweets i bought for them.. ^^
this yr i'm giving sweets and flowers. no time to make stuff. prob heading to the florist tml by miself. horrid stuff. i recall my sec1 days when i rushed to orchard nearly evday by mi sorry self after sch cos no one was free.. hehehe.. i guess i'll have to get used to that again.. heh.. just for a day tho. smsed owl just now but doubt she's still awake.. gotta wait till tml morn for her reply.. =) perhaps i'll check out the handphones too.. ^^
i read in kor's blog about what he said about his frenships and stuff. i guess sometimes it's nice to be left alone and unbothered. everything to be taken at ur own pace. no stress. no worries. however when you need someone, you realised they've all migrated to others; forgotten about you. it's true to a certain extent. i dunno if it's better to bond better with ppl in ur jc or ppl in ur sec sch. i guess i bond better with my sec school frens. i'm more suited to my sec sch's social environment too. i just can't stand most aj ppl. can't reli talk indepth with them. my laughter sounds hollow and fake. i feel left out. i can't bond. and everything just tires me out. i dunno why. sometimes this makes mi question my social integration ability. am i just a lousy introvert who can't mix well? or is this irc's doing? i thot that in jc i learnt to be more outspoken, more daring and friendlier; less blur, more social? how come this seems to work in the reverse direction? perhaps it's the people. yeah. perhaps.
sitting quiet in a corner listening to my frens crap about something i totally can't contribute to. and when the topic finally shifts, i utter some things, but they dun reli listen. it's like noticing that disgusting oily stain on the wall for a long time; remembering how it got there, den returning to that interesting task you were busy at just now. i feel like that. i am that unsightly oily stain. perhaps it's just my luck. the people in my class. ugh.
wow. goodie. i'm a loner.
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yep yep. still dwelling on the stuff my classmate said about me. i am perceived thus. should i rejoice? fuck it.
reading tabbie's blog now.. the ending paragraph. i agree totally with that. it's like sometimes you just wish and wish and dream for something to happen. yet when it does, it's not the fairytale magical feeling you expect it to be. it's well.. either non-existent or negative. kinda sucks, doesn't it? i get more outta fantasizing or dreaming about it. (nothing dirty here. :P)
read about the marie claire mag in life! today.. feel like getting it. but i predict it will be snapped up like hotcakes.. a controversy's always best for spurring ppl to do sth or to boost sales. i bet it will all be sold out by this week or sth. perhaps even before the article was printed. but sucks. it's like 13 bucks i reckon. i dun intend to fork out 13 bucks for that 5 page article. (well, maybe somewhere inside of me i do.) it's just not practical, my mind tells me. it's too darn ex and a total waste of cash. the internet has stuff like this if you bother to search, my pocket tells me. my heart tells me: omg. that will be such a fucking (pun intended) good read! argh. decisions decisions.
everyone's lovelorn on vdae. it's just right around the corner. split loyalties. dunno whether to do mi chem or study phy on thurs. wondering how ppl would react if i turned up in sch with 10 wilting flowers. omg. guess i have to rush home to get them or stuff. still deciding on the kind of flowers i'll get. something.. lilac? i'm sick of red. cny was red. vdae will be red. i see red. it's like painting a whole town in blood. =) time for some nice eye-easing blue.. heh... irises might be good. but they're kinda ex, i guess. i'm not forking out more than 20 bucks for those 10 flowers.. i hope. $_$
i reli envy those ppl with cash. nice house. nice furniture. neat place. maids. breathing space. privacy. choices. possessions. no financial worries. nice clothes. transportation provided. grr... guess i'll keep envying them till my final breath.
gahs. tis late. sch tml. gotta distribute synapse! finally! it's out! yeahhhh~ reminds mi. my article with pj's kinda due by fri. =(((( phy remedial.. here i come............ how to pia 9 topics when i barely have time for my hw? fuck it. i'm sinking and i can't escape.
(aww. fuck it. blogger's down again. with a 500 internal server error. 2.09am on a thursday morning. another day of insanity. night~)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:46:00 AM
just finished gp and phy.. haven't done chem. die die. phy test on sat. die die. but at least i now know the topics. whoopie doo~ been eating so much lately. weight sure gonna break the school's weighing scale. damn. wtf, i ask. =( gotta restrict myself to bland meals without snacks again.. haix..
aye. dunno what to blog about today. been checking out hp models lately tho. i want a new hp! yeah.. but haven't decided which to get. 6510 or 7210..? the one thing i hate about 7210 is that the screen is 5 lines wide. that's bad. forwarded msgs gonna look screwed. =/ but it's a color fone with mms! argh... choices, choices. =( gotta use my ang bao money to purchase that too.. should i trade in my 3330 or not? trusty fone. i will miss it. =((((( again. choices choices.
going out on vdae to watch movie. hmm.. should be interesting. ; ) still haven't gotten mi pressies for ppl yet.. damn. gotta drag myself to go search for them miself tml.. haix.... sux
aye. everything sux. more holidays please~ i reli love holidays. =/
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:40:00 AM
posting an earlier-written entry now..
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monday 10th feb 2003
"now i'm slacking in 412... rainy day today. kinda suits my foul mood. no one who saw mi today could tell. why should i show sth i can so easily conceal? life in aj; life in society. we are so accustomed to disguising our true feelings, putting on a fake front and just hauling our sore butt thru life till we get some alone time... finally. i reli din feel like facing anymore yest; din feel like showing up for sch. but i can't. i'm in such big shit. gotta face up to all my tutors. blood suckers. it's not the workload that's stressing mi out. it's the pple. anw, the fact that i am able to maintain this waxed on smile is cos of jes... many thanks! *muakx* i ponned pe today and just nice she had free periods thruout. joy to the world! glory glory halleuiagh! =) reli made my day.
i was talking, smiling and laughing in the reading room... like normal. ^-^ ahh.. twas great.. the solace i sought for was found.. for 2 hours. pe ended, i was in the canteen and i saw my classmates. first words that were uttered. not a standard greeting, but a chilling stab in my face. 'meredith. mr lim wants to see you.' or whoever. i dun even know the names of the pe teachers properly. mood made a 90 degree dip. luckily many years of training helped me maintain my posture. i mentally straightened myself, brushed myself off, mumbled a 'yea' and crashed into my seat feeling like a mouldy spit wad.
math tut. happiness! i was prepared. so i had the privilege to partially stone... altho i was also brooding and moping around, i din show it. merely grimaced at the desk before me, keeping quiet. blehx.. gp lesson ended. bye~ phy prac torture now..."
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:31:00 AM
ah.. feeling MUCH better right now... =))))) just finished mi essay too! ah... 1140 words... but i think it's crap.. yeah..... i can face ppl tml liaox............ but it's like approaching 2am... damn. panda dith... =/
night! hehehe.....
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:52:00 AM
i am so fucking pissed and sad right now. i just hope no one involved stumbles upon this entry. previous entry was the chat that made me like this. tmd. nb. lp. lj. cb. knn. and yes. extreme provokation demands the usage of expletives.
to hell with everyone. shit the world.
from tml onwards i will become a recluse.
you made me this way. so be proud. yeah. all of you. fuck it. reli. just.. screw it.
solution to this problem: to wipe myself off the face of this too-beautiful earth.
cowardice prevents me.
just. screw it. no need to take pity on me. or ask what's wrong.
I AM THE WRONG.
and i shall be righted.
night. the darkness beckons.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:19:00 PM
[22:49] (anon) newayz ... heard them mentioning abt u some time ago
[22:49] (anon) they say u like to 'act bad'
[22:49] (anon) den say u too heck in studies liao
[22:49] (anon) as a fren ... i no comments to tt
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[22:49] (anon) but i do agree tt u shd pay more attention to ur sutdies
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[22:50] (anon) u know wad i mean by 'act bad'?
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[22:50] (anon) like for example .... act like u know alot
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[22:51] (anon) drinking? drugs? gangs?
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[22:51] (anon) go chiong wif frens?
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[22:51] (anon) i tell u wad they tok abt
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[22:51] (anon) at least when i'm ard
[22:52] (anon) abt guys
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[22:52] (anon) abt sum experience of their frens
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[22:52] (anon) usualli j lee got ALOT to say
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[22:52] (anon) wads wrong wif joinin in their conversation?
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[22:52] (anon) no ..
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[22:53] (anon) they dun want u to tok abt it
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[22:53] (anon) i juz saying ...
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[22:53] (anon) u need a 'common topic' to mix beta wif them
[22:53] (anon) dun act so like an outcast lor
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[22:53] (anon) 1 more thing ... dun spend so much time online
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[22:54] (anon) it'll realli spoil ur 'face-to-face' social skills
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[22:54] (anon) it's weird to 'get frens online'
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[22:55] (anon) dun lame la
[22:55] (anon) u'r in spore
[22:55] (anon) do u tok much to the pple in ur tut grps?
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[22:56] (anon) how i know whuz in ur tut grp
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[22:56] (anon) do u get involved in the discussions in ur tut grps?
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[22:57] (anon) any tut grp
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[22:57] (anon) FUCK OFF YOU BUGGERS. --> referin to me?
[22:57] (anon) c'mon lor meredith
[22:57] (anon) dun try be loner liao
[22:58] (anon) it's no gd lor
[22:58] (anon) u wunt gain aniting frm it ... it's not cool
[22:58] (anon) pple'll see it as childish
[22:59] (anon) suan le u dun wanna listen..nth i can do...i gg le bye
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:06:00 PM
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...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:57:00 PM
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...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:57:00 PM
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...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:56:00 PM
pissy mood now. heard what my classmate had to say. what he heard from the gals.
FINE.
LET THEM THINK WHAT THEY WANT TO THINK. I AINT BOTHERED.
i need solace. but where do i seek it from?
damn damn damn.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:55:00 PM
saw this quit msg on irc... thot it was damn funny... lol~
(Quit (Love is a gamble,Sex is a game,Boys do the fucking,Gals get the pain.Heat of pleasure,9 months of pain.2 days in e hospital,and junior needs a name !))
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:47:00 PM
popularity.
the thot just entered my mind.
am i popular? what does being popular feel like? good? bad? what does it take for one to be popular? is not being popular a negative thing?
i don't feel like i am popular. i feel like i am below average in society. friends. waving. chatting happily. the distinction between the real world and the dream world. confusion. i dunno anymore.
i guess i should be contented with my life now. i mean, i wave to quite a lot of people daily. but. does waving count as being popular? i can even wave to people i dunno, but they might give me muddled and weird looks back. waving is an act of friendliness. but is friendliness an ACT? a whole freaking act. sometimes i even wonder if i act just to get through the day. when do i truly feel happy? when i win something? achieve something? feel loved? get praised? i dunno.
i realise i don't understand myself anymore.
sometimes i am this robot. slaving over society; over school; over everything. i just go through things mechanically; without much thought as to WHY i'm doing it. and sometimes, when i think too much, i get depressed.
they say humans have limitations. and one must restrict oneself for fear of committing overly rash acts that one might regret. i agree. think about it. everyday do you want to do something, yet tell yourself, NO. i CAN'T. cos it's _______.
legal restrictions. society. you might get ostracized, put into the jailhouse, regret. whatnot. life's like that. there's no denying it.
life is full of choices, restrictions and problems.
i guess we just have to put on our happy faces. if we feel happy, we're bound to be happy, ......right?
i guess so. if we don't try, we won't know.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 10:01:00 PM
hmm.. supposed to write my essay now.. topic: "the music scene is dominated by silly love songs." is that all that can be said of music nowadays? i have points on it... but it's all random crap like they mostly are.. hmm.. but i bet i can crap 400+ words.. or 2 sides.. *shrugs* dowan to write too lengthy.. i'm not that free k.... (but ur blog is longggg) *blinks* yeah yeah.. dun rub it in... i spend much more time on something extra curricular than on academic stuff... *sighs* but dun you guys agree that you'd rather do something you DON'T do everyday than focus on unavoidable things that you touch upon every single day that occupy your mind like... 24/7?
heh... vdae's coming.. i haven't bought my gifts, made my list.. etc etc... hmm.. should i go out after sch on vdae? let's see... let's leave that up to fate, shall we... ^^ may the best man win! lolx~ watched hubtv again.. rich boy taro... haha.. today was damn lame.. until i took a nearby plastic bag and breathed deeply in and outta it.. heh... hyperventilating! omg... it was SOOOOOOOOO *scrunches eyes* eMbaRaSsInG! wahhaha.... *flumps*
ah well... gotta do gp essay and phy tut... math done.. chem... i dunno what to do, frankly.. heh.............
hmm.. nothing else to write here cos i din do anything worthy of mention today..
*hops off*
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:17:00 PM
hmm.. saturday.. supposed to go for chan outing today.. but was too damn lazy.. so i spent the day replying to sms and sleeping till 3pm.. on off kinda thing.. mom cooked pasta... =)))) wah.. today i did hw! altho it's not much.. cos when i sleep past a certain time i get a kinda sleep hangover thingy.. =/
discovered a new scv channel today... hubtv... all f4.. erm. not that i'm a fan of theirs.. but it's something to watch when you're ultimately bored like i was.. watched something about rich boy taro starring vic zhou.. erm. that was just L-A-M-E.. den now they're showing Meteor Garden I.. that one's not so bad... argh.. i'm reli so damn bored.. did math tut 23 until question 11... go me!!! yeah! i rule! haha... gotta study for phy soon.. sucks...
yep.. yz turned 18 on fri.. went to shop for his pressie that day... it's gonna be a belated pressie... i watched 8 mile after sch with some of mi classmates.. 8 mile is not bad.. but great, but better than average.. eminem, like they say, can act.. and yep, i'm a fan of his, i admit... throughout the whole show i kept hearing fuck, mother, shit, bitch.. heh... hot words of the day.. expected of him tho.. some of my frens came out of the theatre raving of his rapping skills... and suddenly they were hooked onto rap.. perhaps it's inspiring.. it also deals with racism.. and discrimination.. *shrug*
i wanna see soooooo many movies!!!!
yep.. that day at lido, while we were buying tix, the person at the counter looked at us in our uniforms and asked if we were 16.. lol!~ 16 was like sooooo long ago.. so mi fren said we were from ajc... yep.. ooooooookk... no prob with that.. when we were sitting down waiting for the movie to start, a caucasian gal approached us.. asked us if we were 16... and she wanted tix to watch an nc-16 movie.. lol~ she said she was 14... @_@;; whoa.. but i guess they look older than us... yep... my fren said:"must be all the kantang" wahaha..
before that we had mrs leow's special cny party for her gp classes... yeah~~! she rules!!!! mrs leow rocks!! ^^
soooo many goodies.. what a great spread! heh... aepok aepok.. cny tidbits, jelly, chicken wings and drumlets.. mm... i think i ate loads.. gonna be fat fat fat for mon.. not to mention my cough is getting worse... haix....
i reached home around 9+ after shopping around in isetan for luo qi fang's pressie.... yz: you'll see what it is on mon!! heh...
today i watched chingay... been a long time since i have.. i caught aaron's segment den i switched back to channel 26.. ^^;;; tonight's aim: finish the entire maths tutorial...? dunno leh... but i had better tackle the phy and chem one.. and do a GP essay! argh.. busy busy busy.. shouldn't have slept till 3pm today... =/ there's not enuf time in this world.. haix....
hmm.. tml's sunday. i'll spend it sleeping, eating and doing hw again... yep... gonna ground miself... (i hope)
cyaaaa peeps~ ^^
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 11:48:00 PM
today i saw a purring car pass by me on the road as i was crossing it... it was electric blue and had this sleek shiny look about it. i'm not a car fanatic, so was hopeless at deciphering it's model and make. it just looked good, yet out of place in the tiny toa payoh neighbourhood area..
after i crossed the road, a middle aged man approached me. asked me directions to "da pai si shi qi" blk 47, in other words.. blehx.. so i offered to bring him there.. where he could see the block.. not far.. just 2 blocks away.. he thanked me and i said welcome... why do i go the extra mile? the previous time i also directed an old lady to ntuc.. i mean like, why approach mi... i'm like so blur looking.. some ppl even said i look fierce.. =/ do i?
had a nap in the sch library today.. as well as during many of my lectures... it's just so nice to sleeeep... was nodding off in phy today.. i tried to stay awake, i reli did.. but somehow... haix...
listening to "wai tao" now.. by power station... it's a reli nice song.. altho it's in chinese.. but i understand it.. a guy feels that he is but an overcoat to this gal that he loves, yet although she goes to him to whine about all her problems with another guy, she can shrug him off very easily... this is how she treats him... does she know who he is to her? etc etc
i'm not good at analysing chinese songs as well as english... =))))
beautiful by christina aguillera playing on my winamp now.. hit number one on the charts.. it has a classical feel to it... i wonder if it's an original or a cover... hmm... but it's a good and meaningful song... also encouraging.. ^^
blah. nothing to write about now.. might do some essay on the famous two letter word : " no " ... would be fun, wouldn't it? some analysis on a widely used word... just got sms from elaine didi... she called mi to ask for help with amaths lastnight... i also dunno how to do... haix... i'm feeling tired... and The Scientist by Coldplay's playing on winamp... lullabye...... Zzzzzz
such a sweet, sad yet beautiful song. listen to its lyrics and his mournful voice.... so soothing............
cyaaaaa~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 7:12:00 PM
ah. in sch now. teacher just announced that we cannot see eng stuff.. ahahs.. nvm la.. alt-tab is still handy at my fingertips.. hehx.. shortcut keys.. just gotta love them.. =) so i got zaobao on the other window.. ^^; words all so small and in chinese.. dun even understand.. X)
ran to sch today.. abit like madwoman liddat.. larkily i caught the train.. 1min! it arrived just as i saw the signboard.. so i quickly tapped mi ezlink card and ran down the stairs.. reached it just as the door opened.. heh.. close shave man.. XD haix.. umm.. teacher just announced the pulau tekong trip thingy.. seems 3 gals from mi class going.. dun reli like them.. haix.. it's so hard to blog.. teacher's like coming round to see mi.. ughz.. den i'm looking at some chinese article about having too little or too much sleep..ahahas.. exactly what i did last night man.. too little sleep.. ahahs.. nvm la.. i'm surviving.. i guess.. altho i was like dozing off during the various lectures and stuff.. hehex... lalala.. nvm la.. hehx..
*hops around* maybe i'm going out after sch today.. either go out with classmate buy present for fren.. or meet master they all to go sim lim/ bugis.. heh.. got so many vids to view on mi comp also.. kogepan! and some mp3s to listen to.. irc irc irc.. wasting mi time.. =/ but i din get scolding today... i guess? gp teacher did suan mi today.. about traditional chinese societies.. heh.. she said that in olden days, parents sent their children to sch.. and encouraged the teachers to flog, punish them and discipline them as they see fit.. writing 1000 lines.. as long as their bones were not broken and the lives of the children preserved..ahahahx.. then she targeted mi.. said sth like :"yeah, meredith.. you're lucky you're not living in olden times, yea? heheh..."
frens talking bout beyblade now.. and playing the aaron kwok song.. -_-; wahahahs.. so old still play beyblade.. =X i'm no exception.. hehehs... lalala.. teacher aint here now.. but i better quickly finish this entry.. den maybe start on a new one.. hahahx.. jessie's reading yz's blog now.. hah.. HE NVR UPDATE! go update hor, yz.. X)
so yep.. mi going to pulau tekong.. teacher said i can request to be with 23/02.. X) yeah!!! aiyah.. you people.. it's not a GUY lar.. it's mi gal fren, jes! heheh... yeah.. that's good! can spend quality talk cok time with her!! ah.. so it wun be boring.. =D *looks across* guys flicking john's ear.. dot dot dot.. thot they were mature young adults? haha.. not the guys in mi class.. muahahahx.. nvm la.. makes it more fun.. i'd rather feel like i'm studying in a kindergarden than in a place with business suits and ties, right? hehhe... today mi typing's up to shape.. yeah! adrenalin! fun fun fun.. not so many typos also.. think this keyboard rocks.. i'll kidnap it!! X)
juan din come sch today.. =/ so din see her.. think she got the flu bug too.. everyone's STILL coming down with it.. went to point x during mi 3 period long break today.. hung around.. den jes called to say that she ponned her econs lect.. cos she was tired and wanted to sleep.. hahah.. her classmates reli are damn *censored* man.. little bit of rule-flouting also dowan to do.. little bit of slacking also dowan.. so kan chiong.. and they were mi first-three month's classmates.. haha.. haix... i reli miss mi other first 3 month classmates... haven't seen them close to a year.. all of them together, i mean.. no gatherings.. =/
*swivels in the blue comp chair* lalala.. i'm in 1321, my fingertips are freezing as they are fervently typing this (going to be quite long) entry.. zhen yi jian's song playing quite loudly from someone's comp.. lalalala... seems jan/feb is a v popular time for 1985 babies to pop out.. esp late jan and early feb.. alot of mi fren's bdaes.. not to mention my sis'... mine still long way to go.. but i bet time will pass fast.. i guess stephen's on the plane back to sg right now.. 20 hour flight.. jialat loh.. wahhahax.. what can i say.. was talking to him last night on irc.. eh.. his night.. his 2am.. my 3pm.. XD
ehs. gotta end this entry. hard to type without being caught. jessie already banned from comp lab in the future.. x_X
wUv schdith (^-^*)
buaix~!~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 2:29:00 PM
hmm.. rushed home from school today cos i was planning to catch up on a year;s worth of slp. planned on zaoing cca.. so was on the mrt when i finally got pj's reply.. oh well. i could have rushed back. but i just wasn't up to it. =/ my apologies.. so anyway went home and did the v v v v rough draft of our writeup on the comp.. brains-a-raging, mind still in a blur mess... den i uploaded it and went on irc to chat.. still am on irc.. hmm....
anw.. what did i do on... yep sunday.. my sec sch frens had to go their separate ways.. they did had visiting to do.. so i met up with my chan frens... i'm such an idiot at finding stuff, so in the end my master braved the rain to meet me to bring mi to the arcade at marina square.. they were playing cards + para para.. da4 kai1 yan3 jie4... para para aint that bad after all.. it's.... ok. *chokes* XD
went around to river hongbao's fair to check out the rides and what funny stuff they were selling.. gimmicks.. =X first time i remember being there tho.. so was another eyeopener for mi.. we all got on the ferriswheel.. wHeE~~~` X) lalala... din get the chance to get on the bumper cars tho... dunno what's my obsession with cars.. i love racing arcade games.. some violent bumping action.. muahaha.. pity i kinda fractured mi hand few years back... now kinda developed phobia.. eekx.. i din even see a doc for mi hand.. so i think it's abit crooked.. hahas... but nvm la.. can type can le! =D
evday raining.. buay tahan man.. so slippery all the time.. haix.. mi slippers no friction arhx? -_-;
sian sian sian sian.
ok la. must admit that the funfair was fun.. the people were great.. =) went home quite tired.. but happy.. larkily jh caught her last bus home.. =) i guess you just had to be there... dunno why i can't launch into descriptive essay mode now.. bleh.. i guess i'm too cold.. been enduring the weather the whole day.. freezing... yet bearable. why do ppl still use airconditioning when they have a natural readily available to them? i dun understand it. make me colder still.. brrr.... and i dun even have aircon at home.. -_-
on monday i went out again.. met asa first at tamp mrt.. den ran into the others. walked around a lot.. went to arcade.. erm.had to admit it was terribly boring.. i was just sitting there stoning after awhile. =( after alot of hanging around and stoning, i rushed to sengkang on a bus.. took mi quite long to find the busstop. but now i know it's just behind the mrt station. silly me. walked one whole round to find it. --;
stood on the bus for awhile den ppl started getting off, so i found a seat so i could look out the window with my bad eyesight at all the road signs... saw tamp st 10 flash by.. and a few more.. den it came to the expressway.. a middle aged man was sitting beside mi. he kept nodding off. of cos i was wideawake.. i kept shifting nearer and nearer the window until i was nearly pressed against it.. he was nodding onto me.. eek... haix... sian. he woke up when the bus hit a bump, den leaned the other side and started nodding off again.. and somehow he nodded from that side back to me. kinda hilarious now.... ahahas....
reached sengkang/punggol... first time i went there.. o.0 quite a nice place. diff from wat i expected. i expected undeveloped marshland w out-of-place condos.. lol!~ looked around for e interchange.. saw this funny structure, so i alighted n called gwen.. when she said it was air-conditioned, i panicked... OMG! I AM LOST! i feverishly thot... =_= it just din add up. i saw sengkang sengkang, and no hougang, so how could i be in hougang... =/ wandered around like a lost cat for what seemed like eternity. until finally i read the number plates.. "at new interchange" a few said. NEW? wah... i looked around.. saw some buses go into this structure.. wah.. followed a woman in heels over.. climbed the mound of sand.. and went over... omg. aircon whooshed past me. i saw buses! SENGKANG INTERCHANGE! X) X) X) okkkkk... i found my way! met up with the rest.. went to compass point.. another first time thing! ooOO.. monday was indeed a day of new experiences and discoveries... =D knowledge is power~ hehehex... master was so nice.. he treat us to crepes.. domo~~ ^^ mine had choc on it.. i ate choc... *_* i ate choc... *_* *keeps chanting that in disbelief* oOooo.. after SO many months... wahahhax.. haix. pity i couldn't reli taste it.. =/ couldn't savour it... but the crepe was nice.. ^^ food~~~ and i din have breakfast.. hehex.. finally we went to gwen's house.. cosy! mi like.. =)))) ate dere... curry was good.. altho kinda hot (both kinds of hot) i was eyeing the chicken, but din eat cos of the mess i would make... X) mostly ate veggies.. yeah.. and i ate a prawn.. mmm.. domo gwen for peeling one for all of us~! hehe.. lolx... later we cleared up and played cards.. ahhh i suck at daidee~ X) tried to learn how to play bridge, but i'm this utter failure.. lol..
hmm now about tuesday. i was v v nearly late for sch. had to run, as usual.. lol.. wasn't so bad. met wp on the way, and we kinda jogged to sch together... comraderie (spelling) wahahhax... the gate din close so early, so i managed to get behind my class as the bell went off and the national anthem came on.. was feeling quite like fuck that day.. so there was this pissed off expression on my face for awhile.. it went off eventually, when the teachers din reli scold mi for not doing tutorials or attending lessons, and i reli reli love smiling.. hehex.. =) can't ya tell? lol....
i showed sai ghor mi mc.. she din say much... later during break while i was queueing with jessie at the chai stall, i felt someone put a warm hand on my shoulder.. mrs leow. mi gp tutor.. =) she started smiling and talking to mi :"so how's my snail?" blah blah blah.. she asked if i was sick, and if so, was i feeling better? i told her about the article in straits times about cny being the sick season this year, to which she nodded and agreed... and i told her about mi family passing mi the germs.. of cos, in an animated manner.. jessie finished ordering by then, so mrs leow noticed.. i was going to leave, then she said :"oh, nvm nvm... you go" lol... i was kinda stoned then.. so took me awhile to realise she was talking about ordering food.. i wasn't queueing.. heh.. so i clarified that..
as we left, jessie commented that mrs leow seemed to like mi alot. well. it's the truth. not being bhb or anything; she did tell me... haix... i guess it's true.. like what i told jessie : " you either hate me or love me " it's the extremes for me, baby~ lalala.. i dunno why either.. haix...
had math lect.. met mr tan halfway walking from the audi... he said hi to me :" hi meredith~" in that cute boyish voice of his.. he din say anything to jessie tho. haix. think he din see her. he was pissed during lect tho.. he's always pissed when he's lecturing. dunno why. den we all cannot understand, he's like talking to himself? ........... dunno la. din understand and din bother to understand about vectors. uGh..
still gotta copy jessie's notes... larkily there was no math lect today.... X)
later we had civics. mdm foo announced ( WHY WHY WHY ) that i was the only student from her class to give her oranges n wish her.. the rest were all her ex-students.. blehx.. so she went like "pei li guai~"... diaozn. haix.. at least no scolding. that's good. =) we did some song-analysing thing. i was busy smsing on my phone, so when ppl asked me, i just randomly crapped. but i guess i'm used to crapping. too much lit.. >.< i love analysing. altho i can get too deep sometimes.. and distort it totally outta proportion and wind up with something totally off track.. wahahahs...
mass civics was about 3 cip projects. was quite entertaining. chye kiat behind me was like leaning on the back of mi chair and making comments. and kept asking mi to get the attention of the guy sitting in front of mi for him. so irritating. -_-; so uncomfortable also. couldn't lean back. =_=;
after that was lunch and maths. i din reli get scolding for maths.. i guess if you kinda look alert n ask qns in class... i dunno? normally she always checks on mi. hahahx.. she did tho, i gotta do math lata.. had break, den pe.. i din go for pe.. so i slept in the reading room during break, den at the study area during pe. den gp class, blah blah...
hmm.. today. what did i do today? as i said, it was cold.. not reli eventful. i kinda dozed during SOOO many lectures.. heh.. so comfortable too.. irritating. today in phy lect amanda and her bf were sitting one seat away from mi. he looks so much like and reminds me of mi ex.. and he's gross. yucks. haix... i dun like her bf. i keep diaoing him in sch. i think he knows that. hopefully he doesn't think i could POSSIBLY be attracted to him.. yucks yucks yucks. reli bottomline. -_-;
saw someone 3 times today or so. i think the someone was checking out mi fren.. hahahas... oh yeah.. ran into kelv today... greeted him with a bdae handshake and a bdae wish.. =) yep yep.. hope he's enjoying himself now.. lol....
hmmx... nothing much to say now... if i have anything more to say, i'll update lata. at least for now, my blog's somewhat up to date... =) finally... hehex.... i reli wUv mi blog... writing is such a release for mi.... =)))))
tataZ~~
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 6:18:00 PM
so sian so sian.. in 212 now.. dunno doing what also.. hehex.. today at least i caught the bus where i can sort of walk leisurely to sch.. was drizzling.. rainy day again. this morning was so damn cold.. i shivered as i bathed.. hehex.. but nvm la.. wash hair in the morning.. mi hair feels nice now! ^-^
went to sch like siao char boh.. hair untied.. half-wet, straggly.. sleeves unfolded.. haha.. just rushed down for the bus.. lift lobby was also so damn dark.. blehx.. but.. the important thing is: I CAUGHT THE BUS! finally! hehex..got sms from the guy after pj.. dotdotdot. last night making me so pissed online.. ugh.. keep asking for pj.. den tried to mail me some crap about what he wanted tell her or some shit like that.. blahblahblah.. excusez moi, i have no time for that.. last night so stressed.. den aiyar.. actually din want to go online.. budden i was like sitting in the chair outside.. dad came home, wanted to sit in front of tv eat dinner.. ok loh.. so mom chased mi off, and actually said.. ok la.. i go comp there..you -know- i wun get off.. it's v hard to stop once you start, so i dun reccomend doing anything that you like first, before completing a task you deem menial beforehand.. like hw.. sian sian sian. in the end stayed on till around 2am.. internet was crap last night. din improve my mood. ev1 like getting so irriated left right and centre.. perhaps i reli should quit irc.. spoiling my life only..
today's kelv's bdae... hApI 18th bDaE kELv!!! have a good one, ya? ^^ dunno what to get for him.. :X last night so bo liao.. hehe.. he counting down on irc.. -_-;
so sorry dear bloggie.. so long nvr type in you liao.. blame it on me either being too busy on irc, having no mood or just being too darn busy or sleepy.. gp class yest evening was quite fun.. we did stuff on Affirmative Action.. we watched a vid on it.. about the university of michigan allegely accepting blacks into their schs with lots of leeway, lower standards.. double standards for whites and blacks.. blahblahblah.. copied the definition down.. it was interesting.. =) actually altho i kinda hate it cos it's so late, i also love it cos it's fun compared to normal gp lessons.. =D love-hate reli.. hehe.. so cold now.. brrr.. fingers are like all frozen all and mi bzbody frens coming around to sniff at what i'm doing.. kinda expected also.. blogging's just so fun! reli!~ ahh.. i wuv you, mi bloggie.. ^-^
hmm.. anyway it has unfolded. yep. i knew it all along.. aren't i smart. teeheehee.. aiyar. perhaps i should just let it run it's course, no? dunno lar.. right now i can't be bothered... >.<
perhaps i should talk bout what i did on the days of cny that we had holidays.. hmm.. on sat i just stoned at home.. din do anything.. i mean like, by the time this wormy dith crawled out of her bed, it was already 4.45pm.. nearing 5.. omg.. evening.. can't reli blame mi also.. so sleep-deprived.. haix.. sch sux lalala... hmm.. 10 mins left to blog. guess i better make this short.. but i wun guarantee it being sweet.. hahax..
stonament on sat.. on sun i went out.. went to ml's house to bai nian..collected ang bao from maomaos.. X) hehehx.. den i kop alot of her bakgua to eat.. hehe.. mi pig.. >.< hmmx.. after lazing around, watching croc hunter and stuff.. and talking alot of cok, we left her house.. hehe.. dunno where we went.. ah.. city area.. esplanade that side.. we walked from lao pa sat to esplanade.. went to delifrance to eat.. hahax.. some channel frens saw mi.. omg.. paisehx! larkily i wasn't like slobbering all over mi plate and stuff.. quite cheap.. 9.90 for two sets of meals.. each consisting of 1 tropicana chicken bagguette thingy, a bowl of soup and tea/coffee.. ^^ ate until so full full.. can die sia.. mi lose weight campaign is gone! but these days been cutting down..
yeah.. yest afternoon a pe teacher talked to mi about attending taf, getting out of it, etc.. blehx.. asked mi why i din attend it.. i haven't attended once k.. perfect record! X)
i just told him. i dun feel like it.. he tried to coax me, encourage mi, advise mi.. etc.. so i was like.. "ya.. ya.." *nodding head politely all the time*
hmmx.. after that went to orchard to walkwalk awhile.. ok lar.. orchard is.. well, orchard.. nothing new..
no mood to blog liao.. tell ya guys about mi sunday another time k.. hopefully i haf the mood!!
buaiii~~~
wUv schdith (^-^*)
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 9:14:00 AM
damn me.
feeling like uneasy crap now.
think i'll just go do my hw and forget about everything that's been said or done.
only mathematical formulae will be floating around in my head when i wake up... IF i sleep.
why is one day only 24 hours long?
it's really not enough when school's already 11+ hours for me today.
i have no time for myself without sacrificing other things.
but then again, it's just me and my HORRIBLE to be DAMNED time management.
goodnight mortals.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 1:42:00 AM
ok. can't say i'm in a better mood now... i guess i'll write about the stuff i did another time when i feel better i guess. now it's just thots thots thots. not feeling so trashy now thanks to some ppl... =D quite a few ppl.. you know who you are.. ^^
having mixed feelings now. i guess it's better than how i was feeling just now. contributes even more to my blurness. haven't done any hw either.. argh.. but i'll get it done later. i guess since some ppl are rehearsing for the NE thing i'll take early leave tml and just run off synapse.. haven't gotten anything done either over the space of the nearly non-existant cny hols.. hmmx...
haven't gotten enuf slp lately.. looking kinda panda-ish... hmmx.. i owe that to not being able to juggle my time, having extra things to do and stuff.. it sucks..but essentially it boils down to one thing. it's all my fault. mi and my poor time management. my lack of discipline or responsibility. argh argh argh.
i wanna know. am i reli blind and now i see or did i know all along and was pretending? kinda obvious. suspiciousness and curiousity naturally enticed me.. and now i can't help but keep looking for clues. i'm like that i guess. for those who know me well.. i'm sure you know how i'm like by now. but pity pity... mu's comp still spoilt... but yui sent mi a few diru songs.. yui good! X)
interactions. is that what makes us human? i dunno anymore. blehx. wrong signals perhaps if there's nothing behind the screen. or am i getting everything right, but it's just an unsaid truth? man oh man oh man.
a suggestion i got was to go wooden scarecrow totally. but i can't do that. it's bad. and it's unlike me. ugh.
i can't reli write anything here now.. too personal and i'm too tired. cough medicine taking effect.
damn.
...and dith babbled on at the insane hour of 12:41:00 AM
This is my blogchalk:
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`/.tagGiE~.\'
To Do List - JAN
.devote&resolve
.stevie
.jog
.plan for poison
To Do List - FEB
.3rd MUSE
.13th - 16th: HCNY
.jog
.work x3
.plan for poison
To Do List - OTHERS
.make pyong the fox for my sis (bought materials)
.clean my ps2 lens
.read more thought-provoking books
.start writing again (poetry/songs/prose)
.study philo/random theories/psychology
.study business theories
.tidy the place
.actually BUY a swimsuit
.learn how to swim
.bake
.design wall mural for room
.learn how to knit/crochet properly
.print my grad photos
HOSHII MONO
.ryokou
.phD/masters behavioural psychology
.BANANA.BANAO
.shiawase
.yasetai